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You were never sorry when you started it. And don’t you ever give me the I-was-young-back-then-bullshit. You are in your right mind. You knew the impact you will inflict to us. So, live in guilt. Because you made us blindly live in the world you created—in your lies.

4 years may be a short time for you. But girl, it was everything to me. And you took that from me.

As the year draws to a close, I want to express my gratitude for everything and everyone in my life. A lot of insights and blessings came to me this year.

Earlier this year I stumbled into your account and I'm so glad I did because I think that gave me the closure I've been looking for all those years. Now, starting next year, hopefully I will also meet my own “love of my life” just as you did.

I'm prepared for the romance that tomorrow will bring. I have hope and confidence in me as I look forward to finally meeting him. Having such thoughts excites me lol.

Anyway, this is my last post on this site. For me to fully move on, I had to put an end to this chapter of my life. Making this account allowed me to share some of my thoughts with you. As I'm not trying to keep my account a secret from you, I'm not sure if you read all of my rants about you here. Nevertheless, I hope you do. I sincerely hope you now understand how I've been feeling for all these years.

It’s been a rollercoaster ride meeting you!

Signing off,

Don't you think fourteen is too young

To be played by your dark twisted games, when I loved you so?

My mother accused me of losing my mind,

But I swore I was fine, you paint me a blue sky

And go back and turn it to rain

And I lived in your chess game,

But you changed the rules every day

Years of tearing down our banners, you and I

Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts

“God rest my soul, I miss who I used to be

The tomb won't close, stained glass windows in my mind

I regret you all the time

I can't let this go, I fight with you in my sleep

The wound won't close, I keep on waiting for a sign