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Maekar marrying this pretty young thing that is old enough to be his daughter (😉) and she is just soooo quiet and tense during their marital duties that he starts to think he is being too rough. Well, he is.
How could he not when you are so small and his dick is as big as the rest of him?
But turns out, girl is keeping quiet because she is creaming on that thing in the first 2 minutes because of the stretch. And maybe doesn't want him to think she is too forward. (she wants her nether regions destroyed, your honour 😞)
cw: dub con. age gap. smut. it's too big. overstimulation. mdni. 18+
a/n: i'd cream around his dick after the tip honestly.
prince!maekar never asked to be married to you. a young lady, a year younger than his eldest son. you're beautiful, although quiet and keep to yourself. you have great manners and maekar can't deny how much he desires your body when it's beneath him in bed.
prince!maekar who visits you nightly after your marriage to make sure he does his duty. it's not like he needs other children but no one questions the man when he asks for your ladies to have you undressed on the bed for him by night fall and neither do you.
prince!maekar wishes he didn't enjoy being inside your tight cunt so much. you don't seem to be enjoying it yourself even though you're soaking his dick after a few minutes, you're tensing at the first few inches and he's terrified to go in any deeper.
it's probably two months after your marriage, a fortnight of prince!maekar being separated from you that he can't get enough of you this one night. he spilled his seed inside you twice, and he's only managed to push half his cock inside you and he longs to be close. he ends up holding you by your thighs and forcing you to take all of his cock.
prince!maekar tries to hush your tears, and your whimpers, mistaking them for sobs and pain. he's pressing his dick in slowly as he can but he ends up getting carried away and the thrusts become relentless, no mercy and he can't help but be rough.
prince!maekar wouldn't read the signs, but would try everything in his power to make you enjoy it. he doesn't realise how badly you already are and how overstimulating it becomes when he's playing with your sensitive bud or licking at your nipples, you'd sob from his ministrations.
prince!maekar would apologise profusely after it's finished, dick still buried inside of you as he kisses your face and tells you he wishes he could be softer but he doesn't have it in him.
only to get confused when you ask why he should be sorry...
you'd blush like crazy when prince!maekar realises you've been enjoying it this whole time, he'd be so confused but his cock would be getting hard again inside of you and he'd start fucking you again and realise how your face crumbles and your walls clench around him.
the whole of summerhall wouldn't no peace after that, prince!maekar either calling you to his study or visiting you in the most random hours just to put his dick inside you. no one would be surprised when you end up heavy with child so soon.
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guys…. what if i do a baelors bastard in summerhall w aerion, then aerion gets fucked off to lys, then maekar starts to have nightmares and sees reader and sees baelor in her gulp
ugh ive js seen the most beautiful bloodraven art on twt its stunning i rlly hope the artist has tumblr if not i hope they let me share i need u guys to see this
Cregan doesn't do well when you're away, and he'll do anything to make it up to you.
part one here!
ft. cregan x third wife!reader
genre/warnings: pwp, a pinch of angst, fluff, age gap, cregan is a father² (rickon and sarra are his babies and they call you mother), no p in v, spanking, a little dry humping, oral (f receiving), rimming (f receiving), anal fingering, first time anal sex, prone bone, worship, biting, no use of y/n. inspired by this and this!
wc: 3.3k
not proofread.
Your little sister’s wedding arrived at the worst possible moment for you and Cregan. Though your husband could never be so heartless as to forbid you from going, he tried every gentle persuasion to keep you by his side, unwilling to leave Winterfell for so long. That was how your first real quarrel as husband and wife began.
You departed for Deepwood Motte before he could make amends, carrying every trace of Winterfell’s warmth away with you.
Two months. You had been gone for two months, and Cregan was beside himself. You had sent a raven when you arrived, and one when you were leaving. That was it—two measly letters. You were obviously still angry with him despite his asking for forgiveness.
He grew irritable, restless, short-tempered, and bone-tired. Never before had he felt so tethered to another’s presence, and it wore him down. As your return drew near, his nerves frayed further. He fumbled through ledgers, spilt wine across his desk, rewrote letters, and nearly donned his tunic inside out. Madness, truly.
Even his children had noticed, Rickon side-eyeing him at dinner and little Sarra patting him on the shoulder with a soft “I miss her too, papa.”
The instant his men glimpsed your party, he nearly vibrated with anticipation. His wife was finally returning, and he longed to spirit you away for the rest of your days together. If he had any sense left, he might have been embarrassed by how quickly he rushed to the gates.
The horses halted, whinnying and snorting clouds of fog into the summer chill. Cregan held his breath as the carriage door swung open, nearly choking when you emerged. After so long apart, your beauty unravelled him, and he exhaled in pure relief.
You step down with care, mindful of the treacherous summer ground. A hand appears before you, steady and familiar, and you follow it up to meet your husband’s gaze.
“My lady wife,” he breathes out. “Welcome home.” You could easily read the telltale signs of exhaustion on his face: tense lines on his forehead, and his voice gentler than usual. You take his hand, and he brings it to his lips, pressing a long kiss to your knuckles.
Gods, the ache of missing you had nearly undone him.
“Mm, my lord husband, it has been a long while.” Your voice is gentle, chin tipped up like a proper lady.
Oh dear. Clearly, your anger lingered. You reserved such formal words for moments of mischief or genuine ire.
“Mother!” “Mama!” Two figures broke from either side of Cregan, both dark-haired and grey-eyed.
Rickon lingers close to his father, while Sarra barrels into your legs with all the exuberance of a six-year-old. “How was it! How was it! I want to go to a wedding!” she wails, clutching at your dress with impatient hands.
Their arrival melts your composure, a genuine smile breaking free. You pet Sarra’s head and beckon Rickon closer. He flushes, caught between childhood and pride, but still wraps his arms around your waist.
“Oh my,” you murmur, fingers combing gently through his hair. “Did you sprout up while I was away? I hardly recognise this tall young man.” Your teasing coaxes a deeper blush and a bashful nod. “Who knows, you might just outgrow your father.”
Cregan huffs out a laugh, scooping Sarra up before she can tear your gown. “Don’t give him hope.”
“What of me, mama?” Sarra pouts from her father’s arms. “Did I grow?”
You offer her a soft smile, smoothing her unruly hair behind her ear. “You grow lovelier every day, my sweet girl.”
Cregan clears his throat and places your hand on his arm when Sarra wiggles away from him. “Let us get you to a bath, wife. Your journey must have been long.”
Tension simmered between you as you walked through the keep. Two months without your husband’s touch had stretched into eternity, your anger melting beneath the heavy ache of longing. He was your home, your heart, and you missed him fiercely.
You felt the warmth of his arm through his sleeve beneath your fingers, swallowing against the heat that curled in your stomach.
Cregan fared no better, exhaling sharply at your nearness. It was surreal, how deeply you affected each other; the distance and unresolved feelings only magnified every emotion.
The corridor to your shared room had never seemed so endless. Each step dragged, your heart pounding so hard you could feel it in your throat.
He opened the door for you, releasing your hand. You crossed the room, unhooked your cloak, and draped it over the settee in the corner. The hairs on your neck prickled beneath the heat of his gaze. As soon as the fur fell from your fingers, he was on you, chest pinned to your back, lips pressed to the sensitive skin under your ear, with a hand sliding up from your stomach to your neck, a gentle hold to remind you who he was.
“Two months,” Cregan breathes out, already sounding on edge. “Two letters. Do you have fun torturing me, wife?” You have to swallow a moan, body already wanting to melt into him. “Hm? Do I have to fuck obedience back into you?” His fingers dig into the flesh of your neck, teeth baring against the shell of your ear. “I can feel you trembling, pet. All this torment was felt by you tenfold, was it? I bet if I touched you, right here…” The hand on your stomach slides down to cup the peak of your thighs through your dress. “I’d find you soaking through your smallclothes, what do you think?”
You whine his name in that tone that sends a shiver down his spine, his arousal pressing against your backside, insistent even through the layers between you. He guides you smoothly over the back of the settee, his mouth hot against your neck as he grinds into you.
“Ah, I missed this…” Cregan breathes out, half a moan, your skirt bunched up over your hips. His foot nudges yours farther apart, letting him rub you through your smallclothes. You arch back into him, feverish heat burning between you.
“Please,” you whisper, reaching behind to find the cool steel of his belt, slipping your fingers beneath it. The motion draws him closer, a hiss escaping him as he indulges you, tugging your underwear down so he can press against you directly.
He laughs lowly, watching as your wetness drenches him. “I knew it.” His mouth is at your ear again, nibbling. “You’re fucking soaked, love. Fuck. Stay there.” He pulls back, squeezing your waist with both hands.
You hear your husband move first, then feel the heat of his body a moment before his tongue is dragging through your folds. It takes everything in you not to crumble immediately at the way he moans at your taste. He’s everywhere, sucking your clit, teething your folds, biting your thighs and ass, tongue slurping wherever he can with the greed of a starved man.
His fingers are next, two filling your cunt so deliciously in ways you had never been able to replicate. You almost came right there, muffling a desperate sob with your palm.
“None of that,” Cregan growls as a sharp smack finds your behind, sending you forward a few inches. “You have denied me your presence for the past two months, so you’ll take everything I give you, won't you? My sweet girl. I’ll make you feel so good, I promise.” He presses a kiss to where you’re stretched around his fingers.
You’re left without air in your lungs when his mouth finds your other hole. “Husband, ah! That’s- that’s dirty–”
“I don’t fucking care,” he snarls, muffled, letting the tip of his tongue dip inside. Cregan eating you like this was nothing new, but you had been on the road for the past week, so it felt filthy. Of course, that didn’t stop him. He was determined to have you, and though he could not bring himself to bury his cock in your cunt, he knew your arse would do just as well.
Cregan is harder than he had ever been before beneath his own smallclothes, throbbing every time you clenched around his tongue. He has to fight his own body to not thrust against the air, denying himself such pleasures.
He feasted on you like that for what felt like hours, your legs giving out at some point, having to kneel on the couch. Fingers joined his tongue, leaving your cunt empty and craving, which his free hand solved by rubbing at your clit. Cregan’s mouth alternated between biting at whatever flesh he could find and gently licking your stretched rim.
You came just like that, your husband three fingers deep in the wrong hole while he bruised your thighs with his teeth.
First, your vision blurs, a haze seeping into the edges of your sight as his name escapes you in a strangled gasp. Then comes the rush of warmth, unfurling from your core and flooding every inch of you, leaving you boneless against the settee, hole impossibly tight around his fingers.
Your body threatens to give out, trembling as you cling to the last shreds of control. Cregan guides you through the storm, his lips tracing over his marks, anchoring you to the moment. He utters one word against your skin, breathe, and you realise you had been holding your breath. Your chest heaves as the rush of oxygen makes you dizzy, Cregan having to catch you before you collapse.
He steadies you, fingers deftly loosening the laces of your dress until the fabric pools at your feet. His touch roams, anchoring you as he savours rediscovering your body. It has been ages since he last traced your skin with his hands.
Cregan draws you near, sweeping you into his arms and settling you gently onto your marriage bed. Between your trembling thighs, he strips off his shirt, eager to feel every inch of you against him. “How do you feel?” he whispers against your chest, his lips following the soft line of your breast. His teeth aren’t far behind, grazing against your nipple.
A half-whine escapes you before you can stop it, coaxed out by his teeth, while your fingers clutch desperately at his flesh and tangle in his hair. “I’m-” you choke, whole body shaking. “Please.”
Cregan isn’t a particularly cruel man, especially not to his wife, not when she asks so sweetly. He wouldn’t make you beg like this, not when he himself was just as desperate. He pushes up, nuzzling his nose against your cheek. “I know, pet. So good for me. Can you turn over?”
He guides you gently, his fingers firm around your waist. From behind, you are breathtaking, and he lets his hand glide slowly down your spine, drinking in the view. Like this, he is free to admire his work; he had littered your behind with bites and bruises, the upper half of your thighs having not been spared the same fate.
Your breath comes in uneven bursts, face pressed deep into the softness of his feather pillow. Cregan. Your husband. Every part of him surrounds you. His scent is intoxicating. He presses his face into your neck, breathing you in. Even if he were worlds away, the memory of your scent—citrus layered over something uniquely yours—would unravel him.
You were woven into each other's lives so completely that the thought of separation felt impossible. The lingering warmth you left in the morning, the glint of his belt resting atop the chest, the mingling of your scents- these small details became the very fabric of your world.
Cregan trails kisses across your shoulder, his warmth and weight pressing into your back. The first thing you notice is the wetness, something smooth gliding over your holes. Oil, the same he used when you once complained about his roughness against your thighs. Yet here, it feels entirely new.
The familiar feeling of his blunt tip is next, between your cheeks. He lifts your hips until you are kneeling, his slick hands gliding over your skin, every touch sending a shiver as he presses against you.
“It’ll feel strange,” he murmurs, pressing one last kiss to your spine before straightening. “Just for a little while, I promise.”
For a heartbeat, heat flares white and sharp. The sting draws a gasp from your lips, his soothing words lost in the rush of sensation. The pain flickers out, but the warmth lingers, more intense than anything Cregan has ever made you feel, even at your limits. He lets you relax around him before moving further. This repeats a few more times before his hips meet flush against the skin of your ass, a keen falling from your lips at the full stretch.
Every sensation seemed to echo through the room. Each subtle twitch, every small movement he made in his silent longing, was measured and tender, always mindful not to disturb or hurt you. His breaths matched yours, his hands tightening around your hips in slow, deliberate pulses.
“How do you feel?” The strain in your husband’s voice doesn’t escape you. “Does it hurt?”
You lift your head from the pillow and draw a steady breath. “Full,” you whisper, the word quivering in the hush. “It’s… strange.” You shift slightly, and Cregan’s moan shatters the silence, raw and unfiltered, chased by a swallowed gasp.
“Mm, good. That’s… good.” His voice trembles, thin with restraint. “I’m- I’m going to move, okay?”
A nod and a trembling breath are all you can manage as he slowly pulls back. He moves within you again, urging you further into the bedding. The pillow muffles your unfamiliar cries, each one raw and thrilling to his ears. He aches to see your face, but he knows staying like this will make everything gentler for you. Your body feels supercharged, every nerve ending sparking to life, each squeeze of his fingers searing through you, leaving a deep, unforgettable imprint.
As your body loosens and yields, he quickens his rhythm, the gentle sound of skin meeting skin echoing softly between you.
“G-gods,” Cregan stutters out, eyes unable to tear away from where his cock is sliding in and out of you. Each thrust is pinpointed somewhere deep in you, so far forward you swore you could feel it in your cunt. It was a peculiar sensation, being hollow and overflowing all at once, a feeling that defied words yet carried a quiet comfort.
The heat from before surged even stronger, coiling in the pit of your stomach and racing out to ignite every fingertip.
With each breath you let out, your voice grew more daring, unravelling Cregan’s composure piece by piece. Time seemed to dissolve as you buried your face in his scent, his hand steady on your back, anchoring you while the other claimed your hip.
You sensed his growing unsteadiness before he did, lifting your head just enough to meet his gaze over your shoulder. “Cregan,” your voice came out rough, still trembling from your cries of pleasure. “My love.”
He slowed at once, his hand leaving your back to rest beside your head, letting him lean closer. He grunted, hips still moving but with less urgency. “My wife,” he rasped, his voice as ragged and raw as yours. “You… Do you feel it too?”
You understood him instantly. The heat, the desperate longing that had simmered between you for two months, was finally reaching its breaking point. “I do.” You whimper, pressing back into his hips.
He mouths at your jaw, a ragged moan so raw escaping his lips. “You… you are so tight,” you can hear the tension in his jaw, “feels… gods, I can’t.” He’s wearing himself down, his hip speed faltering. “I’ll spill—“ Cregan cuts himself off with a choked moan, grinding his tip impossibly deep.
Your moan wobbles when one of Cregan’s hands creeps between you and the furs below you, finding your clit and rubbing.
He was everywhere. Teeth bruising the junction of your neck and shoulder, body pressing you down onto the bedding, cock deep inside of you. You struggled to find where he ended and you started, feeling like you were being swallowed whole by his body.
It was all that was needed for you to find your peak, a rush of sensation so immense that you had never experienced such a thing before. Your bones melted, your voice uncontrollable, your skin tingling and prickling as you sob into the bed.
Cregan isn’t far behind, the tightening and increasing warmth of your hole enough to make him black out. Warmth spreads inside of you, courtesy of his thick seed spilling within. He stays pressed balls deep the duration of his orgasm, cheek pressed to your hair, before pulling out.
“Okay, I’ve got you, love.” Spent and trembling from the intensity of your release, you feel Cregan’s gentle but shaky hands roll you and wipe away your tears. He leans close, pressing a soft kiss to your lips. “I love you,” he exhales, “you were incredible for me.” You can barely muster the energy to reply, offering only a faint sound, which makes him smile. “So sweet. I’ll have someone run a bath for you, okay?” You nod, sniffing and leaning into his touch. “Go to sleep, pet. I think I wore you out enough.”
“Don’t leave,” you whisper, voice entirely worn out. “Please.”
Cregan pulls you into his chest, wrapping himself around you. “Never, pet. I have you. I promise.”
Cregan wakes alone, bed still a little warm from where you had been just recently. He finds you soaking in the bath in the room adjacent.
Your weariness is a reflection of his own after so many weeks apart, and even though he's home now, it lingered. His fingers brush yours along the rim of the tub, drawing a gentle sigh from your lips. “Still tired?”
You shake your head, sinking a little further into the water. “Sore from the journey.” There’s a peaceful quietness that takes over the room for a moment.
“You didn’t write much.”
“No,” you hum. “Did you miss me?”
He scoffs, fingers circling your wrist. “Is it cold in the north?”
Your laughter bubbles up as you open your eyes. “Alright, sassy.”
Cregan huffs, thumb finding your pulse. “You were mean to me.”
“And you me.” You remind him of his words before you had left for your family’s hold, and he winces. He kneels, then kisses your forehead, free hand coming up to brush your hair back.
He leans in to kiss your forehead again, staying there. “I apologised in my letters, did you not read them?” his words are murmured against your skin.
“I did, but I wanted to hear it from your lips.” A sly smile tugs at your mouth, and he scoffs, clearly entertained by your boldness.
“You could’ve told me that, you know.”
You turn to him with a mischievous smile. “But where’s the fun in that?”
Cregan laughs softly, the tension between you dissolving. “You’re a ridiculous woman, did you know that? You also left me alone in bed.”
You cannot help but huff, rolling your eyes. “It was barely any time at all, you know.”
“It was enough. I missed you. And for the record, I am sorry for my words, you know I am. I think my actions have proved that.”
It softens you. Cregan wasn’t a man who often apologised. “I know,” you say gently, “I am sorry too. For not writing more.” All he gives you is a hum, but you can tell he is fighting a smile. “I love you.”
“Move. I’m getting in.”
“Say it back first.”
“I love you, my beautiful and stubborn wife. Now move forward. I think I’ll have you show me how sorry you are for torturing your husband.”
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summary: when the prince of dragonstone visits the north on a diplomatic mission, you begin to notice just how close he and your husband are. the last thing you expect is for him to set his sights on you, and for your husband to be content to let him see.
warnings (mostly in order of appearance): afab!reader, Mallister!reader, canon divergence (no dance, but it comes kind of close), discrimination? (reader is looked down on for not being northern), consumption of alcohol, canon typical views of gender and sexuality, sexual tension, piv sex, fingering, descriptions of m/m, implied emotional affair/leftover feelings between cregan and jace (reader isn’t super jealous and is MOSTLY into it), wet dreams, exhibitionism/voyeurism, threesomes, hot springs sex, dry humping, minor angst as a result of miscommunications (cregan is VERY emotionally repressed and has a hard time vocalizing his feelings as a result), oral sex, cucking, cunnilingus, implied gender envy (jace and reader), three way kissing (challengers style!!), m/m/f, blowjobs, sloppy seconds, perfume oil as lube, anal fingering, anal sex, cum eating, dom!cregan, switch!reader, switch!jace, top!cregan, bottom!jace
word count: 29.6k. don't ask me how.
a/n: alexa, play i want my boyfriends to kiss by ashnikko.
Matters of business and pleasure, Cregan had told you. Diplomacy.
Diplomacy was why Queen Rhaenyra was sending her eldest son to the North for a diplomatic tour on behalf of the crown. Her son, beloved in the North, by virtue of his friendship with your husband.
You had always known of the pair’s close bond. Years ago, when the continent was on the brink of war, Jacaerys had flown to Winterfell in hopes of reinforcing Cregan’s oath to his mother. He had hunted with Cregan and they had exchanged tales of boyhood. They had bonded so fiercely that they had made a blood oath. When Jace left, and the world remained right side up, so did their bond.
You had wed Cregan a year after, and came to know only of his dear Jace in the form of their correspondences and a scar across Cregan’s left palm. It was endearing, to hear your husband speak so gently of his friend.
Cregan had been made a man far too soon, in your mind. His tumultuous rise to lordship had yanked him out of being a boy straight into the world of harsh, emotionless Northern men, and had hardened him similarly. You hadn’t seen him smile–truly smile–until 3 months into your marriage.
But as Jacaerys dismounted Vermax, and strode towards the small crowd of bannermen and servants gathered to greet him, you watched your husband light up. Cregan—who usually demonstrated as much emotion as a wet woolen sock left to freeze solid in the snow—had grinned like a boy, embraced his old friend in a tight bear hug.
And then the prince turned to you.
His eyes passed you up and down, in a moment that felt both too slow for comfort and too fast to savor. His brow twitched, and then he glanced briefly at Cregan. The expression wasn’t doubt, nor critique. You wouldn’t come to understand the emotion in his gaze until later in his visit.
“Lady Stark,” He said gently, “How lovely it is to at last meet the woman who has warmed my dear friend’s frozen heart.”
He took your gloved hand in his. His gaze didn’t break from yours as he pressed a dedicated kiss to the leather.
“Prince Jacaerys,” You answered, curtsying, “I could say the same to you. You were there first, after all.”
Genuinely, there had been no jealousy in your reply. How could there be? You loved Cregan as he was, but knew few loved Cregan instead of Lord Stark of Winterfell. Anyone else who saw into the window of Cregan’s soul was a dear friend of yours, no questions asked.
“Please, my lady,” He insisted, “Call me Jace. All of my friends do.”
WEEK ONE.
You noticed the intricacies of their dynamic almost immediately. It was not necessarily hard to miss, not even for the feeblest of minds. Anyone who had spent an hour in the presence of Cregan Stark knew he was a man of few words, with a disposition as icy as his homeland. There were very few things that brought him joy, and even fewer that brought him visible joy.
Jacaerys was one of those things. At his welcome feast, your husband had sat at the front of the room, you at his left, your guest of honor on his right. Feasts were only your strong suit in the planning stage. You ran the household in a highly organized manner and had mobilized the entire castle in preparing for Jacaerys’ welcome. Once the event came, however, you were happy to fade into the background. You were sure others would be happy too.
Tonight, all eyes would be on your visitor. To honor the occasion, you had worn one of your finer gowns for the affair—a warm, heavy silver gown with deep purple embroidery, displaying the joined colors of yours and your husband’s houses.
It was no surprise to you that the prince was happy to lap this attention up. He was heir to the Iron Throne, of course. He had been primed for all eyes pinned on him since birth. He radiated light—a light so bright it was contagious, transmittable only to your husband.
In the two years of your marriage, you had learned one thing: smiling was rare. It was rare between the two of you, but the absence of a smile did not mean he was displeased with you–a trait you had struggled to cope with in the early days of your union. Cregan was naturally stoic and spent most of his time preoccupied with matters of state and the Wall. His brow and lip were always turned downwards. The weight of responsibility made it hard to do otherwise.
When he smiled, it was small, or it was the consequence of a gentle laugh. It happened most often when he was tired, when he had just woken up, when he was sated, or when he was full of love. They rarely lasted. He would fall asleep or get up, and you would be left trying hopelessly to render the moment immobile.
Smiling from Cregan was rarest in front of everyone. He was a master of composure, born from years of projecting security and worthiness of his claim to be Lord of Winterfell. Jokes did nothing. He did not sing songs with the rest of his men. Cups loosened his shoulders, but not his lips. Not until after he was back in your bedchamber.
And yet, when he stood to make a toast, he smiled graciously. A hush fell over the room as he loomed over the guests of the hall. An unexpected sight indeed.
Some would suspect flattery—but this was Winterfell, not Highgarden. Northerners were hardly men of lip service. Others would suspect graciousness—no, Cregan Stark did not need to flatter his guest, but he did need to show the Prince of Dragonstone that he was welcome in the North.
That would leave only honest, unabashed happiness. From Cregan Stark. Warden of the North. Something few expected. And while you knew the prince was one of your husband’s favorite people, you couldn’t have expected that he would be smiling at his welcome feast during his toast.
“To all gathered here tonight,” Cregan’s voice boomed across the hall, “Let us all raise a toast to our prince, and to his mother. Treat him as you would your fellow Northerner in these coming weeks. Drink, eat, rejoice. Long live the queen!”
“Long live the queen!”
Cups were raised to the future king and his mother. Ensuing cups were filled, and refilled. Once he sat down, Cregan seemed content to sit between his wife and his prince and let them lead the conversation. Jacaerys was incredibly easy to speak to. He regaled you with tales of his correspondence with Cregan, life on Dragonstone, his childhood in the Red Keep. Every now and then, Cregan would interject, with a comment, a rebuttal, or an inside joke, which would send Jace into fits of laughter, especially as the prince sank deeper and deeper into his cups.
Cregan and you continued drinking too, albeit Cregan handled his wine far better than you and Jace. Not that he was impossible to sink. You could see his eyelids growing heavy, his shoulders dropping the tension, his body settling into his chair as the night progressed. Your laughter grew higher in pitch and frequency. The hall was warm and welcoming, something rarely felt this intensely in your home. While you had grown to love Winterfell over the past few years, you knew that its doors opened this widely for a very precious few. This was a welcome that had to be earned.
The party remained lively. The singers took up a spot in a far corner of the room, and the men took women into their arms to prance about the open space.
“Do you indulge Lady Y/N in dance at these feasts often, Cregan?” Jacaerys asked, and you stifled a laugh.
“He would sooner take the black,” You joked, “And besides, Cregan is a fine warrior, but a terrible dancer.”
Cregan raised an eyebrow, but didn’t argue. “I’m glad you find this insufficiency of mine humorous, wife,” He conceded, before looking at Jacaerys, “I seem to recall you are fond of dancing.”
You smiled, looking at the prince gleefully. “You dance?”
He bobbed his head up and down, noncommittal in his answer. “I wouldn’t call myself a dancer, necessarily. I’ve learned the dances at court.” His expression turned smug. “I am certainly more capable than he is.”
Cregan scoffed, shaking his head. “I should have pledged for Aegon. Look at how you repay me.”
You stiffened at Cregan’s remark, only to relax when Jace burst out laughing. Cregan’s eyes were warm. Swallowing down your nervousness, your gaze flickered between them both. The Year of Tension—the final year of the late King Viserys’s life, and the two moons following his death where the realm teetered between peace and war—had been three years past now. Many still grew awkward when discussing the crisis of succession. Evidently, not Jace, who scoffed right back at your husband.
“And then what?” Jace quipped, “Vermax was right there. We would have made you the warmest Northerner in the history of the Seven Kingdoms.”
The prince moved his eyes back to you. “Come, my lady,” He said, standing and extending a hand, “If my friend will not indulge you in a dance before the night is over, then the pleasure shall be mine.”
You looked at his hand, and recognized a scar matching your husband’s. He led you to the dance floor, with no protests from Cregan. He seemed to watch you both with a deep interest. Jace faced you, and allowed you to come to him. One hand placed itself on his shoulder, and when you lifted your palm, he brought his to yours. A moment later, his hand landed on your waist, a gracious and polite distance between you both. A moment later, the music began.
“Are you happy to be back in the North?” You asked, beginning to move in tandem with him. Jace smiled.
“I am. It is an honor to be received in such a way, especially as an outsider.”
He said outsider the way most Northerners said it. Like an insult.
“You understand, yes?”
Shrugging as best as you could amidst the dance, you had to agree. “Many had their doubts when I wed Cregan. That the only woman suitable for Cregan Stark could be one bred by the North. Some were particularly vocal. To some, I’m a Northerner now. I’ve slowly started to think of myself as a Northerner. My children will be Northerners someday, and I will die in the North, most like.”
You paused, thinking about the friction you still came face to face with. “But some will always consider me to be an outsider. It can be admirable, I suppose. How united they are. Gods know they could use the unity down in the Riverlands.”
“Do you miss it?” He asked, breaking eye contact briefly to eye his feet. “Cregan told me you kept the Seven after your marriage. I imagine it must get lonely.”
