when you think your mental state canāt possibly get worse
bitch guess what
YOU ARE THE REASON
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when you think your mental state canāt possibly get worse
bitch guess what

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iāve been suicidal for so long that iāve just been assuming i wouldnāt live even as long as i have so i never thought about anything long term and now i have no idea what iām going to do and iām more afraid to live than i ever was to die
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Being depressed is really weird because you want someone to care enough to check on you but you donāt want someone to care enough to worry about you
And being called a boy makes you feel infantile but being called a man feels weird because you don't feel quite "manly" enough for the title just yet.

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Tfw you're a trans dude and you still enjoy feminine things but, it makes you feel less valid and a little dysphoric.
fun dissociation things
-when u play a game for 8 hours and then u try to walk around and u Become The Main Character
- oh, everythingās moving back and forth slightly, ok
Ā -suddenly leaving ur body and being too disconnected to care so all u can think is āwoah get back in thereā
- looking at ur hands and just. what the FUCK are these
- āmy feelings are on the right side of my chest but im on the left so i know theyāre there but iām not affected by themā
- how do i type???? how do i read???? what is a language???? what????????
- doing dumb shit and immediately forgetting/denying u did it
That slight tilt to the world that makes you just a smidge dizzy.
Ok I literally have no money and finding work is still a nightmare but I gotta pay for food and bills somehow. Pixel sprites - $8 or 800 points Bust shot - $10 or 1000 points Full body - $15 or 150...
I only have $30 in my bank account rn and I have to pay $44 on saturday for phone service before I can finally shut it off
ok so Iām more royally fucked than I thought I was.
I need $220 by this saturday and I have no idea what to do.
tocdfw not holding the railing means you're going to fall, but holding the railing means germs
So my mom finally admitted to things being my fault and I'm really feeling that Death!!

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so i started a new book
*drags hands down face*
fuuuuuuuuuuck
OH. OH. OH (it me)
MotherFUCKER
when u accidentally take a 4 hour depression nap
Me: anxiety shows 5% Mom: Tell me what's wrong you can tell me anything but I'll yell at you or trivialize your problem. I'm aggressively telling you to tell me everything. Me: : )
I used to disocciate really badly when I was at school. My friends would notice me slowly curl up and bury my face in my knees. They'd stay for a while, slowly trickling away after the bell rang to get to class; I was unresponsive to everything and would just keep silently crying and digging at my scalp. Eventually, I would find myself alone in the hallway with a massive headache. Literally, the worst thing ever because that told me nobody really cared about me. They'd rather get to class than support me. Sometimes I wonder if my current friends would abandon me
Erase the entire idea that someone can have a natural formed system.
Erase the idea that alters can be described asĀ āemotionsā.
Erase the idea that you can call different sides of yourself alters.
Erase the idea that a system is something you can purposely create.
Erase the idea that systems areĀ āfunā orĀ ājust other people in your headā.
Erase the idea that systems are aĀ ācoping mechanismā.
Erase the idea that having a personality disorder means you can have a system based upon your unstable personality changes.
Erase the idea that you can have a system without DID or OSDD.
Erase the idea that anyone can have a system.
Erase the romanticization and idealism that society sees systems as. Give us our terms back. Give us our disorder back. Give us the respect back.

