Family
โ From a middle to upper class family
โ His parents were intelligent but strict, and did not always agree with his decisions, especially to work in the art field
โ He had a charismatic and gentle older brother he was close to
โ He has not sought them after his death and lost traces of them after his brother passed
Artwork
โ He was brought back to life by the original Hikari artist, who placed the Elm Root artwork into the dead body of his apprentice
โ This was only made possible by the apprentice's affinity with Elm Root, as he had worked on it alongside his master, and the Hikari's incredible skills and power
โ Since the apprentice worked on Elm Root, the latter could retain and mimmick his personality
โ If he sees himself as Elm Root, thinking too hard about his self and identity could trouble him
โ It took him time to develop emotions again, but he could already feel when he met Rio
โ Relationship with the Hikari family has not always been flowers and roses, and he has lived separate from them a few times
โ He has thus already blended in with human before Satoshi's generation
โ He climbed the Police Department ladders out of duty, to favour Satoshi, but got into it and started also seeking personal achievement
โ He has never left Azumano/Tokyo
Physical
โ He does have poor eyesight
โ His body is stiff, slow but enduring, and it can be trained
โ He is averagely attractive, but his demeanor works in his favour
โ Due to his body's age, his height is below modern average
โ He can easily pass as human thanks to his borrowed body
โ It is thus almost impossible to guess that he is of magical nature
โ Thanks to the perfect symbiosis between artwork and human body, he doesn't age, can heal from any wound and is unable to die
โ He cannot die from hunger or similar lack of care, but would feel the pain, thus he eats, sleeps and takes care of his body
โ He is weak to pleasant physical sensations (but his secretive side is stronger than temptations~)
โ He thus loves good food, but hides that his favourite is sweets and cakes, for the sake of his reputation
โ He could be killed the way one could destroy an artwork, but it would require passing the protective shell of regenerative flesh
โ He would need external assistance to recover from a severe injury
Psychological
โ He has a neutral to positive opinion of himself and holds himself to high standards
โ He is always controlling his behaviour, appearance and words in public
โ He considers the apartment he lives in his personal space and never allows anyone in
โ When alone, he allows himself to rest and behave without filter
โ He enjoys reading, cooking, staying up-to-date with the latest art exhibitions and events, and feeding the stray (?) cat that roams around
โ He is afraid of fire and would be paralysed in front of a big one
โ He is entirely devoted to the Hikari family yet sometimes, rarely, dreams about giving up on them and running away to exist in peace. He has never told anyone.
Relationships
โ He has little interest in people who cannot bring him something
โ However, he easily sees others as tools for his goals and career, which makes him pleasant to have around and gives him a good reputation
โ He has no interest in dating and friendships (Except under very specific circumstances, otherwise this blog would not exist~)
โ He would not marry a woman to raise his social status as it would interfere with his private time
โ He has a low opinion of Daisuke Niwa
โ He would not directly confront a Niwa, to avoid being noticed by Dark
โ Satoshi is his favourite Hikari and the only one he would die for
โ He believes anyone can be manipulated; Fukami is one of the few Hikari who resisted him
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Risa groaned as a headache hit her instantly. Her throat was so dry it hurt.
Slowly, her eyes fluttered open, and she saw sunlight peeking through the curtains.
She rolled over and pulled the puffy gray blanket over her head, burying her face deeper into the pillow.
Nghโฆ Gray blanketโฆ?
The brunette opened her eyes again and stared at the unfamiliar blanket. Her eyes widened, and she threw it aside so violently that she nearly fell off the bed.
Sitting upright only made her head spin and she groaned as she massaged her temples. โGodโฆ How much did I drink last night?โ
Then she froze as the realization hit her.ย
She was sleeping in an unfamiliar room.
Immediately, Risa lifted the rest of the blanket and inspected herself from head to toe.
Then from toe to head again.
Her clothes were completely intact.
Relief washed over her like a soothing wave. But thenโฆ Where was she?!
Slowly, she swung her legs over the side of the bed and stood up.
Or at least tried to.
Her knees almost buckled.
โWaitโฆ Yesterday, I went to that group date with Maya and Ayako, right?โ Her voice was huskier than usual. She cleared her throat, only to feel a sharp sting at the back of it.
Despite the protest deep inside her throat, she ignored it and tried to piece together her memories.
Cocktails, university studentsโฆ Some annoying guy.
Who was it? Minato? Haruto?
Noโฆ Yuito.
It was definitely Yuito.
He'd been way too pushy from the very beginning!
Risa's eyes widened as another thought struck her.
That man had placed his hand over her drink multiple times.
Did he spike it?!
Her head still felt heavy, and she was unbelievably thirsty.
She needed water. But more importantlyโฆ She needed to get out of here.
And if this really was Yuito's apartment, she was definitely punching him in the face.
Groaning, she opened the bedroom door.
Then she froze as a spacious living room greeted her.
Large windows overlooked Tokyo Tower beneath a beautiful blue sky, making her squint against the morning light.
A huge television.
A black sofa.
A small dining table beside the kitchen.
Everything was neat.
Beautiful.
And strangelyโฆ
Lonely.
Like one of those model rooms that no one actually lived in.
She forced herself to walk away from the apparent bedroom and past the living room. She couldn't help admiring how beautiful the apartment was, but her body instinctively carried her toward the kitchen.
Risa vividly remembered Yuito mentioning that he lived outside Tokyo... right? So how come Tokyo Tower was right outside the window?
She closed her eyes for a moment to steady the dizziness and reached out a hand for support.
But insteadโHer hand slipped.
โAwwโฆโ She landed squarely on her butt and grumbled as she rubbed her sore backside. โHow come the wall moved just now...?โ
Annoyed, she looked to her right at the apparent moving wall.
Then she froze.
If her eyes could widen any further, they probably would.
Standing in front of the sink was a blue-haired man.
His hair was still wet, tiny droplets lazily trailing down his neck. A toothbrush rested between his lips.
He wasn't wearing a shirt.
Risa's eyes went to his face.
Then drifted down to his lean, toned chest.
Huh...?
His shoulders and chest carried a very light tan.
Waitโฆ Chest?
Her gaze dropped lower.
...
Oh.
A towel was wrapped around his waist.
That was all.
His blue eyes widened as he stared down at her.
Risa stared right back.
After a split secondโperhaps because of her hangoverโher brain finally registered the face in front of her.
The face she hadn't seen in so long. It took her a moment to recognize him without his glasses.
โHiโโ Her breath caught.
For a moment, her mind went completely blank.
How long had it been? Four... Five years?
The memory of him smiling gently at her during the farewell party at Daisuke's house resurfaced without warning.
Then she blinked, bringing herself back to the present.
Her eyes drifted downward.
...
Oh right.
He was only wearing a towel.
โKYAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!โ
Risa screamed so loudly that the man immediately covered his ears.
โHarada!โ He hurriedly spat the toothpaste into the sink and wiped his mouth. โYou'll scare the neighbors!โ
Risa scrambled backward in panic as heat rushed to her face.
Unfortunately, the blue-haired man stepped closer. Still dressed exactly the same.
Her mouth hung open, and despite herself, her eyes wandered from his face down to his exposed torso.
Twenty-year-old Hiwatari Satoshi had grown.
A lot.
His once pale skin had become lightly tanned, and his shoulders were broader than she remembered.
Andโ
No.
No, no, no.
Was thatโฆย
Abs?!
Risa's face turned an even brighter shade of red. She was absolutely certain of it.
Hiwatari-kun sighed and ran a hand through his damp hair, brushing it back from his forehead.
And somehow that only made it worse.
โWh-Why are you here, Hi... Hiwatari-kun?โ
Even saying his name felt strange, especially after avoiding every conversation about him since he left Azumano.
โThis is my apartment.โย
His answer was as short as ever.
Then, as though nothing unusual was happeningโas though he wasn't standing shirtless right in front of herโhe calmly extended his hand.
โCan you stand?โ
She glanced at the offered hand.
And immediately, her eyes traveled right past it and landed on his chest again.
Risa felt her face growing hotter and hotter.
Then suddenly, her stomach lurched. She slapped a hand over her mouth.
Stumbling to her feet, she hurried away, throwing open one door after another in a panic until she finally found the toilet.
She barely managed to lift the toilet lid before she threw up.
Ughโฆ This was the worst.
No sooner had she caught her breath than another wave hit her.
After what felt like an eternity, she weakly pressed the flush button before sinking down onto the floor.
Her head still hurts.
Her throat burned, and she could feel tears gathering in the corners of her eyes, forced out during her battle with her stomach.
Looking up, she found Hiwatari standing nearby with a mug in his hand.
Half of his damp hair still clung to his forehead, while the rest had been brushed back. His brows were tightly knitted together with concern.
โAre you alright?โ He held out the mug.
Water.
Risa nodded weakly in thanks and drank it in one go.
Without a word, Hiwatari-kun took the empty mug and disappeared.
A few seconds later, he returned and quietly offered his hand again. โAre you feeling better? Can you stand?โ
Risa looked up at him.
Honestly, she already felt much better after throwing up, though her head was still heavy.
