Shadesong/Sam | 30 | they/he
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No matter the world, no matter how far, you're still always the same. Everything you touch makes you stronger. It always has.
Hello! I'm Shadesong, and you're viewing my personal blog.
I’m currently 30, and I’m your local transmasc panromnatic asexual. I prefer they/he pronouns on the internet.
My current biggest interests include: Kingdom Hearts, Yugioh anime (DM - Go Rush), In Stars and Time, Deltarune, Persona 3 & 5, Umamusume, Sonic the Hedgehog, and Megaman Battle Network.
I'm very shy, I'm employed full time, I have frequent migraines, I'm overcoming extremely bad sleep apnea, and I've been moving out of the house that I grew up in since July 2025. These factors can make me really fatigued and quiet, and I have a difficult time initiating conversation. Feel free to initiate conversation with me first, or you can ask for my discord if we're mutuals!
This blog partially runs on a queue that posts while i’m asleep. My queue tag is currently “sworn my allegiance to magic queue”. I try to keep about 300 posts in the queue at all times, so, posts that you see coming out of the queue now I probably put in there months ago.
Other important tags:
Personal text posts: #song of the shade
Fics I wrote tag: #shade writes
Art (Doodles): #doodlesong
Notable fics:
you and me makes one (In Stars and Time)
War to Zen: Maniac You Die (Yugioh Sevens/Go Rush)
Cynet Backdoor (Yugioh Vrains/Sevens)
Fusion Tag (Yugioh GX/Arc V)
Karma Dimension (Yugioh Go Rush)
Return from the Different Dimension (Yugioh GX/5Ds)
Dimension Gate (Yugioh Vrains/Zexal)
Revenge Return (Yugioh 5Ds/Vrains)
Re:Build (Kingdom Hearts Re:Coded)
Through Whatever You Lose, You Will Always Have Me (Yugioh Vrains)
No Chance in Hell (Undertale)
Manjoume Thunder(struck) (Yugioh GX)
Righteous Justice (Yugioh Arc V/GX)
I am a plural system! You can see who is currently fronting here. My system consists of about 29 headmates (not including our 11 known fragments and 3 known soulbonds), all of whom are fictives. A rundown of our headmates can be found below:
Siffrin: Host - he/they - Source: In Stars and Time
Supernova: Host/Designated Driver - they/them - Source: In Stars and Time (Loop)
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Thank you to The Legend of Zelda for being bright light in some of my darkest hours, for giving me such wonderful friends, and for continuing to teach me everyday to lead my life with love, kindness and compassion. No matter our size, our age, or position in life may we always be courageous, wise, and have the power to be giving toward others.
Happy 40th anniversary, I am full of gratitude. I have been healed again and again.
Took a minute and update my pluralspace and my pinned post on this blog with a few new headmates that I was like. Struggling to admit existed even though I already knew they did???
Current headcount is at. 29. Not including fragments (11) and dormant headmates (not currently counting that quantity).
I really need to update my pluralkit so badly it's a mess. It's such a mess. Maybe we'll try to take some time to do that tomorrow
It's literally a miracle I still have a job at this point, let alone that I was literally just promoted. I think that's just a testament to my ability to power through whatever bullshit my body throws at me though
I'm too powerful to function without some kind of issue holding me back. God fears me so God had to nerf me
I keep freaking out my brain with a there has to be one specific way my plurality is thought process and I really need to remember that like. Everything constantly changes and the framework that works best for me is the best one for me regardless of what that actually entails.
Stop like denying that x or y can exist in your system for arbitrary reasons. They exist. It won't help to act like they don't.
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Society: most foods are bad and evil. Especially the kinds you are consuming.
Me: As long as I keep a steady stream of chocolate into my system combined with the right otc pain killers, my monthly cramps almost feel tolerable. If I also manage my chocolate intake with my protein intake, I can keep my blood sugar from dipping too low. (I probably do need birth control or something, related to the monthly cramps, but a bastard aint got time to harass a specialist into seeing me right now)
Society: your health issues are your own fault
Me: I am just trying to not disrupt my routine by like, passing out
I don't remember if I've talked about this at all or not--
But, as cpap usage is still going well and fatigue levels are slowly more manageable, there's been another (mostly) unforseen side effect:
Been having less bad headaches/migraines. Like. Was getting them almost daily at some points, and now it's like. Much less frequent.
So apparently fatigue was just a very huge trigger for that and now things are...better? I won't say it'd be completely better even if I stopped all treatment-- not all treatment is /just/ for the migraines, some of it's for the chronic neuralgia. And like, I really haven't had this few issues with the headaches in so, so long. I would venture to guess that the migraine treatments /are/ actually helping a fair amount, now that I don't have triggers going off 24/7 and am actually sleeping almost decently.
So, uh, yay for the botox. I think, four treatments in, I actually can feel the difference! I just also needed an actual quality of sleep to feel it. Teehee
At this point though I still want to avoid my other known triggers like movie theaters and live music. That's still a no go I'm sure, far too risky.
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