I am Sazanami, or just Nami, a Silvio and Jude, but first and formost, a Gojo girl. I love writing, drawing and generally creating anything what my hyperactive brain imagines.
You will find here my illustrations and translations for now but later you can get stuff about my game too.
Later I will mostly translate Silvio, but will do other IkePri stuff too, so if you want anything else to be translated, you can write to me.
I am not a pro translator and do this for fun and to practice Japanese, so my translations are maybe not perfect. If you think that I made any error or mistranslated something, you can tell me, I am good with honest critique, just don't be rude or mean.
For now, due personal stuff, I can possibly start translate Silvio/IkePri only from July (Silvio's bday). If I will have anything before that on the blog, there will be an update.
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Regarding the recent upset in the IkeVil fandom, I want to share something that has helped me approach sensitive topics such as dubcon.
Iโve mentioned on my blog before that I am an SA survivor. We are, most unfortunately, very many, and we are, of course, not the same.ย
What I am sharing below is the analytical approach that helpsย me, as a survivor, to interact with certain sensitive scenesย as I feel comfortable.ย
Itย mayย help other survivors, and itย mayย also be a useful practice for general readers interested in readingย anyย story beyond the surface level.
IMPORTANT:ย youย do not have to doย anyย of this. Iโm simply sharing what helps me, and whatย may possibly help others, survivor or not.
To begin, Iย always look for dubcon warningsย and assess (the whole time) whether or not I feel comfortable continuing to read the scene.ย
Scenes like these are not the place to be a completionist:
If you feel at all uncomfortable, STOP!ย
It is OKAY to tap out inย anyย route forย anyย reason, whether youโre reading in the actual app or reading a fan translation.ย
I mean this very broadly, as there areย plentyย of other themes that readers may find uncomfortableย across all of Cybirdโs games, not just IkeVil.ย
Is it possible that you can be okay with dubcon and feel uncomfortable in the middle of reading it? Yupโ so STOP!ย
Please do not force yourself to finish a sentence, or read one more line. The same for if you made it all the way through and still (or start to) feel any upset.
These characters are not real. These situations are not real. Whatย youย feel is very real, and is more important than any desire to โkeep upโ with what is going on with a LI, or the game, or the fandom, or whatever it may be.
What you have to do is love yourself more than you love otome and STOP when it gets uncomfortable for you.ย
Next, I look for whatย the MC themselves say and thinkย about the experience.
This tells me more about the interaction than a general CW, as all situations are different depending on the story.ย
I pay close attention to the MCโs internal and spoken dialogue, and how the experience is affectingย her.
Is the MC frightened? Is the MC conflicted? Is the MC interested in the LIโs sexual advances in general, but not in this particular situation? Does the MC even consider what is happening toย beย a sexual advance or straight up an attack on her person? etc.
Iโm looking for what words (if any) she says or thinks.
Some examples:
โI wanted him to touch/kiss me,โ โit felt good when,โ โI liked,โ or actions such as pulling the LI in rather than pushing him away, keeping the LI close to their person during the dubcon instead of defending herself and running for the hills, etc.ย
How the MC is responding internally, verbally, and physically during the dubcon, thatโs whatย Iโm interested in beyond just: thereโs dubcon on my screen and I feel xyz about it (which is fine, just not what I do).
Again I ask myself these questions (and others) because not all dubcon situations are the same.
For example, Alfons and Darius are two different characters with two different outlooks, experiences, and motivations behind the dubcon they perpetuate in their routes.ย
Trying to view Darius through the view of Alfonsโ dubcon actions wouldnโt make sense, and vice versa. What Darius does may not bother you, but you might have a problem with what Alfons does, and vice versa.ย
Whatย Iโmย looking for is why isย thisย character inย thisย specific story is doingย theseย actions.ย
Then I go back and do the same internal and spoken analysis for the LI.ย
I do this because itโs important FOR ME to understand the intent of the whole picture.
