⪼ READ PINNED. COTL blog and Art repository for Fiore (They/Them) Making a pseudo fangame ⊱─⊰ Eternal requiem 1889, I am God's favourite lamb 410,757,864,530 DEAD HERETICS ☦
LAST UPDATED ON: JUNE/12/2006 Lambouillet -> Lamb-kind
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─⪼ Hi I'm FIORE !
they/them ☦ young adult ☦ artist, worldbuilder and maybe game concept artist : ^ )
🖍️ Art Gallery ─ ✏️ Doodles — 🪦Masterpost(wip)
LAMBS OF GOD ( Au/Pseudo fan game/World-building )
NEVER WONDER ( Slumbering titans and the land of dreams )
LOGLOG ( Dev log for the fan game part of Lambs of God, also on Bsky and on the Cotl Discord )
📭Asks are open but I like to take my time with response. Ranges from a few days to a few months v_v
⚠️ DISCLAIMERS/BYF: I have a spiritual, folk catholic, faith healer background. My mother used to be a practitioner and involved me heavily so I grew up around a few secular religious groups. I'm a family abolitionist, The art I make might be anecdotal. I dislike fandom culture and I don't trust the majority of fan spaces can ever be truly understanding, nuanced or reasonable about it online and tend to avoid it. I intend to be as honest as possible with my art. I don't consent to unwarranted sexual advancements. x
I block ALOT of people. Don't think of it too much. It is completely impersonal and I tend to use alt tags to monitor how much my posts get attention and If I ever feel compelled to do so, lock them.
CONTENT WARNING: Unfortunately I can't realistically tag all of my posts with trigger warnings, but the ones that you'll have to look out for that'll appear often (but aren't necessarily explicit) are: Gore, Religious imagery, Religious abuse, Decapitation, Child Death, Child abuse, Animal death, Suicide, Dead bodies, Body horror, SA, Pregnancy horror, Self harm, Watching people sleep, and General nudity.
Pr0sh1p/T3rfs DNI. And anyone neutral. I think you are all annoying
Extra FAQ under the read more ↓ Current PFP: MODEL OF KARA BY MY FRAND MTSODIE. MUAH
FAQ:
Asks & dms
📫 ASKBOX
Feel free to say anything you want I'd however appreciate if you extend some of your courtesy to me and do not send me anything that's along the lines of being sexually charged. Suggestive jokes are fine, calling them attractive is alright! I am an adult, but that doesn't warrant that I'll be over the moon with inappropriate asks. If you'd feel uncomfortable sending it to a stranger or a teenager, I insist you to think twice before sending it in.
Don't send me personal discourse. If you have a problem with another user that I wouldn't know personally, it should be dealt with and resolved privately. In no way am I ever going to be in a position where I can give you a solution for this. Remember, I am just a random guy, on the web!
Tangentially related, I will block people freely, whether you've done the above or not. I like to curate what I see and I do it very often. It's not personal! don't take it as if it is such.
Otherwise, everything else is free reign (unless I say so) go nuts, Insane even.
📨DMS
Anyone can dm! ask box rules still apply. Can't guarantee that I'll reply back if the conversation starts with just a "Hi" or "How are you" . I'd really only prefer you message me if there's something to tell or I've done something to elicit you to do so.
General
💬Do you like Narilamb?
Used to but Narinder has become such an asinine character to me I could not get myself to ever be interested in him, and that extends to the ship aswell 😔sorry
💬Where does your username come from?
Lambouillet was harder to remember : (
💬 what's your lamb's name/pronouns/gender/etc?
They/ them nonbinary androgynous, because I like to keep them as undefined as they are in the game. I dont want them to have a name but if so endearingly, I tend to use Lambie as a little nickname : p
ART RELATED
🎁Can I make Fanart/Fanfics of your au/ocs?
Ofcourse ! You don't even need to ask, Only requirement I'd want you to do is for you to tag me in them so I can see them... These will always guarantee a smile on my face.
🎭can I use your art as a pfp/post it to Pinterest?
I'd rather you not use my art for anything unless you've had my explicit permission to post it, or its art I made for you personally like a commission or gift art. Definitely don't post it around other places without my knowledge. I don't have any other active socials besides the ones listed above.
🎨🖌️Program and brushes
I use Clip studio paint, Aseprite every once in a while and Spine2d for my sprites!
I change what I use sporadically so I can't give you a proper answer on EVERY brush I use but here are my frequent ones:
Shockgrunge Marker and Pencil
Kasuy MK sploon
Tacodemuerte Mrsplotchy
Scribbly Dark
Jarijari
Bathylychnops Brushes
Intoxicate set
🚩 Where'd you get the borders from?
I made them! Part1 Part2
useful visualiser for anyones whos read this far ♥️ muah
One last thing:
I know I mentioned that I've had experiences that are very specific to me and don't get me wrong, it impacted my life to a level thats obviously more severe than normal. But I don't know everything. I am not the arbiter of the experience of every practitioner, religious group or religious organisation. My experience isn't all encompassing. There are some things that I will just NOT know the answer to and some where it's not my right to say. If you're curious about certain cults It would be better if you sought somebody else who is from that place you're curious about ontop of doing your own readings instead of relying on Tumblr users to divulge what could be incredibly sensitive information for you. You are not entitled to know anybody's history.