Slowly, she placed her hand in his and tried to push herself to her feet.
Without warning, however, Hiwatari-kun effortlessly pulled her upright before she had the chance.
โAhโ!โ
Still dizzy, she lost her balance and stumbled forward, crashing face-first into his bare chest.
Her eyes widened as the coolness of his skin brushed against her cheek, probably because he'd just stepped out of the shower.
She instinctively tried to push herself away.
Unfortunately, both her hands landed squarely against his bare chest instead.
โWaa! S-Sorry!โ
She immediately turned her face away.
Gosh! That was a nice chestโ
No!
I mean... tonedโ
No!
Firmโ
NO!
Stop thinking, idiot!
She screamed internally, completely oblivious to the fact that she was now hiding her face and fanning herself furiously, as though it would somehow cool the heat burning in her cheeks.
But, how did she end up in Hiwatari-kun's apartment?
And why him, of all people?!
Unable to stop her racing thoughts, Risa stole another glance.
And immediately regretted it.
He had gotten so tall. What was he now? One hundred eighty centimeters? More?
And that bodyโ
No, no, no!
Did Hiwatari-kun work out?!
Her face grew even hotter. She shook her head furiously, desperately trying to fling every image of his chest and abs out of her mind.
Thenโ
โPffโฆโ
A small sound escaped from the person in front of her.
Risa blinked.
There, she found Hiwatari-kun covering his mouth with one hand.ย
โWh-What?โ She mumbled.ย
He looked away slightly.
โNo... I just...โ She could hear him take a deep breath, as though he were trying to stop himself from laughing. โI didn't imagine you'd react like that.โ
Between his fingers, Risa could see him...
Hiwatari Satoshi.
Laughing?
Risa's jaw dropped.
Five years ago, she'd seen Daisuke-kun slowly bring Hiwatari-kun out of his shell. She'd seen him smile around Daisuke-kun and Saehara.
But she'd never seen him laugh.
Not like this.
Not so naturally.
Somehow, that realization made her chest tighten.
It reminded her just how much time had passed since they'd last seen each other.
There had been nothing connecting them during those five years. No letters. No phone calls. Nothing.
She had never once tried to contact him.
Neither had he.
She'd always believed that had been the right choice.
Yet somehow, by some ridiculous twist of fate, she was standing in front of Hiwatari Satoshi once again.
Without thinking, Risa curled her hand into a fist and pressed it against her chest.
Maybe it would somehow ease the ache growing inside it.
โDo you want to freshen up? Take a shower? You can wash your clothes too. They smell like smoke from the yakitori.โ
The sound of Hiwatari-kun's voice snapped her out of her thoughts.
She looked up and noticed the strange expression on his face.
Concern.
Maybe he'd noticed the sudden shift in her mood.
Pushing the thought aside, she blinked. โWhat?โ
Hiwatari-kun looked slightly taken aback before quietly repeating himself.
Risa lifted her sleeve and took a deep sniff.
He was right. Her clothes smelled strongly of smoke. She could even smell it in her hair.
Hiwatari-kun disappeared into the bedroom and returned a moment later carrying a black silk button-up pajama set.
Without looking directly at her, he held it out.
โYou can use this while your clothes are drying.โ
Risa accepted the pajamas.
Hiwatari-kun walked past her, filled the mug with water, and placed it on the dining table in front of her.
Without another word, he disappeared into the bathroom and slid the door shut.
A moment later, the sound of a hairdryer echoed throughout the apartment.
Should I really accept his offer?
It's already awkward enough seeing him again after five years.
Maybe I should just go home...
She slowly walked over to the dining table and sipped the water.
After throwing up, she definitely felt better. Her head was still spinning a little, though. She certainly didn't feel clean after having her head over the toilet.
But if she accepted his offer...
She'd probably have to stay for a few more hours while her clothes dried.
Her heart already felt like it was about to burst out of her chest.
If she stayed any longer, she was certain she'd only embarrass herself all over again.
Suddenly, the bathroom's sliding door opened, making Risa jump.
The water nearly spilled over the rim of the mug, but she managed to steady it just in time.
Hiwatari-kun stepped out of the bathroom.
His light blue hairโwhich she now realized was shorter than it had been five years agoโwas already dry.
His short blue hair was styled more neatly than she remembered, the fringe no longer falling over his eyes but brushed back to reveal his forehead.
He still wasn't wearing his glasses, making him look so different from the Hiwatari Risa remembered. Somehow, it made him feel even more like a stranger.
"Go ahead."
He simply stood there, as though waiting for her to use the bathroom.
Once again, Risa's eyes drifted downward, and she nearly let out another scream.
She couldn't believe he still hadn't changed after drying his hair!
Hiwatari-kun remained perfectly still, his usual stoic expression fixed on her. Somehow, that alone calmed her down a little.
He then walked past her and reached for the pair of glasses resting on the dining table. Slipping them on with practiced ease, the unfamiliar man from a moment ago quietly disappeared.
There he was.
Hiwatari-kun.
Somehow, seeing the familiar face again eased the last of her embarrassment, and the urge to finally wash up quietly returned.
She took a deep breath and carefully set the mug down on the dining table.
โTh-Thank you. I'll be using your shower.โ
Half-running, she slid the bathroom door shut and locked it.
Then she finally let out the breath she'd been holding, sighing so loudly that Hiwatari-kun had probably heard it from outside.
Once again, she cupped her burning face.
Desperately trying to erase the image of Hiwatari-kun standing there wearing nothing but a towel.
โWhy...โ she whispered, burying her face in her hands. โWhy did you have to appear in front of me again...?โ
The image of the fifteen-year-old Hiwatari-kun quietly surfaced in her mind.
The boy who had stood beside her.
The boy she'd asked for help.
The boy she'd unknowingly hurt.
A familiar ache spread through her chest.
Risa slowly raised her head and looked at her reflection in the mirror. Her face was puffy from the alcohol, and most of her makeup had worn off.
Even soโฆ She could still tell how miserable she looked.
Her brows were tightly knitted together. The familiar redness had already begun creeping back around her eyes and nose as she struggled to hold back her tears.
That's strange...
She'd always believed the guilt had faded with time.
That after five yearsโฆ It wouldn't hurt this much anymore.
But seeing Hiwatari-kun againโ
Really seeing him.
Hearing his voice.
Meeting those blue eyes she'd spent years avoiding in her memories.
She finally understood.
Time hadn't healed anything.
They had only made it easier to pretend it wasn't there.
Shaking her head, she absentmindedly slipped out of her clothes.
Going on autopilot had always been one of her coping mechanisms.
She needed to calm down.
Opening the washing machine, she tossed everything inside.
Fortunately, there was already detergent loaded, and the settings had been left on automatic.
She pressed the wash-and-dry cycle and the machine began to hum.
As it started running, she glanced around the bathroom.
It barely had anything. It almost felt as though it lacked a personality. Just like she'd imagined Hiwatari-kun's bathroom would be. That thought calmed her a little.
At least the Hiwatari-kun she remembered still seemed to exist, even if those memories were five years out of date.
Slowly, she opened the shower door, and warm air immediately greeted her.
The steam from Hiwatari-kun's shower hadn't completely cleared yet.
The thought that he'd been standing there only moments agoโIn only a towel.
Risa covered her face.
No! What am I? A pervert?!
After giving herself a firm slap on the cheek, she finally stepped inside.
She was surprised to discover that Hiwatari-kun used a shampoo with a refreshing herbal scent.
For some reason, she'd always imagined he was the type to buy one bottle that claimed to do everything.
Apparently, he took better care of himself than she'd expected.
After gargling several times and enjoying the hot shower, she finally felt refreshed.
Her headache wasn't gone. But she definitely felt better.
Stepping out, she grabbed the fluffy white towel and dried herself before wrapping it around her hair.
Then she reached for the black silk pajamas.
But stopped.
โHuh?โ
She checked again.
And again.
โNo...โ
โNo, no, no...โ
Frantically, she searched through the pajama set.
The towel rack.
The sink.
Then...
Slowly...
Her eyes shifted toward the washing machine.
The color drained from her face.
Her jaw dropped.
โDid I just wash my underwear too?!โ she hissed to herself as she stared in horror at the humming washing machine.
There, tumbling together with her turtleneck and short skirt...
Was her underwear.
โNOOOOOOO!!โ
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Satoshi's POV
Satoshi flinched when he heard the muffled scream coming from the bathroom.
He left everything on the kitchen counter and hurried toward the sliding door.
โHarada! What happened? Are you okay?โ
He knocked loudly, surprised by how panicked he sounded.
โAh, s-sorry! It was nothing!โ
Her muffled voice came from the other side of the door, sounding slightly higher than before.
He blinked and let out a quiet sigh of relief.
His hand remained against the door frame for another few seconds before he finally let it fall to his side.
His thoughts drifted back to Harada.
He'd already told himself this yesterday.
She really hadn't changed all that much.
Or at least, that was what he'd been trying to convince himself.
Because the truth was...
His mind kept wandering to the subtle differences.
The softness that had settled into her features.
The longer hair framing her face.
