we love a bendemption

So I was watching the classic “blow that piece of junk out of the sky” clip for the millionth time and it’s highly entertaining, a meme, I understand. But it just occurred to me how deep this actually must have cut for him in that moment. Like just imagine little Ben growing up on that ship. Playing, running around, sitting on Chewie’s lap as Han takes him through light speed for the first time. Hearing all the stories of this scrappy, legendary little freighter. And then at this point in TLJ, Kylo is trying so hard to push through, to crush the rebellion and resist the Light. And that ship, his father’s ship, comes in out of nowhere. An incredibly hopeful and sacred symbol of his father’s legacy, a precious memory, turned against him. And he just can’t stand it.

Rey: I’m going to call you Ben

Rey: take that stupid helmet off

Kylo: ok *takes it off*

Rey: and that stupid shirt

Rey: I’m not giving you anything

Kylo: we’ll see

Rey: except for my heart

Kylo:

All the darkness in Kylo:

Rey: *hears him through the force bond*

my mom: you mean Darth Vader? why would you be in love with him? *concerned*

“One of my favorite things that would happen from time to time on set would be when Carrie would sing old songs. Whenever that would happen I would offer her my hand and we would waltz around the set — on a starship, in a Rebel base, on an alien planet, and she would sing and we would dance. So surreal and beautiful to think about now. For all of her delicious, wicked humor and fiery energy she also had such sweet grace. I miss her dearly.”

Rey: *stabs Kylo through the chest*

Rey: *completely heals him 2 seconds later*