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white people will tell you with zero sense of irony or shame that "you have to realize youre a different type of privileged to be able to handle it," and the "it" in question is unrelenting systemic violence
still thinking about this and i need you all to know this was a real thing that a real white woman I know IRL said to me with full conviction and confidence
hey man I'm the torturer [shaking your hand and detecting apprehension] that just means it's my job to torture people [visibly uncomfortable] there are lots of people like me
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really cannot stress it enough that if youre under 18 and youre in a space that is constantly making things sexual, and they allow minors in there unquestioned, you are being groomed. grooming is not just some creepy person in your dms. it is also cultivating a space where sexual interaction with minors is acceptable
literally if you're going on a subreddit, discord server, etc, where the joke is constantly porn or some niche fetish or they're constantly talking about sex and etc, and there are no indications that its an 18+ space, that is dangerous. You are in danger. These people do not have your best interests in mind. it doesnt matter if theyre insisting its nonsexual kink/fetish, or that they are "encouraging teens to explore their sexuality", or that it's "teens only", or any other reasoning trying to make it seem ok, you are in dangerrrr
This Juneteenth I want people to know and remember Alfred Irving who was finally freed from chattel slavery in 1942 and Mae Louis Miller who was finally freed from peonage slavery in 1963.
Slavery was not "200 years ago," the last living former enslaved african american passed away in 2014 at 70 years old.
Chattell slavery in America did not go away, it adapted. It became peonage, sharecropping, vagrancy laws, "chain gangs" or convict leasing, and continues into the modern day prison system and the systematic incarceration of black and brown people and expanded to forced detention of immigrants in modern day America.
Do not believe the common narrative that the emancipation proclamation freed every slave. There are many more who were unable to tell their stories out of shame or fear of harm.
I reccomend that people read Slavery by Another Name by Douglas A. Blackmon or watch the 90 minute documentary / film adaptation
If nothing else please remember the names of the two people that American society wants you to forget.
I genuanely wish more people would be openly critical about Massive Monster's involvment with the fandom. Fandom culture is awful right now but cotl even more so because of this direct involvment with fans makes it so much easier cliques with parasocial connections to form and for cyber bullying campaigns to spread. Adding a whole new quest because of one obsessed fan and then apologetically talking to them in public is so deeply unprofessional and endangering to said fan. MM can hide behind a pr team , the fan will instead face bcyber bullying and discrimination and they have to pick up themselves all alone.
Having so many people with large following in your beta server , some of them having appeared in previous beta runs just allows for this high school mentality to take root even more deeply. If someone doesnt like you because they find your opinions annoying / or misunderstands something can so easily lead down to serious accusations that threaten the economic livelyhood of indviduals (lots of people in fandom are artists that support themselves through their online art)
I do not believe the devs are bad people or have any malicious intent, they do seem liek genuanely nice people but this marketing strategy mostly based in insecurity is not helping at all man .
The people behind this will jsut go on about their days peacfully . They dont have to apologize or reflect on their behaviour and the scariest part is that this could repeat again at another place or time with entirely different people . Its so fucking easy to leverage your social media popularity to villanize someone online whos biggest sin was that they were annoying , they got favored by the devs or they had opinions that you thought were annoying . I dont want anything bad to happen to hese people genuanely. I just fucking wish we didnt live in a social media climate that allows this type of behaviour to go unchecked . I wish people could be held accountable in ways that didnt endanger or encite harrasment to reach the perpatrators side too .
I wish people could just dislike you normally and not villanize you because they find your opinions insufferable/stupid/annoying.etc
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A good friend of mine (@lamb-kind ) has been accused of being a pedophile publicly through multiple comments under their reddit posts. Im making a about this given the how cliquish the cotl fandom ish and how we very plausible know now that it was the result of a a false claim spread through a very bad case of telephone around servers.
Some very light context ( i will try to cencor as many names as possible) : Fio was in a server that was preparing an "expose doc" that was basically a cyber bullying campaign. They hated how the artist(we will call them Pear) was being ridiculed and accused of having "predatory vibes" when in the same server they prepatrators where sharing cropped porn with minors to make fun of it. Fio warned the artist about the upcoming smear campaign and it resulted in them actually becoming friends with one of the persons preparing the doc (they apperently talked things through). Fio was never thanked , instead one of the other perpatrators accused them of accusing them of being a pedophile , even though Fio only pointed out that sharing porn around minors , even jsut to make fun of it , is still enambling behaviour regardless.
Back to the artist (Pear). Turns out they had entirely misunderstood and thought Fio, the person that warned them about the campaign , was actually one of the other perpatrators and the one that was sharing the porn somehow?? I have no idea how this even happened but Pear venting about something that never happened in their private server (which they have every right to do) . This resulted in the cascade of bad telephone being passed around from server to server (as it always happens with those cases) and this is the tangible , real result:
Theres many more under threads that have been deleted. The cotl fandom is extremely parasocial and cliquish and this is the result of it . One simple mistake having a butterfly effect , and all because my friend tried to protect someone .