The quiet femininity she'd grown into over the past five years.
And somehow...
His eyes kept noticing things they never had before.
The curve of her lips.
The way the black turtleneck hugged her figure.
...
Had they always been like that?
He couldn't remember.
Satoshi adjusted his glasses and shook his head.
No.
Dwelling on thoughts like these would do him no good.
Returning to the kitchen, he checked on the grilled salmon.
He dropped a block of instant miso into each bowl before pouring hot water over them. As the blocks slowly dissolved, the familiar aroma of miso filled the kitchen.
It had been a long time since he'd prepared something like this.
His stomach growled, reminding him that he'd skipped dinner the night before.
So he'd gone to prepare breakfastโNo. It was almost noon already.
His refrigerator usually contained nothing but water, the occasional energy drink, and a few cans of beer.
After Harada had gone to shower, he'd walked to the supermarket five minutes away and bought rice packs, instant miso soup, and grilled salmon.
Spending years around hungover police officers had taught him that a proper meal usually helped settle the stomach.
As for headachesโฆ Only time and water could help.
Moving over to the coffee machine, Satoshi unconsciously relaxed.
It was probably the only thing in his apartment he'd spent more than an hour choosing.
Everything else had been bought as part of a matching set.
Opening the cabinet, he looked through his collection before eventually choosing the Colombian beans.
He ground them carefully and let the machine slowly brew the coffee while its rich aroma gradually filled the apartment.
The grilled salmon was done.
He transferred it onto two plates before heating two rice packs in the microwave.
Once they were ready, he spooned the rice into two bowls before arranging everything neatly on the dining table.
The coffee finished last.
After cleaning the machine, he carried the cups over and finally sat down.
Opening the morning newspaper, Satoshi took a sip of his coffee.
He was wearing a navy shirt beneath a beige sweater.
Despite the February weather, he hadn't felt the need to turn on the heater.
Then he blinked.
He'd only given Harada his pajamas.
Without thinking, he stood up, switched on the heater in the living room, and returned to his seat.
Rolling his sleeves up to his elbows, he crossed one leg over the other and spread the newspaper across his lap.
He read in silence for what felt like ten minutes.
His coffee was already gone.
Every now and then, his eyes drifted from the articles to the dining table.
The miso soup.
The grilled salmon.
The rice.
They were probably getting cold already.
Perhaps he should have prepared everything later.
But Harada sure was taking her time.
Is she alright?
Satoshi distinctly remembered hearing the hairdryer stop almost five minutes ago.
Eventually, he folded the newspaper, set it down on the table, and walked toward the bathroom.
He knocked twice on the sliding door. โHarada?โ
โY-Yes!โ
He could almost picture her flinching on the other side.
โYou okay? If you're done, I could make you some coffee.โ He paused before adding, โIf you want some.โ
โOh... S-Sure. I would appreciate a black coffee.โ
Huh.
Now that was interesting.
Harada Risa liked black coffee.
His information about her stopped five years ago, and based on that, he'd always assumed she would prefer something like a cafรฉ latte.
So it was interesting to learn that she drank black coffee instead.
โOkay. Take your time.โ
He returned to the kitchen and spent a moment deciding which beans to use.
He had recently bought some Panamanian beans that were surprisingly good, so he took them out and patiently waited as the machine slowly dripped the dark liquid into the cup.
Dark.
Satoshi frowned slightly.
It had been years since that word had stirred anything in him.
He'd thought he'd gotten used to it.
Yet somehow, he found himself thinking about it again.
Was it because he'd met Harada?
Just then, the bathroom door slid open.
He lifted his head to greet herโ
And froze.
Harada stepped out shyly, her long brown hair draped over both shoulders.
His black silk pajamas practically swallowed her whole.
The sleeves had been rolled up several times, and the loose collar dipped lower than it should, brushing against one collarbone.
But that wasn't all.
His eyes widened as the rest of the picture registered.
She wasn't wearing anything underneath.
The pajama shirt reached only to the middle of her thighs, and one hand kept tugging futilely at the hem in an attempt to pull it lower, only to expose more of her neck instead.
Satoshi immediately turned his face away.
Catching his reaction, Harada quickly defended herself.
"I-I didn't have any choice! The pants were way too long, and I couldn't tighten the waistband!"
Her cheeks had already turned pink.
Unfortunately, Satoshi could feel warmth creeping into his own face as well.
โPlease... take your seat,โ he managed, keeping his eyes firmly fixed on the coffee machine.
Harada carefully walked over to the dining table, pulled out a chair, and sat down.
As she did, her hair slipped behind one shoulder, and she hurriedly pulled it back to the front again.
The coffee machine released a soft puff of warm air as it finished brewing.
He discarded the used grounds before carrying her cup and his own over to the table.
As he set her coffee beside her, he noticed the oversized pajama shirt had slipped just enough to reveal the curve of her shoulder.
He immediately averted his eyes.
Then the scent reached him.
His shampoo.
On her.
Satoshi adjusted his glasses and calmly returned to his seat, doing his best to maintain his composure.
โThank you,โ Harada said. โAnd Hiwatari-kun... did you cook? Sorry for the trouble.โ
She fidgeted with her hair, but he could hear the excitement in her voice.
At the same time, he could sense the awkwardness in the way she addressed him so formally.
โIt was only instant food.โ
He still couldn't bring himself to look at her properly, so he kept his gaze fixed on her face whenever he glanced up.
Harada shifted in her seat.
Strangely enough, seeing Harada Risa acting awkward around him eased some of the tension in his own chest.
โHow's your head? Can you eat?โ he finally asked, keeping his eyes on hers.
Her large brown eyes met his.
For a brief moment, nostalgia washed over him.
โMuch better than before. Thanks to you.โ She offered him a small smile.
Satoshi lowered his gaze. He'd missed seeing that smile.
Back in middle school, she'd smiled like that all the time.
Especially whenever she talked about that man.
He picked up his chopsticks and quietly began eating.
Harada followed suit.
After taking a sip of her coffee, her face immediately brightened.
โWow! This is really good!โ
A small smile escaped him before he lifted his own cup. โI'm glad.โ
Harada continued with the miso soup, spending the next few minutes praising the meal.
In Satoshi's opinion, it was completely unnecessary.ย
โI believe you're praising me too much, Harada,โ he finally said.
โNo, that's not true. I could never imagine you cooking, Hiwatari-kun.โ
Well. Fair enough.
โI don't cook very often.โ Silence settled between them, broken only by the soft clink of chopsticks and bowls.
Then Harada spoke again. โDid you eat properly?โ
Satoshi looked up.
"You used to skip breakfast. Sometimes lunch too."
There was genuine concern in her eyes.
He rarely saw anyone look at him that way. Most people assumed he had everything under control. Very few ever stopped to wonder if he was doing alright.
โI get the nutrition I need.โ
โYeah... I guess you do,โ she blurted out before quickly covering her mouth.
Her gaze dropped to his chest.
Satoshi raised an eyebrow. But she didn't elaborate. Instead, she quietly returned to her meal, her cheeks already turning pink again.
It was... interesting.
Whenever Harada blushed, the color had always spread to her neck first.
Without meaning to, his gaze drifted toward her collarbone again.
Satoshi swallowed and forced his attention back to the last few bits of his grilled salmon.
โSo... you're living in Tokyo now?โ he asked.
Harada looked surprised by the sudden change in topic.
โYes. I'm currently enrolled at the University of Tokyo.โ
His eyebrows lifted. โThe University of Tokyo?โ
Of course he was surprised. It was the most prestigious university in the country.
He'd attended middle school and a year of high school with her, and while he'd always known she was hardworking, he'd never expected her to end up there.
Harada immediately caught his expression and pouted.
โHey! I worked hard to get into Todai, you know!โ She stuffed a large bite of rice into her mouth and sulked while chewing.
โWhich major?โ
โCollege of Design.โ
Satoshi slowly set down his chopsticks. โFigured.โ
Harada glared at him again.
And strangely enough, something warm stirred inside him.
Amusement?
No...
Something nostalgic.
Something he hadn't felt in a very long time.
Because Harada Risa used to look at him like that all the time.
He waited for Harada to finish eating before standing up. Gathering the trays, he stacked the dirty plates and chopsticks together.
Once again, he tried not to look.
But his eyes betrayed him.
Now that she was sitting down, he realized that while the pajama shirt was long on her, it barely covered the tops of her thighs.
Stop looking.
He silently scolded himself and quickly carried the dishes to the sink.
โHiwatari-kun, I'll help!โ Harada stood and walked over.
With the difference in their heights, Satoshi stood nearly a full head taller than her.
As she stepped closer, the loose collar of the oversized shirt shifted just enough for him to catch a glimpse of her collarbone before his gaze instinctively dropped a little lower.
?!?!
He immediately looked away.
So that was why she'd screamed in the bathroom.
Satoshi let out a long sigh and held out a hand between them, desperately trying to keep some distance.
Or at least keep his eyes off her.
"No, don't worry, Harada. I'm just putting them in the dishwasher."
"No, I can help," she insisted, bending down to look for it.
