maki

(got a letter from podmom, so kiligggggssss) p.s this is kinda long lels hehe

Hello ♡

Watch the impromptu Live Mukbang we did at Wildflour here hahaha. Sayang, we can’t see the live comments on the replay. But it was so much fun!

I brought Pancho to my ninang’s salon (Nimfa Ferrer Salon at Sekai Center, Greenhills) for the very first time. Until yesterday, I’m the only one who’s ever cut Pancho’s hair. I’ve been too scared because he would have uncontrollable sudden movements and I couldn’t handle it if he got hurt huhu. Thankfully, I’m more confident with his development and I know he is more able to control himself!

Kuya Edwin, I think, was a little nervous and he didn’t want any accidents so Pancho’s haircut ended up not as polished as we’d hoped haha!!! But it’s definitely a great start!! Also, Pancho had a stye yesterday and you can see it in the post-haircut picture. Cutie. It’s even much better today!!

I haven’t been on a treadmill in 6-7 years (I think)!! After my workout with Coach Andre of Fitnessmobil, he told me to run on the treadmill for ten minutes. Thankfully, walang ibang tao sa condo gym so early in the morning and I was able to remove my mask.

For the first 3 minutes, I was running at a speed of 8 (not suuuuper fast, but it was a run), and then I remembered Jim’s advice about interval running. I did 20 seconds at 4.5 speed and 40 seconds at 8 speed. Hindi ko napansin at all because I was watching Beyoncé’s Sweet Dreams music video —- my go-to treadmill song!!! Tapos Love On Top after! Woohoo.

Ten minutes isn’t amazing for most people, but for me, it’s crazy that I was able to do that after an intense workout! Cut to: sakit ng katawan ko today hahaha!!

Vito’s been potty-trained since he was 2, but we’ve been used to putting him in a diaper when we go out. On a whim, I put him in his boxers and took him to Kidzoona with me. His yaya — who stayed behind — was concerned and was like, “Baka maihi siya!” Sabi ko, “Okay lang. Kaya may extra clothes kami.”

He was playing for an hour and socializing with other kids (so cute). Suddenly, he looked at me and held my gaze. Even with his mask on, I could tell! I said “You need to big boy wiwi?” Of course he said no because he wanted to keep playing haha. I brought him to the restroom anyway and successfully peed!!! Oh I’m so proud!

Tracklist reveal!!! You’re the first ones to see this so keep it a secret until the band officially posts it on social media later hehe. Are you as excited as we are??

Playing some of these songs tomorrow at Fanverse in Podium Mall! We’re on at 7PM :)

Happy teacher's day, Maj!

Thank you for your non-ending litanya's and free math lessons lol

labs

(made this on my creative writing class and kinda revise it)

Pardon my emotions

maybe i should just keep it all

she fall

and thinking she's cruel

but she picture her just cool

they judge her like a picture book

but she just love the way how she look

chinky eyes,

and she's about cry.

she's a mix of fire and water

both better.

(this one's for you)

Subject: Missing in Action

Date: September 25, 2022

I know I'm 2 days late, im sorry :( been mia for a while since i just want to relax after my hell week HAHAHA

don't know what's the subject of this email paj, since wala naman masyadong ganap sa buhay ko.

But sharing to you what had happened for the past two days that I'm mia HAHAHA

Friday, is the last day of prelims and I can say that na nairaos naman namin magkakaibigan, we've congratulated each other since we've come along together.

They're the best "friends" that you can have :( I'm so happy that I made a move HAHHAHA kasi kung hindi baka hanggang ngayon wala pa din akong kaibigan, palagi din kaming nagtutulungan sa lahat.

sana till our final year we're all friends pa din, I'm looking forward to know and bond more with them. medyo may crush Ako dun sa isa kong classmate, don't worry crush lang naman HAHAHAH

Saturday, walang ganap I just read Wattpad nakakainis kasi di na ko makabasa ng libro it's been months :((

Saturday, spend it with alfeyah balak sana namin mag kkopi kaso full packed. kaya we move in minute burger tapos nanood kami ng liga. sinusulit ko na since malapit na ko mag-move out sepanx malala :( I'm gonna miss my friends here lalo na si alfeyah :((

Sunday, ngayon walang ganap at nagkukwentuhan lang kami ni mama, about my plans once i move out na. I'll surely miss this pero siguro masasanay din ako.

ayun lang naman ganap sa buhay ko, hope that you are taking care of yourself.