Then, I read the scene again, normally.ย
If youโre just starting out with reading analytically, this may seem dumb and time consuming.ย
Again, youย do notย have to doย anyย of thisย at all.
Once you learn (or continue to grow) how to analyze what youโre reading, it becomes second nature and youโll start by do it automatically.
Also, please keep in mind that there are many other techniques, and this is not an exhaustive list for how to read analytically. Just some of the things I do, for myself, to achieve a deeper understanding.
Interacting with what you read in this manner can help you understand the intent behind what is going on in a story beyond what the words on the screen say.
Think of it as the text version of how you interact with people in real life:
Thereโs what someone says, what someone does, and the intent/motivation behind the connection (or disconnection) to both of those things.
Your brain processes these things and your intuition kicks in to help guide your actions, emotions, and decisions surrounding such interactions with other people.
Analytical reading does the same thing, just on paper or a screen.
Finally, for the nine millionth time, this approach is how I was trained to read from a young age and as such Iโve found it extemely helpfulย to meย regardless of whether or not I was reading fiction or non-fiction (to exclude, of course, strictly scientific or medical research, etc.)
I share this technique in the hopes that it may help even one person who is unsure of how to interact with reading sensitive topics or someone interested in learning more about characters beyond what the words on the screen say.
There are the words in the screen, and there are the motivations, thoughts, and feelings in-between those lines that are so easy to miss (even outside of sensitive topics) when one simply takes the story for beingย onlyย in the text.
As always, be kind to yourselfย first, and remember to extend that to others as often as you can.ย
Keep first and foremost in your mind that these characters are not real, the situations are not real, and that you owe it to yourself to scrape off your plate as much crap as you can.
If playing otome helps you decompress, but something youโre reading is stressing you outโ bail.ย
NOย youย donโtย need to finish that sentence, that chapter, or that route.
YESย youย canย just press Skip from start to finish.
NOย thatย does notย mean that youโre not a โtrueโ fan.
YESย youย can, andย should, play how you want to play.
If you checked my pinned introduction, you might remember that I am working on a game. Well, that still needs a very lot of work, however... The other project I am working on, my first light novel, will be available to read on Royal Road soon!
So let me introduce...
When shades appear in the middle of her fashion event, Maya Akayama has no choice but fight, to protect everyone, breaking the contract which gave her sanctuary and stepping back to the life which she left 4 years ago.
i donโt like that i have to make this, but since user hot3hothot is actively ignoring and by extension refusing my simple request to edit their own post to credit me when they use my translations, and apparently canโt afford 10 seconds to be a semblance of a semi-decent human being, i will be the one to say this in their stead:
all the translation screenshots hot3hothot used in their post toward darius (tw for suitor hate) is my translation, kurishiri.
i ask that you do not interpret this post as approval to send hate or unnecessary attention to the poster. i understand darius and his story is not made for everyone. i mostly made this since i donโt want to just let that post remain uncredited, when i spent considerable time and effort in translating dariusโ main story. so just, if you could help spread the word of this and make it more actively known that i am the translator theyโre taking screenshots of, that would mean a lot to me!
finally, to end things in a more positive noteโ to everyone who commented in my defense and supported me, i genuinely appreciate it. thank you! iโm sorry i donโt reply; the whole thing left me pretty frazzled.. and i donโt know what to say a lot. i donโt use twitter way too often, but it seems word of this has also spread a bit to there as well. no matter the platform, it is thanks to your support that i feel i can keep my motivation! i adore the comments on his main story (among others of course). and also, to the regular commenters, i see you. i always look forward to seeing what youโll say and you guys give me so much motivation. i really donโt know how i can express the amount of appreciation in words, but thank you.
From "Once More, An Evil From Which You Can't Return."
Credit translation : @judesmoonbeauty
Thank you so, so much for letting me used your translations for this part.โจโจ(>ฯ<) Always love your work to death ใพ(๏ฝก>๏น<๏ฝก)๏พ๏พโง*ใ
Here more scenes of Jude and Kate. Pardon me it took way long to finish, plus I reduced shots from 10 panels to 5 panels (cuz I was dying to draw Jude's laugh, I'd afraid I couldn't convey properly in the drawing.