“It can be.” You did the same, looking down at where your feet fit in between his as the dance continued. “But I am grateful. Many a husband would have demanded I take their gods instead. Not only did he welcome me to keep mine, but he has repurposed use a room in the southern wing of the castle as a room of worship. My own personal sept, if you will.”
“Do you keep a septon?”
“No,” You replied, almost sad, “There are few willing to make the long journey, only fewer wishing to preach to only one. Some visit, and stay for some moons. Not many.”
“I’m sorry to hear it.” Jace nodded affirmingly. “I can see to it personally that one be stationed here at Winterfell, if you would like.”
Immediately, you shook your head. “This is the North,” You said resolutely, “Ultimately, I must respect their customs. The servants in the castle are wary of the septons when they visit—they are wont to preach. I’m sure you know.”
He chuckled. “Oh, I do. My brother Lucerys and I were often on the receiving end of the preaching, when we were boys in the Red Keep.”
You smiled at the newfound warmth on his face, different from the happiness at being in Winterfell. A vicarious pride, happy to gush about his family. “How is your brother?”
Jace beamed, ever the proud eldest son. “Luke is well, thank you for asking. He’s soon to be seven and ten, and is likely a constant in the hearts of the young ladies at court. He spends most of his days out on the Velaryon fleet with our grandsire and has become adept at sailing.”
“A true Velaryon, indeed. You must be proud of the man he’s become.” You smiled, “I’m sure he will one day make a grand Lord of the Tides.”
“I agree, and I am proud, as any eldest brother can be. Extremely so,” Jace said wholeheartedly.
The music swelled. He knew the steps of this dance well, it seemed, and suddenly you seemed inclined to believe he had downplayed his proficiency. He spun you with one hand and grabbed your other hand mid-spin. The two of you were now facing the same direction, Jace guiding you with his hands on yours.
You looked up, focusing back on Cregan. He was watching you both lazily, one hand around the goblet. Gray eyes shifted ever so slightly, and you knew he was locking eyes with you. He clenched his jaw. Your breath hitched, fighting to maintain your composure and remember the steps to the dance.
I adore you, you wanted to call from across the room, keep looking at me like that and it will kill me from want, and I will die the happiest woman in the world.
Jace let go of your hand, finishing the spin, returning to the beginning of the sequence of steps. He had yet to stumble or hesitate. When he pulled you back in, it was closer now. He exhaled, and you felt it on your cheeks.
“You are exceedingly humble, my prince,” You sighed, looking up at him, “You are extremely graceful.”
He hummed, hand landing back on your waist. “You are too kind, Lady Y/N. Besides, someone has to dance with you, yes?”
A giggle fell from your lips. “You say that as if it is the ultimate tell of a marriage—whether a husband will dance with his wife.”
“Not necessarily.” Jace shook his head. He spun you around again, and when you saw his face next, he too was looking at Cregan. “As long as you are suited to each other’s company. As long as his character fits yours—which by the sound of his letters, they do.”
You blinked, watching him watch your husband. He seemed oddly transfixed. “We are quite happy. A-after two years…”
You craned your neck, searching for your husband. Cregan was still watching. This time, however, his gray eyes held just above you, over you.
He was watching Jace. And when you looked back at Jace, he was holding his gaze firm. Subtly, his hand tightened against your waist. You hardly noticed, until you began to slow as the music calmed.
“...I believe we understand each other quite well.”
The music ended moments later. The couples around you came to a stop, and when the applause began, Jace finally looked back at you. He smiled, but his eyes were unreadable.
“It brings me much joy, that you and my friend have a happy marriage. You are very lucky.”
“Thank you, my prince.”
He led you back to the table, and the three of you retook your previous conversation. Cregan had drained another cup by then, a servant stopping by to refill it as you and Jace sat back down. When you sat, his neck craned to stare deeply at you. His gray eyes shone in the candlelight, pupils wide and dilated. You could feel your heart skip a beat, waiting for him to say something.
“Yes?” You asked. He shook his head, raking up and down your figure.
“Nothing, pet.”
He did this often. Staring just to stare. The closest thing to adoration he would allow himself in front of others. Any man could look at his wife. None of them could look at you the way Cregan did. A profound longing, soliloquizing with a silvery stare all the things he could never bring himself to say out loud.
The conversation picked back up, at Jace’s insistence. You tried your best to continue, to remain active in the conversation, but it was the point of the night where Cregan’s intentions were beginning to bleed through, thanks to the drink.
The most telling of all was when Cregan’s hand moved past his plate, past his cup, beginning to inch towards yours, and by the gods—this tactic of his never failed to hit you like a young maiden.
How ridiculous it seemed, that he could exert such power over you. His hands rarely ever touched yours on nights like these. He would make a game of drawing his hand near and pulling away before he could ever actually touch you. Coming close and inching away, like waves lapping at the side of a ship.
You’d never have taken Cregan for a tease, when you first married. And you supposed, in a way, he wasn’t truly. Not in the original sense of the word. You rarely had to tell him off, rarely had to shove sneaky hands away. He didn’t grab at you in front of his advisors, for which you were grateful. But small things like these, in a hallway or at supper…
The unfairly tantalizing push and pull of something as miniscule as whether or not he would touch your hand. A side glance without actually turning his head, one with hooded eyes from either the drink or the suggestion of something more, once he had you all to himself. Anything more than touching was always relegated to the bedchamber.
No, Cregan’s teasing lied mostly in the negative, the promise of more without ever even giving anything in the first place. Not until the only eyes placed upon you were his own. He loved these things, how he could see your pupils dilate or your breath catch. And when the time finally came, when his hands found their way between your legs, he loved the evidence of just how much he affected you.
Where they found themselves inevitably, at the end of the night. Once the lords and ladies had sung their goodnights to the three of you and welcomed Jacaerys back to the North. Cregan had led you up the stairs with a hand at the small of your back and had pressed you up against the door of the bedchamber the second it closed behind you.
Nights with your husband tended to reveal his more brutish nature and true strength, hidden beneath layers of furs. He could be loving and tender every now and again. But often, Cregan seemed to need to prove himself worthy of the Stark name. A wolfish nature would emerge on nights like tonight. Bite marks on your shoulders, breasts, hips.
Even then, he was rougher than usual tonight. You never complained. Not when he drove himself into you with a force that pushed the air from your lungs, using rough hands to push your thighs up to your chest, and slot himself between them. Not when he took a thumb to your pearl and swirled it in circles until you sang so beautifully for him. Not when he bent down to press a bruising kiss to your mouth, giving you a moment to recover before he parted and asked for “just one more, my girl. Let your husband show you how much he loves you.”
When he spilled in you finally, and lay his head on your chest, you racked what was left of your mind to wonder what may have triggered an appearance from the wolf. Whenever he was challenged, he liked to take it out on you. Whether the challenge had been issued by one of his advisors during council gatherings, a lesser lord at an audience, or by you during an argument, Cregan seemed to revel in using your body as an outlet to release his frustrations.
But who had challenged him that night? Everyone had smiled at him all night long, especially with his guest of honor at his side. There were no attempts to provoke him, not in front of Jacaerys.
Which left Jacaerys himself. Jacaerys, who landed just outside of Winterfell atop a hulking bright green dragon, who had temporarily displaced your husband from his pedestal of most important man of the room. You furrowed your eyebrows as you stroked Cregan’s sweaty hair.
“I had not realized the prince triggered such envy in you,” You murmured, looking up at the canopy of your bed.
“Jealousy?” Cregan spoke against the skin of your breast. It briefly sounded as though he was a child caught doing something he should not have been doing.
“Aye,” You said gently, “You don’t get like this often. Only when you get angry, or jealous. Or if I work you up, which I cannot imagine I did tonight.”
“No, you didn’t,” He hummed, “Very well behaved. And the feast was beautifully planned.”
“Do not coo at me like I were a pup,” You grumbled, pushing gently at his shoulder. “Besides, I was not about to provoke you in front of your friend and our future king. Or do you think so poorly of me?”
Cregan rolled off of you gently, and you puffed out a sigh when you felt him leave you. He propped his head up on his hand, the other tracing the curve of your breast.
“No, and I know you wouldn’t. You didn’t work me up, love.”
“Did it anger you when I danced with him?”
“Anger?” Cregan shook his head, frowning as if you had just spoken in tongues. “I was not angry at all. Nor was I jealous.”
You scoffed. “You were looking at each other like two horned deer about to spar. What a fight that would have been.”
Your husband tilted his head. It looked like he was holding back a smile. “Is that what you think it was?”
“Don’t deny it,” You huffed. Cregan smiled now, waving his hand.
“There is nothing to deny, because it is not true. You misunderstand, love. You’ll see.”
And see, you did. But it was not unsettling.
By the end of the first week, none of it seemed strange to you. You didn’t think it strange when Jace accompanied you both on a tour of the armory, and Cregan’s fingers brushed Jace’s when Cregan was showing him how to use a crossbow thought to have belonged to Torrhen Stark’s daughter. Nor when Jace passed by your husband in a small hallway, and instead of waiting for precedent, for Cregan to step to the side for a Prince of the Realm, Jace took it upon himself to brush past, gently nudging Cregan to the side by brushing his hands along Cregan’s waist.
What befuddled you was that even through all of this, you never felt a drop of jealousy. Even when you noticed the nature of Cregan and Jace’s relationship: the long bouts of eye contact, the unspoken conversations, the laughter, the way they seemed to orbit too close to each other. If anything, it only spurred curiosity. Every movement was now artwork for you to repaint in your mind. Every conversation became a dead man to dissect, and you the maester.
You waited, admittedly, for the twist in your chest, the urge to cling to Cregan, the ugly bloom of green in your heart that would turn your impression of the Prince of Dragonstone ugly and unpleasant. It never came. Instead, you were left with the strangest desire to push them closer. Like when you played with your dolls as a girl, and made your princess kiss her knight. You almost wondered if there was something wrong with you.
Because there was no knight or princess to be seen here. In their place stood your husband and a prince of the realm.
You sat with the doubt, but not for very long. Mostly because you had a spectre of a thought, one that could never be put into writing or spoken into words. A hunch. An inkling.
That if you truly were to push them closer, they would not protest.
Your husband was, for all intents and purposes, an emotionless wall of a man. Until it came to you. You could read him like a sailor could the stars. You had lived and learned his tells over the course of your alliance. The twitch of his lips, the flexing of the joints in his fingers. Whenever Jace was in the room, you could feel it. Taste it.
Jace would crack a joke, smug and wry. Bring up an old memory, or something they had discussed in a letter. His head would tilt back with an air of pride expected from the heir to the Iron Throne, and in a moment anyone else would miss, a fraction of a second, Cregan’s eyes would glance down at the span of his neck.
Every now and then, if Jace veered too close, you could make out the smallest dimpling of Cregan’s right cheek. Immediately you knew what from: gnawing on the inside of his cheek. Because he couldn’t bite down on what he really wanted to. You knew this look—you had been on the receiving end of it at feasts that dragged on for too long, or council meetings that grew too boring.
What you hadn’t anticipated was the prince turning his attention to you.
•❆·. ❆ .• ·• ❅ ·❆.
The end of the first week came to a close in Cregan’s private study. Cregan had sent you off to bed without him, and together with Jace, they had opened an old cask distilled in Karhold many years ago. The final day of the first week had been slower, and had left time for the old pair to finally have some time on their own.
The conversation began as normal as ever. Debriefing the first few days here at Winterfell, rehashing memories, discussing politics and logistics. Until Jace decided to change the subject.
“Your wife is a wonderful woman,” He said genuinely, “Your match was well suited.”
Cregan smiled at his mentioning you. “It did not always feel that way.”
Jace swirled the liquor in his goblet. “Oh? No?”
Cregan sighed. “The arrangement was made before we ever met. We had no time to become familiar before—”
“Before you became familiar.”
“Not—Jacaerys.” Cregan flashed him a look, but it was not threatening in the slightest. Jace snickered, and Cregan felt his chest grow warm.
How he had missed this. There were few in Winterfell with whom he could simply joke with, like this. He was always the most needed man in the room, here. Everyone wanted something from him, always. Not Jace.
Not in a way Cregan would have complained about, anyway.
No, here in this room, he could simply be Cregan. No one to lord over or wrench power away from. He supposed all of that fell on his prince’s shoulders. He returned to the question he’d asked himself for years: who took all of that from Jacaerys?
“Lord Tully took it upon himself to arrange the match,” He continued, “I think Y/N’s father was positioning things to have her wed Lord Oscar.”
Jace raised his eyebrows. “He’s around Luke’s age, I’d wager. He was so young back then.”
“Aye,” Cregan agreed, “And not keen on taking a wife at that time, certainly not one several years older than he. No, Oscar Tully wrote to me instead, and one of my men who’d ridden to Riverrun once and held court with them all around that time told me she was beautiful, and I thought it time.”
“I take it Lord Mallister didn’t care which great lord got his eldest daughter, just that a great lord had her,” Jace quipped. Cregan shrugged, somewhat indifferent at the mention of his father in law.
“He seemed overjoyed at her match with the Warden of the North.” Cregan sat down opposite him, lost in thought. When he spoke again, his tone was downturned. Regretful.
“We had a misunderstanding, the night of the wedding. I believe I’ve told you.”
“You thought you’d frightened her.” Jace crossed his arms, trying to recall the story. “And she thought you resented her.”
Cregan sighed, mournful of the entire affair. He pinched the bridge of his nose, recalling the distance he found in you back then. “Everything went… well enough that night. It was wonderful. Then in the morning I opened my big idiot mouth and said something I should not have. We did not lay together for another three moons after. She looked at me as if I had threatened to bite her head off.”
“You always were such a poet, Lord Stark.”
“And you have always loved to make fun,” Cregan bit back, straightening his posture. Jace finished his drink, and Cregan poured himself another one.
“She seems transfixed with you now,” Jace observed, “Always watching you. She is exceedingly… warm towards you. Though neither of you say it much.”
“Sometimes she is of fewer words than I,” Cregan conceded, “But there can be such joy in a shared silence when there is no pressure to fill it. We speak freely when we want.”
Jace was silent as he mulled over Cregan’s words. The prince looked over to where his friend was sitting, taking note of the fond expression on his face. He opened his mouth. Hesitated. But pressed on nonetheless.
“I’ll admit, it’s not what I would have expected from you.”
Cregan tilted his head towards Jace, gaze turning firm. “This came because it was expected of me.”
Jace pursed his lips. “I would have expected someone more talkative than you. A bit more willing to push.”
They held each other’s eye, and the air turned tense. The topic was a seal that should have remained unbroken. Cregan took a deep breath.
“Someone like you?” He asked, in that low gentle tone he took when he already knew the answer to the question he was asking. The seal gave way, peeling Cregan’s walls back until what was left was a man Jace had known much closer, once. Someone he remembered quite frequently, late at night. He lifted the goblet and drank, but did not look away. Cregan squared his shoulders.
“Have you considered that it may have been good for that moment in time,” He said, “But would not have suited me long term?”
“It was never suitable for either of us,” Jace countered, setting down the goblet, “And we did it anyway, Lord Stark.”
“Jacaerys,” Cregan mumbled, “You are being unfair.”
He had misstepped, he realized. “Do you take me for a spurned lover, Cregan?”
Cregan stared back at him, wordless. Cold gray eyes that had been warm not five minutes ago caused Jace to reevaluate his words. At the realization, Jace shook his head. He held up his hands in truce, offering a small gentle smile to boot. “I do not mean to turn this into a grudge or an argument. Truly. I just wondered…”
He watched Cregan’s jaw clench when he trailed off, feeling something warm and familiar bloom in his chest.
“Wondered what, my prince?” His tone was gruffer, words clipped. This was dangerous territory. In another life, his teasing likely would have burst into something that would have had Jace’s toes curling, legs raised towards the sky.
His smile turned sly. “Your wife is beautiful,” He said, tracing his fingers up and down the intricate details of the goblet, “Any man can see that.”
“Jace.”
The prince licked his lips, watching Cregan’s nostrils flare. Already, he seemed to know what Jace would end up saying. How delightful, he thought. Another opportunity to tantalize him.
“Would you be willing,” He said slowly, “Would she be willing…?”
Cregan’s voice dropped a dangerous octave. “Jacaerys.”
He blinked once, twice. The subtlest fluttering of his lashes. “Yes, my lord?”
Cregan’s knuckles were white against the tip of the armchair. Jace had known those knuckles very well, once. He had committed the ridges of them to memory. He would commission sculptures of them for his own personal collection, if Cregan had allowed it.
A pity. If this was how Cregan reacted to Jace asking him to fuck his wife, he doubted he’d say yes to that.
Cregan drained his cup, standing. “I ask you to leave my lady wife out of this conversation. I would not leave her to the devices of other men in our own bedchamber. She would not allow it.”
Before he could move to leave, Jace stood, making quick work to block Cregan’s path to the door with his own body. Cregan froze, hovering dangerously close.
“Who said anything about our being alone?” Jace shook his head, grinning. “How unimaginative, Cregan. That I want simply to ravish your wife and make a cuckold of you in your own home.”
“Is that not what you’re asking of me?” Cregan said, voice dangerously close to a growl.
At this, Jace shook his head again. His smile widened, showing teeth that would strike if he had the chance, the permission. The permission could not be granted by either person in this room. They both seemed to understand this. It did not mean they wanted it any less.
“I was of the understanding that cuckolds do not participate. I would not want her without you there. I want both of you.”
If Cregan asked him to leave, he would leave. Leave the room, leave Winterfell. He would walk into the snow, climb atop Vermax, and return to Dragonstone at this very moment. If Cregan punched him, he would perhaps also welcome it. He was well aware of how out of turn it sounded, noble hierarchy be damned.
It seemed Cregan had not considered this a possibility. His mouth opened, then closed. He studied Jace’s gaze, seeming to look for any inclination that he may be joking. The entire time, Jace held firm.
When Cregan found none, his eyes travelled down to Jace’s heart-shaped lips. Jace’s heart hammered in his chest.
“One night,” Jace suggested, “The three of us. You and her, as the gods intended it. Her and I, you and me, as we intend it.”
Cregan took a deep breath, brows furrowing. His tone seemed to waver, simmering with apprehension. “Jace…”
“One night, and I will never ask you anything of the sort again. I know you love your wife,” He insisted, “And ours is long past. But do you not also think back on how we once were? How good we could make each other feel, and wonder whether or not we could ever do it again?”
“My duty is to my wife.” He looked away, but from here, Jace saw no denial. He craned his neck downwards.
“I would wager gold,” Jace murmured raspily, “That if I were to grab you right now, your cock would be hard.”
Jace didn’t move, but Cregan’s hand shot out to stop him before he could, wrapping against Jace’s slender wrist. Cregan was facing him again, and Jace lifted his head. How close they had drifted in the past few minutes. He could feel Cregan’s body heat radiating off of him.
Cregan’s hand felt like a brand, heat starting at his skin and melting through his flesh until it burned at his bones.
“Where has this greed come from, my prince?”
“Search your memories,” Jace answered, “I have always been like this. Only the last time, you bent me over in the middle of the Wolfswood to satisfy me.”
Cregan licked his lips. Jace watched the glide of his pink tongue with the rapt attention of a rabbit suddenly aware of a wolf.
“Your… idea,” Cregan began, “It interests me. I must admit it.”
Jace smirked, but it was premature. Cregan let go of his wrist, and straightened his posture. He jutted his chin out, probably trying to feel even taller than he already was.
“I have never known my wife to look at another man, however,” He said, sounding rather proud at this. “Her eyes have never wandered, nor have mine. Our vows are resolute.”
Jace swallowed, starting to prepare to apologize, to patch his ego. He wondered how cold it was in the skies at this hour of night.
“But we have never been issued a challenge of this sort,” Cregan finished, and Jace’s brows began to raise.
“Challenge?”
Finally, Cregan smiled. It was small, lopsided. Jace felt his heart stutter, wondering how many times Cregan had given you this smile. What a privilege, to be on the receiving end of it for the rest of your days.
“If you can entice my wife,” Cregan murmured, “I will broach the subject with her.”
“I’ll charm her. Just as I charmed you.”
Cregan shook his head. “You don’t know Y/N like I do. She has a will made of steel.”
“So did you, I recall.” Jace had done this once. He could do it again. He raised a hand slowly, placing it in the center of Cregan’s leather doublet. Jace pressed down, searching eagerly for a restless ba-bump, ba-bump, ba-bump. He found it, feeling the beating of Cregan’s heart against a three-year old scar that spanned the middle of his palm.
“All it took was some pouting and some wine. And you folded the moment I pressed my lips to yours.”
There it was, Jace realized a moment later. Looking at Cregan, however, he would not have guessed such an uneven pace.
“I will say again,” Cregan said, slowing down his cadence, “You—do—not—know—her.”
Gods, how familiar this felt. Jace loved to push. Years past, Jace would poke and prod at the sleeping wolf, hoping desperately to wake. His antagonizing would lead to a pay off in teeth-clacking kisses, a pleasing soreness in his lower abdomen, and bite marks on his nipples (and once, his left ass cheek).
“No, but I know you.” Jace leaned forward. Cregan smelled of pine and bittersweet liquor. “I know your methods. All I have to do is inspire. Create a fantasy worthy of making her thoughts stray.”
Cregan remained silent. This proximity was dangerous. Jace knew that Cregan could also feel the way the air moved differently at such a short distance. When he tried to meet his brown eyes with Cregan’s gray, he found them turned just below his nose. Jace swallowed.
The Lord of Winterfell watched as Jace’s lips pressed together to hum, then turned upward.
“Besides,” Jace murmured, wanting so terribly to just lean forward and reunite. “I have already made your eyes wander. And it has not yet been a week since I’ve returned.”
Cregan bit his lower lip, and paused for a beat before stepping away. The sweet moment was gone, torn away, but deep down Jace knew that he had reached the end of this path. They could not pass this wall without crossing into the realm of dishonor. He wondered if Cregan’s heart was beating as hard as his own.
And still, he grinned hungrily. Bracing. Willing.
“What more can it be to make hers?”
WEEK TWO.
Whatever initial anxiety you’d had prior to the prince and his dragon touching down in Winterfell seemed to melt away as you became better acquainted with him. The first week had been largely focused on the North as a whole: Jace had met with representatives from the likes of the Dreadfort, White Harbor, and Bear Island. A small envoy had been sent from the Wall to discuss the needs of the Night’s Watch with the prince. One more grand banquet was held that week, the planning leaving you too preoccupied to join your husband and his guests.
This second week, however, felt more focused on Winterfell. Thus, as the Lady of the household, Jace’s attention turned to you. You walked the grounds with him speaking of the logistics of granaries, food distribution, expectations for your servants.
Many men would scoff or roll their eyes at the womanly duties of running a household. Not Jace. He remained attentive, clearly listening, asking genuine questions. Others, when they made it this far, would take it upon themselves to saddle you with recommendations you did not need. You do not need this many servants to do the washing, they might say.
And they would turn their lips if you answered genuinely: perhaps not, but I would rather have a few more servants than needed than to deprive these people of coin to feed their families. Winter is hard enough.
Instead, Jace would listen to you speak. He would mull it over, then ask. When you offered your rationale, he would consider it—actually consider it, not pretend that he valued your insight.
“You are incredibly receptive, Your Grace,” You said, “Some men have very strong opinions on how I run my household.”
“What know I of running households?” He answered, tone tinged with offense on your behalf. “Much less Northern ones at the height of winter.”
“You would be surprised.” Your smile held no joy. “You’d think I was Dornish, the way they think I know nothing about a long winter.”
He tilted his head. “Have you ever challenged their notions?”
You sighed, tracing a piece of embroidery over your skirt. “The septons say grace is of utmost importance. I would rather turn the other cheek than argue.”
Jace frowned. “How heavy it must be, to carry all of it in silence.”
With resignation, you looked at him. The freckles across his cheeks, just below eyes tinged with empathy.
“It can be.”
Jace crossed his arms, rubbing them up and down slowly. Despite the furs draped across his shoulders, he still seemed cold. Or perhaps it was more for comfort. You couldn’t be sure.
“I held back like you, once,” He said after a moment of silent rumination. Brown eyes met yours. His dark, curly, rather un-Valyrian hair fluttered in the wind.
“When the knife comes for you, holding it by the blade will only you more. There must come a time when you turn it on whoever you’re duelling with.”
You didn’t ask him what he meant by that. You didn’t think you needed to.
There was a refreshing frankness about him, one that was exceptionally rare around these parts. Many Northerners seemed to use honesty as an opportunity for jaggedness. Honest to a fault, particularly brutal at your lowest. Jace’s honesty was nestled in kindness. The intention behind it was entirely different. It was comforting and not reproachful. He did not seek to pick apart your every action and your sex was not immediately discrediting to him.
It was pleasing and surprising. He seemed to be molded by gentleness that you would not expect of a dragon prince, and seemed to genuinely like you as a friend. Not just as the wife of his friend and political ally.
They had to have spoken about you, you assumed. What man did not speak of his wife to his closest friend? What friend did not offer advice or insight in return?
Honesty was never lacking in your husband. He was not normally one to hide things from you, not unless he knew you’d delight in the surprise. That being said, there was a difference between honesty and openness. While Cregan was not lacking in the former, he certainly did the latter. Pulling truth from him was easy. Pulling the whole truth, however, and asking him to lay his emotions bare, was worse than removing an arrow from a wounded man.
So, whenever you wanted his truths laid bare, his heart on his sleeve, you waited until you both returned to the shared intimacy of the bedchamber. Right before it became too late, and Cregan blew out the candles so that you may both rest your heads together.
And so it came when he was sitting on the edge of the bed. Sitting behind him on your knees, brushing out his long, dark hair. His shoulders were slumped and his breathing was slow.
Lax, your man. At rest from a world that demanded so much of him, with someone who demanded only his full self. Tonight, the latter was not the scarier option.
“Does he like me?” The peace in the room was so resounding that your murmur felt like yelling into the void. “Do you know what he thinks of me?”
Cregan didn’t turn, seemingly content to let you brush through his hair. His low tone seemed weighed down with sleep. “Who? Jace?”
“Hmm,” You confirmed, “He has been incredibly kind.”
“Has he, now?” He rumbled mirthfully. You frowned. He knew you had worried over the crown prince’s approval. Why did he seem to be teasing you all of a sudden?
“I… yes.” You worried at your lower lip, lowering the brush. The loss of sensation was what finally made him turn back to you. He had a smile to match his previous tone, but when he saw the unsteadiness in your brow, the nibbling at your mouth, his face changed. His eyes filled with warmth, and a hand came up to caress your cheek.
“Why would he not like you then, love? If he has been so kind, as you are telling me.”
You looked downward, suddenly unsure. “I don’t know. I just… I want him to like me. I need him to like me, Cregan. He had a spot in your heart before I did. I cannot have us at odds.”
He shifted his position to fully face you now, pulling his legs onto the bed before pulling you into his lap.
“My anxious little wife,” He whispered, “So desperate for the approval she has already been given. One she never would have had to earn.”
“He likes me then?”
He shook his head, but not in denial. “He does. But I wish the opinions of others would not worry you so.”
“I care not for the opinions of others,” You huffed, “I care for the approval of our future king and your dear friend.”
Large hands caressed your sides, warming your skin through the fabric of your nightgown. You wrapped your arms around his neck, analyzing the details of his face. Ones you already knew but would be happy to stare at again and again. A small scar at the top of his cheekbone from sparring in his youth. The soft stubble on his chin. A mole near his jaw.
“He’s quite taken with you, love,” Cregan whispered, tension in your chest releasing at his admission, “He says you are quite capable at running our home. He considers you gentle. Graceful.”
Your cheeks went warm. “Does he really?”
He nodded. “Beautiful, too.”
“Oh.”
He stifled a laugh. “Are you blushing?”
“I—no.”
“You’re blushing,” Cregan said, boyish and teasing, “I just told you Jacaerys Velaryon thinks you’re beautiful, and you’re blushing.”
You straightened your posture, trying to push yourself off of him. “Well, it is quite late. Let us sleep, husband—”
He finally laughed, and you wanted to smack him. He pulled you in closer, despite your squirming, and gave you a chaste kiss. “Worry not, Y/N. It does not offend me.”
“Enough of this foolishness, Cregan. It is time for bed.”
He laughed, reveling in your bashfulness. “You asked me—”
“Hush. Bed.”
Throughout the week, Jace’s attention remained fixated on you. Walking the grounds with you, engrossing you in conversation on a variety of topics, from history, to your taste in wines, to snickering about your husband’s habits. He seemed to slowly come closer as your bond grew. Standing at a respectful distance at the beginning of his visit. Closing the distance with every passing day.
