K O D Y

what do you do when your hearts a mess? what do you do when it beats right out of your chest

but see, that’s the thing. you don’t love me. and it kills me. like a knife to my heart, it hurts. missing you hurts. loving you, hurts. everything hurts. and see that’s the thing, missing you is slowly killing me. I wish I was already out of here. take me out of here.

it’s okay right? to not be okay? to admit that shit. I can’t feel nothing else. I can’t help it. I can’t help myself. I wanna scream and I just wanna shout. I’m pretty sure I’d rather be dead with all these unnecessary thoughts in my head.

is it killing you like its killing me

never chase somebody who didn't even want you to begin with. you'll never win.

i'm so lost

i’m not unsure of my feelings. i’m unsure of the situations. overwhelming. suffocating. toxic settings. you don’t love me. why do you force it? why are you here? you said you don’t love me so there’s the door. i wait and i wait, nothing is good enough. all your loves been fake. iwish that we could stay together forever but the damage is done. we’ve played a good game but heartbreak has already won. it’s done. im sad and scared. you’ve been in love before what happens now? what do I do when you push and you shove? I wanna cry forever. and even then that’s not enough. even as I think now about all the times and all of our fun.. wow we used to be so so fuckin in love I can see your beautiful smile right now in my memories, my head in the clouds. daydreaming of something I can’t quite seem to figure out. I don’t wanna leave you I don’t want you to shout, please stop shoving me, pleaee stop pushing me out.

I dont have time for this shit.