Musings of a Restless Mind

It's a struggle when you have so much to say but you can't put them into words. Your hands are stuck on your phone trying to type something, anything. But you always come up empty. Thoughts are filling up your brain, squirming and trying to find the exit so that they can be shared to the world. Oh, but they end up just fogging your brain.

Reading

The Time Keeper, Mitch Albom

Listening

Havana, Camilla Cabello

Thinking

Talking while angry/emotional will almost always have bad results. Relationships and friendships will suffer and regrets will come soon after when things have cooled down. Sometimes irreparable damages happen and it will leave one wondering what could've been if they thought about things thoroughly first before opening their mouths to speak.

Hoping

For better blood glucose control. For the determination to exercise. For the strength to continue doing everything that is right for my health.

Wearing

Black boxers and white t shirt.

Loving

This cloudy and raining morning.

Wanting

An oven.

Needing

OVEN.

Feeling

Tapos na celebrations. Back to regular programming na. 😁😁😁 Diet and daily exercise na ulit. Brown rice, whole wheat bread, veggies and fruits na ulit. More okra! Hahaha! Less sweets, less sodas and juices, green tea instead of coffee (will try). More water. Last chocolate ko na ‘to, promise (INSHALLAH haha).

Fresh start! Lel. I'm hoping for a fruitful year ahead. Will work on achieving all our goals, kahit paunti unti. Importante makapagumpisa. Importante magkasama kaming dalawa na tutupad sa mga goals namin. 2017 was hard on us, especially on me. But despite the hardships, we persevered. And all our hard work paid off. We ended the year in a much better place. Hopefully, tuloy tuloy na 'to.

Reading

Kafka on the Shore, Haruki Murakami

Listening

Coming Out as a Modern Family | Modern Love Podcast

Thinking

I used to think that blood is thicker than water; that family, no matter how many times removed, will always stick together no matter what. But it was proven wrong so many times that I already lost count. I used to think that friendship, no matter how negative, draining or toxic it was, was worth the loyalty, sacrifice and love. But then again, I was proven wrong. There are family and friendship not worth saving. Some relationships are not worth the hurt. I’m better off cutting all ties with them, even if by doing so, it seems that I have lost a lot. In reality, I just released myself from the clutches of people who has not given me any happiness for a long time now. I know I am saving myself from further hurt by these people who call themselves my “family” and “friends”. 

Hoping

For better days to come.

Wearing

Red polo shirt and jeans.

Loving

That Red Gala apples from New Zealand is available again in the hypermarket. They’ve been missing for a few months now. They’re my favorite apples. ^_^ 

Wanting

New bigger bookshelf and a big cupboard to house all my baking tools and other kitchen stuff.

Needing

Exercise. I badly needed to lose weight to lower my blood sugar.

Feeling

Reading

I am Malala, Malala Yousafzai

Listening

Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets Audiobook Narrated by Stephen Fry

Thinking

About a lot of things. Family matters, mostly. I’m so stressed out by what’s happening with my father, health-wise. And now the mothership is feeling neglected. Add to this the fact that my partner recently resigned from her job. So now, we’re also frantically searching for a new job. I’m so tired.

Hoping

For my partner to find a new job within this month.

Wearing

A dress over leggings and my favorite gold flats.

Loving

Our new home. Transferred to a bigger room in the same flat we moved in to last December

Wanting

Neil Gaiman’s complete The Sandman series of graphic novels. A new, bigger L-shaped couch.

Needing

A very loooooooong vacation.

Feeling

nice. adjective. pleasing; agreeable; delightful; amiably pleasant; kind.

nice. noun. a city in france; nissa la bella, nice the beautiful.

nice. noun. a person. pleasant. agreaable. delightful. kind. someone i unexpectedly met the day i had my heart broken. to say that she helped heal my broken heart is an understatement. more than that, she took my torn heart and mended it. put it back together piece by piece. carefully gave it back to me with a huge chunk of her heart mixed in.

nice. noun. a place. my home. her strong arms that hug me tight constantly. her eyes that melted my hardened heart. her sweet, and sometimes mischievous smile that always make my heart skip a beat. she is my beautiful nice, my home.

nice. my pleasant, kind and beautiful love. i will remain forever hers, and she, forever mine.

 -- Kaye

23-03-2016