Kubika

When I say I'm religious and christian I say it very tenuously because it's not the kind of christian my parents and my church are and that weird little dichotomy is messing with my perception of it I think. It's also why I don't really like labels or I don't get specific/respond when people ask me if I'm religious. Like yeah I believe in god but also I think the church is really messed up right now and are pushing values that directly go against the god they serve. Is god real to me? Perchance. Do I practice a religion? In a way, not the way my parents want me to, but it exists and it's personal to me. I think that's also why conclave means so much to me, especially when they had the homily about faith being a living thing, and about serving god not the curia. And "the church is what we do next" Fun! But yeah it's why I don't often respond when people ask me if I'm christian