As she crouched, the oversized pajama shirt shifted forward with her.
Fortunately, Satoshiย happenedย to glance up at the ceiling at exactly the right moment, narrowly avoiding a sight he'd definitely regret.
"Ah! There it is!" She pulled open the dishwasher and looked back at him.
Satoshi had already turned completely away from her, much to her confusion.
"Harada, you're the guest. Please... just sit down." He could feel warmth creeping into his face. His ears were probably red by now.
A moment later, Harada finally realized the oversized shirt wasn't covering nearly as much as she'd thought. She gasped softly, quickly clutching the collar closed before taking a hurried step back. โS-Sorry.โ
Satoshi was about to tell her she didn't need to apologize.
Butโฆ Well. Considering the amount of trouble she was causing him now... He'd accept the apology.
โYou have to wait for your clothes to dry anyway, right? The remote is on the round table.โ Adjusting his glasses, Satoshi quickly loaded the dishwasher.
A moment later, he heard the television switch on.
Once the dishwasher was running, he joined her in the living room and sat on the opposite end of the sofa.
"I envy your apartment. The view is spectacular," she said absentmindedly as she flipped through the channels before settling on the news.
Satoshi noticed she'd placed a throw pillow on her lap. Resting his elbow on the armrest, he leaned his head against his hand.
"It sure is."
His gaze drifted toward Harada before he caught himself. That wasn't the view she was talking about.
Fortunately, she didn't seem to notice.
He quietly turned his attention back to the news. The television continued playing in front of them, yet not a single word registered in Satoshi's mind.
They simply sat there.
Five years without seeing each other. No proper goodbye. No confession.
Though, he was fairly certain Harada had known.
It didn't really matter. Back then, there had never been room for him.
Not while her heart still belonged to him.
Satoshi stole another glance at her.
She appeared focused on the news, but he knew her well enough to recognize that her thoughts were elsewhere.
He allowed himself a few more precious seconds to study her face before breaking the silence.
โHow are you finding life in Tokyo?โ
She looked surprised before turning her attention back to the television. โIt's fun. I've made lots of friends at university, and it's so much easier to find things than in Azumano.โ
Still resting his head against one hand, Satoshi looked at her. โYou've certainly made some... interesting friends.โ
It took Harada a second to understand what he meant.
Her face immediately turned red. โThat wasn't my friend! We only met!โ
Satoshi merely raised an eyebrow. That didn't explain very much.
He was about to say something else. But then againโฆ Who was he to lecture her?
He sighed softly. "You have to be careful, Harada. You know how men can be."
She slowly turned toward him.
Then Satoshi paused.
She was smiling. Yet somehow... It didn't reach her eyes.
"Yeah, I know."
She gave him a bright smile, the kind that made her eyes close.
Except this time, it felt practiced.
Too practiced.
Taken aback, Satoshi fell silent. His fingers tightened around the armrest.
She looked as though she was holding herself together by sheer force of habit.
โHaโโ He was about to call her name when she interrupted him.
โSo... tell me about yourself.โ She hugged the throw pillow tightly against her chest.
He had interviewed victims before.
People who insisted they were fine.
People who smiled because it was easier than explaining what was wrong.
Harada's smile reminded him of them.
As though something inside her had broken long ago.
Something he had no idea how to fix.
He decided to follow the topic she'd offered instead of pursuing what he'd just seen.
โI've been working in the police force.โ
โFigured,โ she shot back immediately.
Satoshi looked at her for a moment. He tried to think of what else to tell her. But when he searched his memories... All he found was work.
โI think that's about it. Everything else is basically the same.โ
โEh?! Don't you have any more personal stories than that?โ She turned toward him, and he was surprised by how quickly the atmosphere around her had changed.
โUnfortunately, I don't have much drama in my life, Harada.โ He answered calmly, never taking his eyes off her.
She looked down and slowly crossed one leg over the other.
โDaisuke-kun and Riku got engaged.โ
So she calls Daisuke by his first name now.
โYes. He told me.โ
Harada's eyes widened slightly. โOh... I didn't see you at the engagement party.โ
โI wasn't able to attend in person.โ
Because he'd been watching her so closely, he caught the brief flicker of disappointment on her face.
"Well... Saehara got a girlfriend, you know." She shifted her legs again.
A small smile softened Satoshi's expression. "That, I didn't know."
She smiled back.
Once again, silence settled between them.
Strangely enough, now that they'd spoken normally again, the distance between them felt a little smaller.
Yet at the same time, Satoshi found himself thinking about the five years he'd missed.
There had been days when she laughed.
Days when she cried.
Friends she'd met.
Memories she'd made.
An entire chapter of her life that had unfolded without him.
None of it belonged to him.
Those five years would always remain a part of her life he knew nothing about.
Even so...
The silence between them no longer felt quite so distant.
Maybe he stillโ
The cheerful melody of the washing machine interrupted his thoughts.
Both he and Harada froze.
Even after the melody ended, neither of them moved.
The television continued playing in the background, but Satoshi noticed Harada gently biting her lower lip.
Perhaps neither of them wanted to break this moment just yet.
Or return to reality.
A few minutes later, Harada quietly stood up and walked past him. Once again, the faint scent of his shampoo lingered as she passed.
The bathroom door slid shut, leaving Satoshi alone on the sofa.
This is it.
She would leave. And both of their lives would return toย normal.
Today had simply been a strange coincidence.
They were nothing more than old acquaintances who had happened to meet again after five years.
At least... That was probably how she saw him.
Satoshi sighed.
He'd thought time and distance would eventually do their job.
Five years had passed before he knew it.
Somewhere along the way, he'd convinced himself that not knowing how Harada was doing was simply part of moving on.
But seeing her again...
All the distance he'd spent five years putting between them crumbled far more easily than he'd expected.
He stood.
Somehow, his feet had carried him to the bathroom before he'd even made the decision to move.
Maybeโฆ He'd been too quick to assume this would be the last time.
If they had another thirty minutes...
Another walk home...
He wouldn't have minded.
Suddenly, the door slid open.
Harada blinked in surprise when she found him standing there.
It was another busy night at the Tokyo Metropolitan Police Department Headquarters.
A fatal hit-and-run had occurred at the famous Shibuya Crossing, and officers were still tracking down the suspect.
Standing behind his desk, surrounded by maps of Tokyo spread out in complete disorder, the young blue-haired man listened to reports coming in one after another, his mind working overtime as always.
He adjusted his glasses. โHave you established contact with the helicopters?โ
โYes, sir!โ
Satoshi nodded. โWe've identified the type of vehicle. Based on its speed, the time of the collision, and current traffic conditions, I've narrowed it down to five possible escape routes.โ
He pointed toward the map.
โHelicopter One, search routes one and two. There aren't many high-rise buildings in those areas, so you should be able to cover both.โ
โRoger!โ
โTeam Alpha, proceed to route three. Be careful. There will still be plenty of pedestrians. He won't be able to drive through the crowd, but a desperate suspect is dangerous.โ
โUnderstood!โ
โTeam Beta, head to route four. Use motorcycles. They'll make it easier to navigate the alleyways.โ
โAnd finally, have Helicopter Two check route five. It's near the bay, so there's a possibility he abandoned the vehicle and escaped on foot. I'll dispatch a support team to conduct a ground search.โ
The teams immediately sprang into action.
Headquarters was filled with elite officers who had proven themselves across Japan before being recruited to the capital.
Satoshi was different.
His father had connections among the higher-ups within the Tokyo Metropolitan Police Department.
Five years ago, after his rather suddenย disappearance, one of those executives had personally contacted him and asked whether he would be interested in joining Headquarters.
They were in desperate need of younger talent.
Satoshi accepted and moved to Tokyo.
Over the next five years, he proved himself time and time again. Three promotions followed, and his record quickly filled with solved cases.
Now, at only twenty years old, Hiwatari Satoshi was already leading a team within the First Investigation Divisionโone of the harshest and most demanding divisions in the entire Criminal Investigation Bureau.
Satoshi adjusted his glasses once more before settling into his chair. Resting an elbow on the desk, he massaged his temple while watching the monitors before him.
The massive display wall was divided into dozens of smaller screens showing body camera footage, dashboard cameras, and live feeds from the helicopters.
Five teams moved simultaneously across Tokyo, and Satoshi's eyes shifted from one screen to the next in rapid succession. They had to catch the suspect tonight. If he escaped, it would take far more manpower and resources to track him down later.
And Hiwatari Satoshi hated inefficiency.
After a grueling forty-five-minute pursuitโ
โSuspect apprehended!โ
โVehicle secured!โ
Cheers erupted throughout the operations room.
Satoshi leaned back in his chair and closed his eyes in relief.
Clap, clap.
He slowly opened them again. Only one person in the entire Headquarters would dare applaud beside him.
โLooks like you did it again, Satoshi.โ
Fujiwara Masato, Director of the Criminal Investigation Bureau, grinned broadly at him.
โNow we're finally free from the hungry media waiting outside.โ
The man, now in his fifties, was enormousโeven by Western standards. Standing one hundred and eighty-five centimeters tall and built like a former rugby player, he looked as though his suit sleeves might burst at any moment.
