im a total trash mammal

and im on my oeriod

i shouldve called off today

ive been crying on and off all morning and you can see where he got hit on the road to my job and i just cant fucking do it anymore

finding a way to get alcohol during this time of my life might actually have been the worst thing for me

he left me all alone i wont ever see him ahain he wont ever be in the kitchen meowing at me as soon as i get home and he’ll never climb uo On my chest again and he wont ever come into my room or lay on my bed as i try to make it and ill be alone all the time now and im supposed to jisy keep on living he wont let me pick him up and squeeze him again and he wont be there to let the whole house know when im up tip toeing at 3am my little best friend gone just like thag while i was fucking sleeping i wouldve stayed up i wouldve gotten him we dont wven know bow he got out its not faid none of it is fair it shoouldve been me it all shouldve been me i should be buried in the back yard during summer and kts bis favorite season because the kids are home during the summer. no more hiding in the christmas tree no more stealing my chairbwhen i stand up its all gone hes al gone

i really miss my friends why am i literally doomed

id be a beautiful washed up dead girl lowkey

im unfixable

okay yes I have substance abuse problems however if I don’t have a substance so fucking soon I’m gonna blow my brains out so it’s one or the other

at the point with my self-esteem where I’ve covered every mirror in my room so I never have to look at myself