Krisee

You were a whole person before you met them. They did not ever complete you. They did not ever make you one. They may have added something to you for a while, but they have never and can never take away. Even if they hurt you. Even if they made you dependent on them. Even if they left you. Even amongst all their toxicity, you are still you, and you are still strong.

i don’t understand  this crack between us  that seems to be growing wider and wider each day, and i don’t know what made you change your mind. but i do know this: you made a promise. and i know that this was not supposed to happen  to us.

‘choose.’ i said, ‘me or her.’ but it wasn’t that simple not for you it wasn’t coke or pepsi cats or dogs sun or rain it was the difference between ‘i love you’ and ‘i need you’ soft goodnight kisses or rough morning sex big smiles and tenderness and a girl that just made you so happy or late nights and alcohol and a girl that made you feel alive so when i said, ‘choose.’ when i said, ’me or her.’ you looked at me like i was asking you the most unfair question in the world you said, ‘i love you,’ and my heart fell on cracked pavement broke right down the middle because i realized that it wasn’t the difference between coke or pepsi it was the difference between ‘i love you’ and ‘i need you’ and you told me you loved me which could only mean you needed her