Satoshi immediately stood and saluted.
โExcellent work.โ
SMACK.
Fujiwara landed a heavy slap on his back.
โEver since you joined us, the number of suspects caught on the very first day after a vehicle pursuit has increased by thirty percent!โ
SMACK.
โThirty percent!โ
Satoshi's expression remained unchanged. He was used to it by now. In some ways, Fujiwara-san reminded him of his father.
โAnd to think you're only twenty... and still single.โ The older man sighed dramatically. โWhat a waste. I really wish you'd marry my daughter already.โ
Satoshi had already declined the proposal more times than he could count. Unfortunately, Fujiwara-san had no intention of giving up.
โThank you for your kind words, Director Fujiwara. It was a team effort.โ
SMACK.
โOh, come on! Don't be so stiff!โ the older man laughed. โYou've practically been living in this building all week! If you rack up any more overtime, the labor inspectors are going to come after me!โ
Although Fujiwara-san was smiling, Satoshi knew the order was genuine. His overtime hours were approaching the legal limit once again. If it continued, the department itself could face serious consequences.
Satoshi let out a quiet sigh before bowing.
โI gratefully accept your consideration, Director Fujiwara. I will take tomorrow off.โ
โAnd the day after that too!โ Fujiwara pointed a finger at him. โThat's an order!โ
Before Satoshi could respond, several aides surrounded the Director of the Criminal Investigation Bureau and hurried him toward the press room.
Satoshi finally allowed himself to relax.
One of the conditions he'd made when joining the force was simple.
No media appearances.
Fortunately, thanks to the department's high success rate, most press conferences ended on a positive note, and Fujiwara-san handled them personally.
After finalizing his report, Satoshi grabbed his jacket and bid his teammates a brief farewell before leaving the office.
The cold February air greeted him the moment he stepped out of the rear entrance of the Tokyo Metropolitan Police Headquarters, avoiding the crowd of reporters and curious onlookers gathered at the front.
Satoshi tucked his hands into the pockets of his coat and let out a quiet sigh.
The work was exhausting.
But if he was being honest, he enjoyed it.
After Dark disappeared, there wasn't much left for him to do at the Azumano Police Department. So when Fujiwara-san contacted him five years ago with an offer to join Headquarters, he accepted without much hesitation.
Besidesโฆ If he didn't bury himself in work, he'd end up with too much free time.
And with free time came memories.
Memories of Azumano.
Memories he preferred not to dwell on.
Suddenly, his stomach growled. Satoshi stopped walking.
Come to think of it...
He'd skipped both lunch and dinner again.
His apartment was only a thirty-minute walk from Headquarters, but as usual, the refrigerator contained nothing except bottled water and beer.
After a brief moment of consideration, he changed direction.
An izakaya would do.
The owner welcomed him warmly and guided him to a seat at the counter.
One of the waitresses offered to take his coat and suit jacket. As Satoshi handed them over, he noticed her cheeks gradually turning pink. Choosing not to make her any more flustered than she already was, he simply closed his eyes and thanked her.
At twenty years old, with slightly shorter hair and a pair of glasses, he looked older than his age. More than once, people had mistaken him for someone in his late twenties.
After thanking the waitress, he ordered a salad, sashimi, a few skewers of yakitori, and a beer.
Over the years, he'd grown accustomed to drinking. Most police officers seemed to survive on either cigarettes or beer.
Satoshi had chosen the latter.
While waiting for his order, he glanced around the restaurant. It was his first time visiting this place.
Since it was Friday night, the izakaya was packed. Warm yellow lights bathed the room, and despite the lively chatter, the atmosphere felt surprisingly comfortable.
Somehow, he'd grown accustomed to Tokyo.
Azumano was small. You were bound to run into someone you knew almost every day.
Tokyo, on the other hand, was the complete opposite.
So many people.
So many strangers.
And somehowโฆ He liked that.
Aside from the occasional talent scout or modeling agent who tried to hand him a business card every other week, life around Headquarters and his apartment was peaceful.
"Come on! You can drink more than that!"
The loud voice from behind shattered his thoughts.
Satoshi sighed.
This was the downside of Tokyo.
People became noisy the moment alcohol entered the picture.
Especially university students.
He ignored the voices and took another sip of his beer.
There seemed to be six of them.
Probably a group date, judging by the way they were seated.
โHey, I think sheโs really out.โ One of the girls sounded worried.
โWow, sheโs completely gone. You didnโt put something in her drink, did you?โ a young man laughed awkwardly.
Even though he had whispered the last part, it was still loud enough for Satoshi to hear. Judging by the uncomfortable look on the owner's face, everyone else had heard it too.
Satoshi frowned.
Five years in the force had probably sharpened his instincts too much.
Stillโฆ It was probably nothing serious.
Just a university student who had drunk too much. Even Satoshi occasionally got dragged out for drinks with his colleagues, and some of them could literally pass out after one drink too many.
โWell, I'll take her home then! See you guys!โ the young man laughed.
A chorus of whistles erupted from the table. โOi! You're totally aiming for something!โ
โI knew it! You've liked her ever since I showed you her picture before this group date!โ one of the girls complained.
โGeez, I didn't think you'd go that far,โ another girl muttered. โAnyway, take care of Risa, okay?โ
Satoshi froze.
What? No... it's just a coincidence.
He told himself that immediately.
But before his mind could stop him, his head snapped toward the group so quickly that his arm knocked the chopsticks resting on top of his plate, sending them clattering onto the floor.
There, a young man with shoulder-length hair was supporting a brunette woman who could barely stand. One of her arms hung limply over his shoulder as he guided her toward the exit.
The chair scraped loudly against the floor as Satoshi stood.
Without hesitation, he pulled out his wallet and placed a ten-thousand-yen bill on the counter.
The owner looked at him in confusion, but Satoshi didn't spare him an explanation. He was already halfway to the exit before realizing he'd left his coat and suit jacket hanging by the entrance. Clicking his tongue under his breath, he grabbed them and hurried out of the izakaya.
Satoshi caught up with them just as they were about to get into a taxi.
The young woman was already slumped against the back seat.
The man was halfway inside when Satoshi seized his right arm, twisted it behind his back in a restraint hold, and slammed him against the side of the taxi.
โW-What the hell?!โ the young man cried out. The smell of alcohol hit Satoshi immediately.
Around them, several pedestrians slowed to watch. Even the taxi driver had stepped out of the vehicle.
Satoshi frowned.
Normally, he wouldn't act this recklessly in public. But tonight his patience was running dangerously thin.
Lowering his voice, he spoke a single word.
โPolice.โ
That alone was enough to drain the color from the young man's face.
โI heard your conversation inside.โ His grip tightened. โIf you really put something in her drink, we'll have it tested. Depending on the results, you'll be spending the night in a holding cell.โ
โN-No! Officer, it's a misunderstanding!โ The young man's face turned deathly pale. โI-I don't know what happened to her! Maybe she's just tiredโโ
Satoshi slammed him against the taxi once more. The entire vehicle rocked slightly, and the young man let out a frightened yelp.
โI don't care.โ His voice remained calm. โIf you don't want trouble, disappear.โ
The young man's body trembled.
โAnd if I ever hear you've used some kind ofย medicineย again...โ Satoshi's eyes narrowed behind his glasses. โPray I'm not the officer assigned to your case.โ
He released him.
The young man stumbled backward before collapsing onto the pavement. โM-Misunderstanding! Thank you! I'm sorry!โ
Barely able to stay on his feet, he turned and fled.
โSir!โ The elderly taxi driver stared at him in confusion. โWhat happened? Should we call an ambulance?โ
Satoshi took a slow breath.
โPlease wait a moment.โ He said then climbed into the taxi.
The brunette woman sat on the opposite side, completely unaware of the commotion. Her head rested against the window.
Fast asleep.
Slowly, almost carefully, Satoshi moved closer.
He was surprised by how loudly his heartbeat echoed in his ears. Without realizing it, he swallowed hard as his hesitant fingers brushed a few strands of hair away from her face.
His breath caught and he froze.
The sounds around them suddenly faded into silence.
It had been five years. Five years since he'd last seen her.
Yet somehowโฆ
Harada Risa hadn't changed very much.
Her hair was longer now, reaching almost to her back. And just as silky as he remembered.
Her cheeks were flushed red.
Maybe from the alcohol.
Maybe from whatever that idiot had slipped into her drink.
โWhat are you doing here... Harada?โ His voice was barely above a whisper.
Without realizing it, his fingertips gently brushed against her too warm cheek.
โSir?โ The taxi driver's voice behind him pulled him back to reality.
Satoshi blinked.
Quickly, he stepped out of the taxi and showed his badge. โI'm with the Metropolitan Police Department.โ
He briefly explained the situation and assured the elderly driver that he knew the young woman. Fortunately, the man seemed relieved.
โThen where should I take you?โ
Satoshi hesitated, then โI'll give you the address.โ
The words left his mouth so naturally that he didn't even realize he'd decided to bring Harada Risa back to his apartment.