It did not dawn on you until the end of your third banquet, halfway through the second week. The night grew rather late, again full of dancing, singing and well roasted meat. Drinking games accelerated the chaos of the night. Jace had even convinced Cregan to partake in one—a game of tongue twisters and limericks, which he had inevitably lost.
By the end of the night, you were swaying on your feet. While Cregan was not, he was clearly not in possession of all his wits. You retired while there were still a few lords and ladies insistent on seeing the rest of the game through, Jace lingering with them.
His touch was innocent enough to the onlookers. Lingering on your hip, steering you up the stairs. A lord gently taking his lady wife to bed. How noble, how chivalrous. As you went up the stairs, yours and his steps seemed to echo a little louder than they usually did.
And then, once the lull of the party was far away enough, you rounded a corner, and he pinned you up against an alcove in the wall. You froze, unsure what to do. You weren’t going to turn him down, but gods, you couldn’t think of the last time he tried to ravish you in an empty hallway where anyone could walk past.
“You looked beautiful tonight,” He growled against your neck, “and I am the luckiest man in the world.”
“Cregan—what are you—”
“What do you think, pet?” A hand slid down your side, finding your hip under your dress and hiking it around his waist. With a finesse you did not usually expect from him, he slipped past the hem of your dress. His touch trailed up your ankle, past your stockings and thigh, searching, searching, and oh, finding…
“Cregan,” You whimpered, trying to stay quiet as his fingers came to glide through your folds. Your hands clung to his back.
“Let me,” He pleaded, restrained and throaty that made you clench around nothing, “I could take you right now, if you let me.”
“They will hear—” He chose your protest to plunge a finger in, thick and teasing.
He brought his mouth up to your ear. “Let them.”
Your head tipped forward, back pressing into the cold stone of the wall. Your lips yearned for the skin of his shoulder, his collarbone, but he was still fully dressed. You chose instead to press your mouth against the fabric of his doublet, trying hard to stifle your keening as he explored your walls.
His fingers began to speed their pace, pleasure rolling up your body, starting at your core and travelling up your torso, down your legs. You let yourself imagine it, a deep shiver taking over your person
His lips took your earlobe into his mouth, suckling gently. You could feel him pressing against your thigh, and you furrowed your brow. Whatever madness had possessed your husband, it had spread to his fingers, and you gasped against the thick gray wool at his shoulder when he pushed another in.
“Do you want me to?” He pulled you closer with his free hand, and you couldn’t hold back the cry that came with being impaled further on his digits. “To fuck you up against this wall, and let Lord Glover hear how good I make you feel?”
You couldn’t find your words, eyes screwing shut as you imagined what he was suggesting.
And when you opened your eyes, you found you didn’t need to. Peeking from around the corner, in the dark, you saw him: dark curly hair, slightly dishevelled from a night of drinking. Dark eyes trained on your face. You could feel it, at the base of your spine, and it spiked when you realized who you were looking at.
“Fuck—”
“Tell them, Y/N,” He demanded, free hand digging into your side, as if he wanted to break past the dress and melt his skin into yours, “Tell them who’s going to make you cum like this.”
Jace stepped out from behind the corner, and when your eyes trailed downward, you could see how hard he was. He wanted you. You wanted him.
“I—”
Cregan bit down on your neck, and a cry wrenched from the back of your throat.
“Jace!”
You shot up in your bed, heart threatening to break out of your chest. Cregan stirred by your side, but did not wake. You clutched the blanket to your bare chest, remembering how the night had ended. The three of you had retired together after a third round of drinking games. You and Cregan had walked Jace back to the chamber he was staying in, and then when you returned to your own, Cregan had pinned you to the ground, hiked your skirts up and fucked you until the embers in the hearth burned low.
Your eyes drifted back to your husband, who looked so unbelievably peaceful at your side. He was naked under the covers, and you willed your breath to steady. A hand brushed your hair out of your face. Your voice was trembling as you whispered into the cold air of the bedchamber.
“Father, give me strength.”
You tried to ignore the dream. A figment of your imagination. All the time around your guest and his proximity to your husband had clearly caused a lapse in your subconscious. Yes. Yes, this is what you told yourself.
This was all happening in your mind. Jace was not really closing the distance. It could not be.
At the end of the week, he took you to meet his dragon. Cregan had ridden to Wintertown that morning to settle a land dispute, and had left you alone in Jace’s company. The pair had joked with each other before your husband’s departure in such a manner that had you peeling your eyes to watch the twitch of gloved fingers against reins, the furling and unfurling of lips.
Gods, how they had crafted a work of art together. A mosaic of seemingly innocuous looks and turns of phrase. How you wondered what the grout that held it all together was made up of. The promises whispered into the tiles as they had dried. And whether there was still room in the center of it all, where you could carve perfectly sized shapes of your flesh and shove them in between.
“Mind your manners, my prince.” Sarcasm from Cregan was seldom heard, but Jace had unfolded corners of your husband you scarcely knew existed. His lips threatened to curl up as his men began to ride off ahead of him.
“Of course, Lord Stark,” Jace had answered, “I know how to share. Do you?”
Cregan had said nothing. His fingers seemed to tighten their grip on the reins. A breath later, his eyes landed on you. You felt a ball of nerves grow in your chest.
“Take good care of our guest, wife. I’ll be back before dark.”
And then he left.
The guards had shown you where Vermax was resting—a large, empty barn meant to stack provisions tens of feet high into the air, emptied ahead of the prince’s visit to accommodate the large creature. Most days, the beast spent his time flying, stretching his wings, always returning to his rider and the attendants who had ridden up prior to Jace. A devotion you would never know. A blood oath Jace would rather die than live without.
“Cold then, are you, old friend?” Jace asked Vermax, stroking his snout affectionately. The dragon leaned its head into Jace’s touch, letting loose a sound that sounded like a complaint.
“Ever spoiled, my Vermax. I know, I know,” Jace cooed, speaking to him as if he were a pet cat and not one of the most powerful creatures in the world, “Only two more weeks, and then we can return to Dragonstone.”
He spoke to the dragon as if they drank together, or were hunting friends. Mouth tipped open in awe, you realized that that was what they were. Brothers spanning species. Metals forged together in the fire, into the ultimate weapon. Jace turned back to look at you, a smile spreading across his face as he took note of your expression.
“Come say hello, Lady Y/N,” Jace suggested, and you eyed the dragon warily.
Women of the Riverlands knew how to hunt and how to respect the wild animals they hunted. You knew the likes of bears, deer, wolves. Quite literally, this was an entirely different beast. A being bred from blood magic and scales that glittered like emeralds. You had only seen dragons twice before this, and only ever from overhead. This was the closest you had ever come to one.
You took half a step before your body became too tense to move forth. “Y-your grace. Are you sure he’ll let me…”
“He can feel my trust in you,” Jace explained, nodding encouragingly, “We share an emotional bond. I trust anyone he trusts, and he the same.”
Vermax let loose an excited growl, and were your feet not glued to the ground, your bones would have jumped from your skin. Jace tipped his head back, laughing as if Vermax had told the greatest joke Jace had ever had the pleasure of hearing.
“He can feel your apprehension, which he appreciates.”
Your brows furrowed, looking up at Vermax. His glowing, orange eyes peered back down of you, and you forced yourself to keep his gaze.
“He… appreciates it,” You said flatly, trying hard not to jump back “Well, I’d scarcely take joy in offending him.”
“Dragons consider gentle hesitation as a sign of respect,” Jace continued, still petting Vermax’s side, “Oftentimes those who have never so much as seen a dragon think they can tame them with their touch. It never ends well, I have seen it myself. They are not lap dogs, my lady.”
You wanted to laugh, looking back at Jace. “Are they not? I hadn’t realized.”
The Prince of Dragonstone seemed to be enjoying himself far too much for your comfort. He stepped away from the dragon, in your direction. “There is a fine line, funnily enough. Hubris aggravates them. Excessive displays of fear make them impatient.”
His smile faded, but his expression remained warm. Beckoning you closer. “Come. He won’t harm you while I’m here.”
Moving too suddenly around the dragon, in your opinion, Jace swept forward and closed the gap between you both. He stepped behind you, a hand coming up to the small of your back to guide you. The other traced your arm gently, starting from your elbow and ghosting down until his fingers wrapped themselves around your wrist.
His touch was light. His palms were cold, calloused from years of dragonriding. He lowered his voice to a murmur, speaking from over your shoulder.
“Here,” He offered, using his grip to raise your hand, “Let me help you.”
With Jace as your guide, Vermax lowered his head. You could feel the dragon’s hot breath warming the space, being pushed low with his exhales and moving up as the heat from within him expanded before rising up into the rafters of the barn. The smell of smoke filled your nose.
“Slowly.” Jace’s mouth was both too close and too far away from your ear. “Though he’s harmless, right now at least.”
“Is he as gentle as you, my prince?” You asked, and he exhaled–an almost laugh with such a specific sound you didn’t need to see him to know he was smiling again. He sounded closer now.
The emerald dragon was inches from you now, rumbling low. You could feel the sweat beginning to form in your hairline.
Jace’s lip pressed itself to your ear. Your eyes fluttered shut, and his voice lowered itself to a whisper.
“Whoever said I was gentle, Lady Stark?”
Scales in your palm, pressing up into you. Fingertips at your knuckles, holding tightly. Your eyes opened, and it fell into place for you as you peered up at Vermax, now nuzzling into your palm.
“You are one,” You murmured, awestruck.
Jace nodded proudly, the movement vivid against the side of your head. “He is mine own brother in all but blood. Were one of us to die, the other would feel a hollow in our chest the rest of our days.”
“Does that scare you?”
This time, Jace doesn’t nod. You heard him swallow. He let loose a shaky breath, now too looking at his dragon. His hand prompted yours, and you began to scratch the tip of Vermax’s nose. Vermax let out a pleased huff, but it did little to assuage Jace.
“It is my worst fear,” The prince admitted, “One so strong I’ve lost count of the nightmares it has brought me.”
Your head turned to look at him then. Emotions danced in his eyes—pain, admiration, adoration, all for his dragon. He looked so young, still. Even if it was winter, and the sun was dull and dim, freckles still spanned his sharp cheekbones and angular nose. If you wanted to, you could probably count every single one. Gods, did you want to.
With a purse of your lips you realized just how close he was. Jace wasn’t looking at you, however. And Vermax, despite pressing into your palm, was looking at Jace.
They have known each other for a thousand years, it would have seemed. There was some sort of conversation happening here you were not physically capable of being privy to. It was all too familiar, you thought, and your lips turned up before you could help it.
This drew Jace’s attention. He raised an eyebrow, smirking. Face to face now, still behind you. Pressing close. Too close. “What?”
“This is a talent of yours, Jace. Holding entire conversations with your eyes.”
He shook his head. “It is a bond between dragon and rider.”
Your eyes widened, gaze curious but not prying. “Oh? Since when is my lord husband your dragon, then?”
Jace looked surprised for a moment, before scanning your face. Dark eyes lingered on your lips a beat too long, causing your breath to hitch.
“Is that jealousy I hear, Lady Stark?”
Now you shook your head with a wry smile. “Not at all. I’m simply curious.”
Jace’s forehead tilted forward, ever playful. His breath fanned your face. “Ask away, then. I am an open book.”
“You may be an open book, Prince Jacaerys,” You murmured, blood roaring in your ears, “Yet my lord husband seals himself shut until you are at his side.”
“What can I say,” He whispered, nose ghosting across yours, “I’ve a gift for opening people up.”
If either of you moved half an inch closer, your lips would touch. This was an exquisite torture. Surely, this was crossing someone’s line. Yours, Jace’s, Cregan’s. At some point they merged. Stopped being lines and curved, woven into a circle.
You exhaled steadily. Vermax, suddenly disinterested, stepped away. Jace didn’t let go of your hand as you lowered it. His other hand—when had it moved from the small of your back to your hip?
You were warm. The dragon was warm—surely, this was why. You should have stepped away. Jace should have stepped away. This was hardly proper.
“You and my husband share the strangest bond,” You pointed out, “One I’ve seldom seen between men.”
The statement was a question you didn’t need to pose. Jace hummed, raising his eyebrows. Goading. Expecting. The hand on his hip began to rise.
“Is this an accusation, my lady?” His low tone held no malice, hand tightened against your hip. The rise and fall of his chest pressed up against your back told you everything you needed to know. He wanted this as much as you did.
“Not in the slightest, my prince,” A third time, you shook your head, slower. More deliberate. Using the movement to brush the tip of your nose against his. A small smile graced his pretty lips, lips now so close to yours anyone from afar would think the worst of Lady Stark and The Prince of Dragonstone.
His nose pressed harder into yours. Your mouth tipped open, nearly trembling with anticipation. Every second grew infinite.
“No?” Jace murmured, eyes trained on your parted lips, “What should I take it for, then?”
He dragged a finger across your wedding band. You felt your mouth go dry.
An invitation, you wanted to say. A door I want you to open.
He would have kissed you. Or you would have kissed him. Someone would have stumbled in the next few seconds, you knew it to be true. Your blood was running too hot and the pupils of his dark eyes were too dilated. You were two objects in unstoppable movement in the direct line of each other’s fire. The collision would have been inevitable and ruinous and you would have welcomed it with open arms.
But then Vermax’s head snapped up, grunting at something behind you. Jace, feeling his dragon’s altered state, split from you. You jumped at both of their movements, perfectly in sync with each other. And when the pair of you turned, your eyes landed on one of your guards, who looked incredibly uncomfortable at the entire ordeal.
“Y-your grace, Lady Stark,” He said, “Lord Cregan has returned.”
You cleared your throat, hands smoothing out your dress. At your side, the prince clasped his hands behind his back. He clenched his jaw, and any hint of his playfulness was gone.
“Yes. Yes, of course,” You sighed, heart pounding, “Thank you, Ser Justin.”
•❆·. ❆ .• ·• ❅ ·❆.
The whole ordeal left you with an ever growing sense of anticipation and dread. At dinner—tonight a smaller affair between some of the higher ranking lords and ladies who had come to visit—you sat at Cregan’s side. He sat at one head of the table, Jace at the other.
The table was long enough to where you could easily avoid conversation with him. You hardly spoke a word to him the entire evening. You could hardly speak a word to anyone. Somewhat naively, you hoped to make it through the evening without anyone noticing.
And then Lady Umber opened her mouth.
“You are rather quiet tonight, Lady Stark,” She pointed out, the table quieting to listen to her speak, “I hope you are not fatigued by the large number of guests.”
“Not in the slightest, Lady Umber,” You answered, painting on a smile, “The conversation flows so well amongst you all tonight I am happy to simply listen.”
“How glad I am that we are such a source of entertainment.” Her tone was dripping with knives disguised as niceties. “I take it after all these years we are still novel to you.”
You set your knife down, taking a deep breath. You glanced over at Cregan, who was eyeing Lord Umber with a silent urge to wrangle his lady wife. Lord Umber looked as though he was about to break into a sweat. You felt something take hold of you, starting in your chest and spreading through your shoulders.
Lord Umber stammered, “Wife—”
“Two years is a long time, Lady Miranda,” You said, trying hard not to stumble over your words, “Though I’m sure after all of yours, it feels quite short.”
Silence. Lady Umber’s eyes widened, and for half a moment, she looked like a fish out of water, mouth opening and closing with no sound to accompany the movement. The rest of the table grew deathly still. The sound of silverware scraping against plates all but disappeared.
Your eyes found Cregan’s again. Even he seemed surprised, but not angry. His stare held a subdued wonder, one brow raised in bewilderment. He looked across the table, and you didn’t need to follow his gaze to know who he was looking at. You swallowed, unsure of what to say or do. Everyone’s eyes were suddenly on you as the person who had taken control of the moment. And here you were, unsure of where to take it next.
Thankfully, you weren’t the one to decide.
Jace snorted so hard into his goblet of wine that it broke the tension entirely. He was bright red, having held back so hard from laughing. But now, he could no longer handle it, hastily setting the cup down and covering his spluttering with his other hand.
Your mouth fell open, face burning profusely. Then, at your side, the impossible happened. Cregan coughed, looking down at his plate.
Everyone’s heads turned to look at him.
He nodded once, clenching his jaw. When he looked back up, eyes trained in the prince’s direction, his mouth twitched.
And then he laughed. Once, twice, and before you knew it, his shoulders were heaving.
Awkward laughter erupted at the table. Some unsure, some genuine. Most in disbelief. The chain reaction of your challenge, Jace’s choking, and finally Cregan Stark laughing. Actually laughing.
When you looked back at Lady Umber, she was clearly fuming. But she had lost.
And perhaps, for the first time, you had pushed back. Refused to turn the other cheek.
You sat an inch higher for the rest of dinner. And when you finally looked in Jace’s direction, you stared at him until he was the one to break eye contact.
•❆·. ❆ .• ·• ❅ ·❆.
“I cannot believe you said that.” Cregan lifted his elbows out of the hot water, resting back on the dry stone not submerged in the hot spring. You shook your head, thinking back on your behavior.
He didn’t sound upset at all. Rather, he still sounded surprised. In awe. His head craned, the candlelight bathing him in a soft light that stole your breath.
“I’m proud of you, Y/N. It was about time you bit back. You’re a wolf now, after all.”
You leaned into his side, giving him a gentle peck on his upper bicep, just below his shoulder.
“Thank you,” You mumbled against his skin.
You kept your face there, feeling the warmth of the muscle against your cheek and forehead. When your eyes closed, all you could see were a pair of brown eyes and freckles you wanted to map out like the stars. You cleared your throat nervously.
“There is… something I must ask you. About the prince,” You said softly, not meeting his eyes. Rather, you remained buried against his arm. Cregan made a face, brow quizzical.
“Has something happened?” He asked. You didn’t know whether or not to answer his question. When you remained silent, his mouth turned upwards. He considered the possibilities, before making a curious observation.
“You could hardly look at him during dinner. He couldn’t stop looking at you.”
Sometimes you wished he’d remain incurious. A fundamental impossibility, a pipe dream never to come true, considering your husband’s disposition. Much like the wall, nothing got past Cregan. He may well be the end of you one day.
His lips found the crown of your head. You continued looking at the steam rising up above the water. When he spoke, his voice was low, raspy.
“Ever the seducer, our crown prince.”
Your head snapped in his direction, surprised eyes meeting his knowing ones. He gave a small half-smile. No anger, no joy. If anything, he looked sympathetic. As if Jace had also once pinned Cregan between himself and Vermax and delighted in blurring lines. Chest hollow, you were slowly realizing that it was more likely than not. You swallowed.
Pity. From Cregan Stark. A rare sight, indeed. Though tonight certainly seemed the occasion.
“Has he made you uncomfortable at all?” Cregan asked, searching your face for fear or discomfort. Half of you wanted to kiss him breathless. The other half was moments away from bursting into tears. Any other husband may well have accused you of temptation. Brazenness. Whorishness. Cregan’s first concern was your own wellbeing.
“No, not at all,” You said immediately. “He’s very… persuasive.”
At this, his expression morphed from a somewhat-smile to a genuine one. “May I ask what happened between you both today?”
A peace banner. There was no threat of anger from him, you realized, and you relaxed. Your shoulders sagged, guardrails you hadn’t knowingly put in place. He just wanted to know.
“I… We almost kissed,” You admitted, “He was trying to get me to pet Vermax, and he grabbed my hand, and then…”
“Almost?” If you hadn’t known better, you might even think he sounded disappointed. “What stopped you?”
You bit your lip. “Ser Justin came in to announce your return.”
Cregan reached for your hand under the water. The air was not tense. Awkward, more like. Cregan was never one to talk. You were always the one to coax it out of him. When it was your time to be silent, it rarely proved productive.
“Are you angry?” You asked, placing your free hand on top of his. When you looked up at him, his gaze was warm, and he shook his head.
“Not at all,” He answered, “Were it any other man, maybe. But our prince has always been very… what did you call it? Persuasive. So long as you did not feel coerced, I won’t fault you. He may be our prince, he may be my friend, but you are my wife.”
His reaction was as jarring as it was relieving. You needed to know. You could hold back no longer. “Did you ever…?”
Cregan licked his lips, and hesitated for a beat. Eventually, he replied. “Him and I? …Yes.”
“How many times?”
“Seven. At least.”
Your eyebrows shot up. Cregan looked like he wanted to laugh.
“Have you ever known me to be sated easily?”
You couldn’t argue with that, even if you wanted to slap that smug look off of his face.
“I suppose I’m just… curious.” You swiped a damp strand of hair off of your neck. “Clearly, you care a great deal for each other. I didn’t realize just how much.”
“He is our future king,” Cregan remarked, “I am Warden of the North.”
He said it as if this was meant to explain all of it. You didn’t want to tell him that you doubted Jace behaved this way with Jason Lannister, Warden of the West. When your face didn’t change, he sighed.
“When we first met,” Cregan began, “We were on the brink of civil war. You remember.”
You nodded. “I remember when my father received the raven notifying him of Vermax being spotted flying over the Twins.”
“I had become so preoccupied with matters of running everything. All that… all the loss, all the anger, all the fighting. It made me numb. I truly hadn’t realized how it had… hardened me. When he came to Winterfell, I accepted him as my guest, and I renewed my vow to his mother. My men and I invited him to hunt for three nights—it was summer still. How could we not? He was the prince. Impending war be damned.”
You said nothing, waiting for him to continue. “None of us expected any fun. The mood was bleak. We hardly knew him. But he put on his best spirits, and he charmed us all. He was smart, gracious. Humble, which none of us expected from a southern prince.”
Cregan’s mind was seemingly far away, tongue darting out to lick his lips. “And one night, we’d all had too much to drink. Everyone else had gone to bed. The fire was burning low, and he was sat right next to me. He looked so… pretty.”
At this, your eyes softened. “It just happened.”
“It was so easy to speak to him. That never happens—you know my character, love. It didn’t even occur to me that I wanted him until he kissed me. Like I hadn’t even considered it to be an option.”
You thought of Cregan when you’d first met him. He was gruff, closed off, easily the coldest man you’d ever met. You’d been convinced he didn’t even like you until a few months into your marriage, when he stumbled into your bedchamber drunk mumbling, “I missed you today. And I wish I could tell you that without the drink.”
You thought of your husband as a little boy, small and unsure and stifled by an uncle who would rather be rid of him entirely, all for the sake of control of the North. What that did to him, what retaking his birthright would have entailed for a young boy forced to become a man far too early. What all of that and the death of a little brother could do. You pressed a kiss to his hand, and he hummed at the gesture.
“Do you love him?” The question left you before you could think twice. When it was out in the open, you decided to press. There was no taking it back now. “If he had been the princess of Dragonstone, would you have asked for his hand?”
Cregan looked down at the water, where your hands were joined. He squeezed, gentle but insistent. Affirming. “I suppose… I suppose there may have been a time where I thought myself to be in love with him. I care for him still. Deeply, in ways that I cannot say I’ve ever cared for any other man. But I would not have married him, even if it had been an option.”
You tilted your head, and Cregan acquiesced without you even needing to ask. “I married you out of duty, yes? We’d never met until you arrived at Winterfell.”
“Yes,” You said, “And I thought you hated me.”
He sighed regretfully. “And I’ll spend the rest of my days making it up to you. But Jacaerys and I had different duties at the end of it all. I am Warden of the North. He is our future king. Those two titles cannot merge, not without one of us giving something up—which neither of us would do. Regardless of the circumstances, it would not have worked.”
You swallowed, a lump beginning to grow in your throat. Under the water, his hand with the scarred palm began to burn. “So you married me out of duty. But you love Jacaerys.”
“What? No.” The rebuff was immediate, bitten out. He frowned, and you bit down on your tongue. This had taken a turn you hadn’t wanted it to.
Here it was, you realized. That awful shade of green in your chest you’d wondered so much about, turning your heart from deep red to brown to a bright, flaming green. Suddenly, the image of Cregan and Jace seemed much less enticing. You wished you hadn’t thought about the green so, wished so badly to yank it from the root and toss it into the fire.
“Gods, I wish I were better at this,” Cregan muttered to himself, before opening his eyes to look at you again. “No, love. You are not a placeholder. You’re my wife, and I love you so differently than how I loved him.”
He moved to be in front of you now, grabbing you by the shoulders. Forcing you to look at him, though the determination in his eyes did little to assuage your confusion.
“I would never have asked Jacaerys to marry me, not if he weren’t heir to the throne, not if he were a woman,” He told you, “Fundamentally, it would not have worked. The only way it would have worked would have been if Jacaerys were a Northern woman born to a noble house, bound to no one but his father. And then he would not have been Jacaerys, would he?”
You blinked. “What?”
“What?”
You opened your mouth to speak, but nothing came out. Officially declaring surrender, completely lost. You wondered if Cregan was more lost than you were—he seemed on the verge of distress.
“So…” You shook your head, chest clenching. You took a shaky breath, hating the way your voice sounded on the verge of cracking. You started to pull away. “So then would you or would you not have—I… C-Cregan, do you not–?”
His grip tightened on your shoulders, head shaking furiously. “No,” He said with gritted teeth, “No. I love you, Y/N. My soul is yours.”
“But–”
He groaned, the top of his head leaning into your chest. “This isn’t… I don’t mean—fuck, I’m sorry.”
He pulled you into his lap, large hands cradling you gently. A position the two of you had taken a hundred times in this exact same spot. Instinctively, your arms wrapped around his shoulders, ignoring the low heat in your stomach that always pooled there. Your muscles knew what usually came next: joined bodies moving in such a way that caused water to spill onto the floor. Not now. It could wait.
When Cregan met your eyes, he looked pained. Like he wished he’d never spoken. Your husband, who never spoke much to begin with, who guarded his emotions the way a starved wolf guarded a kill.
He grabbed your arm, then interlaced your fingers. His wedding band glittered in the light. The scar brushed against your palm. You didn’t want to think about how the ring could be taken off.
“I loved Jacaerys differently then, before I loved you. It’s different from the way I love him now,” He explained slowly, clearly searching and painstakingly choosing each word. “A-and both of those forms of love are vastly different from the way I love you, the way I’ve loved you since we married. I can’t quite put it into words. I don’t know that there are enough words in the Common Tongue for me to fully describe it, and I don’t know I’d be able to if there actually were.”
His face scrunched up, trying to articulate his thoughts clearest. Your heart was in your throat the entire time, but you dared not interrupt him.
Finally, his eyes opened, clarity interlaced with fear. He took a deep breath before he placed his final verdict.
“My vow to him is my sword. My vow to you is my heart. And my heart will always come before my sword.”
Your lips parted, eyes brimming with tears. No longer from jealousy, or the fear that you were nothing to Cregan but a second choice. You brought a hand to his cheek and he pressed into it desperately, longingly.
“Cregan,” You whispered, smiling, “I love you.”
His eyes closed at your touch, sighing when your forehead touched his. “I love you, and I’m sorry if candor escapes me. I do not mean to dishonor you, wife. It has never been my intention.”
“No,” You cooed, “No, thank you for telling me.”
“Is there anything else you’d like to know?”
Sighing, you gave him a gentle, chaste kiss. When you pulled away, you studied him. His gray eyes were darting frantically across your expression, searching for any leftover doubt or anger. A hand slid down his shoulder and landed just above his sternum, pressing into the skin, caressed by the hair on his chest. Underneath, where his heart lay, you could feel it hammering quickly. You almost wanted to laugh.
“Honesty is the only thing that scares you so,” You mumbled, “A wildling horde south of the wall would not cause your heart to falter this way.”
“I can slay a wildling horde,” He whispered, “Matters of my heart, decidedly not.”
Your hand lingered on his chest, the other beginning to scratch at the baby hairs at his nape. He hummed contentedly—this was one of his favorite forms of contact. Deeply soothing, comforting, one he had never known until you taught it to him.
“You needn’t answer if you wish not to tell me,” You began, “But can I ask how it’s different? Not the emotion. Rather…”
You cleared your throat, feeling an awkward heat crawl up your neck, reaching your cheeks and temples rather rapidly. You reached for his hand out of comfort, but grew even warmer when you saw the scar. “I know… how it works, between two men. Did he… did you…?”
It was his turn to watch you struggle for words now, and for all of his struggling earlier, he seemed quite amused to let you writhe like a fish.
He bit back a grin. “Did I what?”
You scrunched your lips together, unsure of what to say. With every word, his smile grew and grew until he was holding back laughter. “Who… well. Cregan, I’ve no better way of putting it. Who was the scabbard, and who was the swo—?“
At last, he could no longer resist, and a laugh escaped him. He laughed and all the previously tense air evaporated from the room, and then he laughed some more.
“You’re wondering who stuck their cock in who,” He said once he’d settled, “Is that it?”
You gasped, swatting at his chest. He seized your hand, pressing it back into his chest, rubbing over your knuckles. “Vulgar man,” You chided affectionately, but then quickly added, “…Yes.”
