Kaz/Frenzy

Lowkey still figuring out how posting on tumblr works #unc so my formatting or whatever might be weird for a while till i get the hang of things LOL 😭

Hi i havent postes on tumblr in nine katrillion years but. I drew this. Yum.

How it feels to be scrolling through tumblr and see that someone took it upon themselves to goonpost nsfw of characters you love

Sometimes I like to mess around on fl studio on my phone, I made this a couple months ago and completely forgot about it but yk its not too bad! kinda want to make it into an actual song sometime, it reminds me of minecraft music

Then i made a collage style version with some pictures I took around my town

I've been thinking that I have osdd for about 3 years now and it's been a very confusing journey to say the least 😭, I may have hinted at it on tiktok before but (at least to my knowledge) I've never made it public knowledge that I've speculated about having it. I talk about my memory issues a lot, and I think if youve interacted with me or know who I am it's pretty easy to tell my personality and identity never seem quite set in stone. One thing that me opening up about this might give some clarity on is why exactly I get hung up on the past so easily. I never feel like I'm experiencing time linearly, I'm kind of always remembering things, both mundane and distressing, and when I get caught up in a painful memory too much I feel all those emotions again. I wouldn't say it's a flashback exactly, I don't really know the symptoms of them, but if you've seen me freak out about the fateful spring of 2022 way too many times and were really confused on why I hope that this clears some things up, believe me it annoys me too 😭

However, in my experience, as an autistic person I can TELL when someone else is masking BECAUSE NOT ONLY DO WE FOLLOW ALMOST THE SAME FRIENDSHIP STEP SEQUENCE, BUT ALSO (usually, but obviously this post does not apply to all autistic people) I CAN TELL WHEN SOMEONE HAS RECITED SOMETHING IN THEIR HEAD BEFORE THEY SAY IT BECAUSE I DO THAT TOO. and then once we realize that we're both autistic we skip straight to discussing moral values to rule out whether this person will be a suitable friendship candidate and then bam, friends

Slurpee is very fun to make little sketches of