Chevy Ayers

Tbh didn't think I'd like him but damn🙈😍

In exactly a month from today, it will have been a year since my very best friend said goodbye and took his last breath. Said his last word. Prayed his final prayer. Now I pray that he is with god forever and always. Right by his side. Rayshawn, not a day goes by that you don’t cross my mind. When I do something new and exciting, all I can think is that you wont get the chance to do it with me. Every time I get myself into trouble, I think of how I would call you and you would listen to me vent and give me advice on what I should do. When I have boy problems I would ask your opinion and you wouldnt hold back. Now all I can do his look to your picture on my wall and hope that you hear my prayers. Sometimes, I sit back and wonder, “what would life have been like if you hadn't gotten sick?” ‘Would we still be best friends?’ ‘What would your personality be?’ But the truth of the matter is it happened. You fought. Long and hard. But god decided to take away your pain. I miss you everyday...I long for the day I will be able to hear your voice again, embrace you again, and be able to say we will be friends forever and know that it is true.

Exactly 5 months ago today, he passed away... I have never known such a wonderful person other than him. I am so blessed to have had him be a part of my life. He was very different from anyone I know. He was proud of his faith. He was christian and wanted everyone to know it. On may 3rd his family had a memorial service for him. His father told a story about a time He was in safeway once saw a women stuggling. he went to help her and ended up praying for her right in the middle of the store. He was the type of person i wish i could be. He was there for me when i messed up and was ready to pick me up when i fell. I am so glad that i got to call him my friend. Even better, my best friend. I loved Rayshawn like a brother. I will always love him. I will never forget him. His death wont stop us from being friends. He may be out of my sight but he will forever remain in my heart. I will see him again one day. He is watching me from gods right hand, and he always will. The only regret in my life I have is not saying goodbye. Not hugging him one last time. Not telling him i loved him for the last time. Not being able to tell him how much he meant to me. I will live with that guilt for the rest of my life. I would give anything to get him back. That boy battled cancer for 4 years. He was strong. But how long can a person stay strong before becoming weak. He died April 24th 2014. I was told it gets better. But I miss him more and more every day. I wish he was here to experience high school with me. His life was cut short. Its not fair. But a good friend told me God takes the best ones first. I wish he had waited just a little longer....