“I had no preference. I think I would have enjoyed it.” He answered candidly, “But he seemed rather keen on being bent over. Not quite something you’d expect from a prince.”
“Oh,” You sighed, cheeks burning brightly, “Oh, I see.”
“He tried to kiss you.” Bringing the conversation full circle, his hands slid down to your hips. “And you liked it.”
Wordlessly, you nodded. Cregan huffed, looking as if suddenly everything made sense.
“What if I told you…” He eyed your lips, tongue darting out to wet his own, “The prince… propositioned me, shortly after his arrival?”
Your eyebrows shot up. “He attempted to seduce you?”
“Not exactly. I wouldn’t have allowed that to happen. No, he suggested the three of us share. That for one night, the three of us indulge in each other. You and I. Him and me. You and him.”
Oh. “A-and what did you say?”
“I wasn’t sure what to say. Ultimately, I told him I would make no attempt to force the idea on my wife unless you seemed interested. It would seem his grace has taken upon itself to lay his plan into motion, with or without me.”
“What a scheme,” You murmured. The heat in your lower stomach had returned now, spurred by the mental images Cregan had built you. Him sprawling Jace across the forest floor. The three of you, together, tangled in bedsheets. And Jacaerys Velaryon, beautiful Jacaerys Velaryon, lips swollen from kissing and covered in sweat.
“How unfairly he plays, and how he underestimates us, love. Do wolves not wander in a pack?”
You furrowed your eyebrows, thinking back to everything that had transpired over the past few weeks, now with the knowledge you’d just acquired. Jace’s history with your husband. His propositioning you and Cregan.
If his attempt with Cregan had been anything like what he had done with you, you had to agree with Cregan’s choice of words. Unfair. But not necessarily cruel, or manipulative. No, this was a game to Jace, and he was eager for the two of you to play along.
“What say you now, husband?” You searched his face. “Now that his intentions are laid bare.”
He took a deep breath, clenched his jaw, and looked at you for a good long while. Then, his hands, still on your hips, pressed down, water moving around you.
Your breath hitched, feeling the hardness of his cock catch against your core.
“I believe it speaks for itself,” He replied. “But only if you wish for it, too. You are my wife, and you come first.”
“You like the idea of the three of us together,” You remarked, almost astonished.
“I cannot lie.” His hips shifted upwards, and you gasped at the pressure, of the sensation of him catching against your entrance. “How pretty the two of you would look on your knees, with both of your lips around my cock.”
Your hips responded in kind, hands scrambling to find purchase on his shoulders. “Cregan.”
“Don’t lie to me, Y/N. Don’t tell me you haven’t been thinking about it, whether I made him beg while pinning him to the bed, same as I have with you. Which I did. Grabbed him by his hair and made him plead to let him cum.”
Your breath weighed heavily in your lungs. Out of nowhere, the air seemed to weigh a thousand stones. The heat radiating off of the water was certainly not helping.
“Answer me,” He said softly, firmly. Looking for your voice, you nodded.
“Can you blame me?” Gritted teeth, fluttering eyes—two more things you could pin on Cregan. “You look at each other so lecherously.”
He huffed, eyes locked on your breasts as your hips began grinding down onto him in earnest. “We do not.”
“Oh, you do. I’ve been watching.”
“That’s all you ever do,” He grunted, “Maybe you should do more than just watch.”
“Something—ah—something would need to happen in order for me to do that.”
He grinned, yanking you closer. Before his tongue forced itself into your mouth, he said against your lips, “That can be arranged.”
•❆·. ❆ .• ·• ❅ ·❆.
WEEK THREE.
This week was a tour of Wintertown and some other villages nearby, and decidedly more laid back. There were no tourneys to be had, hunts to embark on, or great festivals to curate. Winter was here, and threatened to come for you all if you decided to spend more time outside than remotely necessary.
Jace and Cregan heard petitions coming from the smallfolk that had travelled in advance to see them both. To speak with the Warden of the North was one thing, to do it while the Prince of Dragonstone was sitting at his side was another thing. They heard petitions for hours, and even insisted on staying an additional two after seeing the amount of people who had yet to be heard.
The week was strangely absent of them, then. You were preoccupied with your daily work and overseeing the planning of Jace’s farewell banquet, the grandest of them all. You saw them in small glimpses. Cregan in the morning or Jace at meals. Glimpses of both of them in the courtyard.
You weren’t sure if Cregan had spoken to Jace. How unfairly he plays, he had said, how he underestimates us. Jace had expected to be playing two different one-on-one games. He didn’t know that he was actually only playing one, and was outnumbered on the turf.
So when Jace passed you by, you allowed yourself to look. Really look at him, and to let him see that you were looking. And when he noticed you one morning in the middle of an empty hallway, he stopped, stepped forward and took your hand in his.
“Lady Stark,” he said. He raised your hand to his lips, staring intensely as he pressed a kiss to your glove. “You look lovely today.”
“Thank you, my prince,” You answered, “You look well.”
“I’m beginning to grow accustomed to the cold.” He rolled his shoulders back, seemingly at ease.
“It can be jarring at first.” You thought back to your first few weeks at Winterfell after the wedding. You weren’t sure if you’d ever be warm again, and that was at the end of summer. “We’ll make a Northerner of you yet.”
He laughed, and looked like he wanted to reply. His opportunity was stolen by a maid of yours, who rounded the corner and smiled when she saw you.
“Milady! Giselle has found the linen napkins you were asking for,” She called, “Shall we have them pressed?”
You gave Jace a regretful nod of your head, before replying, “Thank you, Greta! I’ll be right over to have a look at them.”
It was then that she seemed to realize who she was in the presence of. She noticed Jace, and immediately turned bright red before stumbling into a curtsy.
“My deepest apologies, your grace,” She stammered, “I-I didn’t see—”
“Worry not, my lady,” He said genuinely, “The work of a maid is a never-ending list. Carry on.”
Her eyes flickered nervously between you and Jace. You nodded in agreement. “All is well, Greta. I’ll be with you in a moment.”
She left, clearly still feeling awkward. When she was gone, the air felt lighter. “Thank you for not frightening my staff, Jace.”
“I could never. I’d rather they blush than tear up, and I’ve done the former twice already.” He studied your figure.
“Twice…” You took a steady breath. “Do you plan on teasing my staff any further?”
“Not necessarily. But if we drop the pretense, I might do more than tease you.”
“What pretense?” You gave him a coy smile, tracing the threadwork on your gloves. “Is there a game afoot?”
He stepped forward. You stepped back, eyes never breaking away from his. At this, Jace tilted his head.
“You are so brave, suddenly.”
“And you are so bold, Prince Jacaerys. You are a fountain of temptation.”
He licked his lips. “How pretty it sounds, my name falling from your lips.”
“I’d argue my husband’s name sounds even prettier.” Jace raised his eyebrows, taken aback at your sudden bite. You laced your fingers together, before gracing Jace with a curtsy of your own.
“I must go now, your grace.” You stepped past him, aiming to follow Greta’s direction. You landed a foot away from him, and stopped to lean in close.
“But perhaps one night you might listen for it before you leave us.”
You did not look back when you walked away. But you could feel him watching.
•❆·. ❆ .• ·• ❅ ·❆.
He took you up on it that night. You shouldn’t have been surprised. You had issued a challenge, and Jace had simply taken you up on it.
You were in Cregan’s study, going over some documents regarding the household budget. The fire burning behind you, he had brought you onto his lap to look them over.
A knock at the door, following the heavy wood swinging open. You scrambled to stand, but widened your eyes when one of Cregan’s hands tightened on your hip, holding you in place. Jace stepped into the room, and for half a moment you wondered if you had been double crossed.
Then you craned your neck to meet Cregan’s eyes, and he nodded. Then, he looked at Jace. You watched his brow twitch subtly as he raked his gaze over the prince, and the grip he had on your side did not loosen. You stiffened, anticipation tinging your senses.
“Your grace,” Cregan greeted, “The hour grows late.”
“I can see that.” Jace jutted his chin in the direction of where you were sitting, zeroing in on Cregan’s hand on your hip. “If you are preoccupied, we can reconvene on the m—”
“Not at all,” Cregan interrupted, shifting you in his lap until you were perched entirely on his right thigh. “We were just finishing our own conversation. Was there something troubling you?”
“Safety, along the Kingsroad.” Jace shook his head and shifted his posture back and forth. “Though it seems you have something different on your mind.”
“Speak freely, my prince,” You murmured, setting the ledger down on the desk in front of you. Jace moved forward, his gait cautious. Still, there appeared to be a silent excitement about him. You looked down at your fingers. Were you trembling or were you just cold?
Cregan studied Jace’s trajectory, and when the prince’s path began to trace around the desk, he shook his head.
“Sit, Jacaerys.” Cregan took an authoritative tone. He refused to look away as he grabbed your hand and placed it upon his chest. The hand over yours squeezed gently, and you forced your shoulders to loosen. “What can be done about the Kingsroad?”
You attempted to pay attention to what Jace was saying—something about harsher sentences for those caught thieving. You tried to think of what would come next. Something was building, surely. What, you could not be sure.
This was entirely uncharted territory for you. Cregan had mostly kept everything contained to your bedchamber, as you tended to prefer. You’d had sex in this room once, because Cregan had been very convincing. Up until two weeks ago, you had never considered any man other than your husband. Here the challenger stood in front of you, a dragon prince with a gaze that might as well set you on fire just as much as the beast that had carried him here.
You knew that if you wanted to, if you were to stand up right now, or to push Cregan away, he would understand. He would lay the game to rest and promise to never pick it back up again. There was no threat of coercion or pressure from him. And because you trusted your husband’s judgment so well, you knew that it had to have been the same for Jace. There was not a single hair on your body that doubted the notion.
You could say no. You had every freedom to do so. But did you want to?
You’re a wolf now, Cregan had told you a few nights ago. And that same night, he’d also said, do wolves not wander in a pack?
You were a wolf. You were his Lady Stark, a woman belonging to the North now. Not because you were given to the North or because it had taken you. You had welcomed the becoming of your own volition.
Before that you had been Y/N Mallister, and while eagles were just as fierce as wolves. But they were solitary birds.
And you and Cregan were one pack.
Your body relaxed. You leaned into Cregan, who understood immediately. The game moves forward.
Jace continued speaking, but Cregan leaned into you. His eyes closed, and he took a deep inhale against your jugular, taking in the smell of your skin and perfume oils. On instinct, you leaned your head back, letting him take it in. Jace’s voice faltered, trailing off in the middle of talking about a scourge of muggings near the Dreadfort. Cregan opened his eyes and raised an eyebrow.
“We’re listening.”
Jace interlaced his fingers, fixated on Cregan nosing along the expanse of your neck. “Are you?”
“Yes,” Cregan insisted, closing his eyes again, “There seems to be a network of bandits along the stretch of Kingsroad nearest to the Dreadfort. Go on.”
Jace licked his lips, before lifting his gaze, meeting yours. You wondered whether the look in his eyes was jealousy or impatience. Sliding your hand from Cregan’s chest to the shoulder closest to you, you held firm. Surprisingly, that sensation of jealousy you had felt the night in the hot springs had returned. But you did not shy away from it, did not let it stop you from having your fun.
You were putting your hands on your husband, you were hoping to convey, and Jace would lay hands on him and on you because you allowed it.
He certainly didn’t seem offended by it. He shifted in the chair, legs parting slightly. Then, he cleared his throat and began speaking again.
“Yes. Lord Bolton had told me when he spoke to me last week…”
Cregan’s lips met the base of your throat, and you inhaled sharply. Another hand gripped his shoulder, and your eyes fell shut. You could hear the crackling of the fire behind you and the depth of Jace’s voice, but the only sensation at the forefront of your mind was Cregan’s gently chapped lips just above your collarbone. He pressed a few kisses around the area before deciding on which spot he preferred best and anchoring there by opening his mouth and biting down. You let out a hmph at this, loud enough to cause Jace to falter once more.
“Lord Cregan,” He glowered, breath growing heavier, “You are forgetting yourself.”
There was no threat in the statement. Bait, more like.
“I remember myself plenty.” Cregan spoke against your skin before biting even harder. You gasped, reaching for the back of his head to push him closer. “I’m sure you remember me too, my prince.”
You heard Jace shift again in the chair, but did not open your eyes. He asked, “What good is memory when the experience is right in front of me, here in the present?”
Your eyes opened when you heard him get up in the chair. He took one step forward before Cregan sat up straight to look at him dead on.
“No.” You knew this tone. This was Cregan at his most domineering, typically reserved for nights he wished to prolong the most agonizing pleasure you’d ever felt in your life. “No, you watch tonight. You will sit there while I fuck my wife, and you will thank me for it. You will thank her for it.”
You never knew you could feel your cunt jump, but then, you also didn’t know forcing the future king of Westeros to watch you fuck your husband had been an available option to you until about five minutes prior.
Jace’s mouth fell open. He blinked stupidly. And then he laughed, sitting down. It was just as Cregan said, the near immediacy of his submission to your husband. Not quite something you’d expect from the Prince of Dragonstone.
He let loose a heavy breath, eyes growing darker. “Yes, Cregan.”
Cregan maneuvered you, forcing you to stand, nudging you towards the desk. You placed both hands on the wood, a slight bend to your back. Less than five feet away, Jace sat in the chair, fingers laced back together. His mouth was slightly ajar, tongue darting out to swipe across his lower lips. They were so pink, you wanted to finally kiss him.
But right now, that was not a call you were allowed to make. Cregan had made the command, and it would hold in stone until he changed his mind. If he changed his mind.
Cregan pressed his chest to your back, draping his broad shoulders over your frame. A hand snaked up your front, landing in a place where calloused fingers spanned your neck and your chin. He placed a wet, worshipping kiss just below your ear, and his hips rocked against your backside.
He was halfway to being hard already. His hand slid down your neck, other hand meeting at your chest to fondle your breasts over your dress. His body heat was radiating off of him so intensely you thought the fire would probably be cooler.
“Did you know I used to bend him over like this, love?” He asked in your ear, loud enough for Jace to hear. “One of the last times I had him, I took him just like this in the Wolfswood.”
Gods, that mental image should not have ignited what it did in you, but it did, and you keened at the thought. Jace chuckled.
“That’s exactly how I felt,” He said, lingering his gaze on Cregan’s hands.
“What a memory,” You panted, pushing your chest into your husband’s hand, “Describe it to me.”
“Why tell you when I could just show you?” Cregan pulled up the back of your skirt, holding it in place with one hand. Your entire body felt like a furnace, dragging your eyes up and down Jace’s person, listening for Cregan’s movements. You tried to conjure up the idea.
The end of summer. Cregan’s hair had been shorter when you met him. Had his hair been shorter then, when he took Jace up against a tree? Was he just as muscular then? What about Jace?
You could vaguely imagine two young men exploring each other in the Wolfswood, after weeks of learning and mapping out each others’ bodies. Two young men who had grown into the lords of the realm. The crown prince submitting to the Warden of the North. And if Cregan was truly showing you what had happened between the two of them, you could hear Cregan shuffling onto his knees…
He parted your legs, and your eyes widened when you felt his tongue lick at your slit from behind. He tugged on your dress, and you understood what he wanted. You grabbed the hem of your skirts, clutching the fabric for purchase. His giant hands grabbed your ass cheeks, spreading them apart for better access. You gasped, other hand sliding papers around the desk in search of something to hold you to the earth. You would float out the window otherwise.
“For someone so terrible with words, he certainly knows how to use his tongue, doesn’t he, Lady Stark?” Jace flashed a smug grin at you as your head fell. He spread his legs again, and you saw it then—the bulge in his pants, and the twitching of his hands on his thighs.
You just watch. You groaned, fully realizing the extent of Cregan’s dominion over Jace, his actions, his body. How quickly he had retaken it.
“Lady Stark?” Jace’s voice rose slightly. “Do you agree? Now that he’s showing you how he prepared me for his cock?”
You nodded, biting back a whimper as Cregan changed the movement of his tongue, delving into you. “S-so good,” You said.
“He licked me just like that. He had some stubble that time. A most pleasant ache.”
“Oh gods.” The room filled with the sound of your frenzied panting and the wet, insistent sound of Cregan’s mouth against your mound. This was perhaps the most aroused you’d ever felt in your life.
Jace laid back in the chair, eyes hooded. From under your skirts and behind the desk, he probably couldn’t see what Cregan was doing. But your sounds and his own experience had to have been indication enough.
“I bet I’ll be able to hear when he puts a finger in.”
“I wonder if—” You bit back a keen, “–if it feels the same for me as it does for you.”
“Probably not,” Jace mused, “Gods, that I could get wet like you. Poor Cregan’s face was drenched in spit by the time he was done with me. He looked lovely like that. So messy.”
Cregan hummed from behind you at the same time he decided to brush his fingers against your clit. Your voice jumped in pitch, and Jace nodded.
“I was right.” He sounded so excited about his theory being proven true. He licked his lips. “I always loved how thick his fingers were. Perfectly r–”
“Rough,” You finished for him, nodding in agreement. You pushed your hips back against Cregan’s face, teeth catching your lower lip in hopes of staying quiet. “Gods, Cregan…”
“And when he finally puts his cock in, it’s such a relief, isn’t it? Like an itch you can’t scratch on your own. I swore I could always feel him in my stomach—”
“Fuck!” Your head tossed itself back, feeling a few strands of hair beginning to stick to your forehead.
“What do you want?” Cregan asked, voice muffled from between your legs. He pressed down on your clit even more insistently. The paper under your hands crumpled as your fingers curled. You weren’t quite sure how you were still standing.
“Tell him,” Jace jeered, almost singing, “Tell your husband what you want him to do to you.”
You opened your eyes again to look at Jace once more, and your lower lip trembled from the pleasure. Your hips began to rock against Cregan’s face. His other hand squeezed your ass in a manner you knew would leave bruises. You would never shy away from this.
He shook his head back and forth between your legs, trying his hardest to get in closer. Your knees buckled, crying out his name.
“Tell him.” Jace’s voice was dripping with desire. “Beg him for his cock. Just like I did.”
“Cregan… Cregan, please fuck me.”
He pulled away, giving you a moment to catch your breath. You yelped when he smacked your ass.
“Soon, pet,” He said, too gentle for someone who had just been fucking you with his tongue, “Come for me first.”
And then he stuck his face back into your pussy, beginning to flick your clit in tandem with the rhythm of his tongue. You jolted, unsure if you were moving away one movement from the sheer overwhelm or into the other from the pleasure. You could feel your lower stomach growing taut, a building pressure underneath the tight, tight heat.
Now, you were fully fucking back onto Cregan’s tongue, whines spilling from your lips. You could feel his hot breath on you.
Your eyes cracked open and you landed back on Jace. You couldn’t count how many times you had done it already, but every time felt like the first. You would revel in him looking you up and down every single time. How ready he looked to strike had he not been shackled by Cregan’s words alone.
You swallowed a lump in your throat, eyes fluttering from the pleasure of Cregan lapping at you like a parched hound. Trying your damnedest to hold eye contact and keep them from rolling up into your skull. Your jaw hung slack, searching helplessly for words to string together.
Jace didn’t need to hear them. He seemed to recognize what you wanted to ask for. Perhaps he had struggled to ask for it himself, then, and was taking it upon himself now to be merciful.
“Cum.”
The ecstasy started at the crest of your head and dripped its way down your spine in such a way that it caused your back to curl in on itself. You held back a sob, body trembling at the sensation.
Cregan stroked you through all of it, prolonging your agony. He hummed too, clearly enjoying the tightening of your thighs against his head and your moaning into the hot, heavy air of his study. He kept at it until you were actively trying to run from him, too much to handle.
He squeezed your thighs in reassurance before he stood. When he reappeared behind you, he grabbed you by the chin, smearing your face with your own release. His lips found yours in a sticky sweet kiss, tasting your own musk on his tongue. You moaned into his mouth, pushing back in a redundant effort to bring him closer.
When Cregan parted from your mouth, he smiled triumphantly. His chin was still gleaming.
He nudged your cheek with his nose. “And to think that was only the beginning.”
You almost keeled over. Cregan gripped your chin again, repositioning your head in Jace’s direction.
“You really haven’t moved,” Cregan murmured, almost surprised, “You’ve settled down since then.”
“I had my reasons for restlessness back then,” Jace offered, very much an understatement. He shrugged. “Times have changed.”
The next moment, he tilted his head. “Are you really not going to let me touch her? Or you?”
“If you keep up the act, maybe,” Cregan answered, wrapping his arms around your middle. Palming again at your chest. “If I could get her out of this dress faster, I’d let you suck on her tits. They’re divine.”
Jace hummed imaginatively, and you had to hold yourself back from ripping at your bodice. You rather liked this dress.
“I told you, she’s beautiful,” Jace eyed your cleavage. He ogled your chest, which was still heaving from Cregan’s mouth, and now his hands.
“Yes, well,” You huffed, growing impatient, “She is right here. Ready and waiting.”
Cregan chuckled against your cheek, kissing the flushed skin before pulling away. “‘M here, pet. I’ve got you.”
His palm met the small of your back to bend you back over the table. Trousers were unlaced, your skirts pulled back up. Your breath hitched. You realized, once more, that this was actually happening.
His weight returned to your back, slotting himself where he had so many times before. He moved against you like it was a birthright, like he knew this was where he belonged. The main difference was sitting right in front of you, painfully hard. Jace groaned quietly, his hands tightening into fists on his thighs.
Cregan reached a hand back, and then you felt him at your entrance. Teasing you by sliding his cock up and down your slit. You clenched around nothing, desperate to feel him fill you.
“Don’t tease,” Jace grunted, taking a deep inhale through his nose.
And for once, Cregan was the one inclined to obey. His head squeezed through your entrance, and the two of you groaned at the pressure, at your togetherness. Cregan gripped your hips, and your head rolled back onto his shoulder. His eyes found yours, noses bumping gently against each other.
The solace he allowed for this brief moment as he slid into you was an eternity in itself. One hand remained on your hip, the other slid between your stomach and your sternum. Whether it was to hold you up or if it was a subtle show of dominion, possession, you couldn’t be sure. Both. Could it not be both? Darkened gray eyes the same color of a turbulent storm raked over your face, flushed and burning. You mewled softly when he bottomed out, jutting your chin out in search of his lips.
Here, in this small bubble, it was just him and you. It would always be him and you.
“Cregan,” You sighed, barely above a whisper. He groaned your name softly, seemingly in agreement.
He jerked his head at the third in the room, and you were reminded of Jace. When he reentered your sight, he did not seem offended at the sudden exclusion. His eyes were full of admiration and reverence, breathing heavily at the erotic intimacy on full display in front of him.
“You’re beautiful,” He whispered. He was talking about you both.
“Cregan.” Your voice was reedier, insistence dripping off of it.
Cregan grunted again. He placed his mouth by your ear. The warmth of his body was rolling off of him, even despite the fact that you were both still clothed. “You wanted to know how I fucked him, Y/N?”
“Yes.” Your brows scrunched together, nodding frantically. “Please move.”
Cregan drew his hips back, sliding out until only his tip was inside of you. Jace’s tongue slotted itself on the inside of his cheek, the skin stretching as it rested there.
“I let him feel every vein on my cock when I put it in him,” He explained, sliding in at an agonizingly slow pace. “I teased him until he was begging for it. I let him squirm. Almost like you were, just now. He sounded a bit more desperate. ”
He bottomed out again, punching the air out of you. He practically spit the next word out, aimed directly at Jace, who grinned at the sound.
“Whorish.” The hand on your sternum slid down, just above your womb. Then, he pressed down, and you gasped, feeling him at both sides. “I let him feel me so deep in him, I wanted him to feel me in his throat. I wanted to eat him from the inside out. Tried to fuck back on me, I didn’t let him.”
He held still for a beat. Two. All the air felt sucked out of your lungs, and Cregan’s tongue snaked out to ghost along your earlobe, and then he lowered his voice to the quietest, lowest whisper he’d had all night.
“Not you, Y/N. You do everything I say. You’re so sweet, my love.”
He slid out again. And when he fucked back into you, the slow, measured, torturous pace was gone, replaced with a forceful, quick one that filled the room with a wet, obscene plap plap plap as his fat balls slapped against your pussy.
Your body seized in his clutch. “C-Cregan!”
“I know, pet,” He growled, low tone dripping with faux sympathy, “I’ve got you, little thing.”
You shifted onto your tiptoes, fighting for a better angle. You were fully sweating now, overheating in the warm, thick fabric of your dress. His force continued to wreak havoc on your lungs, and combined with his body lumbering over your back, it almost felt like you were suffocating, choking on your husband’s essence.
His hand grabbed your chin, forcing you to look back at Jace in the chair, who was clenching his jaw now, nostrils flaring with every deep heave of his breath. You wanted to say something, either to him or to Cregan, it didn’t matter. The pleasure was fogging your brain so beautifully that someone, anyone needed to hear it, but your words were gone.
“Think about him,” Cregan commanded, “Look upon our prince and imagine him taking my place.”
Jace’s eyebrows shot up, arousal so clearly painting his features. He was flushed, hair dishevelled, trousers wrinkling from where he had gripped them so clearly. And he was still so hard, tenting the dark, rich fabric. You wanted it in your mouth. You wanted to tear the fabric from his body and take him into your throat, to let him wrap his fingers in your hair and take and take and take and take—
“Say his name.”
You clenched down so hard on Cregan, his exhale turned into a moan, throaty and hungered. Your hips tried to push back, movement involuntary and animal, but he held you in place.
“No,” He scolded, “No. I held him in place, so I’m holding you in place now too. Now do as you’re told.”
“J—” You choked out, breath coming out short and shallow, “Jace.”
Jace’s head tipped back, groaning quietly into the air. His hips shifted upwards, humping like a dog at something that wasn’t there. A reprieve he was not allowed to receive.
“Y/N,” He murmured, eyes fluttering shut.
“You want her,” Cregan said, “You want me.”
Jace’s words emerged, pulled from behind gritted teeth. “I do.”
“What do you want?”
“Anything—” You’d never heard him sound so desperate. How quickly he’d gone from pretending to be in control to showing that he’d never really had it in him at all. “Everything. Her cunt on my mouth and your cock in my ass and her tongue in my throat and—and—”
“My fingers against that little spot in your hole, yeah? The one that makes you cry like a girl?”
Jace’s hips jerked, and he nodded. “Yes. Gods, yes. I miss you inside me.”
“You’ll get it. Soon. Be patient.”
You moaned, the conversation in you bringing back that sweet shade of green that you’d felt in the hot springs. Except the jealousy wasn’t aimed at Jace, and it didn’t have the bitter aftertaste. The jealousy enveloped them both, a jealousy that you hadn’t been there, that you hadn’t seen them rut against each other in the woods or to watch Cregan fuck Jace with his fingers until tears spilled from his pretty brown eyes. When you spoke, you almost weren’t aware of it.
“Y-you too, Cregan.”
He twitched inside of you. He seemed to know what you wanted, but needed the confirmation.
“Me?”
“Say his name too, Cregan. Pretend I’m him.”
At that, they both moaned. Desire. Adoration. Surprise. The melody filled the room and travelled down your diaphragm into your stomach, compounded by the shift in Cregan’s movements.
Animal instinct seemed to recognize your request first. His thrusting turned brutal and mean, befitting of a spoiled, antagonizing prince that needed to be ground into submission. When his brain caught up to his body, he groaned again, and fisted a hand in your hair. You yelped.
“I—Fuck,” Cregan slurred, “You feel so good, my sweet boy—”
Your cunt clenched unexpectedly. My sweet boy. You could be his sweet boy.
“Jace,” You whined.
“Jacaerys.” Cregan drew out every syllable, savoring this flavor of his prince’s name, one he had not tasted in a very long time.
The both of you dissolved into each other quickly. Cregan continued to pound into you, and you managed to fuck back onto him, despite his best efforts to hold you back. You reached for your skirts, the movements clumsy and jerking. You searched for the hem, trying madly to reach past it. When you did, you immediately found your clit and swirled your fingers, rutting into the movement like a rabbit.
Jace’s name filled the room until it no longer held meaning, until it sounded abstract, until it rose in pitch, grew throatier, and was cried out by the both of you. All the while, the man whose name it was stood watching, jaw gaping, cock aching, as the two people he’d been yearning for peaked in their shared pleasure. And in that shared pleasure, they shared a single word, a single idea, a single thought: him. Jace, Jace, Jace, Jacaerys, Jace.
He watched your back tilt upwards, pushing against Cregan until you bared your neck and your head fell onto Cregan’s shoulder. Your breasts strained against the neckline of your dress and your skin seemed to glow when the firelight hit the sheen of your sweat just right. He watched Cregan’s lip curl, looking more beast than man, before burrowing into your neck and calling Jace’s name against your carotid artery.