I'm studying hard don't worry. I'll make sure to finished this year with flying colors (again HAHAH)

always take care and enjoy. till next time

(my filipino assignment way back when im still at 10th grade, managed to get a perfect score btw hehe)

Subject: Pagtitiwala

Date: XX/XX/XX

To; NRB

Pagtitiwala, isang salita na may halaga hindi lamang sa masa kundi sa panlahat.

Pagtitiwala na may kaakibat na paghihirap upang malasap ang tinatamasa na ginawaha .

Tapat na pakikipagusap at hindi wari'y nagpapanggap.

Sa iyong mga matang nangungusap na animo'y nagsusumigaw na ''ako'y pagkatiwalaan mo'' ngunit paano?

Kung ikaw na mismo ang sumira nito.

Subject: Prelims

Date: September 23, 2022

Dearest manths,

manths, you told me that this is the last day of your prelims. Im so proud of you! that you able to finished this along with your friends.

I'm happy that you have friends from your new school, I know how anxious you are because of the idea that you won't be able to make a new one, but look at you now!

sorry at hindi ako naka-email sainyo. busy lang sa work you know it naman hahaha.

you told me that the results of your prelims was really really good, but know whether it is good or bad I'm always proud of you.

Kamusta sila Mama at tatay? wag papasakitin Ang ulo ha and try to study hard, but please don't pressure yourself. always pray and take care of yourself and sila mama okay?

malapit na pala boards Ng mom mo, please tell her to be good and take care of herself.

I'm always praying for her luck sa boards i feel and I know this time is her time!

Again congrats,

at miss na miss ko na kayong lahat ingat lagi ha, at mag-reply ka naman kayo sa email ko hahahaha :))

Subject; First Day of Classes

Date; August 1, 2022

Dearest kimmy,

Kimmy, heard from your mommy na today is your first day of Senior High School Congratulations for another year! I'm just wondering why is it so early, you told me na sila Alexa ay sa 22 pa.

you told me na Ang gulo pa Ng sistema Ng school niyo. don't worry Manths, I know that they're fixing it.

Hindi ko akalain na Ang bilis Ng panahon parang dati lang you're still a baby now you're growing and growing everyday.how we wish you stay as a baby, but we can't stop that.

lagi kayong mag-iingat ni Alexa, paki-sabi na Goodluck sa school Niya.

please try to study hard and don't pressure yourself too much, Manths. I know and we all know that you can do it.always remember that we are so proud of you, nak.

Take care of mama, Tay, kulots, and mommy for me and try to ask how is your Ninang and tito pat doing. take care of yourself wag gotumin Ang sarili. LET'S GET THIS TINAPAY!

Subject: Happy Valentine's Day!

Date: February 15, 2018

(nakita ko ulit sa baul eme, miss na miss ko na si atasha hope to gala and meet you soonest love u lettuce!)

p.p.s; first time may magbigay Ng handwritten letter saakin tapos galing pa sa bff ko huhu, love u sagad lettuce huhu

Happy Valentine's Day Samantha! First of all Hatdog ka, Salamat sa memories na naimbag mo. Happy Valentine's Day ulit!

love, atasha

Subject: Hi Ate! Happy Birthday

Date: January 14, 2018

(this letter is from mama, way back 2018 she's still in Bahrain at that time maybe I'll share this here since napadpad sa fb memories ko and counted pa din as a letter to hahahahah)

p.p.s; Hindi ko na inedit Yung grammatical errors ni mama, mahal na mahal ko naman siya kaya ayos na yan hahahaha

Hi ate happy2 b-day more b-days to come. now it a lady n b careful in everything u do. love it crush it's oky but don't b serious.

focus muna s study ha, finish it always remember nandto c mama luv n luv k. if u have problem said to me. don't ashamed rigth.

mis u, god bless u

love mama,

Subject: Blue and Red.

Date: July 22, 2022

Dearest Nins,

already got your letter first of all thank you. thank you for such an emotional letter lols been a lil senti these past few days because of the thought that I'm going to be leaving Carmona, but I know that this is for the best.

And second i miss you all, kailan ba kayo dadalaw dito. miss na miss ko na kayo nila markus.

thank you for the advices and tips that you guys gave me I seriously don't know what to do and to start without y'all.maybe I'll take this as an opportunity to tell you how I feel and thought about visiting manila after so many years.

