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Finish my tarot deck. Ive been attempting to make a large tarot deck for almost two years now and recently the cards i had finished got ruined. i am determined to actively work with my deck and finish all of the illustrations ASAP. its going to be a pop culture based deck, with a fuck load of cards. more than double the standard. the deck is based in pop culture, with the major arcana being vocaloid/song based and the minir arcana being based on different anime. im still looking for anime to add so if you guys reading this would like to see any anime illustrated into a deck, lmk?

Incorporate witchcraft into my daily life. I should have accomplished by now, and im ashamed to say i have not. I have my reasons, but ultimately, i still want to achieve this. even if its just carrying around a crystal with me everywhere or blessing my drinks before i drink them, thats still just as good as doing a full blown ritual. I say that because in the end, i do rituals and spellwork to make myself happier and to improve myself. If smaller tasks can give me the same feeling of happiness and accomplishment, i should do it.

Let go. arguably the most important of these three goals, letting go. ive held on to so many things my whole life; my mental illness, my abuse, my history with attempting, everything. Ive held onto the expectations others have of me, the disappointment they felt when i fell over and over again, ive kept it all with me. i think its time that i relieve myself of that pressure and move on mwith my life. its time that i stop caring so much about what others think and focus on what i think. my opinion of myself is the most important opinion i could ever have. i want that opinion to be more kind. more forgiving. more me. i want to be happy. i want to feel better. i feel that the way to do that is to allow myself to be me and just. let go.

thank you for sticking by me through this post and reading through it, if you did. i appreciate the time spent on me. this post got kinda heavy even though thats not what i intended, so to make up for it. here have uwu.