i'm in the worst reality rn

i hate work i hate people

call me pretty girl again pleas wplease

re my last post. i also realised why men are so hyper sexualised with me right at the start. before even knowing me. they tell me i'm hot and ask me to sit on their face. because i'm fat. and they don't mind messing stuff up with me. i'm not their future wife. so it doesn't matter right. doesn't matter what they say or whatever to me. cus they don't care. realised this and it's changed how i see them. it doesn't matter if they think im hot. it means nothing. they're just lustful idiots. and they would say that to the next girl. i'm not special

So. i've had a lot of time. time to think. time to experience .... things. especially to do with men. thing is, i have been single for basically a year now. had a couple things in that time. nothing too serious. i've been involved in what the kids are calling a situation ship. and it's very much hell. i thought id enjoy it. low stakes. low commitment. but i have too many feelings. and they all get tangled together. messy. i end up caring. they end up leaving. and i've realised it's not what i thought it was. it's not about being pretty. it's not about how hot i am. cus men will find the most beautiful girl in the world. and use her for what she's worth. and leave. i know im pretty i know im funny and sweet and caring. but for some reason that isn't enough? so it's a mystery to me. what do they actually want ?

Hi tumblr! i'm kitty, i am 23 from the UK. this is going to be where i post my writing and sometimes photography. i'm a beginner for the most part but these are things i enjoy doing and i realised recently that allowing myself to be creative heals something deep within me, which tells me i should be doing it more. this blog will act as a place to store all of my creations that i believe are good enough to send out to the world. i hope i can find people here to share my art with, we can inspire each other. xx