๏ฝก๏พ(๏พยดะ๏ฝ๏พ)๏พ๏ฝก
Anyway, I noticed that I keep drawing Kate got pinned by suitors hahaha, but that because my favorite part was there (๏พยดโ๏ฝ*) Also, gonna admit, I'm not good at drawing men's anatomy, so if Jude looks weird here, I'm sorry (ยดใปฯใป๏ฝ) Also, I hate how inconsistent my color of Jude's black strokes hair (=o=;)
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I really planned my morning differently but it is just making my hands so itchy that I have to write it out of myself...
I am really fed up with this toxic character hating. Not just toxic but so stupid and childish. You not like a li? Don't play his events, don't read his route. Don't search stuff about him. Nobody forces you. You can hate him, there is no problem with it. We have all different tastes. You can even rant about how awful he is and how much you dislike him. But...
Don't tag the world. Don't be rude. Think at others too.
Just because a character is not your cup of tea, it not means that others can not like them. How would you feel if someone would constantly loud hate your oshi?
A li is really morally grey? So what? (Mostly in a villain game, come on...) Have you ever read dark romance books? Do you know how many dark romance male mcs do really bad things? Let's not dive into it too deep because as it is in the name 'dark'...
It is not for everyone. As nor every character and we should respect each others' taste. Not to mention that you don't know why someone likes a darker character, if maybe someone is not coping with a trauma and reads darker stuff because of that.
Not to mention, those who wrote the different characters and routes worked hard to create a good game for us and to we have a wide range of characters. We should be happy and thankful that everybody can find their cup of tea and the character we not like... We not have to read their route and events. (I don't believe that I say it again but it seems that so many people not get it.)
My point, you can hate lis but don't drag the world into your personal opinion without asking. Just don't do stupid drama (or face the consequences if you get karma with pissing people).
In this blog no hate will be tolerated, tell your opinion but stay polite and don't hurt others.
Ok, end of rant, now I go back to write, I finally want to publish HD next week. Have a fun and a peaceful day!
Friendly reminder to all of you out there - while it's okay to dislike a suitor, it's never okay to post hate about a suitor IN HIS TAGS. I know not every suitor is for everyone, but your ick is someone's love. And no one wants to scroll through Tumblr and find hate spewed in his tags.
Here's an idea - the next time you read a route or an event, and a suitor does something that turns your stomach, keep the hateful thoughts to yourself.
Oh...and if your screenshot portions of someone's translations, even if you're doing so with good intentions, please please please credit the translators. Their hard work should not be stolen like that.
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"Oy, ya plannin' on spilling state secrets for long? I swear, you lot have loosest lips..."
"Poor thing, gettin' kidnapped 'n forced to come here. Want me to rescue ya?" (...) "Obviously, I'm jokin'! What the hell'd ya get your hopes up for, ya dimwit?"
"Get outta here with yer dumbass savior complex."
"An erotic novelโhah. what's with that look? No way somethin' like that's in the royal library. Don't be so daft." (after being asked what he was reading in his bond story)
"Ya got three seconds to get dressed."
"Huh? That's my woman." (after being asked who Kate was)
"No matter what, she's gonna be comin' back to me unharmed." (to Kate's kidnapper)
"Yer a masochistic pervert with a death wish, huh?"
"Yeah yeah. Yer an adorable idiot. Now, time to go."
"Terrorizin' the rich is my favorite hobby."
"Don't wanna hear 'bout yer kinks. She ain't mine, anyway. She's free to go with whoever she wants, ain't she?" (talking about Kate to Nica)
"I detest the kinda scum that play with women just for their bodies. And those that use women just as toys and entertainment."
"Quibblin' over semantics now? Yer seriously daft...So unbelievable, don't even know what to say to ya."