His eyes sank down, to where you had lifted your skirts to rub at your clit, and where Cregan fucked into you once, twice, before burying himself as deep as he could in you, likely hoping that he would spill right up against your fertile little womb. He remained fixated on the sight, like if he stared hard enough he would be able to see through your skin and watch it happen.
When you came down, you were trembling in Cregan’s arms, his broad chest searing into your back. Your breathing was labored, loud, groans marking your every exhale. You could feel just how much Cregan had filled you, and braced yourself for the walk back to your quarters with his spend dripping down your thighs and stockings. He stayed in you, enjoying your warmth for a little longer.
You cracked your bleary eyes open. Jace shifted in the chair and considered his next action. A few seconds later, he stood, and walked slowly towards the desk. Cregan hadn’t told him he could move. But Cregan seemed almost as ruined as you, hair mussed and fingers curled into the fat of your hips. He lifted his head from your neck ever so slightly to watch the prince approach, and said nothing. Jace seemed willing to take his chances.
He leaned over the desk, finally seeing how Cregan had ruined you up close. The corners of his lips, which were pink and swollen from biting them, turned upwards. One hand came up to trace your face, thumb swiping across the apple of your cheek. His touch felt akin to someone stoking a dying fire. He flashed a glance at Cregan before looking back at your own mouth.
And then he leaned in, and pressed his lips to yours. The kiss was gentle but deep, like he was trying to drink up any remaining pleasure that might have been left in your body. Your neck craned, chasing after the taste of Jace’s mouth as he swiped his tongue against your lower lip. You folded immediately, mouth falling open and a hand coming up to his chest. Finally, you wanted to say. You’re here. I’ve been waiting for you.
You heard a sound leave Cregan’s throat, needy and absolutely involuntary. You had never heard him make a sound like this. How new everything felt suddenly. A spot you had never seen before, on a map you had studied a thousand times.
So quickly Jace came and so quickly he was gone, parting from your lips with a fond phantom of a smile. You blinked slowly, finally able to trace his features without fear or apprehension. You watched as his eyes, nearly blown black from how wide his pupils had become, shifted from your face to another just below yours.
Wordlessly, his neck shifted downwards, brown eyes meeting gray at a closeness now unmarred with risk or potential betrayal. Jace raked his gaze over Cregan’s face, spent, sweaty and flushed with release. A sight he had seen in person years ago, and seen most recently in his dreams when he was at his loneliest.
Cregan leaned in first. Jace simply met him halfway.
Your breath caught at the back of your throat as you watched your husband kiss his best friend, chiseled jawlines moving in tandem, tongues lapping at each other. You felt your core pulse, and Cregan groaned into the kiss, brows creasing. Jace’s second hand rose to Cregan’s face, mirroring the position it had taken along your own skin.
They savored each other for longer than Jace had kissed you, and you let it happen. Your chest was full of all of the moments over the past few weeks, every question, every what if. Moments where you had watched them brush against each other or meet each other’s gaze, in such a manner that had you trying to string together a narrative, evidence, a theory, anything, that indicated something like this.
The proof was right in front of you. And you were happy to catalog every second.
When Jace pulled away, he flickered his eyes between both of your faces, both so close to his. You watched his brown eyes simmer with something you could not name. Then his gaze turned calculating, and then it turned sly. He applied a gentle pressure to your cheek, at the same time he did to Cregan. Pushing the three of you even closer, which seemed almost impossible.
Cregan made a face. “What—”
“Shh,” Jace whispered, “Let me.”
He pushed again. You would run out of room. Your mind pulsed as it tried to identify what he was trying to do. When the side of your face not held by Jace met Cregan’s, you seemed to understand.
This won’t work, you thought, desperately hoping you were wrong, surely, he can’t mean to—
The corner of your lip met Cregan’s, and then Jace’s mouth descended on you both.
The sensation was strange. A rhythm you hadn’t quite danced to before. You tried to mimic Jace’s movements, but Cregan was motionless at your side, and you wondered how this was meant to work.
Jace’s skin was softer. You could feel some stubble off of your husband, the slight dryness from prolonged exposure to the cold.
You would have pulled away. You almost did, worried the moment would turn awkward.
Until Cregan reached over to grab at the back of Jace’s head, and his other hand reached over to the one the prince had on your face. He pressed the three of you even closer—a difficult feat—and opened his mouth. His tongue darted from your lips to Jace’s. You jolted, realizing that you could feel Cregan’s tongue against Jace’s mouth, because you were there too.
Something clicked into place. Something frantic, primal, ancient. Jace opened his mouth. You opened yours. And when their tongues touched yours, you understood then why many said good things came in threes.
Three noses bumping into each other. Three pairs of lips navigating a familiar sequence, this time with an entirely new component to it. Best of all, three tongues flicking against each other, two of them licking into the third, then switching places. You and Cregan pushed into Jace, you and Jace pushed into Cregan, they pushed into you. The three of you tangled together in a delicious, frenzied cycle, needing still to be impossibly closer.
You whined against their mouths when you felt Cregan’s cock twitch inside you. You knew what would happen if you kept at it. He would get hard again, and this time, no matter what he said, you would not be able to hold back and demand Jace join, despite how spent you were. They would press you between them, bodies so hot that you would inevitably melt into the two of them, drip down their chins and their throats, and cease to exist as a person.
This had to end. You did not want it to. While your spirit was willing, you felt your body utterly ruined. You relished it for a few moments longer, before pulling away, lips wet and panting. Your eyes fluttered open, watching them pull away too.
Cregan was breathing heavily, face bewildered, but not unsettled.
“I–” He licked his lips, trying to commit your combined tastes to memory. “Where the fuck did you learn that?”
Jace had the audacity to look sheepish in his reply. “Some Lyseni courtesans were guests at court last year. They can be very, well, creative in their pursuits of pleasure.”
You laughed once, breathless and still trying to process what had just transpired.
“You’ll kill me,” You muttered, “Both of you are going to kill me.”
•❆·. ❆ .• ·• ❅ ·❆.
The next few days were a blurred build up to the night of Jace’s farewell feast. You were filled with a seemingly perpetual arousal, kept on the precipice of the best kind of waiting. You returned to your host of administrative tasks, but found the occasional sweet reprieve at being cornered by either of them in an empty hallway or disoccupied study.
“My lady, the napkins have been pressed as you asked.”
At night, the kissing, gods, the kissing. The three of you, late at night after the work was done, would return to Cregan’s study with an excess of Dornish wine. When the three of you were drunk enough, you would sit in one of their laps and do nothing but alternate kissing each other. You would sit in Jace’s lap, brace your hands on his firm chest, and grind yourself down onto him, feeling his hard cock through your smallclothes and his trousers. Or, you would sit in Cregan’s lap and let him drag his teeth against your neck while Jace claimed your mouth with his own. Regardless, you would be reduced into a whiny stupor from the visual and physical stimuli descending on you.
“Lady Stark, will you still be wearing the violet gown tonight?”
If the hour stretched late enough, one of you would eventually crack, and ask Jace to show you that Lyseni kissing again. You came twice during this, mind hazy from the hours of grinding against them and the drawn out state of arousal they had placed you in. This strange new union was always a forceful push enough that would have you falling apart in someone’s lap.
“Lady Stark?"
And other times, you would watch, transfixed, as he and Cregan swapped spit lazily for minutes at a time. You had gripped your goblet with such a force that you were positive you would bend the fine metal, unable to look away as your husband and the prince moved mouths and bodies languidly against each other. As if you were analyzing, studying, preparing yourself to reach out and slot yourself between them both—
“Milady?”
You snapped back to where you were standing, in the middle of the banquet hall where preparations were well underway for the farewell feast. You blinked, meeting eyes with the woman who had just been trying to get your attention.
“Hm?” You raised your eyebrows. “Oh. Yes. Yes, thank you, Rose.”
She nodded sheepishly, and walked away. You pursed your lips, trying to forget about it. A fruitless endeavor. You were on the verge of becoming rabid. You had begged and pleaded for more. It never came.
“Please,” You murmured achingly, “Touch me. Both of you.”
Cregan shook his head.
“He asked for one night. That’s all I’m willing to share you for. You’ll get it when the time is right, pet.”
If not tonight, when? It had to be tonight. Jace was set to leave on the morrow, good weather permitting. They had taken such a hold on your brain that you found yourself retracing parts of your body that they had traced. A hand on your ribcage where Jace had placed his in the barn with Vermax. Tracing your collarbone with your fingers, where Cregan had placed a bruising kiss while you had been sitting in Jace’s lap a few nights ago. Running your tongue across your teeth, where you had felt both of their own tongues tracing the night it had all started.
Gods bless Lyseni courtesans, you thought distractedly.
The rest of the evening was spent in a similar daze. You made your rounds in the kitchen, taste testing sauces, soups, and the sweet creams that would be drizzled on the desserts. You headed up to bathe, attended by your maids as you stared into the distance.
You were dressed in the deep violet gown you had asked them to press for you, with a neckline low enough to garner attention but not too low as to be immodest. They placed silver pins in your hair, and dressed you in your favorite set of jewelry: a silver pendant with amethyst stones inlaid delicately against the metal, with earrings to match. A gift from Cregan for your wedding.
You met Cregan at the bottom of the stairs. He walked you down the hallway, a hand on the small on your back.
“Thank you for planning everything,” He said, “Everything has been delightful.”
“It’s been busy, but I was happy to do so.”
“Tonight will be exciting.”
You raised an eyebrow. “Will it?”
A voice from behind you replied, “I certainly hope so.”
The pair of you turned to see Jace. He was a vision in crimson velvet, a dark sash draped over his shoulder, pinned in place with a silver dragon pin. His hair was perfectly curled, sword at his hip. The only word that came to mind was regal. When he smiled, his chin turned upward, carrying himself with all the grace and pride befitting the heir to the Iron Throne.
“Your grace,” Cregan greeted, “Are you ready?”
“I am.” Jace’s eyes landed on you. He raised an eyebrow. “Are you?”
He didn’t need to specify what for. For a second, you glanced at Cregan, who was just as smug. Something you didn’t really see from him.
You took a deep breath. “I… Yes.”
To say the next few hours were excruciating would have been an understatement. And yet, it made total sense.
The entire night was wrought with an evolution of that initial dynamic you had been so keen to observe when Jace had first arrived. If Jace brushed past you, without fail, he would gently readjust you with delicate fingers on your waist. “Pardon me, Lady Stark,” he whispered every time, loud enough for only you to hear. Your little secret.
There was no shortage of drinks, of this you had made sure. You had also brought out a gift Jace had sent ahead of time before his visit—several cases of wine from The Reach and The Arbor as a thanks to the lords and ladies of the North for receiving him. At dinner, he raised his cup to the North, its people, and his gracious hosts, Lord and Lady Stark. When Jace mentioned you, Cregan squeezed your thigh under the table, and you grew rigid as a brittle wooden board, ready to snap at any moment.
As the drinks flowed, they were the final ingredient to a potent and dangerous concoction. The first ingredient had been the heat of the room, the hustle and bustle of the conversation and the music blending together as you took it all in. Next, the pace you had taken all day long, running here and there to make sure everything was perfect and ready to go. Worst of all—strongest, too—had been the mounting expectation of whatever was going to happen once this was over.
You searched the ballroom for a tall frame draped in dark furs. Dark hair partially tied up. There, speaking with two of Lord Bolton’s sons, he stood tall, poised and elegant like a wolf before a hunt. You held back a sigh. Your husband, your Cregan, your man. He looked beautiful, though he would reject the word outright. Men were not beautiful, he might say.
Or maybe he wouldn’t. Not anymore, you hoped. There was no need to shy away from it now that the truth was out in the open. He was Cregan and he was human and he had been in love with Jace once and he still loved him, but he also loved you. He was capable of holding both of those loves and they were not at odds with each other. Quite the opposite.
Cregan Stark. Your husband. Lord of Winterfell. Lover of princes and ladies alike. Your heart felt full.
“I told you. You are very lucky.”
Around you, your guests started to pair up. The singers were preparing for another number. Jace looked at you knowingly, and held out a hand.
He raised an eyebrow. “Will you indulge me one last time, Lady Y/N?”
You placed your hand in his. “How could I refuse?”
When he positioned himself, he pulled you closer than he had the first time. Your chests were nearly touching. The music began, and he immediately took the lead. You grinned.
“You know this one.”
Jace nodded. “It is one of my favorites.”
He moved with you around the hall, not even needing to watch where he was going. Instead, he remained trained on your face. You felt your face grow warm from the attention.
“Have you enjoyed your time in The North, Jace?” You asked, blinking up at him.
“I have,” he conceded. “I have learned so much more than I did my first time here. And I leave with a new friend. You have been so welcoming to me, my lady.”
He paused, considering his next words. The next time he spoke, he leaned in, lowering his voice. “Especially considering the… behavior I exhibited initially. I imagine that were I a woman, you would have assumed the worst.”
“Your being a man did not matter,” You confessed, “I assumed it within the first few days of your being here.”
This surprised him. “I… You did?”
You laughed. For once, you seemed to have the upper hand with him. “I know my husband. I saw the way he looked at you, and how you looked back. I’m not quiet because I don’t like speaking. But because when you’re silent, you hear every whisper, my prince. Even those that might not be spoken aloud.”
Jace blinked. He seemed stunned, unable to find something to say. The Prince of Dragonstone, words stolen away by Cregan Stark’s meek southern wife. You beamed, triumphant. A moment later, you tilted your head, success giving way to something more genuine.
“Will you miss him?”
Jace lifted his gaze, fixing on one point in the room. You watched his eyes and neck move, coordinating with his feet to keep his eyes on him. You didn’t even need to look to know. Jace watched Cregan with the serenity of someone who had held something once, and come to terms with not being able to hold onto it forever. That was what you saw when they stared at each other, you realized.
Finally, there was a name for it. Peace. A bond forged from mutual respect and absolution. Whatever had once taken root was no longer there. They would never resent each other for it. If anything, they would care for each other even more. When he looked back at you, you saw yourself reflected in that peace.
“Yes and no,” He answered clearly. “I will miss my friend. But I feel as though a weight has been lifted from my shoulders having been here after so long. It was a confirmation I hadn’t realized I’d been searching for. I have you to thank for that, also.”
He spun you around, but you didn’t look away from him as you made a face. “Me?”
Jace nodded, smiling. “I knew coming here how much Cregan loved you. He’s never been good with emotions, but his tone when writing about you was so warm, and… meeting you, spending time with you and him, I see why. I see how he cares for you, and you him. I leave here knowing his heart is safe with you. Just like I know how yours is safe with him.”
You smiled back at this, heart swelling even more. “Thank you, my prince. It has been an honor and a pleasure to be your host, and an even greater pleasure to gain your friendship.”
The dance slowed to an end. The room burst into applause, and when you looked up, Cregan was watching you both, seemingly ignoring one of the Bolton boys as he attempted to keep Cregan’s attention. The emotion on his face could only be labeled as affection.
The two of you watched Cregan apologize to the Boltons, brush past them, and cross the room. He seemed to part the onslaught of guests as he walked through them. People would see him, bow their heads, and step to the side. When he landed in front of you both, he held out his arm. You let go of Jace’s hand.
“The night grows long,” Cregan mused, “And the prince has a long journey ahead of him on the morrow. Shall we say our goodbyes and escort him back to his quarters, wife?”
You felt your mouth tip open. It was here. You paused for a beat, then nodded. Jace clenched his jaw, then smirked.
The three of you made a quick round to bid your guests a restful evening. Everyone seemed quite understanding that Jace was feeling tired. The entire time, when you were not speaking, you bit down on your tongue. Lest your teeth rattle with anticipation.
Cregan led you and Jace up the stairs. The ascent was slow, quiet. The symphony of your steps bounced off the stones, echoing throughout the stairwell.
“The music was lovely,” You murmured innocently.
“The food was marvelous.” Jace echoed your tone.
Your trio rounded a corner and you found everyone’s slow walk speeding up. Compliments were paid to your organizational choices. Another flight of stairs. Your thighs tensed with exertion and excitement. By the time you hit the top of the staircase, Jace grinned.
He grabbed your hand, then he grabbed Cregan’s. Cregan chuckled quietly, and you found yourself breaking into giggles as well.
“I’ve been waiting for this for weeks,” Jace admitted. Then, he broke into a light jog, taking you and your husband along with him. The drinks, the arousal, the warmth in your chest. All three of these had your head tipping back in joyful, girlish laughter. This was everything you had been wanting, and all of your clothes were still on.
Jace’s door appeared at the end of the hall. He let go of your hands only to open it, and once you were all inside, they pounced on you. How they seemed to move so in sync, you could not say. You had been wound up so tightly you could no longer tell which way was right and which way was left.
Cregan’s mouth landed on yours, and you immediately opened yourself for him. Pure instinct, letting him lick into your mouth with hot breaths against your mouth. Rough and demanding. He grabbed at your sides, squeezing your hips. Jace stepped behind you, tracing open mouthed kisses along the side of your throat, moving up under your ear. His hands slotted themselves over Cregan’s hands, calloused hands brushing even larger calloused hands.
You reached behind you to fist Jace’s curls between your fingers, and rubbed Cregan’s chest in front of you. Already, your heart was pounding. Cregan pulled away to nip at your collarbone, and as if reading Jace’s mind, you craned your neck in pursuit of his heart-shaped lips.
Jace’s kisses were not as aggressive as Cregan’s but they were just as deep. He did not immediately demand you open his mouth to slide his tongue against yours, but rather he spent time courting your lips, then teasing with a quick slide of his tongue against your lower lip. When you bit down on his lower lip, he took that as permission. Only then did his kisses grow faster, humming against your lips when you sucked on his tongue, desperate to get it deeper in your throat.
His front pressed up against your back, and there, nestled between your buttocks, you could feel something poking you, growing more and more insistent with each passing moment. His hands moved away from Cregan’s at your side and slid up your back, trying to find the laces of your bodice. He parted from your lips to fully concentrate on undoing the problematic knots, and you wrapped both of your arms around your husband’s neck.
Cregan immediately straightened, moving his hands down to squeeze at your ass. You gasped, scratching lightly at the nape of his neck.
“Who goes first?” You asked breathlessly.
“Me,” Cregan responded immediately, “I fuck you first, then Jace fucks you.”
You sighed, bodice becoming looser as Jace successfully undid the laces. “When do you fuck Jace?”
They froze. Cregan gaped at you, then looked at Jace.
Jace cleared his throat. “I–”
Cregan raised an eyebrow. “You–”
“What,” You asked, taken aback at their surprise, “I ask to watch you stick your tongues down each other’s throats, can I not watch my husband stick his c—”
“I didn’t think you’d want to see the… well. The whole of it,” Jace answered.
Cregan snickered, a hand gripping your chin. “Oh, she wants to see the hole of it, Jace, I promise you.”
“She continues to surprise me.”
“I’m not surprised at all,” Cregan sighed after a moment, rubbing his forehead against yours, “Gods, you greedy little thing.”
You leaned forward, needing someone desperately. He kissed you again, groaning as you began to unbutton his black jerkin. The vest fell to the floor quickly, leaving him in his thick, gray, cotton doublet. Cregan helped you with the buttons on this one when you pulled away to watch your fingers, which had started to tremble with excitement.
“Easy, pet,” He murmured fondly as his chest was revealed, “We’ve not even touched you yet.
That could not remain true for much longer, you thought, as your bodice and skirts finally gave way thanks to Jace’s ministrations. They pooled at your feet, leaving you in your slip, stockings, and boots. Jace took you by the hand and pushed you back to sit gently on the bed.
Your boots were unlaced. Two pairs of foreign hands pulled down each stocking, and then they parted your legs. You were left to lift your cotton slip and pull it over your head. It left you the first to be naked, you realized as you laid flat on the bed. Cregan was right behind you, and Jace’s clothes remained in place.
The pair of them hovered above where you needed. You propped yourself up on your elbows and found yourself with Jace’s eyes dragging slowly up your body, twinkling in the firelight all the meanwhile.
“You’re unreal,” Jace mumbled, “Sculpted in the image of Mother and Maiden alike.”
“O-oh,” You sighed, a shudder traveling down your spine. You had never been told that before.
Cregan nipped at your bare thigh, before touching Jace’s cheek. “So this is how you southerners seduce women.”
“Only the exceptionally beautiful ones,” Jace argued, flicking his eyes between you and Cregan, “You use it too much and it becomes blasphemy.”
You licked your lips seeing them both slotted between your legs. “This is already blasphemy enough.”
“Quite true,” Cregan said, moving his hand to the back of Jace’s head, “And it’s about to be even more so.”
Cregan’s lips wrapped around your pearl. Jace’s mouth landed at your hole, immediately beginning to lap at your wetness as if he hadn’t seen water in days.
The simultaneous pleasure, courtesy of two of the most powerful men in Westeros kneeling at your feet to worship at your altar. Such a devotional was unlike any other.
The difference in their kisses translated almost perfectly to this. Cregan enjoyed a bit of force when pinning you down like this. “I know she can take it, she’s taken worse,” was his rationale. Jace, for all of his teasing and mastery of making you want, was as gentle as he was needy. He seemed to understand that this was new to you too, but that this would be his only chance to lap at you.
They switched places, tongues touching as they moved around your pussy. Jace moaned when it happened, and between watching it happen and feeling the vibration against your core, you cried out, head falling back. Now, it was Jace’s turn to suck softly on your clit, while Cregan decided to stick his tongue inside of you and fuck you with it. You couldn’t make up your mind on where to focus—at this rate your mind was gone, turned to mush, leaking out of your cunt and being soaked up by their mouths.
Cregan’s hands squeezed at your thighs and Jace had one hand on your hip. You were so focused on your own pleasure you didn’t see Jace’s free hand land at the front of Cregan’s trousers, cupping your husband’s hardness with a restrained vigor. Cregan’s hips pushed into Jace’s touch, and he grunted into your pussy as Jace began to squeeze his bulge.
Jace slid his tongue down to where Cregan’s was. He stuck his tongue into your walls as well, holding back a humbling moan when he felt the tightness of your cunt forcing Cregan’s tongue up against his own. He could take it no longer, delving his hands under the dark wool of Cregan’s trousers.
Jace wrapped his hand around Cregan’s hard cock, remembering the weight of his thick, veiny member, before cupping his fat, heavy balls. Jace’s touch had Cregan groaning into your hole, causing you to gasp out, reaching for both of their heads. Your orgasm was approaching embarrassingly fast, and they got the message when your fists landed in their hair. You hung one leg on their respective outside shoulders, heels digging into their shoulder blades.
Closeness. What a funny word. How could it be that something was too much but never enough?
Cregan’s hand rose up to meet yours in his hair. His index finger tapped your wedding band. Your head rose, face screwed up in pleasure, and saw them both joined together inside of you. A different form of Jace’s Lyseni kiss. The sight was more than enough. You descended into your pleasure, hips bucking against their faces as you demanded for more, for them to stop, for them to keep going, for someone to fuck you, for this night to never end.
Jace was painfully hard. Between Cregan’s cock in his hand, and now you reaching your peak all over him and your husband’s tongues, he could no longer bear it. As you came down, he realized that he’d be relegated to the side yet again before being allowed to participate. He would not be able to just sit idle while watching the two of you again.
You lay limp on the bed, staring up at the ceiling as you tried to regain your bearings. They pulled their mouths away, and you let them go. Your eyes fluttered shut for barely half a second, before you heard more kissing, Cregan grunting, Jace gasping.
You lifted your head with a speed you didn’t think you still had, only to find Jace’s hand in Cregan’s pants while Cregan gripped Jace by the scruff of his neck. Like he was a pup who had just been caught misbehaving. If the hand pumping his cock was the misbehavior, Cregan didn’t seem eager to correct it. You whined at the sight, so ready to watch the prince fall apart on Cregan’s cock.
Your sound roused them both. Cregan’s movements slowed, and his eyes cracked open. He found you staring at the both of them, chest rising and falling with need. He jerked his hips into Jace’s hand, and for a moment, you almost understood what it was like to be Jace the very first night it had all happened.
Jace opened his eyes to look back at you, and he bit his lip. He looked at Cregan, who was watching you as well. Jace spit into his other hand, moving to wrap it around Cregan’s member, before leaning over to suck on Cregan’s jugular. Cregan inhaled sharply, hips thrusting into the prince’s hands.
“Go to her,” Jace murmured against his skin, “Fuck her and I’ll ready myself for you.”
They stood, shedding their remaining clothes as you moved further back on the bed to make room for them both. Soon, the pair were just as naked as you were, moving to the edge of the bed closest to where you were. Standing next to each other, you could not help but compare.
Jace’s muscles were different from your husband’s. Where Cregan was stocky and strong, the muscle was hidden beneath a small layer of plush skin, which was very common in Northern men. Foolish southerners would call it “pudgy”. You called it very, very attractive. His long, thick cock stood at attention, red and willing, hefty balls sagging beneath.
Objectively, Jace was prettier. He was leaner, lighter. Better for riding. His slimness did not necessarily mean fragility—his arms and thighs were well sculpted from years of training, and his shoulders and chest were dotted with freckles too. While his cock was slightly smaller than Cregan’s, it was, like the rest of him, a bit prettier than your husband’s. Pink at the tip, with a generous upward curve that left your mouth watering.
Cregan tilted his head. “Have you had enough of your ogling?” He asked, nodding once. “Lie back.”
As Cregan crawled onto the bed, Jace walked to the vanity on the far side of the room. He heard you and Cregan kiss as he inspected the vials spread across the grain of the wood, before landing on a vial of perfume oil. He grabbed it before returning to the bed, setting it on a table right next to the mattress.
When Jace’s head hit the pillow next to yours, Cregan took it as permission to hike your legs around his waist, one hand propping himself up against the headboard. He took himself into his hand, pumped his cock a few times before sliding it up and down your slit, gathering your wetness along his tip.
“Cregan,” Jace said softly, “How many times have I told you not to tease?”
They held each other’s gaze for a moment. Cregan clenched his jaw, and you could finally tell what was being said. So did Jace, who immediately lowered his eyes.
“Prepare yourself for me,” Cregan said finally, nodding at the vial Jace had grabbed, “Give her something pretty to look at.”
A moment later, Cregan entered you, and did not give you a moment’s reprieve. His pace was immediately fast and rough, and you reached for his arms to find purchase on something. Cregan’s hand gripped your jaw, forcing you to turn your head to where Jace was lying, currently opening the vial.
“Watch him,” He ordered, “You love watching, don’t you, love?”
You nodded as best you could with your head in his grip, eyes pinned to Jace’s form as he came onto his knees, pressing his face against the pillow. His fingers glistened with oil, and a faint smell of jasmine hit your nose. Your mouth fell open as he lifted his fingers up and behind him. From where you were, you couldn’t see exactly what he was doing, but the face he made and accompanying sound that escaped him seconds after left nothing to the imagination.
“Good boy,” Cregan praised, before looking back down at you. You felt yourself clench at his words. Cregan’s pace continued, your hands tracing whatever part of your body you could land your hands on. His broad back and shoulders, hairy chest, or strong plush biceps, you needed something to hold onto as you watched the Prince of Dragonstone finger himself open in preparation for the cock you were currently speared on.
“See normally,” Cregan mumbled into your ear, “I’d have him just like that, but I would be the one to put my fingers in his pink little hole.”
Jace nodded, lip curling up in pleasure. “His f-fingers are quite long,” Jace answered, “Not sure if you’ve noticed.”
You keened. “Yes,” You agreed, “Quite—ah!—quite talented too.”
Jace groaned. You watched his arm begin to speed up. From atop you, Cregan watched slack-jawed as you both compared notes in front of him. He thrust even harder a few times, desperate to drive the breath from your lungs. The movement pushed you into the pillows, back arching into him.
“C-Cregan,” You cried, whining as the harsh thrusting slowed into deep grinding, “Gods, s-so good.”
His lips crashed into yours, so bruising and demanding and so very much Cregan, you tightened your legs around his waist. His weight on top of you was almost crushing, but the way he draped himself over you as he moved languidly in and out of you had you enveloped in a blanket of pleasure and veneration radiating off of his being into yours.
Across from you, Jace was already pressing a second finger into his ass, his other hand wrapping around his cock as he watched Cregan fold you in half. The sound of your cries was soft and needy, but you didn’t complain or try to run from Cregan’s force. You soaked it all up, thirsty and wanting.
When Cregan pulled away, he groaned against your open mouth. “Soon,” He told you, “And after I fill you up, he’ll fuck you too.”
You snaked a hand between you both, rubbing at your nub with a mounting need. You looked back at Jace, moan wrenching from your throat as you watched him, moaning into the pillow, flush covering his delicate freckles. There was a sheen across his forehead and cheekbones, lips forming a delicate little o-shape. Jace’s eyes locked with yours, and you wanted so badly to reach out and touch him. You were rendered immobile beneath your husband’s weight.
