Mew~

Now that we’ve had an appearance from Darkiplier..

Do you ever look at your own drawings and just... hate them?

I love drawing, and it usually helps calm me, and I enjoy drawing people and things that influence me.

But lately all I can do is hate on my own drawings, and just want to tear them apart or just not show anyone. The people who see my drawings usually praise them and compliment them, but I’m just always finding flaws.

People tell me to post my drawings and I want to, but at the same time I’m conflicted and think people will hate them or criticize them like my inner thoughts do. Not just other fans, but Mark and Jack or whoever the drawing may be for/of.

I can’t stand my drawings, no matter the compliments I get on them, I hate them.

It’s not about ‘getting better’ at drawing, I’ve only ever done it as a hobby, I don’t care about being perfect. Kindof. I know I can’t get better, because mentally I can’t wrap my mind around anything further than the ‘skills’ I have now. and it doesn’t matter in that sense anyway. It’s always just been a hobby.

I gave up on drawing because of these feelings once before, and I’m afraid I’ll give up again. I’m just such a critic I can’t barely finish a drawing anymore without hating it and ripping it apart, physically and mentally.

I’m shaky, I don’t know why. I’m mentally tearing apart the flaws in my drawings.

I know this doesn’t really matter to most of you. and that’s fine. I just needed to vent.