"The hell? Ya sound like a nutjob." (to Ellis)
"It's daft to call yer own dream borin'."
"Yer a shameless woman. Should hold yer head high 'n be proud of yerself... Not that it matters to me."
"Love's a curse. (...) Exactly what I said. Tellin' someone ya love them is the same as cursin' them. Losing it will break yer heart. Havin' it stolen will make ya hateful. And bein' betrayed by it will leave ya resentful. But there ain't no fightin' back it's been forced on ya. It's the root of all evil. I've killed countless people. Made tons of enemies. To top it all off, the fate my curse's got in store for me is to die resentin' this world. My death ain't gonna be something pretty. And there's no mistake I'm headed straight to hell. So I figure...ain't gonna get cursed 'n sure as hell ain't gonna curse nobody else in this life."
"I can see that. Don't look like a dog, does it?" (talking about a cat to Ellis)
"...Gropin' me in yer sleep, huh?"
"Grow any taller 'n you'll just be in the way." (to Ellis after he said he wanted to grow bigger)
"What a lame question. Makes ya sound like a kid askin' his parents where babies come from." (to Victor)
"That's rich comin' from a masochistic degenerate like ya." (to Kate ofc)
"Screw Crown for throwin' a woman into some bullshit contract just 'cause she saw some guy gettin' killed. Screw the queen for makin' her go on all these damn missions." (In his birthday event, after Kate got kidnapped)
"How fragile can a single person's life be? Trust doesn't mean a damn thing in the face of murder and malice. There were some things you just couldn't protect, no matter how hard you tried. That's somethin' I know all too well...somethin' I SHOULD know...but I still couldn't help but be impressed at this woman's determination to trust others all the way to the end." (about Kate in his birthday event)
"Yer askin' me to mess with ya even after death? Never met such a perverted masochist."
"Ya like seein' people in this position, ya old geezer?" (to Gilbert)
"...what?, the near death experience got ya all hot 'n bothered?"
"People who can't cook for themselves don't deserve anythin'."
"Ain't no absolutes in this world. Standin' right in front of ya, ain't I? That proof enough for ya? Anyway...Didya hear me? Get yer filthy hands off my property. Or I'll send ya a damn hefty bill for the damages. An' get that gun outta her face." (to Gilbert)
"Don't give two figs whether a bunch of screechin' monkeys takes over the country." (to privy counselor in his route)
"Only a glutton gets that excited about such a cheap prize." (to Kate)
"No villain'd help a flower seller pick up his coins. Or tell drunkard time of the day. No villain can smile like this. Partners in crime? Give me a break. Yer...too dazzlin' for me." (to kate)
"Thought ya were a real daft insistin' ya could find something to like 'bout me. Turns out...bein' liked just for the sake of it ain't half bad."
"Don't matter if it was right or wrong. She was always a normal person. Normal people ain't got nothin' to do with us." (to Ellis about Kate)
".....Huh?! (...) Wait...what the hell is this? The hell ya doin' here?" (to Kate, in queen's palace as Kate was about to become permanent fairytale keeper)
"Are ya feckin' madโ" (...) Draggin' a bird like her down a second time...the hell's wrong with ya?" (to Victor)
"Hah...yer...a real demon. (...) and ya always got a comeback."
"Act so tough, ya end up shakin'. Can't take ya to the moon like this."
"Seriously though...The hell's wrong with ya? And what the hell's wrong with me?" (to Kate)
"Yer a daft loon who never quits. Cause of ya, now I've gone mad too."
"You chose to leap into this hell on yer own...so I'm gonna drag ya down and keep ya trapped here in this hellscape together with me. Love is really suffocatin'. It's heavy 'n damn impossible to overcome. Barges unbidden into yer heart 'n selfishly takes up residence. But maybe...it's not as bad as I thought, ain't that strange?"
"Hah! Ya ravin' mad, princess. It's really turnin' me on. Let's get rid of them so we can get the hell outta here." (in his blind love route)