The taxi driver nodded.
โIt's only five minutes away,โ Satoshi added before climbing back into the taxi.
The old driver closed the door behind him, and the brief silence returned.
Satoshi pinched the bridge of his nose beneath the frame of his glasses before adjusting the coat and suit jacket draped over his left arm.
The old man smiled as he settled back into the driver's seat.
โThat's lucky. The young woman should get some proper rest.โ
Satoshi silently agreed.
Lucky.
Because if he'd arrived even ten minutes laterโ
His grip on his thigh tightened, his fingers digging into the fabric of his trousers. His jaw clenched almost unconsciously. Satoshi rarely wore his emotions on his face, which was probably why he could feel his brow knitting together in annoyance now.
He closed his eyes and took a slow breath, trying to calm himself.
The taxi came to a gentle stop.
When he opened his eyes again, the familiar apartment building stood just outside the window.
They had arrived.
After paying the taxi driver extra for the trouble, Satoshi bent down and carefully lifted the sleeping girl into his armsโbridal style. His coat and suit jacket remained folded over one arm, unintentionally becoming a small cushion behind Harada's back, while her purse still rested neatly on her lap.
โEh?โ The elderly taxi driver blinked. โYou're strong, young man.โ
Satoshi simply nodded, choosing not to comment. โThank you for your help.โ
Thankfully, his apartment wasn't one of those luxurious high-rise condominiums. If it were, the lobby and elevators would still be crowded at this hour.
The last thing he wanted was unnecessary attention.
As soon as he entered the building, he glanced around.
No one.
Good.
He walked quickly toward the elevator and pressed the button.
The doors opened almost immediately.
Satoshi was relieved to find the elevator empty. He stepped inside, instinctively tightening his hold on Harada as he passed through the doorway.
A few seconds later, the elevator doors closed and began their ascent to the twelfth floor. Only then did he finally glance down.
Harada was sleeping peacefully against his chest. Her head rested lightly against him, and her breathing was calm. Her face was slightly flushed, but not alarmingly so.
She seemed comfortable.
Too comfortable.
And something inside him boiled again. If he had arrived just a few minutes later...
No.
Don't think about it.
A few moments later, the elevator doors opened. He walked straight to the apartment at the end of the hallway. After fumbling briefly with his keys, he stepped inside.
He kicked off his leather shoes rather ungracefully. Balancing Harada in his arms, he somehow managed to slip them off without using his hands before carefully making his way toward the bedroom.
Once inside his dark bedroom, Satoshi slowly lowered Harada onto the bed. Skillfully, he slipped his coat and suit jacket out from beneath her before gently letting her head rest on his pillow.
His right arm, still supporting her legs, remained hovering just above the sheets, careful not to let her shoes touch the bed.
With one smooth motion, he turned from facing the bed until his back was against it, all while keeping Harada's lower body supported on his right arm.
He sat down at the edge of the bed and rested both of her legs across his thighs.
The movement earned him a soft mumble from the sleeping woman.
Immediately, Satoshi froze.
โโฆHarada?โ
Satoshi looked up at her face, but the only response was her slow, steady breathing.
He sighed softly before gently taking hold of one of her ankles and reaching for the strap of her short heel. Satoshi wasn't familiar with women's shoes at all, but fortunately, this pair wasn't too complicated.
He managed to slip off the first heel before moving to her other foot. The feeling of her ankle resting against his thigh stirred something inside him, but he forced himself to focus on the shoes instead.
Within seconds, he had removed the other heel as well.
After a brief hesitation, Satoshi gently lifted her legs from his lap and laid them onto the bed.
He carried the pair back to the entrance before finally returning to put away his own leather shoes and hang up his suit jacket and coat properly.
Then, walking back into the bedroom, Satoshi reached into his pocket and pulled out a small penlight. Switching it on, he gently lifted one of her eyelids and examined her pupils.
Normal.
Breathing steady.
Her pulse was a little elevated, but not irregular.
No signs of distress.
He exhaled softly.
โI guess it was just sleeping pillsโฆโ
Loosening his necktie, Satoshi let out a deep sigh.
His gaze drifted to the woman sleeping peacefully on his bed, and he froze as reality finally caught up with him.
He had just brought Harada back to his own apartment.
After five years.
Five years without seeing her. Without hearing her voice. Without knowing how she'd been. Without knowing whether she'd found the happiness he'd wished for her.
Satoshi removed his glasses and rubbed his eyes with his fingers.
It had been a long time since he'd acted without considering the consequences.
Stillโ
He was glad she was safe. That much, he couldn't deny.
His gaze drifted toward the sleeping woman again.
Even after all these years, Harada hadn't changed very much. She still looked exactly as he remembered.
Only now with longer hair... and makeup.
His gaze fell to her clothes. Even in the dim light of his bedroom, he could tell they were thinner than he'd expected for the cold February weather.
A black turtleneck sweater and a fluffy short skirt.
Transparent tights...
The hem of her skirt had ridden up slightly when he'd laid her legs back onto the bed.
Satoshi abruptly turned away and shut his eyes. His head shook almost on its own, as though trying to chase away the unwelcome thoughts forming in his mind. Once again, he felt his heartbeat quicken, and he couldn't help feeling disappointed in himself.
After all this time, now that he was twenty years old, he'd thought he had finally become a proper adult. Anyone who knew him at Headquarters would probably agree. Calm. Cold. Collected.
But look at him now...
He glanced at Harada's sleeping face and found himself annoyed by how effortlessly she could shatter that composure.
While asleep, no less.
He let out another sigh and tried to steady his heartbeat.
For goodness' sake.
He wasn't a kid anymore.
Almost automatically, his thumb and middle finger found his forehead and began to massage his temples.
Her coat.
Where was her coat?
He knew she'd been carrying her small purse the whole time.
But not her coat.
Maybe she'd left it at the restaurant.
Her friends would probably notice and bring it home with them...
Maybe.
Not if they all had their own agendas tonight.
Perhaps he could stop by the restaurant tomorrow and ask. It wasn't that far away, anyway.
Running a hand through his shorter blue hair, Satoshi pulled the blanket up to her shoulders.
The bedroom remained dim, lit only by the faint light spilling in from the hallway. It was just enough for him to make out her sleeping face.
For five yearsโ
He had imagined countless ways he might see Harada Risa again.
By chance on the street or at a train station.
Maybe at Niwa's wedding or even at a funeral.
But neverโNever like this.
His expression softened as his hand found her warm cheek once more. Perhaps because his hand was colder, the sleeping girl unconsciously leaned into his touch.
He let his hand linger there for a few moments before the strain of leaning over the bed finally caught up with him.
Slowly, he withdrew his hand and whispered,
โโฆGood night, Harada.โ
Hiwatari Satoshi quietly retreated to the living room.
If you're a guy who's never had a girlfriend before, and you're getting a little--okay, maybe more than a little--attracted to a friend... what's the best way to run? Not that I'm saying I should--or not ME, but rather, ANY MAN falling for his friend should run but--basically, should I... tell her? (i tried giving her her favorite drink once, but i think.. i think it creeped her out a little). ๐
-Just some guy ๐
(P.S., congratulations on the event~ ๐)
Anime Risa: oh man this is thought my friend. Why would you run away from a girl? Is she chasing you or are you gay? I'd say if you love her, tell her.
Now let me check.
You've been working hard on yourself and now you feel ready for relationship. You should listen to your inner voice and master up some courage. They are good things coming your way and you should think twice before doing something radical. Don't let anyone make decisions for you.
Manga Risa: I have a feeling I know who you are ๐, please don't let the single, tarot obsessed, woman dictate your realitionship for you. Just go to the girl and ask her out already... Ok...
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Hi, Miss Adviser!
I like your fashion style! What is your advice on fashion for someone who doesn't really like to stand out so much but loves dressing cutely? (Also, I'm seriously considering dyeing my hair again ahaha ๐ should i go back to purple streaks or try blonde streaks this time?)
Thanks so much, and good luck with your column~
(I would prefer more to hear your thoughts rather than a reading! ^^)
Anime Risa: Hmm, let me see ... I reccomend starting with something simple such as adding accessories such as hair clips, headbands or hairbow, wearing heels and playing with patterns.
When it comes to hair I'd say try different hairstyles such as braids or pigtails.
Also purple omg, like Dark-san ๐๐๐
Manga Risa:
I'd say go with a color that suits your face and actual hair colour. If you have dark brows really light hair color tends to look out of place.
Also DEFINITELY add some bows, watches, bracelets, and necklaces. They made a casual outfit pop.
