im sensitive, dont test me i will cry

"do you have any hobbies" lately i have been into overthinking and panicking

is this a life? i don’t know. i make another cup of coffee. stare at a tree from my balcony. write in my journal. take a hot shower. i call my sister and say nothing of value. she listens anyway. i make another coffee. read a book that gives me bad dreams. pick up my pen to write and put it back down. another flip of the calendar i carry in the center of my chest. i am learning to let my heart open up again

''i wasted those years'' who cares. you lived the only life you could've lived in those moments

You did the best you could with all you had and knew. That was then. Here is now

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"Just because I'm right, doesn't mean I'm being helpful" is a vastly underrated thought process that I strongly encourage others to get comfortable with

I wonder how many memories I’m in.

Be a teachable individual YOU DO NOT know everything

One of my favorite things about loving someone or developing a closeness or fondness towards someone is also loving and developing a fondness for the things they care about. When you learn to see the world in a new way, or you learn to appreciate the things you’ve previously overlooked, or they become your excuse to get into an interest you always thought was cool but thought you didn’t have time for. When a connection makes your world bigger and warmer and fuller and more beautiful.

people don’t even say sorry anymore or acknowledge anything they did. my biggest pet peeve is someone tryna come back in the picture and pretend they didn’t even fuck me over. ain’t no hehe haha over here

I’m a social vampire u gotta invite me into ur conversation or I cannot enter

idc anymore i think we should be a burden to each other

and yes this includes a certain degree of tolerance for emotional burden, all else being equal. my love for you, and loyalty to you, is not dependent on how easy you make it for me to love you. i don’t value you for how little trouble you cause me. i want to learn how to take you for who you are, instead of who i want you to be or who i think you should be

the secret to life really is to stop being so painfully self-aware and to just Live

the damage has been done (overshared)

agonizing over all the time you wasted or lost is useless. it’s gone now. you survived in the only way you knew how. doesn’t your survival deserve some recognition too?

like toni morrison said, “sometimes you don't survive whole, you just survive in part. but the grandeur of life is that attempt. it’s not about that solution. it is about being as fearless as one can, and behaving as beautifully as one can, under completely impossible circumstances.”

yeah “i can teach you” is kind and gentle and warm and comforting. it’s also hot. right

need to find more characters who avoid sex/dating not because they're asexual or because of sexual trauma but due to entirely unrelated lifelong psychological problems that have made them uninterested in acting upon desire or have a hard time feeling anything at all that isn't unrelenting grief. uh for a friend, not for me of course

This is just your reminder that slow days are okay. You don’t have to jump out of bed, eat your breakfast and then rush to do whatever you plan to do. You can pause. Enjoy your breakfast and have a calm morning. And then you can go do something else that is calming, like sitting with a cup of tea and watching an episode of whatever you are currently seeing. Or go for a little walk etc. It’s okay to start slow. It’s okay to seek out calm and peace. You can still do stuff later that day if you want. 🌸