I hate knowing even tho I have my meds again (for now. and it was so weird how I got them but I. Can't even get into all that rn idk what is up with my insurance) it will take a long time get back to where I was before this disruption and it sucks.
Chemically I can feel it. I am irritable and never satisfied. I'm chasing dopamine but the reward is barely there. I keep switching and the one at the wheel is not always making the best decisions. I guess I'm not either but at least I'm not destructive. Cupid has really been. Around.
Anyways, that part will go away faster than this next part, at least. I will have to rebuild so much and clean up so much. I've fallen out of many of my good habits that kept me functioning. Shit that took years for me to build. I know it's not all gone and that it won't take as long for me to do now as it did the first time but it's just so unfair that that can be taken away from me by a greedy company who doesn't want to pay for my medication. It's cruel. How is there just no real way to hold them accountable? There's no one to even yell at. Nobody I can reach on the phone is in control of this. They get to save a few k, I get to have my life upheaved. I hope their company fails quick and in the most humiliating way possible so I can watch
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