ko

But how do I tell him?

He’s so far away, I doubt he even listens

Maybe I could shout it,

I’ll act as your pet cat

And I’ll shy away from you

Because I know I’m going to die

I would want my death to be treated

The same way a pet’s death would be.

“He’s in a better place now,”

Because that’s all you can say.

I’m a naturally miserable person,

And I want to be in a position

fat.pills make you fat. Swallowing makes you fat.

Throw it all up

Inhaler makes you fat.

Breathing makes you fat.

Existing makes you fat

I must take off every part of me

Any ounce of confidence adds weight

Even if that scale can smell fear,

Surrounded by those who knew you before I did

I’m learning so much about you,

But now I wonder, after hearing these things

Every time you hang up,

My screen goes black

Who knew it’d be the same in person?

If I have the same responsibilities every single day

And they never go away?

I’m obviously getting tired of them,

Is that the point?

They’re going to get me

Little did I know

A turn of the doorknob

Would open a door of new opportunities

But they’re holding me back

You’re what keeps me together

Or you would be,

If I were not water

Despite your presence,

I can’t help, and neither can you,

But fall apart

I liked to keep your clothes

And savor the smell

But since you left,

It triggers my asthma

If another man wears it,

I have to leave the room,

Who admire the sky

Because at least that means

They keep their head up

Most days, I don’t even notice the sky

I’m usually looking down at my feet,

If I even go outside at all

I love people

Who admire the sky,

And take photographs

Because they remind me

That the ones that try the hardest

Mourn me if I die,

Adore me when I’m here,

Need me when I’m not,

Love me the way I love you,

Feel the way I do,

Since you’ve been gone

It’s unsettling to know

That the world keeps spinning

And that life goes on

And that I’m expected to keep living

Why I woke up craving suicide

Until I realized,

It’s because in my dream,

I was dead

And rest my heart

Right on top of yours,

Maybe mine could teach yours

How to beat

And we could create our own