i think my world is much smaller than it should be. actually, the core of my world is perfect, exactly as it is. but i should expand my life...

i think he should have expanded his life too. but even if he had, maybe his experiences were too much or too painful.

i should have reached out and i didn't and now i will never be able to.

i miss him. i thought we would be able to share updates as we went through our lives for a long time. and i lost one of the people that knows me best in the world, and one of the only ones who really cared about me and liked me for who i am.

and i just... i liked spending time with him. there's no one else like him. i guess you can say that about anyone. but it's true.