(I love your style as it is, so if you ever need help, reach out ๐๐๐)
at some point in your life you will be boiling fruit, water, sugar, and lemon juice in a pot to make a syrup or jam. the instructions will tell you to simmer for a certain amt of time. your timer will go off and you will look at the pot and go, "hm, this doesn't look thick enough. maybe i'll let it go for another 10 minutes." this is the devil speaking. it's only so liquid right now because it is at boiling point. it will thicken when it cools down. learn from the follies of my youth and do not let this happen to you
at some point in your life you will be making a sauce or a stew in which you need to add cornstarch to thicken it. and you will prepare a slurry of starch in cold water and think "this looks like way too little starch to thicken this amount of liquid." this is the devil speaking. cornstarch instantly polymerizes at 95ยฐC and if you add too much it will turn into an impossibly thick goop.
at some point in your life you will be making some sort of cream based dessert that requires gelatin to thicken it. and you will soak some gelatin sheets in water and think "this is too few gelatin sheets for this amount of cream." this is the devil speaking. it will thicken in the fridge and if you add too much you will end up with milk jelly
at some point in your life you will be baking cookies. you will take the sheet out after twelve minutes as the recipe instructs and the cookies will still be glistening and soft. "these don't seem cooked enough," you will think to yourself, "i should place them back into the oven until their edges are nice and golden." this is the devil talking. this is how you get dry, overdone cookies. the cookies will continue to bake on the warm sheet for several more minutes and then harden up after sitting on a rack for a while. trust the process. trust the process.
At some point in your life you'll be making congee and the recipe will tell you to cook it for a specific amount of time, and when that timer goes off you'll think "it's far too watery, maybe I should add some corn starch or just let it cook for five or ten minutes longer" but this is the devil speaking. It's that watery now because it's hot. It will firm up a bit when it cools off, and then even more if you put it in the fridge, and even more if you used stock instead of just water. If you cook it too much longer or add a thickener you're gonna be eating rice jello instead of porridge.
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Satoshi didn't particularly care about it, but after picking up a white ribbon and spotting the younger Harada running away from the scene, he decided to find her and return it.
Satoshi adjusted his necktie and looked at his reflection in the mirror.
The light reflected off his glasses, but he could still see his own eyes behind them.
He looked tired.
As always, but even more so today.
His anemia hadn't gotten any better, and simply waking up in the morning had already ruined his mood.
He sighed and brushed his hair away from his face. He rarely did that at schoolโsomehow, it always made the girls scream.
Picking up his school bag, Satoshi headed toward school.
Today was Saint White's Day, and the school was holding a special event. Satoshiโwithout anyone asking for his consentโhad somehow been appointed as one of the committee members, which meant he had to wear a white tie to school.
He mainly handled the budget for the event, which meant most of the work was done alone. Occasionally, he had to speak with the leaders of each department regarding expenses, but the communication was minimal, so he didn't mind.
And since he was in charge of the budget, he didn't actually have much to do on the day itself.
He was fully prepared to spend the entire day reading his book.
There were no classes today, and Dark hadn't sent out a notice for tonight.
So, for once, he could enjoy a peaceful day.
Satoshi arrived at the already decorated school.
Everything looked festive, with white decorations adorning the gates and corridors.
As he walked through the entrance, he passed a group of girls who immediately flushed at the sight of him dressed in white.
Their usual uniforms had red accents, so this was probably the first time they had seen Satoshi dressed entirely in white.
He let out a short sigh and continued walking without sparing them a glance.
Satoshi knew what the Saint White event was all about.
Basically, it was Azumano City's version of Christmas Eve.
Instead of celebrating Christmas Eve, the merchants had simply created another marketing scheme in which men gave white ribbons to the person they liked.
Similar to Valentine's Day and White Day, it was just another excuse to make people buy unnecessary things and label them as a special occasion.
Well, at least for Saint Whiteโs Day, it went from men to women.
Otherwise, he'd have to spend the whole day being chased around and rejecting girls from school.
Even if some of them came in different uniforms.
That was precisely why Satoshi dreaded Valentine's Day.
He made his way toward the committee meeting, slowly descending the stairs.
Suddenly, something white caught his eye.
A white ribbon lay abandoned on the floor.
Satoshi bent down and picked it up, glancing around the corridor.
Thereโ
The younger Harada was running at full speed.
Which, admittedly, was still rather slow.
Her white fluffy dress swayed together with her hair as she disappeared down the hallway.
Did she drop it?
Just then, the sound of multiple girls running echoed through the corridor.
โKyaa! I found Hiwatari-kun!โ
And many footsteps followed.
Satoshi sighed.
Without much thought, he slipped the white ribbon into his trouser pocket.
It would be troublesome if they found him carrying a white ribbon.
His expression remained unchanged, but he quickly tried to break through the wall of girls.
He still had a committee meeting to attend.
---
The committee meeting itself was nothing special.
Basically, it consisted of a few words of encouragement from the Student Council President.
So, in other wordsโฆ
Nothing.
Unfortunately, Satoshi got caught up in a sudden additional budget request from the decoration team.
He spent some time with them, confirming and documenting every detail as thoroughly as possible. After reporting the changes, he was finally dismissed.
Satoshi almost headed back to the classroom to read alone.
Then he remembered the white ribbon in his pocket.
It wasn't that he was annoyed.
He simply wanted to return it to the younger Harada as soon as possible so he wouldn't have to keep carrying it around.
He crossed the schoolyard, only to be stopped by groups of girls every few minutes.
Satoshi almost found it magical how they could locate him no matter where he went.
As he walked through the corridor, he spotted the familiar spiky red-haired Niwa.
โHiwatari!...kun.โ Suddenly, Niwa's body stiffened.
Satoshi knew their situation was complicated, so he hoped the boy would eventually get used to it. Especially at school.
โHave you seen Harada-san?โ he asked.
โWhich one?โ
โThe long-haired one.โ
โOh, Risa?โ
Satoshi frowned. โRisa?โ he repeated.
โAh! W-Well, I haven't seen Harada-saโโ
With a swift motion, Satoshi grabbed Niwa by the wrist and pinned him against the wall.
โOww!โ the red-haired boy hissed.
Satoshi stared into the red-haired eyes.
They looked normal.
So thenโฆ
โHow are you walking around school looking like thisโฆย Dark?โ
He couldn't hide the disgust in his voice when addressing the artwork.
How could he take over the tamer without fully transforming?
โIt hurtsโฆย Hiwatari-kun.โ
The phantom thief was using Niwa's voice, but the words dripped like venom.
And Satoshi immediately realized what he meant.
He released the shorter boy at once.
Niwa ran away at full speed without even looking back.
Satoshi groaned.ย
โEven in this situation, does the bet still apply?โ
How irritating.
The artwork was clearly wreaking havoc.
Satoshi hadn't witnessed it himself, but he was certain.
He could capture Dark right here and now.
But since it was Dark's consciousness using Niwa's appearance, it didn't count.
Just like the bet.
Dammit.
Satoshi loosened his fist and looked in the direction Niwa had fled.
The boy was already long gone.
Not that he intended to chase after him.
He simply couldn't understand what the artwork was thinking.
Or what Niwa was thinking, allowing that artwork to take over his body so casually.
Calming himself, Satoshi resumed his search.
Ten minutes passed.
It would probably be easier to ask around for the younger Harada's whereabouts, but he didn't want to risk getting involved with the girls.
And the boys were always strangely cautious around him as well.
He sighed and made his way toward the schoolyard. He would search there one last time before giving up. He could always return the ribbon during class tomorrow.
His fingers brushed against the white ribbon inside his pocket.
Then another thought occurred to him.
Today was Saint White's Day.
Perhaps the ribbon had been given to her by someone else.
If so, then it might be something important.
And if that were the case, the younger Harada was probably looking for it.
Satoshi didn't look like the type, but he enjoyed observing people.
Especially Niwa.
Watching him pick locks and desperately attempt to lie was strangely entertaining.
Though he was terrible at lying.
As for the younger Harada, Satoshi knew she was popular. She was always surrounded by girls, and every now and then, he would notice boys looking at her with flushed faces.
He had never witnessed it himself, but considering how many confessions he received, he could imagine that the girl had experienced it once or twice.
He sighed.
Perhaps one more round wouldn't hurt.
Just then, he spotted the long-haired brunette running across the schoolyard toward the back of the school.
Again, the younger twin ran rather slowly.
Her short breaths formed white puffs in the cold air.
Satoshi started walking toward her. Then he froze.
โDark-san!!โ
Without thinking, he hid behind the wall and peeked around the corner.
There, Dark stood before the short girl.
He was definitely still wearing Niwa's clothesโ
Minus the white necktie.
โPlease!! Stay by my side! Don't go anywhereโฆโ
The girl ran toward Dark and hugged him as tightly as she could.
Satoshi couldn't see her face, but he imagined that she was crying.ย Again.
Dark didn't return the hug, and Satoshi leaned back against the wall. He pulled the white ribbon out of his pocket and looked at it.
He really doesn't understand.
How could people like Dark so much? He was a phantom thief.
He wasn't even human.
He was merely one of the strongestโand one of the most beautifulโartworks his family had ever created.
And all it had ever brought to both families was misfortune.
Even Niwa had inherited the curse.
Seeing the younger Harada run toward Dark and hug him so desperately.
Seeing other people treat Dark as a humanโsomeone worthy of lovingโinstead of what Satoshi actually knew him to be.
For some reason, it made him angry.
Satoshi closed his eyes for a moment and calmed himself down.
If he let his emotions run wild, that other troublesome artwork might awaken as well.
