Kenzie :)

just gotta “borrow” my sister’s alarm clock

get that twitter api, write the bot in some python bc god is dead n slap together some fuckin UI with legos

your idiot self wants to sleep in???? hit that snooze button a couple times???? (maybe 4 times in a row)?? disgusting.

twitter knows! bc it posts how many times youve hit it. fuck you

But it’s not always that easy. Sometimes you’re not completely recovered, just recovered enough that you can start working / going to school (uni, vocational, trade, etc) again (full time, even!). So you say, “I’m feeling good, and I’m being treated by a great team so I won’t relapse”. You’re vague on purpose because it’s none of their business what exactly is going on. They still ask if it’s mental or physical health issue. You tell them because you don’t know if you’re obligated to answer and you worry that not wanting to answer is an answer of itself. They make a note and you don’t know if this will be a factor when they consider whether or not to take you. You think it probably will. You know you’ll never know if this was The Thing that got you the “no”. You know you’d never be able to prove to anyone that it was.

if they try to weasel answers out of you by asking whether you're able to perform the job duties, you drag it back round to interviewspeak - "absolutely, i am so excited to be here and apply for this opportunity. [literally job duty from the description] is one of my passions/talents/areas of expertise, and i think this would be a great place for me to learn even more."

anxiety and anger are extremely persistent in ADHD because we fixate on that input and devote all our runtime to trying to “fix” it when in reality the only way to fix it is to leave it alone. considering we are diagnosed with Chronic Cannot Leave It Alone Disease, that is Difficult.

when you’re outside one of these loops, take inventory of all the things you do that suck you into devoting all your attention to them. when i was a kid, the way i avoided asthma attacks was i played video games while taking my meds, so i wouldn’t be fixating on the anxiety and making the asthma worse. nowadays, i avoid anger spirals by also playing video games (in my experience turn-based strategy is a hyperfocus superhighway so i use those) so i’m forced to divert resources to do this other thing.

joke’s on you, impotent fury, you can’t kidnap my brain if my brain is somewhere else entirely

Cardi B- WAP feat. Ben Shapiro