You looked down at Jace’s pink cock. He seemed to have found a good rhythm, fucking his cock into his hand and then fucking back onto his fingers. When you realized that he was matching the thrust of his cock into his hand up to the rhythm of Cregan’s hips, your eyes screwed shut, pleasure building impossibly high.
“Cregan,” You called, bucking your hips up into his, “Please.”
“It’s alright, love.” He nodded against your neck, hips beginning to stutter. “Me too. I’ve got you.”
He thrusted a few more times, movements out of rhythm but still so deep inside of you, until his grunts turned into long, drawn out calls of your name. When you felt him spill his hot seed, cock pulsing inside of you, it tipped you over the edge as well, clit pulsating as you pushed your fingers into the sensation. There was always so much, and this time was no different. You looked up at him, vision blurred, to see his hair mussed and a bead of sweat dripping down his nose. It landed on your cheek, and he wiped it away.
Out of the corner of your eye, you watched Jace shift. He whimpered when his fingers left his hole. He moved closer, eyes trained on where you and Cregan were still connected.
When Cregan pulled out of you, the three of you twisted your necks to watch Cregan’s creamy, white seed spill out of you. You sighed, lower belly warm as he dragged a finger through his release, smearing it across your cunt. He pressed a kiss to your temple.
“Keep them open,” He murmured in your ear, rubbing your thighs. “You’ve been such a good little hostess, wife. How kind of you to gift our prince your tight little cunt.”
His words caused you to clench down on nothing, and Jace groaned when more cum spilled out. Cregan rolled to your side, letting Jace take his place. Jace’s lips landed on yours, deep but not demanding. His eyes studied your face, the flush of your skin as it travelled down your shoulders and tits.
“My lady,” He whispered, cock poking at your entrance, “Can I? Let me—”
“Yes, fuck.” Your voice was breathy, shifting your hips to catch the head of his cock. The two of you gasped at the sensation. Cregan sighed next to you and both of you shifted to look at him. Your eyes were wide, Jace’s were hooded. Waiting. He had held the reins for most of the operation. Was it any wonder the two of you deferred to him?
Cregan looked between you both, before his lips turned upwards. “Well, go on,” He goaded, “Or does our prince need to tell me where to put his cock?”
Jace swallowed, shaking his head. He grabbed one leg, slinging it over his shoulder. Your chest lurched at the angle, and Jace slid into your pussy. An involuntary sound spilled from his lips, a similar whine coming from yours. You were so—
“So wet, Y/N,” Jace growled, licking up your jawline, “Is that you, or is that his cum?”
“Both,” You said, “It’s both of us.”
Jace’s thrusts were slow and controlled, but still had a way of wrenching soft whimpers from your lips. His lips descended on one of your nipples, and you buried your hands in his hair. You opened your chest to give him better access, nodding desperately as he grazed his teeth delicately across the hard nub.
His hips tried different angles, each one hitting better than the last, until he shifted his movement to the left ever so slightly and let out a breathy laugh when you clenched around him and moaned his name.
“Jace,” You said, “Oh, right there, my prince, please, please, please.”
Jace hit the spot again, experimentally, and he pinned your wrists to the bed to stop you from curling in on yourself. He grinned, groaning softly.
“No, you’re not going anywhere.” His pace became faster, your head beginning to writhe back and forth on the pillow. You were so sensitive, but Jace was just beginning to let his more merciless nature show.
“You’ll sit there and take it and show your husband how obedient you are, hmm?”
Your hands balled into fists, unable to touch Jace where you wanted. You wanted your fingers in his mouth. You were sure he would accept them willingly. His pupils were blown so wide his eyes looked more black than brown, and his brows were furrowed in concentration, nose scrunched up ever so slightly as he chased after his own pleasure. He tilted his head, eyes widening.
“Yes? Answer.”
“Yes!” You nodded, unable to deny it. “Yes, yes, I’ll do whatever you want.”
“She always gets desperate when she’s sensitive,” Cregan told Jace. Your head turned, spotting him lying on his side. His cock was half hard, and beginning to swell again. A man starved, his eyes did not settle in one place for very long. Between your face and Jace’s, your tits, where Jace was fucking into you, there was simply too much to take in. “She doesn’t know whether to run from it or let it happen. Isn’t that right, Y/N?”
You chewed on your lip but nodded. The observation was true, but to be teased like this made the faintest shame brew in your chest, and even worse, the shame made your pussy clench. Jace gasped at this, gripping the headboard with one hand and your clit with the other. Your body tensed up as Jace used the headboard for leverage, swiping his fingers across your nub, doubling the sweet anguish traveling through your veins.
Cregan began to stroke himself again, spurred on by the sudden mania overtaking Jace and being taken out on you. His two favorite people, making each other feel so good right in front of him. The two of you looked so beautiful, your eyes rolling back up into your head as Jace’s head tipped back, revealing the creamy expanse of his neck. He almost wanted to cum again, but knew to save it for what was to come.
Jace groaning your name, you moaning Jace’s. Gods, what a sight, what a sound. He didn’t think he would ever forget tonight.
His hand left your clit to grip the leg not propped over Jace’s shoulder, and then he hauled it up to match. The angle allowed him to reach even deeper, and the curve of his cock proved sweet in ramming up against that warm, spongy spot inside of you that had your legs beginning to tremble. This much pleasure could not be good for your body. Surely, you would combust.
“Oh, fuck,” Jace grunted, returning his fingers to between your legs. A fire licked up your mound and shot straight up your spine, fingernails digging into your palms. You bucked against Jace’s movements. He pressed a kiss to one of your ankles before his pace turned harder, rhythm slowing just enough to maintain precision—an effort in vain.
“Jace, I’m going to—”
“Yes,” He nodded, “Can I—please, inside—”
“Yes,” Your legs slid off his shoulders, immediately wrapping around his waist, heels digging into his ass cheeks, “Yes, Jacaerys, cum in me too.”
Your words pushed him over, paired with the insistence of your legs. Jace could not have escaped even if he wanted to, he realized as his balls tensed up. His arms wrapped around you and yours wrapped around him. His ache crashed into yours, and the two of you hurtled into release, writhing against each other in the aftershocks.
He buried his face between your breasts, hips bucking wildly as his seed mixed with Cregan’s. The thought had him thrusting weakly as his orgasm died down, trying to extend the sensation in his lower stomach for as long as possible.
He pulled out of you, cock beginning to soften, and remained draped over you, panting against one of your breasts. He flicked his tongue against your nipple, and you almost shoved him off. You were too weak to actually see it through, twitching against Jace’s lean frame as he pressed kisses into your hairline, damp with sweat.
“Gorgeous,” He whispered into your skin, “Doing so well for us, pretty girl.”
Jace lowered his mouth to yours, lazily tangling his tongue with your tongue in the brief interlude before the final act. You felt Cregan stand from the bed, too engrossed in the taste of Jace’s lips to actually focus on what your husband was doing.
The prince pulled away, and you cracked your eyes open to see Cregan at the foot of the bed, gaze dark, shoulders squared. Jace twisted his head. They exchanged a glance, and then Jace looked back at you. He gave you one final kiss, before crawling backwards until his buttocks met the tops of Cregan’s thighs. You moved to sit up, but Cregan shook his head.
“Come here.”
You raised your eyebrows, eyes darting from side to side. “Me? What are you—”
“Look at the mess his grace made,” Cregan murmured, hand sliding up Jace’s spine. The prince shuddered, eyes falling between your thighs. Your cunt was ruined, he realized, swallowing thickly. Cum was oozing out from your hole, your clit was swollen, and Cregan’s cum, previously dislodged by Jace’s fucking you had smeared across your folds.
“Should he not be made to clean it up?”
Your thighs twitched, mouth gaping. You looked at Jace, who seemed near close to drooling like a hound. When your eyes returned to Cregan’s face, there was no room for argument. Still, you tried.
“I can’t—”
“But you will.” Cregan’s hand nestled into Jace’s hair, giving it a light tug. “And he will be good and clean you up. You can take one more, pet. I know you have it in you. You always do.”
You almost hesitated, before spotting where Cregan’s fingers were tangling themselves in Jace’s hair. Your lower lip found itself pinned down by your teeth, but not out of apprehension.
A few moments later, you slid down the bed, at the same time as Cregan walked to the nightstand. He took the oil and smeared it over himself. When he stood behind Jace again, he rubbed the remainder all over the prince’s hole. Jace jumped, before craning his hips back.
Cregan smiled crookedly before applying a gentle pressure against Jace’s hole with his thumb. It gave almost immediately, welcoming Cregan back in greedily. He dipped his thumb in and out too slow for comfort, and Jace’s forehead made contact with one of your parted thighs.
He toyed with Jace’s hole a little longer, gauging whether or not he was ready for Cregan’s cock, now fully hard again. He wasn’t sure how long he would last, having came once already, on top of watching Jace fuck you. When he pulled his thumb out, he also pulled the softest whimper from the back of Jace’s throat.
“Please,” Jace said, one hand reaching back to spread himself open for Cregan, “Please, I need you.”
Cregan bent down, slotting a wet, open mouthed kiss between Jace’s shoulder blades. He gripped himself, pressing the head of his cock right up against Jace’s asshole. All of the air still in Jace’s body left him, leaving only anticipation that bled from every pore on his skin.
“Put your mouth on her.” The command was said quietly against Jace’s skin. “Then I’ll fuck you, my sweet boy.”
Jace exhaled shakily at the name. He had not been called that in years. He licked his lips, looking back at your cunt. Your tired eyes were watching him fondly, a hand reaching for his cheek. You took a trembling breath, before falling in line with what Cregan wanted.
“Eat,” You whispered sweetly, beaming when he pressed his face into your palm, “Be good for us.”
The silver of your wedding band was cold against his cheek. A miniscule oasis from the layer of heat that had blanketed the room. He shut his eyes and allowed himself one more moment to enjoy the cool metal on his skin. Then, he turned, and placed a dedicated kiss on your palm. When he drew away, he lowered his neck, and his tongue lolled out of his mouth to trace a long stripe from your hole to your clit.
The sensitivity was too much. You jumped at the wet warmth of his tongue, and Jace splayed a hand over your lower stomach, pinning you in place. You shivered, scar touching your skin. He licked you again, and then began to dip his tongue into your folds.
“Fuck!”
Jace hummed against your folds, half-hard member twitching at your expletive and the mixed flavor of his own cum and Cregan’s. He canted his hips back, unable to form words anymore.
Cregan chose mercy. He pushed in, forcing Jace to gasp against your cunt. His eyes burned as he stared unblinking at how he slid into Jace’s tight hole, jaw clenching as he gave Jace a moment to adjust. The prince was still as tight as he remembered him. Jace seemed to disagree with the decision.
“Ngh, move.” This was the most princely he’d sounded since coming into the room, his demand bitten out and gruff. Jace brushed his nose against your clit, and you tangled both hands in his hair. Cregan lifted his eyes, landing on your debauched, sweaty face, and you nodded.
Cregan bottomed out, reaching for Jace’s slender waist. He was going to need the leverage. He held Jace in place as he slid out, and then began to fuck the prince with an abandon Cregan hadn’t expected of himself.
The three of you were falling apart. This drawn out session had stripped the three of you to your most animal senses. Humping, grabbing, moaning, licking. Titles were seemingly gone, and what was left were three sweaty lovers in search of a reverie so prolonged it verged on painful, still delicious enough to keep at the pursuit.
Cregan’s hands tightened around Jace’s waist. Jace groaned, hoping desperately he’d have bruises to further commit the night to memory. He angled his hips upward, knowing how close Cregan he was to his prostate. He knew Cregan was looking for it too. All Jace had to do was guide the way.
When he found it, Jace’s voice cracked. The timbre of his voice gave way, leaving a whiny mess still dipping his tongue into your hole. His whimpering and the accompanying vibration had you crying out too. The praise spilled out of you, a woman possessed.
“That’s it,” You said, “Take it, Jace. I know you can do it, darling. Take it like I did.”
Cregan, yearning for that mythical closeness, rested his knees against the mattress, stomach pressing against Jace’s lower back. He began mouthing at Jace’s shoulders, showering him with affirmations every time his lips were detached from his skin long enough. Cregan’s hips never let up.
“Just as tight as I remember, sweet boy,” He growled, “‘M going to fuck you until you’re begging me to stop.”
“Never stop,” Jace pleaded, lapping at your clit, “Don’t want you to.”
“No?” Cregan’s hands slid to his front, tweaking at Jace’s nipples, before sliding a hand down to grip Jace’s twitching, ruddy member. “Even like this?”
Jace cried out again, wrapping his lips around your clit. Your back arched off the bed, tugging so intensely at Jace’s pretty locks that his scalp ached sweetly. Your entire body was trembling now. Jace was wrecked, pinned between you and your husband as Cregan took and you were made to give.
The three of you, connected. You and Cregan, slowly suffocating Jace with your love. And Jace, in the middle of it all, unable to do anything but accept it all. Even as his a knot began to form in his lower stomach, ass tightening with Cregan still inside. When he clenched down on Cregan, Cregan’s hips bucked, before retaking the rhythm he was still trying to hold onto.
“Feel too good, Jace,” He groaned, “‘M not gonna last.”
“Cum in me,” Jace demanded, lifting his mouth off of you, “Let me feel you in me when I leave.”
Cregan drove himself into Jace even harder, final orgasm now in view. He cupped Jace’s balls, squeezing, as if attempting to coax Jace’s cum out of them. Jace reattached his tongue to your clit, two fingers sliding into your painfully sensitive hole, trying to find more of the sticky, creamy cum they had both placed so lovingly in you. Your body was no longer your own, you realized with a pleased satisfaction. They had taken control of it and decided how to position it, how to fill it, when you’d had enough.
“And you,” Jace murmured breathlessly into your skin, “I want to feel your pussy squeeze around my fingers one more time.”
His words triggered an avalanche, starting with you and ending with Cregan. Your vision turned white, body stiffening for a beat. Then, your body jolted, cunt clenching helplessly around Jace’s digits. He suckled on your clit through every single wave of painful pleasure, until you were sobbing, trying weakly to push his head away.
Jace let his head fall back on your soft thigh. He couldn’t tell if you were the one trembling or he was. His eyes squeezed shut, feeling the familiar tug in his balls. He bit down on your thigh when he came again, cum spilling over Cregan’s fist, his own walls fluttering against Cregan’s incessant pounding.
Finally, Cregan wrapped himself on Jace, burying himself the deepest he’d been in the prince all night, shuddering on top of him as he spilled more of his warm, sticky cum into the heir to the Iron Throne.
The three of you rode out the final waves until it hurt, room smelling of sweat, sex, and funnily enough, jasmine. The only sounds were those of the crackling wood of the hearth and three different staccatos of breath.
Carefully, Cregan pulled himself out of Jace. Jace, boneless, fell forward, nuzzling into your thigh. You carded a hand through his sweaty curls, attempting to soothe after all of your yanking. You felt the mattress dip behind you. Cregan had slid onto your side of the bed, lying behind you. He pressed a gentle kiss to your shoulder. He looked utterly spent, heart still hammering just under his sweaty chest.
When Jace had regained his bearings, he crawled up to be level with you and Cregan. He wrapped his hands around your waist, and looked at you both. Cregan had one hand splayed across your lower back, and used the other to slide up Jace’s arm. All your touches had turned tender, now. Any tension or desire had bled into each other late into the night, leaving only fondness and a feeling of completion. A circle being closed.
“If Aegon the Conqueror had done this instead,” Jace decided, “I believe the North would have fallen much faster.”
Cregan swatted his arm. Jace caught his hand, scars brushing. You giggled, sleep beginning to settle over your body.
“I mean it. If he’d just bent over for Torrhen Stark–”
“Jacaerys.”
As your eyes fluttered shut, you smiled between their bodies. It was cold outside, but you had your husband at your back, and a prince of dragon blood at your front.
For the rest of the night, there would be no cold to be spoken of.
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minors dni. if i didn't tag you, it was because i couldn't see an age anywhere on your blog <3
Cregan doesn't do well when you're away, and he'll do anything to make it up to you.
part one here!
ft. cregan x third wife!reader
genre/warnings: pwp, a pinch of angst, fluff, age gap, cregan is a father² (rickon and sarra are his babies and they call you mother), no p in v, spanking, a little dry humping, oral (f receiving), rimming (f receiving), anal fingering, first time anal sex, prone bone, worship, biting, no use of y/n. inspired by this and this!
wc: 3.3k
not proofread.
Your little sister’s wedding arrived at the worst possible moment for you and Cregan. Though your husband could never be so heartless as to forbid you from going, he tried every gentle persuasion to keep you by his side, unwilling to leave Winterfell for so long. That was how your first real quarrel as husband and wife began.
You departed for Deepwood Motte before he could make amends, carrying every trace of Winterfell’s warmth away with you.
Two months. You had been gone for two months, and Cregan was beside himself. You had sent a raven when you arrived, and one when you were leaving. That was it—two measly letters. You were obviously still angry with him despite his asking for forgiveness.
He grew irritable, restless, short-tempered, and bone-tired. Never before had he felt so tethered to another’s presence, and it wore him down. As your return drew near, his nerves frayed further. He fumbled through ledgers, spilt wine across his desk, rewrote letters, and nearly donned his tunic inside out. Madness, truly.
Even his children had noticed, Rickon side-eyeing him at dinner and little Sarra patting him on the shoulder with a soft “I miss her too, papa.”
The instant his men glimpsed your party, he nearly vibrated with anticipation. His wife was finally returning, and he longed to spirit you away for the rest of your days together. If he had any sense left, he might have been embarrassed by how quickly he rushed to the gates.
The horses halted, whinnying and snorting clouds of fog into the summer chill. Cregan held his breath as the carriage door swung open, nearly choking when you emerged. After so long apart, your beauty unravelled him, and he exhaled in pure relief.
You step down with care, mindful of the treacherous summer ground. A hand appears before you, steady and familiar, and you follow it up to meet your husband’s gaze.
“My lady wife,” he breathes out. “Welcome home.” You could easily read the telltale signs of exhaustion on his face: tense lines on his forehead, and his voice gentler than usual. You take his hand, and he brings it to his lips, pressing a long kiss to your knuckles.
Gods, the ache of missing you had nearly undone him.
“Mm, my lord husband, it has been a long while.” Your voice is gentle, chin tipped up like a proper lady.
Oh dear. Clearly, your anger lingered. You reserved such formal words for moments of mischief or genuine ire.
“Mother!” “Mama!” Two figures broke from either side of Cregan, both dark-haired and grey-eyed.
Rickon lingers close to his father, while Sarra barrels into your legs with all the exuberance of a six-year-old. “How was it! How was it! I want to go to a wedding!” she wails, clutching at your dress with impatient hands.
Their arrival melts your composure, a genuine smile breaking free. You pet Sarra’s head and beckon Rickon closer. He flushes, caught between childhood and pride, but still wraps his arms around your waist.
“Oh my,” you murmur, fingers combing gently through his hair. “Did you sprout up while I was away? I hardly recognise this tall young man.” Your teasing coaxes a deeper blush and a bashful nod. “Who knows, you might just outgrow your father.”
Cregan huffs out a laugh, scooping Sarra up before she can tear your gown. “Don’t give him hope.”
“What of me, mama?” Sarra pouts from her father’s arms. “Did I grow?”
You offer her a soft smile, smoothing her unruly hair behind her ear. “You grow lovelier every day, my sweet girl.”
Cregan clears his throat and places your hand on his arm when Sarra wiggles away from him. “Let us get you to a bath, wife. Your journey must have been long.”
Tension simmered between you as you walked through the keep. Two months without your husband’s touch had stretched into eternity, your anger melting beneath the heavy ache of longing. He was your home, your heart, and you missed him fiercely.
You felt the warmth of his arm through his sleeve beneath your fingers, swallowing against the heat that curled in your stomach.
Cregan fared no better, exhaling sharply at your nearness. It was surreal, how deeply you affected each other; the distance and unresolved feelings only magnified every emotion.
The corridor to your shared room had never seemed so endless. Each step dragged, your heart pounding so hard you could feel it in your throat.
He opened the door for you, releasing your hand. You crossed the room, unhooked your cloak, and draped it over the settee in the corner. The hairs on your neck prickled beneath the heat of his gaze. As soon as the fur fell from your fingers, he was on you, chest pinned to your back, lips pressed to the sensitive skin under your ear, with a hand sliding up from your stomach to your neck, a gentle hold to remind you who he was.
“Two months,” Cregan breathes out, already sounding on edge. “Two letters. Do you have fun torturing me, wife?” You have to swallow a moan, body already wanting to melt into him. “Hm? Do I have to fuck obedience back into you?” His fingers dig into the flesh of your neck, teeth baring against the shell of your ear. “I can feel you trembling, pet. All this torment was felt by you tenfold, was it? I bet if I touched you, right here…” The hand on your stomach slides down to cup the peak of your thighs through your dress. “I’d find you soaking through your smallclothes, what do you think?”
You whine his name in that tone that sends a shiver down his spine, his arousal pressing against your backside, insistent even through the layers between you. He guides you smoothly over the back of the settee, his mouth hot against your neck as he grinds into you.
“Ah, I missed this…” Cregan breathes out, half a moan, your skirt bunched up over your hips. His foot nudges yours farther apart, letting him rub you through your smallclothes. You arch back into him, feverish heat burning between you.
“Please,” you whisper, reaching behind to find the cool steel of his belt, slipping your fingers beneath it. The motion draws him closer, a hiss escaping him as he indulges you, tugging your underwear down so he can press against you directly.
He laughs lowly, watching as your wetness drenches him. “I knew it.” His mouth is at your ear again, nibbling. “You’re fucking soaked, love. Fuck. Stay there.” He pulls back, squeezing your waist with both hands.
You hear your husband move first, then feel the heat of his body a moment before his tongue is dragging through your folds. It takes everything in you not to crumble immediately at the way he moans at your taste. He’s everywhere, sucking your clit, teething your folds, biting your thighs and ass, tongue slurping wherever he can with the greed of a starved man.
His fingers are next, two filling your cunt so deliciously in ways you had never been able to replicate. You almost came right there, muffling a desperate sob with your palm.
“None of that,” Cregan growls as a sharp smack finds your behind, sending you forward a few inches. “You have denied me your presence for the past two months, so you’ll take everything I give you, won't you? My sweet girl. I’ll make you feel so good, I promise.” He presses a kiss to where you’re stretched around his fingers.
You’re left without air in your lungs when his mouth finds your other hole. “Husband, ah! That’s- that’s dirty–”
“I don’t fucking care,” he snarls, muffled, letting the tip of his tongue dip inside. Cregan eating you like this was nothing new, but you had been on the road for the past week, so it felt filthy. Of course, that didn’t stop him. He was determined to have you, and though he could not bring himself to bury his cock in your cunt, he knew your arse would do just as well.
Cregan is harder than he had ever been before beneath his own smallclothes, throbbing every time you clenched around his tongue. He has to fight his own body to not thrust against the air, denying himself such pleasures.
He feasted on you like that for what felt like hours, your legs giving out at some point, having to kneel on the couch. Fingers joined his tongue, leaving your cunt empty and craving, which his free hand solved by rubbing at your clit. Cregan’s mouth alternated between biting at whatever flesh he could find and gently licking your stretched rim.
You came just like that, your husband three fingers deep in the wrong hole while he bruised your thighs with his teeth.
First, your vision blurs, a haze seeping into the edges of your sight as his name escapes you in a strangled gasp. Then comes the rush of warmth, unfurling from your core and flooding every inch of you, leaving you boneless against the settee, hole impossibly tight around his fingers.
Your body threatens to give out, trembling as you cling to the last shreds of control. Cregan guides you through the storm, his lips tracing over his marks, anchoring you to the moment. He utters one word against your skin, breathe, and you realise you had been holding your breath. Your chest heaves as the rush of oxygen makes you dizzy, Cregan having to catch you before you collapse.
He steadies you, fingers deftly loosening the laces of your dress until the fabric pools at your feet. His touch roams, anchoring you as he savours rediscovering your body. It has been ages since he last traced your skin with his hands.
Cregan draws you near, sweeping you into his arms and settling you gently onto your marriage bed. Between your trembling thighs, he strips off his shirt, eager to feel every inch of you against him. “How do you feel?” he whispers against your chest, his lips following the soft line of your breast. His teeth aren’t far behind, grazing against your nipple.
A half-whine escapes you before you can stop it, coaxed out by his teeth, while your fingers clutch desperately at his flesh and tangle in his hair. “I’m-” you choke, whole body shaking. “Please.”
Cregan isn’t a particularly cruel man, especially not to his wife, not when she asks so sweetly. He wouldn’t make you beg like this, not when he himself was just as desperate. He pushes up, nuzzling his nose against your cheek. “I know, pet. So good for me. Can you turn over?”
He guides you gently, his fingers firm around your waist. From behind, you are breathtaking, and he lets his hand glide slowly down your spine, drinking in the view. Like this, he is free to admire his work; he had littered your behind with bites and bruises, the upper half of your thighs having not been spared the same fate.
Your breath comes in uneven bursts, face pressed deep into the softness of his feather pillow. Cregan. Your husband. Every part of him surrounds you. His scent is intoxicating. He presses his face into your neck, breathing you in. Even if he were worlds away, the memory of your scent—citrus layered over something uniquely yours—would unravel him.
You were woven into each other's lives so completely that the thought of separation felt impossible. The lingering warmth you left in the morning, the glint of his belt resting atop the chest, the mingling of your scents- these small details became the very fabric of your world.
Cregan trails kisses across your shoulder, his warmth and weight pressing into your back. The first thing you notice is the wetness, something smooth gliding over your holes. Oil, the same he used when you once complained about his roughness against your thighs. Yet here, it feels entirely new.
The familiar feeling of his blunt tip is next, between your cheeks. He lifts your hips until you are kneeling, his slick hands gliding over your skin, every touch sending a shiver as he presses against you.
“It’ll feel strange,” he murmurs, pressing one last kiss to your spine before straightening. “Just for a little while, I promise.”
For a heartbeat, heat flares white and sharp. The sting draws a gasp from your lips, his soothing words lost in the rush of sensation. The pain flickers out, but the warmth lingers, more intense than anything Cregan has ever made you feel, even at your limits. He lets you relax around him before moving further. This repeats a few more times before his hips meet flush against the skin of your ass, a keen falling from your lips at the full stretch.
Every sensation seemed to echo through the room. Each subtle twitch, every small movement he made in his silent longing, was measured and tender, always mindful not to disturb or hurt you. His breaths matched yours, his hands tightening around your hips in slow, deliberate pulses.
“How do you feel?” The strain in your husband’s voice doesn’t escape you. “Does it hurt?”
You lift your head from the pillow and draw a steady breath. “Full,” you whisper, the word quivering in the hush. “It’s… strange.” You shift slightly, and Cregan’s moan shatters the silence, raw and unfiltered, chased by a swallowed gasp.
“Mm, good. That’s… good.” His voice trembles, thin with restraint. “I’m- I’m going to move, okay?”
A nod and a trembling breath are all you can manage as he slowly pulls back. He moves within you again, urging you further into the bedding. The pillow muffles your unfamiliar cries, each one raw and thrilling to his ears. He aches to see your face, but he knows staying like this will make everything gentler for you. Your body feels supercharged, every nerve ending sparking to life, each squeeze of his fingers searing through you, leaving a deep, unforgettable imprint.
As your body loosens and yields, he quickens his rhythm, the gentle sound of skin meeting skin echoing softly between you.
“G-gods,” Cregan stutters out, eyes unable to tear away from where his cock is sliding in and out of you. Each thrust is pinpointed somewhere deep in you, so far forward you swore you could feel it in your cunt. It was a peculiar sensation, being hollow and overflowing all at once, a feeling that defied words yet carried a quiet comfort.
The heat from before surged even stronger, coiling in the pit of your stomach and racing out to ignite every fingertip.
With each breath you let out, your voice grew more daring, unravelling Cregan’s composure piece by piece. Time seemed to dissolve as you buried your face in his scent, his hand steady on your back, anchoring you while the other claimed your hip.
You sensed his growing unsteadiness before he did, lifting your head just enough to meet his gaze over your shoulder. “Cregan,” your voice came out rough, still trembling from your cries of pleasure. “My love.”
He slowed at once, his hand leaving your back to rest beside your head, letting him lean closer. He grunted, hips still moving but with less urgency. “My wife,” he rasped, his voice as ragged and raw as yours. “You… Do you feel it too?”
You understood him instantly. The heat, the desperate longing that had simmered between you for two months, was finally reaching its breaking point. “I do.” You whimper, pressing back into his hips.