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DID COMMUNITY- URGENT- THIS IS NOT A DRILL
IF SOMEONE CLAIMS THEIR ALTER CAN WALK INTO YOUR BODY AND CONTROL YOU - GET OUT OF THERE THEYRE A LIAR AND DANGEROUSĀ
IF SOMEONE CLAIMS YOUR ALTER WALKED INTO THEIRS AND DID STUFF- GET OUT OF THEIR SO FAST YOU ARE IN DANGERĀ
IF SOMEONE SUGGESTS AN ALTER IS DEVELOPING THAT IS SHARED BETWEEN YOU AND THEM- RUN SO FUCKING FAST PLEASEĀ
PROTECT YOURSELF PLEASE THIS IS AN ABUSER TRICK AS OLD AS TIME AND THEY ARE NOT TO BE TRUSTED.Ā
Important facts about DID
DID is caused by repeated childhood trauma before the child has gained a personal sense of self. Most children gain this sense of self around 6-9 years old. Therefore, DID cannot form after the ages of 6-9.
DID is caused by repeated childhood trauma. Trauma can include physical, mental, emotional, or sexual abuse, invasive medical procedures, repeated natural disasters, severe neglect, and/or war. The trauma must have been repetitive. Without trauma, DID cannot form.
To have DID, amnesia must occur. Amnesia is defined as gaps in the recall of everyday events, important personal information and/or traumatic events.
If someone does not fit all of the criteria for DID, theyāre diagnosed with OSDD (Other Specified Dissociative Disorder.) For instance: If someone does not experience amnesia, they do not meet the diagnostic criteria for DID, and will be diagnosed with OSDD.
Fictives (or Fictional Introjects) exist in some systems. Fictives are fictional characters that become alters. They are formed like any other alter, from trauma, either at a young age, or stress happening to someone who ALREADY has DID. They do not develop just from a love of a character, or from wanting that character to be real. They are not the same as imaginary friends, or roleplay characters.
DID is not the same as being kin with someone/something. Being kin with a character means relating to that character. This is not the same as an alter. Some people may believe they are the character that they are kin with, but this is not DID either.
Alters are not roleplay characters. People who roleplay and create characters might feel like their characters have their own personalities, to the point that the characterĀ ādoesnāt listen to themā about certain things, but this is a fairly normal thing for writers. It is not DID, and they are not alters. EDIT: Roleplay characters, like any other character, can be introjected into the system in some cases, if the person already has DID. (You can still do whatever youād like with that character, even if it feels like they would disagree. Knowing how they would feel about certain actions, or feeling like they wouldnāt agree or approve of you doing something when writing what they would do is not the same as an alter. Take it from someone who has both alters and roleplay characters: they are not even remotely the same.)
Alters are made inside the personās mind. Therefore, alters cannot come from outside someoneās mind. Some alters believe that they came from elsewhere, and even have memories of lives before being an alter, but this is part of DID, and is an illusion. (I have an alter who has memories of a life before becoming an alter. I am not belittling any alters who have these memories or beliefs.)
Alters cannot travel between people. No one can send an alter into someone elseās mind, or send one of their alters out of their own minds. (This is in fact a very dangerous idea that can be used by abusers to further hurt or control people with DID.)
Alters cannot die or be erased. They can be sectioned off so much that they are no longer felt, or put in a hibernation state, but they are not gone. Integrating is an option some systems choose to pursue, but even then, the alter is not gone, theyāve just become part of another alter or the system as a whole.
Alters are parts of a single person that has been kept from being able to gain a full sense of self or identity because of trauma as a child. This does not make the alters fake, and does not mean that the host or core (if there is one) can control them. Alters are not the same person, and do not identify as each other or the host or core. This is the entire point of DID, to not identify as each other in order to compartmentalize traumatic events so the person is able to go on living. (Itās completely normal and in fact part of theĀ disorderĀ for alters and the core/host to notĀ see themselves as the same person. For all intents and purposes, they are not the same person.)
DID is a serious mental condition caused by trauma. It is not a fad, or a game.
Everyone experiences the symptoms of DID differently. This does not mean that if someone does not meet the DSM criteria for DID, they have it anyway.
DID is not accurately represented in media. If you see a show, book, movie or game that says itās about DID, or seems to have aspects of DID, assume that itās wrong, or take it with a grain of salt. (The exceptions being recent case studies, books from people who have DID, and the like. Sybil and other such media is not an accurate representation.)
DID has been around for a very long time, and has been recorded all the way back to the 1500ā²s. Just because they didnāt have the same terminology or understanding of it that we do today, doesnāt mean it didnāt exist.