kendra beardslee

Don’t underestimate my desire to not wanna

I've been thinking about suicide alot lately.

hope you like flaws, bc that’s all i am

you know you're in a dark place when you can't even enjoy music anymore

AND YOU KEEP SKIPPING SONGS YOU USED TO LOVE NOW

I feel like I’m drowning again. I’m falling back into old, bad habits, losing motivation to do anything again and my self esteem has gone completely out the window. I’m not sure how to survive this time.

i just wish i could explain how fucking low this low feels

In the era of loving myself more.

did i actually relapse or did i just never recover

i have big big big brown eyes so i’ll be okay. rest of y’all stay safe

Another day of wishing I wasn't here. I gotta fake a smile though right?