He mouths at your jaw, a ragged moan so raw escaping his lips. “You… you are so tight,” you can hear the tension in his jaw, “feels… gods, I can’t.” He’s wearing himself down, his hip speed faltering. “I’ll spill—“ Cregan cuts himself off with a choked moan, grinding his tip impossibly deep.
Your moan wobbles when one of Cregan’s hands creeps between you and the furs below you, finding your clit and rubbing.
He was everywhere. Teeth bruising the junction of your neck and shoulder, body pressing you down onto the bedding, cock deep inside of you. You struggled to find where he ended and you started, feeling like you were being swallowed whole by his body.
It was all that was needed for you to find your peak, a rush of sensation so immense that you had never experienced such a thing before. Your bones melted, your voice uncontrollable, your skin tingling and prickling as you sob into the bed.
Cregan isn’t far behind, the tightening and increasing warmth of your hole enough to make him black out. Warmth spreads inside of you, courtesy of his thick seed spilling within. He stays pressed balls deep the duration of his orgasm, cheek pressed to your hair, before pulling out.
“Okay, I’ve got you, love.” Spent and trembling from the intensity of your release, you feel Cregan’s gentle but shaky hands roll you and wipe away your tears. He leans close, pressing a soft kiss to your lips. “I love you,” he exhales, “you were incredible for me.” You can barely muster the energy to reply, offering only a faint sound, which makes him smile. “So sweet. I’ll have someone run a bath for you, okay?” You nod, sniffing and leaning into his touch. “Go to sleep, pet. I think I wore you out enough.”
“Don’t leave,” you whisper, voice entirely worn out. “Please.”
Cregan pulls you into his chest, wrapping himself around you. “Never, pet. I have you. I promise.”
Cregan wakes alone, bed still a little warm from where you had been just recently. He finds you soaking in the bath in the room adjacent.
Your weariness is a reflection of his own after so many weeks apart, and even though he's home now, it lingered. His fingers brush yours along the rim of the tub, drawing a gentle sigh from your lips. “Still tired?”
You shake your head, sinking a little further into the water. “Sore from the journey.” There’s a peaceful quietness that takes over the room for a moment.
“You didn’t write much.”
“No,” you hum. “Did you miss me?”
He scoffs, fingers circling your wrist. “Is it cold in the north?”
Your laughter bubbles up as you open your eyes. “Alright, sassy.”
Cregan huffs, thumb finding your pulse. “You were mean to me.”
“And you me.” You remind him of his words before you had left for your family’s hold, and he winces. He kneels, then kisses your forehead, free hand coming up to brush your hair back.
He leans in to kiss your forehead again, staying there. “I apologised in my letters, did you not read them?” his words are murmured against your skin.
“I did, but I wanted to hear it from your lips.” A sly smile tugs at your mouth, and he scoffs, clearly entertained by your boldness.
“You could’ve told me that, you know.”
You turn to him with a mischievous smile. “But where’s the fun in that?”
Cregan laughs softly, the tension between you dissolving. “You’re a ridiculous woman, did you know that? You also left me alone in bed.”
You cannot help but huff, rolling your eyes. “It was barely any time at all, you know.”
“It was enough. I missed you. And for the record, I am sorry for my words, you know I am. I think my actions have proved that.”
It softens you. Cregan wasn’t a man who often apologised. “I know,” you say gently, “I am sorry too. For not writing more.” All he gives you is a hum, but you can tell he is fighting a smile. “I love you.”
“Move. I’m getting in.”
“Say it back first.”
“I love you, my beautiful and stubborn wife. Now move forward. I think I’ll have you show me how sorry you are for torturing your husband.”
cw: (mdni +18), oral (f!receiving), praise, face humping, fluff fluff fluff, unplanned voyerism (cole watches them lol), dirty talk, hair pulling, sub!gwayne if you squint really hard, scent kink, pussy drunk gwayne, dry humping, (1.7kw).
synopsis: It is said Ser Gwayne knows not how to please a woman. Is it truth or lie?
Ser Criston taunts Gwayne about his supposed inexperience with women, even if he has a lady wife, betrothed to him for a few fortnights already.
Surely he doesn't know how to please you, right?
Too pious, too knightly to even know where to put his cock, most likely. Oldtown's teachings must've left him bereft of any talk about a lady's cunt or other erogenous places.
He's sure all those letters the knight keeps sending back to Oldtown are full of prayers and flowery words meant to soothe his lady, and nothing sort of salacious, like the other knights oftentimes scribble on the parchment meant for home.
A man like Gwayne has no knack for such things, Cole is sure of it.
"Your lady longs for you so much that you're sending a second letter this fortnight, Ser Gwayne?"
And the Hightower heir can sense the slight dissatisfaction beneath Ser Criston's tone, but he does not dwell upon it. Only smiles, nodding. "Yes, Ser. My lady worries, for her heart is pure and sensible. I must do what I can to quell her doubt of any mishaps that might've befallen me."
"Ah, of course. A most dutiful husband you are, Ser."
It isn't until their troops inevitably need to fall back to Oldtown two moons later that Gwayne gets to see his sweet lady wife again.
You've been waiting for this moment for so long, your heart hammering into your chest like a bird's wings as you see your husband's horse trot through the gates.
No one and nothing matters when you finally are cradled in Gwayne's arms, pressed to his steel-clad chest, sweet nothings whispered against your temple as your man peppers your warm skin with kisses of tenderness and longing.
Ser Criston looks away from the sight, scoffing. He knew the acclaimed Hightower heir was good for nothing but sweet presses of lips and warm embraces. Not even a kiss on the lips when greeting his lady wife? He should be ashamed to not bestow such gifts upon a gorgeous creature such as you.
Later, when the crowd had thinned and most knights were off to their sleeping arrangements, the Commander had to do one last search of their horses and supplies before calling it a night as well.
What Cole didn't think to find in the stables was Gwayne, on his knees, head squeezed between your thighs as he feasted on your cunt, moaning like a man starved, the sound muffled by the folds of your pussy.
The sight stopped Ser Criston dead in his tracks.
Ser Gwayne. Pious, dutiful, ever devoted to the faith, now sitting in the same position one would for prayer, but using his mouth not to plead to the Gods, but to bring his lady pleasure.
And what immense pleasure he did bring, for your hands were fisted in his auburn hair, tugging with intent, the demand for more crystal clear. You wanted more, smushing the knight into your heat, hips grinding against his face with abandon as you whined, trying to quiet the volume of your wantonness with your hand pressed to your mouth, but it was in vain. Nothing felt as good as your husband's tongue between your legs, only second to the feeling of his cock splitting you open.
"Yes, yes, my love, yes," fell from your ruddy lips, eyes glistening with unshed tears from how good Gwayne was making you feel. "I missed your mouth greatly," you lilted, fingers unrelenting as they weaved through your husband's hair, offering him respite from your rough insistence, petting him as you would an obedient hound as he continued to circle his tongue against your hole, the tip of his nose bumping against your clit. "Couldn't wait until we were together anew, husband."
All you got in return was another moan, unbashed and wet from the slick of your cunt against Gwayne's mouth, your words spurring him on, broad palms smoothing up your thighs to lift your skirts higher, bunching them at the waist, held in his fists. "My sweet wife," he babbled, flattening his tongue from hole to clit, parting your folds on the ascent. "The moons without your cunt have been dreadful," your knight says, words woven around a whine, lapping at the peeking nub between every word, kindling the heat in your lower belly. "Not being able to taste you each morrow left me wanting, even in times of battle and bloodshed."
Oh, what a debauched picture that was. Your dutiful husband, ever present when called to arms, thinking about worshipping between your legs as he swung his sword, falling enemies and stealing breath after breath from steel-clad men. The thought made you shiver, brushing auburn hair from Gwayne's temples to get a good look at those baby blues you so cherished, a dopey smile onto your lips as you whispered. "You must be cautious, my love," you chastised, albeit tenderly, running your fingers through his hair to soothe, hoping the ache for you had dwindled, if only a little. "Such thoughts might distract you, and then you might not come back to me."
Gwayne shook his head swiftly upon hearing your reprimand, leaning into your touch as a flower moves towards the sun, soaking up all its warmth down to the marrow. "Never," he protested, eyes widening, ever eager to prove his devotion to you. "I shall never fall to another man's sword, if it meant not seeing you again, sweetling," and he turns his face towards one of your palms, pressing a searing kiss upon the skin as he whispers. "That is my solemn vow."
You feel like your heart is going to burst out of your chest and splatter at your husband's feet from the earnestness of his promise, weaving warmth along your body, from your head down to your toes, a full-body gratefulness at having such allegiance offered to you.
"A vow you had upheld valiantly, my love," you praise, your hand shifting to cradle his jaw, thumb brushing against the plump of his bottom lip as you slowly tug him down, back towards your cunt, to which he allows without resistance. "One for which you shall have the prize you so dreamt of, even in bloodshed."
Gwayne's tongue lolls out as you guide his head, eager to have you on his palate again, eyes fluttering shut as the sweet musk of your pussy becomes more potent. It coaxed him to dip his chin so he could press his nose in damp curls and inhale deeply, exhaling a punched-out groan, as if he had forgotten the smell of you in the mere moments that had passed since he'd been tongue deep between your thighs.
"This cunt is a gift from the Gods, sweetling," he praises, mouth open and panting against your folds, just breathing you in lungful by lungful. "I wish I could have it with me on campaign," Gwayne continues, white-knuckling the skirts bunched at your waist, as if the imagery of such a thing wounds him. "Feast on it from morrow to dawn. Allow you to have my tongue whenever you please, my love."
You cannot help but moan at such a confession, fingers returning to his auburn strands to grip and tug, eliciting a muffled whine from your husband, whose tongue dipped between your folds anew, flicking at your clit on the upstroke, knowing how much you favoured it. "You're so good to me, husband," you coo, lips curling into a loving smile, holding your knight still by his hair as your hips resume their grinding, humping against Gwayne's awaiting tongue, using him for your pleasure.
And he loves it. Gods, does he love it. Blue eyes half-lidded, heated with love and lust as he only gives you more of it, poking his tongue as far as it would go for you to rub your clit against, moaning with each movement of your hips, bringing you even closer by the grip on your skirts.
"Oh, my sweet husband," you moan, feeling the heat tingling up your spine and pooling low in your belly with each wet swipe against your clit. "I can't wait to have your cock as well." The words are the opposite of pious, not at all what a lady wife should offer her betrothed, but you are past caring. "For your mouth feels heavenly, and still, I cannot wait to feel you inside me again."
The words melt and light Gwayne in equal measure, feeling his cock strain even harder against his breeches, hips kicking, rubbing himself along the seam of his pants in anticipation of what's to come. He nods, the motion making his tongue rub in rapid succession along your clit, the stimulation so delicious it makes you cry out, wanton and unbashed. Words fail him, the only thing that matters now being making you cum so he can sheathe himself into your pussy and have you milk him for all he's worth, like a prized stallion made for breeding.
It doesn't take long for your back to arch off of the hay bale you are lounging upon, Gwayne's name on your lips, your juices flowing down his tongue and chin, which your husband laps greedily. He has to stop the grind of his hips to not cum into his breeches like an untrained squire, even if the friction of his hard cock against the material of his pants feels heavenly.
He knows your pussy surpasses that by the thousands, which is why he forces himself to still the pathetic humping of his hips. It's only moments now until he'll be inside you, letting you catch your breath, pressing sweet, open-mouthed kisses to your inner thighs and behind your knees as he massages the muscle there, willing you pliant and lax for what's to come. "Thank you, sweetling. Gods, so pretty for me," he whispers against warm skin, reverent and grateful, mouth still wet with your slick. "Missed you so much. Never want to be away from you again. Never, never—"
Perhaps it's safe to assume that Ser Criston Cole will not utter a word about Gwayne and his lack of prowess anytime soon, after what he witnessed tonight.
TW: Past Sexual Assault, Pregnancy, Emotional Abuse, Psychological Manipulation, Possessive Behavior, Trauma, Dubious Consent, Forced Marriage, Unhealthy Relationships, Misogyny, Court Politics, Jealousy, Explicit Sexual Content.
WC: 28K
Five moons came and went like a slow grinding tide, the library had been closed to you, its heavy oak doors locked with a key you were not permitted to hold. The sept was a place you no longer visited, though sometimes you found yourself in the antechamber, sitting on the cold stone bench with your hands folded in your lap, unable to cross the threshold into the sanctuary proper but unwilling to abandon it entirely.
Baelor had not approached you since that day. You saw him sometimes at court functions, standing among the other lords with his hands clasped behind his back and his expression placid. Sometimes you caught him watching you across the great hall during meals, his mismatched eyes meeting yours with perfect, unshakeable calm. He would incline his head politely, the picture of a courteous good-father, and you would incline your head in return because what else could you do? Scream until your throat bled? Point your finger and accuse the King's Hand of forcing himself upon you in front of the Stranger's altar? No one would believe you. No one. The words would die in the air the moment they left your lips, and you would be left standing in the wreckage of your own ruin with nothing but humiliation for your trouble.
But he had sent the moon tea, a servant had appeared at your chamber door the morning after. The liquid inside was bitter and dark, so bitter that your tongue curled against it, and you had drunk it all. Every last drop. You knelt on the cold stone floor with tears streaming down your face and your hands shaking so badly you nearly dropped the vial twice. You did not know if it would work. You did not know if it was already too late. The maester had told you once that moon tea was most effective within the first day, and Baelor had waited until morning to send the girl, and what if those hours had been enough? What if something had already taken root in the darkness of your body, some malignant seed that would grow into a living reminder of what he had done to you?
Five moons later, you were sick, a wave of nausea that rolled through your stomach at the smell of roasted meat drifting up from the kitchens. A sudden and violent aversion to the Dornish wine Valarr favored, the same wine you had drunk at your wedding feast without complaint. You dismissed it at first. Summer fevers were common, especially in the city, and the heat this year was brutal enough to lay low even the hardiest of men. But when you woke three mornings in a row with bile rising in your throat before you could even sit up, Lady Mariene had pressed her lips into a thin line and insisted on sending for the maester.
Now you sat on the edge of the bed in Valarr's chambers, your hands folded in your lap with your fingers laced so tightly together that your knuckles had gone white. Your heart pounded so hard you could feel it in your temples, in your throat, in the tips of your fingers. Maester Godwyn asked about your symptoms, he pressed on your belly with cool fingers, palpating gently, his brow furrowed in concentration. He listened to your heart, counted your pulse, checked the color of your eyes and tongue and then he straightened up with a small, satisfied nod that made your stomach drop through the floor.
"Congratulations, Your Grace," he said. "You are with child."
You stared at him. Your lips parted. With child. A baby. A tiny life growing inside you, formed from your body and Valarr's body, a fusion of bloodlines that had spent a generation trying to destroy each other.
"You are certain?" Your voice was barely a whisper, thin and reedy, a ghost of sound.
"The signs are unmistakable." Maester Godwyn began packing his instruments into his leather satchel with methodical precision, each tool disappearing into its designated pocket. "The nausea, the fatigue, the tenderness in your breasts. Your cycle has ceased, yes?" He did not wait for your confirmation. "I would estimate you are roughly three moons along. You should begin to show within the next few weeks. I will prepare a regimen of herbs to help with the sickness, and I recommend you avoid strenuous activity. No riding, no dancing, nothing that might put undue strain on your body."
Three moons. The calculation ran through your mind with cold, clinical clarity, a sum worked out on an abacus made of terror and relief. Five moons since the sept. Three moons pregnant. The moon tea had worked. Whatever Baelor had planted in you that day, if he had planted anything at all, it had been washed away before it could take root. This child was Valarr's. Only Valarr's. There was no other possibility, no lingering doubt to poison the joy of this moment, no shadow of the Stranger's altar lurking in the child's bloodline.
The relief that flooded through you was so intense it made your eyes sting and your hands shake. You pressed your palm to your stomach, your fingers splayed across the flat plane of your belly where the silk of your gown lay smooth and unwrinkled, and you felt something rise in your chest that was not quite joy and not quite sorrow but some tangled, complicated mixture of both.
You should have felt nothing but horror. You should have wept with despair at the thought of binding yourself to this family forever, of giving them an heir to continue their legacy of fire and blood. But instead, beneath the fear and the doubt and the exhaustion, you felt the strangest flutter of something that might have been hope. A fragile, tentative thing, barely strong enough to hold its own weight. This child would be yours. Yours in a way that nothing else in this castle was. Yours in a way that your body had not been since the day you arrived at the Red Keep. No matter what else happened, no matter what cruelties you endured at the hands of this family, this child would be innocent of all of it. This child would be loved.
By you, at least. You could not speak for its father.
"I will inform His Grace," Maester Godwyn was saying, his voice cutting through your spiraling thoughts. "He will want to know immediately, I am sure. The realm has been waiting for an heir."
You nodded. You did not trust yourself to speak. The words were still tangled in your throat, a knot of emotion you could not swallow down.
Valarr came to you an hour later, you heard his footsteps before the door opened, quick and almost urgent, a pace that did not match his usual measured stride. Then he was standing before you, framed by the dying light, and his mismatched eyes were bright with something you had never seen in them before.
"Maester Godwyn told me." His voice was strange. Controlled, but only barely. Like a man holding back a flood with nothing but his bare hands. "He said you are with child. That it is certain."
"It is certain." He stared at you. His hands hung at his sides, opening and closing in a rhythm that spoke of nervous energy barely contained. His jaw was tight. His shoulders were rigid beneath the black silk of his doublet. Every muscle in his body was coiled with an emotion he was clearly struggling to contain, something vast and overwhelming that threatened to break through the careful composure he wore like armor. You had seen him triumphant on the day of your wedding, when he had looked at you across the sept with satisfaction burning in his eyes. You had seen him possessive in the darkness of your bedchamber, his hands mapping your body like a conqueror surveying new territory. You had seen him wounded and vulnerable and hungry in the quiet moments when the masks slipped. But you had never seen him like this.
"A child," he said. The word came out hoarse, scraped raw, almost reverent. Like a prayer whispered in the darkness of a sept. "Our child."
"Yes."
He took a step toward you his hand lifted, reaching toward your stomach, and then it stopped. It hung there in the air between you, suspended, trembling slightly. It was the first time you had ever seen Valarr Targaryen unsure of himself. The first time he had ever seemed to question whether he had the right to touch you. The man who had taken everything from you without asking, who had claimed your body as his property and your future as his due, was standing before you with his hand frozen in midair like a boy asking permission for his first dance.
"May I?" he asked.
The question was so unexpected, so utterly unlike him, that you felt your throat tighten until you could barely breathe. The infamous prince who had never asked permission for anything in his life. He was asking. You nodded because you did not know what else to do, because the words were trapped somewhere behind the ache in your chest.
He knelt before you, sank to his knees on the cold stone floor like a supplicant before an altar, his dark hair falling forward to frame his face, and he pressed his hand to your belly. His palm was warm through the thin fabric of your gown, his fingers spread wide as if trying to encompass something far larger than the tiny life that slept beneath. His mismatched eyes, were fixed on the place where his hand rested. The expression on his face was one you had never seen before, he looked like a man who had just discovered something he had been searching for his entire life without knowing it.
"There is a child in there," he said quietly, his voice barely above a whisper. "A child. Our child. A son, perhaps. Or a daughter. A little girl with your eyes." He looked up at you, and his eyes were wet. The mismatched irises glistened in the amber light, shimmering with moisture that he did not try to hide. The man who had stripped away your freedom piece by piece until you were nothing but a wife and a body and a vessel, was kneeling at your feet with tears in his eyes. "You have given me a child."
"I have done nothing," you said, and your own voice sounded distant to your ears, like someone speaking from very far away. "It simply happened."
"It did not simply happen." He rose to his feet, but his hand remained on your belly, anchored there like he could not bear to let go. His other hand came up to cup your face, his thumb brushing your cheekbone with that familiar, reverent tenderness that always made your heart twist in ways you did not want to examine. "You have done well. You have done so well."
You have done well. The words echoed in your mind, and something deep inside you recoiled from them. It was the same thing he had said to you in the gardens, after he had taken you on the stone bench among the honeysuckle and roses. The praise of a master to a well-trained hound. The approval of a man who saw you as a vessel, a body, a thing to be used and commended for its usefulness. The same words, the same tone, the same implicit ownership.
But there was something else in his voice now, something that had not been there in the gardens or in the sept or in any of the hundred places he had claimed you. Awe. Gratitude. Something that looked almost like love, or as close to love as a man like Valarr was capable of feeling. Something that might, under different circumstances, in a different life, have made your heart soften instead of clench.
"You are pleased?" you asked. The question felt foolish the moment it left your lips. The evidence of his pleasure was written across his face, shining in his eyes, trembling in his hands. But you needed to hear him say it. You needed confirmation that this was real, that this moment was happening, that the ground had truly shifted beneath your feet.
"Pleased." He let out a short, incredulous laugh that was more breath than sound. "Pleased does not begin to describe it. I am." He stopped. Swallowed hard. The muscles in his throat worked visibly. "I did not know I could feel this. I did not know I was capable of it. All my life I have wanted nothing, needed nothing, cared for nothing. And now." He shook his head, his thumb still tracing your cheekbone. "Now there is this. Now there is you. Now there is our child."
He leaned down and pressed his lips to your forehead. The kiss was gentle, almost chaste, nothing like the hungry, demanding kisses he usually gave you. It lingered longer than necessary, his lips warm against your skin, and when he pulled back his eyes were still glistening. His hand was still on your belly, his palm curved protectively over the life that slept beneath.
"Everything will be different now," he said. "I will make certain of it. You will want for nothing. The child will want for nothing. I will give you both everything. Everything I have, everything I am, everything I will ever be. I swear it on the old gods and the new, on my father's crown and my mother's blood. I swear it."
You looked at him, this strange and complicated and possessive man who had stolen your life and now knelt before you with tears streaming openly down his cheeks, he was looking at you like you had given him something he had never dared to hope for, something he had never believed he deserved.
"Thank you," you said. It was the only thing you could think of to say, the only words that felt safe enough to speak.
Valarr smiled. It was a small smile, almost shy, entirely unlike the knowing and predatory expression he usually wore like a second skin. For a heartbeat, he looked younger. Softer. More like a man and less like a prince.
"No," he said. "Thank you."
—
You had thought, perhaps naively, that the pregnancy would give you a reprieve, it was a reasonable assumption. Most husbands withdrew from their wives during pregnancy. Everyone knew this. It was simply the way of things, an accepted custom as old as the marriage bed itself. Some men retreated out of genuine concern for the child, afraid that their passions might harm the delicate life growing in the womb. Others were driven away by a sudden and prudish aversion to the changing body, the swelling belly and tender breasts and the slow transformation of wife into mother. The maesters recommended separate chambers in their dry, clinical tones, citing the health of the babe. The septas preached restraint from their prayer books, their thin lips pursed in disapproval at any hint of carnality during such a sacred time. Even the most attentive of lords, the ones who doted on their wives and brought them gifts and held their hands through the pains of labor, even they usually found themselves a discreet mistress to occupy their nights while their wives grew heavy with child. A servant with pretty eyes. A merchant's daughter from the city. Someone uncomplicated, someone unburdened by the weight of impending motherhood.
Valarr was not one of those husbands, if anything, the news of your pregnancy had inflamed something in him. The hunger that had driven him since your wedding night, the need to touch and claim and own, had not diminished with the proof of his conquest growing in your womb. It had grown alongside the child, feeding on the evidence of his seed taking root, becoming something voracious.
He touched you constantly now. His hands were always on you, always seeking, always claiming. A palm pressed flat against your belly at meals, in the corridors, during council meetings when you were permitted to sit beside him. His fingers tracing the small of your back as you walked through the gardens, a gesture that looked tender to observers but felt like a brand. His thumb stroking the curve of your hip while you stood at the window, watching the ships in the harbor, his body a warm and solid presence behind you. He spoke to the child at night, his lips pressed against the gentle swell of your stomach, his voice low and murmuring and full of a tenderness that made your chest ache with a confusion so deep you did not know how to name it. He whispered things to the babe that you could not quite hear, promises and secrets and endearments in the old Valyrian tongue that sounded like poetry and felt like chains.
He was gentler in some ways. More attentive. More solicitous of your comfort than he had ever been before. He asked after your health with genuine concern in his eyes. He ordered the kitchens to prepare only foods you could stomach, banishing the roasted meats whose smell made you retch. He had the servants bring extra pillows for your bed and lighter gowns for the oppressive summer heat and a dozen other small comforts that spoke of a consideration you had not expected from him.
But in bed, he was insatiable, the first night after the maester's announcement, you had expected him to let you sleep. You had been exhausted, wrung out by the emotions of the day, by the revelation of the child and the memory of the moon tea and the complicated tangle of relief and terror and strange, fragile hope that had taken root in your heart. You had climbed into bed with the grateful expectation of rest, your body sinking into the feather mattress with a sigh of pure physical relief.
He had not let you sleep. Instead, he had laid you down on the furs with a reverence that bordered on worship, his movements slower and more deliberate than they had ever been before. His hands mapped every inch of your body as if he were discovering it for the first time, his fingers tracing the contours of your shoulders and the curve of your waist and the swell of your hips with a focus that was almost devotional. He kissed the hollow of your throat where your pulse beat beneath the skin, the curve of your breast, and the soft and barely visible swell of your belly where his child was growing in the darkness of your womb. His lips lingered there, on that slight curve, pressing kiss after kiss to the skin that stretched over his heir. And then he had taken you with a slow and deep and devastating thoroughness that left you trembling and breathless and utterly and completely claimed, your fingers twisted in the furs and his name a broken whisper on your lips.
You had thought it was a celebration. A one time thing. An expression of his joy at the news, a physical manifestation of his happiness that would burn itself out once the initial excitement faded.
It was not a one time thing, the next night was the same. And the next. And the next after that, until the days blurred together in a haze of summer heat and his relentless, unquenchable desire. He could not keep his hands off you. He wanted you in the morning, when the light was pale and grey through the windows and the castle was still quiet, his body already hard and eager against your thigh when you woke. He wanted you in the afternoon, when the summer heat lay heavy on the castle and the servants had retreated to their quarters to escape the worst of it, when he would find you reading in the solar or sitting by the window and pull you into his lap with a hunger that never seemed to dim. He wanted you at night, after supper, before sleep, sometimes waking you from dreams with his mouth hot on your neck and his hands already pushing up your shift and his voice a dark and wanting murmur in your ear.
"I cannot get enough of you." His body moved against yours in the darkness, the rhythm deep and steady and possessive. His breath was hot and ragged against your ear, his chest pressed to your back or your breasts or your side depending on how he had positioned you that night. His hand found your belly, as it always did, his palm spreading wide over the growing curve. "You are carrying my child. My heir. Do you understand what that means? You are round with me. Full of me. Marked by me in ways no one can deny, no one can question, no one can ever take away."
His thrusts were deep and rhythmic, possessive without being cruel, hungry without being violent. His hand pressed against your belly as he moved, feeling the curve that grew more pronounced with each passing week.
You did not know how to respond to these declarations. Your fingers gripped his shoulders, nails biting into the muscle. Your breath came in short and desperate gasps that you could not control no matter how hard you tried. You hated that your body still wanted him. You hated that the pleasure still came, rushing through you like a tide, unstoppable and undeniable. You hated the way your hips rose to meet his, the way your legs wrapped around his waist, the way your mouth opened on sounds of need that you could not swallow back. But the pleasure came anyway. It always did.
And Valarr, watching your face with those mismatched eyes that missed nothing, saw it all. He saw your pleasure, the flush that spread across your cheeks and down your throat. He saw your surrender, the moment when your resistance crumbled and your body gave itself over to sensation. He saw the evidence of his possession written in every flutter of your lashes and every parting of your lips and every desperate, broken sound that escaped your throat.
"That is it," he breathed, his voice dark with satisfaction. "That is my girl. My perfect, beautiful girl. Taking me so well. Giving me everything."
He spilled inside you with a low groan, his body shuddering against yours with the force of his release. You felt the familiar warmth flooding your womb, the womb that already held his child, the womb that had already done its duty and needed nothing more from him. He stayed there for a long moment, still buried inside you, his forehead resting against yours and his breath coming in harsh, uneven pants. His hand remained on your belly, his thumb tracing small circles over the stretched skin.
"You cannot get mr more pregnant," you said quietly. The words came out before you could stop them, dry and almost sardonic, your voice still breathless from what he had done to you. "There is already a child in there. Growing bigger every day. Your seed has done its work. It has accomplished its purpose. There is nothing left for it to do."
Valarr laughed. It was a low and breathless sound, full of genuine amusement, rumbling through his chest and into yours. His eyes crinkled at the corners bright with mirth.