Now that Dark had shown himself, Satoshi could simply go and capture him.
But why was the younger Harada always standing between them?
And why did that leave an uncomfortable feeling inside him?
After a few moments, he heard Dark's voice, barely above a whisper.
โSorry, Risa. I have to go.โ
Satoshi peeked from the shadows and saw Dark gently holding the girl's shoulders, trying to push her away.
The girlโclearly crying nowโsobbed. โNo! Whyโฆ? Please, stay by my sideโฆโ
Dark seemed troubled, but it wasn't because of the girl. Something else appeared to be bothering him.
Then, suddenly, Dark pulled her closer and embraced her tightly.
Satoshi's eyes widened for a moment, but when he looked into those deep purple eyes, he understood.
There was nothing romantic about it.
Dark had always been a playboy. He was merely trying to calm the younger Harada down and create an opening to run away, just like always.
And, just as Satoshi expected, Dark did exactly that.
After Dark disappeared, the younger Harada lowered her head and sniffled again. Snow had begun to fall, and the air was growing colder.
Satoshi wondered why he was still here. It would have been better to follow Dark after he left.
Yet somehow, his feet refused to move.
He could leave. He could approach her. But neither felt right.
Maybe it was something inside him. He simply didn't feel comfortable leaving the girl alone. But it also didn't feel right to approach her and offer comfort.
So he remained hidden behind the building where she couldn't see him.
They stayed like that until the younger Harada finally calmed herself and began walking back toward the school. From the side, Satoshi could see how red her cheeks and eyes had become.
He followed her from a distance, and she soon ran into the girls' restroom.
Only then did Satoshi stop. He let out a quiet sigh and slipped the white ribbon back into his pocket.
Today probably wasn't the right time to return it.
Kei+Rio with "I just wanted to feel loved, I guess." haha thank you again! ๐
โI just wanted to feel loved, I guess. If I had said that was the reason, what would you do?โ Rio spoke, looking right at the artwork.
Though she said that, it didnโt seem as though that was the case.
โOh?โ Elm Root looked right back at her. โThough I doubt thatโs your real reason.โ
โNothing gets past you, does it?โ The woman asked, not at disturbed by its words.
Almost as though she had expected it.
โTo me, it seems that youโre more interested in that experiment of yours than the idea of being loved.โ It pointed out.
And perhaps, maybe it was right.
It had been three months since the Kokuyoku event.
Risa was now fifteen years old, but she still often wandered outside at night, desperately trying to remember that memory.
Noโฆ
Was it a dream?
A dream that felt so real?
She didn't know anymore.
There, she met him. That light blue-haired boy.
He wasn't wearing his glasses, and he stood quietly beneath a street lamp.
Risa stopped for a moment. Just as she decided to turn back, he called out to her.
โDid I disturb your night walk, Harada?โ
Risa flinched and slowly turned toward him.
โHi-Hiwatari-kunโฆโ
Silence settled between them.
After the Kokuyoku event, they'd grown much closer. At least, compared to before. But there was still a wall between themโor perhaps, that was just how Risa felt.
She still didn't understand why he had hugged her that night.
And somehow, whenever she thought about it, she couldn't shake the feeling that his warmth had felt strangely familiar.
Hiwatari remained calm, not a single expression changing on his face. Then he sighed.
โYou should go back. It's late, and it's not good for a girl to walk around at night. I'll escort you home.โ
โSay, Hiwatari-kunโฆ how's your arm?โ
He walked a little closer before stopping. For a few seconds, he looked surprised and averted his eyes.
โYeahโฆ it's already healed.โ
That's not what she meant.
Not physically.
The wound on his arm had healed long ago.
But what about everything else?
โNow that I think about it, you still never told me about your family business.โ
Her voice grew stronger, pushing against the walls between them without giving him the chance to hide behind them.
โHarada, Iโโ
โHiwatari-kun. What do you know? About that night?โ
Again, she didn't let him finish.
She was afraid he would give her some ordinary answer.
Something like his father being in the police department.
It wasn't a dream, right?
โHaradaโฆโ
His voice sounded almost pained.
He's changed so much over these past three months.
She guessed Niwa-kun and Saehara had a lot to do with it. And somehow, she had gotten to witness those changes too.
The old Hiwatari-kun would've simply ignored her.
โHarada, are you stillโโ
He tried to reach for her arm, but she stepped back.
โYes! I still have nightmares! I can't sleep! It keeps bothering me! Tell me, Hiwatari-kun, was it really just a dream?โ
He finally looked at her.
At first, he seemed surprised.
Then his expression changed.
He looked so hurt.
He grabbed her hand. His grip was firm at first, but gradually softened.
โHarada, pleaseโฆโ
His left hand reached toward her face, and very slowly, he touched her now wet cheek.
โI don't want to see you cry.โ
Again.
Those words.
He said the same thing that night, didn't he?
โIt feels like I'm looking for somethingโฆย someone. But I've never been able to remember his face, his voice, or even his touchโฆโ
Tears finally spilled down her cheeks.
He gently pulled her against him and wrapped his arms around her.
This warmthโฆ
Why did it feel so familiar?
โโฆHiwatari-kun, pleaseโฆ tell me.โ
She tightened her grip on his shirt.
โWas it a dream?โ
His arms around her tightened in response.
She could tell he was fighting something within himself.
His thoughts seemed to be racing, searching for words that could comfort her. But for a long while, he said nothing.
Eventually, she calmed down, and he slowly released her.
His shirt was damp with her tears, though he didn't seem to notice.
โI'll help you remember it.โ
Risa blinked.
โI'll help you try and remember it.โ His voice was quiet. Almost hesitant. As though he wasn't entirely sure himself.
โButโฆโ
He paused. Then, very gentlyโ
โI don't want to see you cry anymore.โ
For a moment, Risa could only stare at him. Under the dim light of the street lamp, Hiwatari-kun looked away.
โโฆLet's go home.โ
And just like that, he started walking.
As though he hadn't just said something that made her chest ache.
Risa walked to his side, and they made their way to her home in silence.
You know whatโd be funny. If Yuri found out that Loid and Yor named Franky or someone else as Anyaโs guardian in their will if both of them were to pass away. And Yuri blows up like WHAT THE HELL I AM HER UNCLE I SHOULD BE HER GUARDIAN! What you think I canโt take care of a kid? So what if Iโm 20? I have a stable high-paying job! Iโm mature! I could totally be a single dad! Iโd be a better single dad than Loidy ever was!!
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..but what if KeiRio with "I don't know what you're expecting of me?" ๐ ehehe.
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Donโt know what youโre expecting of me
If her eyes shone, it was only due to the spark of tears that had threatened to overwhelm her, that she had fought back with all her mind, in her usual, stubborn way. Despite the recent loss that had troubled her existence, she had never shed a tear in his presence, showing how worthy she was of her ancestors.
Such life was unusual in the gazes she directed towards him, that usually remained in the realm of polite curiosity: if anything, he had troubled the sad calmness of her solitary existence with his unsolicited companionship.
She never inquired about him, his opinions nor his state of mind. Upon meeting her, he had told her enough: her mother gone, his presence had become tolerated again, he would return to his supportive role. Initial resistance overcome, she had let him handle menial matters his way. No question asked, except when he had reorganised the kitchen and โhiddenโ the tea.
However, Rio Hikari was unlike her predecessors in a very unique, if not disturbing, way.
โI will not paint, Elm Root. You are wasting your timeโฆโ
Her cheeks had flushed under despairโs steady pressure, yet lips did not tremble, thankfully. He wouldnโt have known how to deal withโฆ that.
How to bring her to art, however, he knew perfectly well.
โI am not eager to see you painting.โ
โThen leave.โ
He stared back, cold gaze meeting her troubled one. She was not angryโฆ Only lost. She did not really want him to disappear โ he cleaned, and cooked, and organised the extensive collection her parent had left behind, as many tasks she had no energy for, no will to complete. She was trapped with him, like many others before.
โI donโt understandโฆโ she continued in front of his silence. โYouโre an artwork, thereโs nothing I can bring you; you see it every day.โ
Did she really think he was laying there like a vase, waiting to be praised, pampered, admired, cooed at? Now, that was offending. Besides, had this been the case, he would have been destroyed by their curse centuries ago.
Her eyes on him were not what he wanted.
โYou will find the way to create an artwork that will belong only to you,โ he responded, softening his voice.
With this undefinable uniqueness, her potential was infinite: all she needed was the hint of determination he would nurture in her. He wouldnโt want to miss her creation for anything in the world.
oh wait wait wait, as much as I was rattled by Twilight's self discovery and *cough* blushies *cough*
this is what almost made me tear up:
dang that boy's growin' up. ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ
ngl, as annoying as he is, that's his older sister AND his only family. and even though he surely knows he's not really losing his sister, he knew that her getting married inevitably changes their dynamic massively.
and him finally accepting that grave a sense of finality to the feeling that things are not ever going to be the same again; the feeling that he had been pushing hard against all this time underneath his weird shenanigans.
if i were him, I'd bawl the moment I'm alone. patpat, boy. you done well. ๐ฅน๐ญ