Tired. tired of the long walks but it's one of the best moments that I have with parents got to talk more with them. (we finally found a perfect space for the next few years that I'll be staying in manila. we're still thinking about it dw) and I'm sleepy while writing this hahahaha

Happy. happy that I got to talk more with parents after so many years of not having a proper conversation with them. (they teach me how to commute and etc and so far I got it all naman na I do have an steps on how to do that on my phone.) so happy to see mommy being amused and awe while viewing my school. I have an enough reason to really work hard more.

Ma, Tay are so happy that I'm going to be studying in Manila, but deep down they're still against the idea of it, but I know they're slowly accepting it. (nasa acceptance stage pa lang sila)

I'm still on working the progress, but I know by the time that God and the universe told me so. I know that I'm ready. (the process of enrollment was smooth and easy, the staffs and profs are really approachable and kind)

thank you for the advices nins, we can finally hang out more when I get there. missing you all so much huhu, let's all meet soon always take care and drink a lot of water. hopefully to be with you in the other side of katipunan

luv you nins <3

Subject: Manila, Philippines

Date: July 21, 2022

Dearest Kimmy,

heard from your mom that the of you guys are going to manila tomorrow. She told me that for the next few years you're going to be staying and studying there.

We are all going to miss you, manila is too far and not really your thing but we are extremely shocked when you told to us that you are planing to study there. I know how much you love Carmona, it's your birth place and safe place. you told me that Carmona is not the same anymore and maybe you should try a new environment.

You told me too that it's time for you to move out and explore more things that you didn't try before. And I'm finally happy and relieved because after so many years of convincing you to come with us in manila you finally agreed.

you are finally opening your doors to a new world, opportunities and people. and thank you for doing that :) after years of not going to manila you're finally going back, I know naman na madaling ma-lowbat yang social battery mo hahaha pero you need a lot of patience because it's manila, and you are getting close in to adulthood.

we're not trying to scare you, in fact it's normal to feel scared and vulnerable because its all new to you. Trust me we all finished and experience that. we are happy to teach you how to do all of that.

heard that your new school is in Taft, finally! Malapit na lang ilang sakay na lang and we can hangout weekly lol (if you want) wishing you all the best on your journey in Manila, we're always here for you Kims! Have a safe trip with tita tomorrow!!!! kita-kits on Nov hihi :)

(when you receive this please try to write back, we'll give you sum tips on how to survive manila hahaha no cap!)

Subject: Congratulations on your Moving up!

Date: July 7, 2022

Dearest Kimmy,

Greeted you a lil late, apologies for that I've heard that you've had finished your school with flying colors. And I feel like I'm still on cloud 9 when I heard the announcer announced your name "Sxxxx Kxxm Mxxxx, With honors" you have no idea how happy and proud I am to you with or without that title.

Your Mom and I have jumped when your teacher announced your name, your mom told me na parang nanalo siya sa lotto nung narinig Niya Ang pangalan mo. we didn't expect you to graduate with that title and nasabi mo din sa mama mo na Hindi mo din in-expect kaya naiyak ka sa tuwa.

I saw how you struggled to juggle your acads and being an ate and a daughter. I know how hard is that for you. And all I can say is I'm so proud of you, Kim with all the flaws and "failures" that you have told me. For me I don't consider that as a "failure" instead I consider that as a "lesson" to you, I saw how you tripped many times, saw you cry silently at night, and waking up just like nothing happened. but the most important thing that happened and I witnessed, is you finally rise and spread your wings again.

I'm genuinely happy that you learn to embrace your insecurities and flaws and not afraid to trip. You learn to carry, embrace and balance your self and that's the reason I admire you, I admire you for being a strong woman, and a beautiful one. seeing you grow up makes me more sentimental can't help to just cry & cry (Please don't stop growing! hahaha) Cause when you finally do that just rise and soar high and don't forget to look back and honor god.

Please try to take care of your Tatay, Mama, Mommy and Kulots for me. Take care of yourself always drink enough water and eat on time. (Cuz I'm not there to take care of you all hahaha) and Please don't sleep with a heavy heart suggest to write it on a journal or just email me!

I really miss you all, esp the piano sessions hahaha can't wait to finally be at home and be able to that with you :) Please try to study hard and don't pressure yourself okay!? I know naman that you can do it. I always believe in you, Kimmy.

Again Congratulations and I'm So proud of you. Good Luck on your journey. am always rooting for you (and I will always will)