"I know," he said. "I know there is no purpose to it beyond the act itself. I know the child is already there, already growing, already real." He pressed a kiss to your forehead, soft and lingering. Then to the tip of your nose, a gesture so unexpectedly playful that it made something in your chest twist. Then to your lips, gentle and warm and tasting of salt. "But I cannot stop wanting you. I thought perhaps the desire would fade once you were with child. Once I had proof of our union, visible proof that everyone could see, proof that would grow and swell and eventually cry out in the night with a voice of its own. I thought that would be enough. I thought the hunger would finally be sated."
He pulled back to look at you, his mismatched eyes searching your face in the dim light of the dying candles. His expression was serious now, the amusement fading into something more vulnerable, something that looked almost like confusion at his own feelings.
"But it has not faded. It has grown. It grows every day, every time I look at you, every time I see the changes in your body and know that I did that. That I put that child inside you. That you are carrying a piece of me beneath your heart." His thumb traced your cheekbone, feather light. "You are the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. You were beautiful on our wedding day, when you hated me and did not bother to hide it. You were beautiful when I took you on the council table, when you arched beneath me and fought against your own pleasure. You were beautiful in the gardens, with the roses behind you and the sunlight in your hair. But now. Now you are carrying my child. Do you have any idea what that does to me? Do you have any idea how much I want you, how much I need you, how completely you have consumed every part of my mind and body?"
"I have some idea," you said, and your voice was flatter than you intended. He laughed again, that low and rumbling sound that you were beginning to recognize as genuine happiness. He rolled onto his back, pulling you against his side with a strength that was effortless and absolute. His arm wrapped around your shoulders, tucking you close against the warmth of his body. His other hand found your belly, as it always did now, resting there with a possessiveness that was both infuriating and strangely comforting. His palm was warm through your skin, and you could feel the slight curve of your womb pressing up against his fingers.
"Sleep," he said. "You need your rest. The maester said so. He was very specific about it. Plenty of rest, plenty of fluids, no strenuous activity." A pause. A smile you could hear in his voice even though you could not see his face. "I may have ignored the last part of his instructions."
"You are the one keeping me awake," you said. "Every night. Without fail."
"I know." He pressed a kiss to your hair, his lips lingering against the strands. "I will try to be more restrained. I will try to let you sleep. I will try to be the kind of husband who withdraws to his own chambers and leaves his pregnant wife in peace."
You did not believe him. You could hear the lie in his voice, the affectionate self-deprecation that masked a complete lack of intention to change his behavior.
He was not more restrained. The next night, he took you bent over the bed with your hands gripping the furs and your back arched and his name torn from your throat in a cry you could not suppress no matter how hard you bit your lip. The night after that, he pulled you into his lap while he sat in the chair by the fire, the flames casting dancing shadows across your intertwined bodies. His hands guided your hips as you moved above him, setting a rhythm that was slower than usual, gentler, accommodating the growing weight of your belly between you. His eyes never left your face. His hands never left your skin. His voice never stopped murmuring those soft and possessive endearments that you had learned to tune out and crave in equal measure.
And every night, when it was over, when he had spent himself inside you and your body was still trembling with the aftershocks of a pleasure you resented, he held you. His hand on your belly. His lips on your hair. His voice a low and steady murmur in the darkness, speaking words that were half promise and half threat and entirely Valarr.
Mine. Both of you. Mine. My wife. My child. My family. No one will ever take you from me. No one will ever touch what is mine. You belong to me, and I belong to you, and this child belongs to both of us, and nothing in this world or the next will ever change that.
—
The visits began in your seventh moon, at first, you thought nothing of them. Nobles came and went from the Red Keep as constantly as the tides in Blackwater Bay, an endless procession of ambition dressed in silks and velvets. Lords seeking favor with the King. Ladies attending the Queen in her solar, sipping sweet wine and exchanging gossip like currency. The castle was a perpetual parade of obeisance and hunger, and you had long since learned to ignore the shifting currents of courtiers that ebbed and flowed through its corridors like a river that never ran dry.
But then you began to notice a pattern, the lords who came to court were not alone. They brought their daughters. Young women, mostly, though a few were older, widowed or delayed in marriage by circumstance. Girls of six and ten, seven and ten, eight and ten. Fresh faced and slim waisted and dressed in the finest silks their houses could afford, gowns of pale blue and soft rose and spring green that made them look like flowers swaying in a summer breeze. They curtsied to the King with downcast eyes and rosy blushes, paid their respects to the Prince of Dragonstone with breathless voices and fluttering lashes, and then, inevitably, found their way into Valarr's path with a persistence that spoke of careful instruction.
Lady Marguerite of House Ashford. Lord Ashford's oldest daughter, a girl with hair like spun sunlight and eyes the color of cornflowers in bloom. She had smiled at Valarr over supper on her first night at court, her lashes dark against her cheeks, her voice honey sweet as she asked him about his work on the small council. She leaned toward him as she spoke, her body angled like an offering, and the neckline of her gown had been cut low enough to show the pale swell of her breasts.
Lady Rosamund of House Caswell. Tall and willowy, with hair the deep brown of polished walnut and a laugh that rang through the great hall like church bells on a feast day. She had a wit that was quick and sharp, a tongue that could match Valarr's own, and she had made him laugh during a garden stroll. You had been walking behind them with your ladies, your hand pressed to the aching small of your back, your swollen belly heavy before you like a millstone, and you had watched your husband's whole body relax into mirth at another woman's joke.
Lady Evelina of House Florent. Golden haired and rosy cheeked, with a laugh like silver chimes and a habit of touching Valarr's arm whenever she spoke to him. Her fingers would rest on his sleeve, light and lingering, a gesture of casual intimacy that made something hot and tight coil in your chest. She had brought him a gift on her third day at court. A book of Dornish poetry, bound in pale leather with gold leaf on the pages. The same volume you had seen in Baelor's library. The same verses Valarr had once read aloud to you in bed, his voice low and musical, your head resting on his chest as the words washed over you. She had presented it to him in the great hall, her cheeks pink with pleasure, and he had accepted it with a smile that made your stomach turn to ice.
They were throwing their daughters at him. All of them. Every lord with a maiden daughter and an eye for advancement was parading their girls before your husband like prize fillies at a horse fair, hoping he would take a fancy to one of them. Hoping he would sample the goods and find them to his liking. Hoping he would take a mistress.
And why would he not? Why would any man in his position resist such a parade of beauty and availability? You were pregnant now, heavy and tired and swollen beyond recognition. Your ankles had thickened until your shoes no longer fit, and you had been forced to wear loose slippers that made you feel like a peasant shuffling through the corridors. Your back ached with a deep and constant throb that no amount of pillows or warm baths could ease. You could not dance at feasts without growing short of breath. You could not walk through the gardens without stopping to rest on every bench you passed.
Men grew restless when their wives were with child. Men took mistresses. It was the way of the world, the way of marriage, the way of men like Valarr who had married for conquest rather than love and who had never pretended to be anything other than what they were.
You knew this. You had always known this. You had braced yourself for it during those first weeks after the maester's announcement, when Valarr's hunger had seemed bottomless and his desire for you had burned with a feverish intensity that left you exhausted and overwhelmed. You had told yourself that it would not last. That his obsession would cool once the novelty of your pregnancy wore off. That he would eventually grow tired of your swelling body and your constant fatigue and your inability to match his endless, exhausting passion.
But you had not expected it to hurt, you had not expected the way your chest would tighten when you watched Lady Marguerite lean toward him at supper, her golden hair spilling over her shoulder like a waterfall of silk, her blue eyes fixed on his face with an attention that bordered on worship. You had not expected the way your stomach would clench when Lady Rosamund made him laugh, her dark eyes sparkling with triumph, her hand lifting to touch her own throat in a gesture that drew his gaze to the elegant line of her neck. You had not expected the way your heart would stop and then start again, pounding too fast, when Lady Evelina touched his arm and he did not pull away.
He did not pull away. That was the detail your mind kept returning to, circling like a moth around a flame. He did not step back. He did not remove his arm from beneath her fingers. He did not give her the cold and cutting look that he was so capable of giving, the look that could freeze a man's blood in his veins and send lords twice his age stammering from his presence. Instead, he smiled at her. That same gentle and attentive smile he had once given you in the gardens, a lifetime ago, when you had been new to the castle and new to your marriage and still foolish enough to believe that there might be something salvageable in this union.
"He seems quite taken with the Florent girl," Lady Jeyne observed from her seat beside you. Her voice was light and conversational, utterly venomous, the voice of a woman who had spent decades at court learning exactly how to wound with words. "But then, His Grace has always appreciated beauty. And she is very beautiful, is she not? So slim. So graceful. That waist. Those wrists. She looks like a painting come to life. She makes pregnancy look rather unfortunate by comparison, does she not?"
You said nothing. Your fork was clenched in your hand, your knuckles white as bone, the tines pressed hard against the plate. You could feel the pressure of your grip in your wrist, in your forearm, in the tight clench of your jaw. On your other side, Lady Alia leaned in with a conspiratorial smile that showed too many teeth.
"I heard Lord Florent offered her as a companion for His Grace," she whispered, her breath warm and moist against your ear. "To ease his burdens during this difficult time. After all, a man has needs, and Her Grace is in no condition to." She paused delicately, her eyes dropping to your belly with an expression of exaggerated sympathy. The pause itself was an insult, the space she left for you to fill in the ugly words yourself. "Well. You understand. We all understand. It must be so hard for you, watching this happen when you cannot do anything about it. When you cannot be what he needs."
"The Florents have always been ambitious," Lady Mariene added quietly. Her voice was gentler than the others, which somehow made it worse. Pity was harder to bear than malice. "They will be looking for a place at court, a permanent position with access to power. A position as the Prince's acknowledged mistress would be quite the advantage. Their influence would grow considerably. They could rival even the great houses, with the Prince's ear and the Prince's bed."
"He will need someone to warm his sheets," Jeyne said, pressing the knife deeper with the casual air of someone commenting on the weather. "Sooner or later. You cannot expect him to remain celibate for months on end, surely. It is not in his nature. We all know what his nature is. We have all seen how he looks at you, how he touches you, how he cannot seem to keep his hands to himself. A man like that does not simply stop wanting because his wife's belly has grown too large for his liking. He finds other outlets. Other women who can give him what you cannot."
She paused, letting the words settle into the silence like stones dropping into still water. Then she smiled, her cold grey eyes glinting with satisfaction, and added, "And once the child comes, you will be occupied with nursing and rearing. You will have even less time for him. The wet nurses will handle the feeding, of course, but the child will need its mother. You will be exhausted. Drained. Uninterested in the kinds of activities that keep a husband faithful. It is only practical to find a suitable replacement now, before the birth, so that the transition is smooth. Someone who can keep him satisfied while you do your duty to his heir. Someone who can give him the pleasure and the attention and the beauty that you will no longer be able to provide."
The fracture in your chest spread. A web of cracks, splintering through your ribcage, reaching toward your heart with thin and searching fingers. You could feel it happening, the slow disintegration of something you had not even known you were holding together. You had thought you were prepared for this. You had thought you had armored yourself against the inevitable. But the armor was paper thin, and Jeyne's words were fire, and everything was burning.
You looked down the table at Valarr. He was still speaking with Lady Evelina. Her hand was still on his arm, her pale fingers resting against the dark silk of his sleeve. His head was tilted toward her, his expression attentive, his lips curved in that gentle and inviting smile that you had once believed was reserved for you. The candlelight caught the gold in her hair and the rose in her cheeks and the sparkle in her eyes. She looked like a maiden from a song. She looked like everything you were not. She looked like the kind of woman a prince should have, the kind of woman a prince deserved, the kind of woman who had never been conquered in a war and married off as a spoil of victory.
He looked like a man who was interested. He looked like a man who was considering. He looked like a man who was already imagining what it would be like to have that golden hair spread across his pillows and that slim body pressed beneath his own.
He would not, you told yourself, and the voice in your head was desperate and thin and pathetic. He said he wanted only you. He said you were the most beautiful thing he had ever seen. He said you were his, both of you, you and the child, and that nothing would ever change that. He knelt at your feet with tears in his eyes. He pressed his hand to your belly and whispered to his heir in the darkness. He told you he could not get enough of you, that the desire had not faded, that it had grown, that it grew every day.
But men said many things. Men made promises and broke them. Men swore devotion on their knees and then found younger and slimmer and more beautiful women to fill their beds while their wives grew heavy with child and their bodies stretched into shapes that no longer pleased the eye. Valarr had never pretended to be anything other than what he was. A prince. A conqueror. A man who took what he wanted and answered to no one. Why would he limit himself to a swollen and exhausted wife when the realm was full of beautiful girls who would spread their legs for a chance at his favor?
You were a political tool who had served her purpose. You had given him an heir, or you would soon, and once the child was born, what use did he have for you? Your bloodline was a liability. Your family was destroyed. Your name was a curse that the realm had spent decades trying to erase. He had married you to end a war, and the war was ended, and now all that was left was the slow and humiliating process of being set aside while younger and prettier women took your place.
Your hand moved to your belly, cradling the swell of it beneath your palm. The child kicked, a sharp and insistent movement against your ribs, and you felt tears prick at the corners of your eyes. Yours, you thought, and the word was a lifeline, a rope thrown into the darkness, the only solid thing left in a world that was dissolving around you. At least this child is yours. At least they cannot take this from you. At least you will have something, someone, when everything else is gone.
—
That night, Valarr came to bed late, you were already lying down, your body curled on its side in the position the maester had recommended for sleep, your hands wrapped around your belly as if you could protect the child inside from the slow and creeping dread that had taken root in your heart and grown there like a poisonous vine. The room was dark except for the single candle burning on the bedside table, its flame guttering in the breeze from the open window. You had been lying there for hours, staring at the tapestry on the far wall, tracing the outlines of dragons and knights and maidens with your eyes because sleep would not come and your thoughts would not quiet.
The door opened. You heard his footsteps, soft on the stone floor. You heard the rustle of his clothing as he undressed, the soft thud of his boots being set aside, the whisper of silk as his doublet was draped over a chair. The mattress dipped as he climbed into bed beside you, and you felt the warmth of his body against your back, familiar and foreign all at once. His hand found your belly, as it always did. His palm was warm, his touch gentle, his fingers spreading wide over the taut curve of your womb. You felt him press a kiss to your shoulder, then to the curve of your neck. His lips were soft and unhurried, and his breath was warm against your skin.
"You are still awake," he murmured. "It is late. You should be sleeping."
"I was waiting for you."
"You should not wait. You need your rest. The maester was very specific." His hand moved in slow and soothing circles on your belly. "How is the little one tonight?"
"Active. I think he objects to the venison."
Valarr laughed softly, his breath stirring the hair at the nape of your neck. "He has good taste. The venison was overcooked." He settled against you, his body warm and solid at your back, his arm wrapped around your waist with that easy possessiveness that had once made you feel claimed and now made you feel like a possession being inventoried. He seemed content. He seemed happy. He seemed like a man who had no idea that his wife was slowly falling apart in his arms.
"Valarr?"
"Hm?" His voice was sleepy, comfortable, unconcerned.
The question had been sitting in your chest all evening, all week, all month. It had grown heavier with every smile he gave Lady Evelina, with every walk he took with Lady Marguerite, with every laugh Lady Rosamund pulled from his throat. It pressed against your ribs now like a living thing, demanding release.
"Why do you spend so much time with them?" The words came out before you could stop them. Controlled. But with a tremor underneath that you could not quite hide.
Valarr's hand paused on your belly. The silence stretched for a moment too long. "With whom?"
"The girls. The lords' daughters. Lady Evelina. Lady Marguerite. Lady Rosamund. All of them." You did not turn to look at him. You kept your eyes fixed on the tapestry, on the knight and the dragon and the maiden in her tower. "You walk with them. You ride with them. You sit with them at supper. You laugh at their jokes and accept their gifts and let them touch you. Everyone sees it. Everyone talks about it."
"Do they." His voice was flat. Not a question.
"You know they do. You know what the court is saying. You know what they are saying about me."
"What are they saying about you?" The question was too casual. Too careless. As if he genuinely did not know, or genuinely did not care.
"That I have been set aside," you said, and your voice cracked on the last word despite your best efforts. "That you are looking for a mistress. That you have already found one. Or two. Or three. That I am too fat and too tired and too useless to keep your attention, so you are finding it elsewhere. That it is only a matter of time before you make your choice and I am left alone in these chambers while you."
You stopped. Your throat had closed around the rest of the sentence. You could not say it. You could not speak the image into existence, the image of him in another woman's bed, his hands on another woman's body, his voice murmuring those same soft and possessive endearments into another woman's ear.
Valarr was quiet for a long moment. His hand was still on your belly, but it had stopped moving. It lay there, heavy and motionless. "You have been listening to gossip," he said finally. "From the viper pit of the court. From those ladies who whisper poison in your ear the moment my back is turned."
"It is not gossip when I see it with my own eyes. I saw you in the gardens with Lady Marguerite. You disappeared into the hedge maze together. I saw you give Lady Rosamund your handkerchief at the tiltyard. She wore it tied around her wrist like a trophy. I saw you at supper tonight with Lady Evelina. Her hand was on your arm for half the meal. You did not remove it. You never remove it."
"I am the Prince. I am the heir's heir. It is my duty to be courteous to the lords and ladies who visit this court. Their fathers are important bannermen. Their houses are ancient and powerful. Offending them would be politically foolish."
"Courteous." You let out a breath that was almost a laugh, hollow and bitter. "Is that what you call it? Courteous?"
"What would you call it?"
"I would call it entertaining them. I would call it encouraging them. I would call it letting them believe they have a chance." Valarr shifted behind you. His arm tightened around your waist, pulling you closer against him, but the gesture felt different now. Less tender. More proprietary. Like a man repositioning a piece on a game board.
"You are being ridiculous," he said.
"Am I?"
"Yes. You are pregnant and tired and your mind is inventing threats where none exist. The maester warned me this might happen. He said that women in your condition often become emotional. Irrational. Suspicious without cause."
The words hit you like a slap. Emotional. Irrational. Suspicious without cause. He was dismissing you. He was reducing your fears to nothing more than the hysterical ramblings of a pregnant woman, unworthy of serious consideration, unworthy of a real answer. Your hands tightened on your belly, your knuckles going white.
"Do not do that," you said, and your voice was sharper now. "Do not pretend this is nothing. Do not pretend I am imagining things. I have watched you with them. I have watched the way you smile at them, the way you lean toward them, the way you laugh at their jokes and accept their gifts. You gave Lady Rosamund your handkerchief, Valarr. Your handkerchief. With your dragons on it. That is not courtesy. That is a favor. Everyone knows what a favor means."
"I gave her a piece of cloth because she asked for it. She wanted something to tie back her hair while she rode. It meant nothing."
"Then why did she wear it on her wrist for the rest of the day? Why did she show it to every lady in the castle? Why did she tell them it was a gift from you?"
"I do not control what Lady Rosamund says or does. She is a foolish girl with foolish notions. That is not my responsibility."
"And Lady Evelina? The book she gave you? The way she touches you at every meal? Is that also nothing?"
Valarr exhaled, a long and controlled breath that sounded almost like a sigh. When he spoke again, his voice had changed. It was cooler now. More distant. The voice of a prince who was not accustomed to being questioned. "I am not having this conversation," he said. "It is late. You are tired. I am tired. We will discuss this in the morning if you still wish to, but I suspect you will feel differently once you have rested."
"No. We will discuss this now." You twisted in his arms, turning to face him for the first time since he had come to bed. His eyes met yours in the dim candlelight and they were guarded in a way you had not seen in months. "Why do you spend so much time with them? Why do you let them touch you? Why do you smile at them the way you used to smile at me?"
Valarr stared at you for a long moment. His expression was unreadable, his jaw tight, his eyes shuttered. When he finally spoke, his voice was cold and clipped and utterly dismissive. "You are being tedious."
The word hit you like a physical blow. Tedious. As if your fears were boring to him. As if your pain was an inconvenience. As if you were nothing more than a nagging wife whose concerns were not worth the breath it took to address them. "Tedious," you repeated. The word tasted like ash in your mouth.
"I have given you no reason to doubt me. I have told you repeatedly that you are my wife, that you are carrying my child, that there is no other woman who could take your place. If you choose not to believe me, that is your decision. But I will not spend my nights defending myself against accusations that have no basis in reality."
"Accusations." You pushed yourself up on one elbow, your belly heavy between you. "I have not accused you of anything. I have asked you a question. There is a difference."
"You have asked me the same question in a dozen different ways, and I have answered it in a dozen different ways, and none of my answers have satisfied you. I am beginning to think no answer would satisfy you. I am beginning to think you want to be unhappy. That you want to find fault. That you are looking for reasons to push me away."
"That is not true."
"Is it not?" His eyes were cold now, the warmth that had been there when he first came to bed completely extinguished. "You have been distant for weeks. Cold. Withdrawn. You barely speak to me at meals. You barely look at me when I enter the room. And now you accuse me of seeking comfort elsewhere, when you are the one who has been pulling away."
"Because I am afraid." The words tore out of you, raw and trembling. "Because I am pregnant and swollen and exhausted, and every day I watch beautiful girls throw themselves at my husband, and every day my ladies tell me it is only a matter of time before you choose one of them. And instead of reassuring me, instead of telling me I have nothing to fear, you tell me I am being tedious."
"I have told you repeatedly that you have nothing to fear. You simply refuse to listen."
"You told me with words. Words are easy. Words are wind. But your actions tell a different story. Your actions tell me that you enjoy their attention. That you seek it out. That you do nothing to discourage it."
Valarr sat up abruptly, the furs falling away from his chest. His expression was hard now, his jaw set, his mismatched eyes glittering with something that looked almost like anger. "I am done with this conversation," he said. "I am a Prince of Dragonstone. Your lord husband. I will not be interrogated in my own bed by my own wife over matters of court etiquette that she does not understand."
"I understand more than you think."
"You understand nothing." He swung his legs over the side of the bed and stood, his back to you, his shoulders rigid. "You see a girl smile at me and you invent an affair. You see me accept a book and you imagine me in her bed. These are fantasies, Y/N. They exist only in your mind. And I will not waste my breath defending myself against phantoms."
"Then give me a reason not to believe them." Your voice broke on the last word. "Give me something real. Something I can hold onto. Something other than pretty words and empty promises."
Valarr turned back to look at you. For a moment, just a moment, something flickered in his eyes. Something that might have been guilt, or frustration, or something else entirely. Then it was gone, replaced by that cold and distant mask that he wore like armor. He crossed to the door without waiting for your response. His hand closed around the latch, and he paused for a moment with his back still turned.
"Sleep," he said. "You need your rest. I will not disturb you further tonight."
"Where are you going?"
He did not answer. The door opened and closed behind him with a soft click, and you were alone.
You stared at the closed door for a long time. The candle on the bedside table guttered and smoked, casting dancing shadows across the walls. The baby kicked inside you, a sharp and insistent movement, and you pressed both hands to your belly as if you could hold yourself together through sheer force of will.
Where are you going?
He had not answered. He had not even looked at you. He had simply walked out into the darkness of the castle, into the corridors where slim and beautiful girls slept in their guest chambers, girls who would welcome him with open arms and eager bodies and no tedious questions about where he had been.
Where are you going?
You did not sleep that night. You lay awake in the darkness, staring at the canopy above, counting the dragons embroidered in silver thread until your eyes blurred and the tears you had been holding back finally spilled over and ran down your cheeks and into your hair. The castle was silent around you, vast and indifferent, and somewhere in its depths your husband was walking through the shadows.
You did not know where he was going. You did not know whose door he might knock on, whose bed he might climb into, whose body he might use to forget the argument he had just had with his tedious and suspicious wife.
You only knew that he was gone. And the space beside you in the bed was cold.
—
Days had passed since the Prince had slept that one night away from his wife, the hour was late when Lady Alia slipped through the servant's passage, she had planned this carefully, or as carefully as a woman of her limited intelligence could manage. Three days of watching and noting the patterns of the Prince's household. When the servants came and went with their armfuls of linens and trays of half-eaten food. When the guards changed their watch, their armored boots echoing in the corridor as they traded places with the next shift. When the Blackfyre bitch took her evening bath in the small chamber adjacent to the Prince's bedchamber, the chamber that Alia had never been permitted to enter but had imagined a hundred times. The bath took an hour. Sometimes longer now that the whore's body was swollen with child and every movement was an effort, every step a labor, every breath a reminder of the parasite growing in her womb. An hour was more than enough. An hour was a gift, a window of opportunity that Alia intended to seize with both hands.
She had worn her finest shift. Silk so thin it was practically transparent, purchased from a Lyseni trader who had assured her it was the same fabric the pleasure houses of the Free Cities used for their most expensive courtesans. The neckline was cut low enough to show the swell of her breasts, the pale curve of them visible even in the dim light of the servant's passage. The hem rode high on her thighs, barely covering the tops of her legs, leaving little to the imagination. Her honey-colored hair was loose around her shoulders, brushed until it shone like spun gold, each strand gleaming in the candlelight. She had dabbed perfume behind her ears, at her wrists, in the hollow of her throat where the pulse beat warm beneath the skin. Rose oil, subtle and sweet, the kind of scent that made men lean closer without knowing why.
She looked beautiful. She knew she looked beautiful. She had been told so her entire life, by her mother and her father and her septa and every squire and knight and minor lord who had ever looked at her with hunger in his eyes. She was eight and ten years old, slim and graceful, with a face that had made half the squires in the Red Keep stumble over their own feet when she passed. Her skin was clear and unblemished. Her waist was narrow enough to span with two hands. Her breasts were small and pert and had never been swollen by pregnancy or sagged under the weight of a nursing child. She was everything the Prince's wife was not, everything she could never be again, and she was offering herself to him on a platter of silk and perfume.
The Prince would not refuse her. Why would he? His wife was a bloated cow, heavy with child, her ankles swollen to the size of tree trunks and her face round as the full moon and her body stretched beyond all recognition. Alia had seen her waddling through the corridors like a duck, one hand pressed to the small of her back, her belly preceding her like the prow of a ship. It was obscene. It was grotesque. No man wanted that. No man wanted a wife who could not please him, a wife who could not satisfy him, a wife who was too tired and too heavy and too occupied with the parasite in her womb to give her husband the attention he deserved. A man like Prince Valarr, a man of such obvious and voracious appetites, must be starving by now. Desperate. Practically aching for a woman who could give him what his wife could not.
And Alia had seen the way the Prince looked at the noble girls who came to court. He was interested in them. He smiled at them and laughed at their jokes and let them touch his arm at supper. He simply needed a push in the right direction, a nudge toward the inevitable, a woman bold enough to take what was being offered rather than waiting to be asked.
She would be that push. She would be the one to climb into his bed and give him what he had been denied for months, and when he had tasted her and enjoyed her and realized what he had been missing, he would set aside his fat and useless wife and keep Alia as his acknowledged mistress. Perhaps even more. Stranger things had happened. Targaryens had set aside wives before. Targaryens had taken new brides before. And if the Blackfyre whore died in childbirth, as so many women did, as Alia prayed nightly she would, then the Prince would need a new wife. Someone young and beautiful and fertile. Someone like Alia.
The dream was so vivid, so intoxicating, that she could almost taste it, she slipped into the Prince's bedchamber and closed the door silently behind her, her heart pounding in her chest with a mixture of fear and excitement. The fire burned low in the hearth, casting long shadows across the walls, the embers glowing red and gold in the darkness. The bed was huge and canopied, draped in Targaryen red and black, the furs turned down invitingly by the servants who had prepared the room for the night. She could smell him on the sheets. Sandalwood and smoke and something dark and masculine, something that made her stomach flutter with anticipation and her thighs press together involuntarily. Soon she would be wrapped in that scent. Soon she would be wrapped in him.
She shrugged off her shift and let it pool on the floor at her feet, a puddle of translucent silk that she stepped out of with the grace of a dancer. Then she climbed onto the bed, arranging herself among the pillows with practiced care. She had rehearsed this in her own chambers, in front of the small mirror that hung above her washbasin, trying different poses until she found the one that flattered her best. One arm above her head, her wrist bent delicately, her fingers curled against the pillow. Her hair spread across the silk in a golden fan, each strand catching the firelight. Her body angled to display her best features, the narrow waist and the flat stomach and the curve of her hips. She left the furs off entirely. She wanted him to see everything. Her small and pert breasts. The smooth plane of her stomach, unmarked by stretch marks or swelling. The golden hair between her thighs. She was a feast laid out for a starving man, and he would devour her.
She waited, the minutes passed with agonizing slowness. The fire crackled in the hearth, sending up occasional sparks that died before they reached the chimney. Somewhere in the adjoining chamber, she could hear the faint splash of water, the soft sigh of the Blackfyre lowering herself into the tub. The sound made Alia smile. Good. The cow was occupied. She would be soaking her bloated body for some time yet, trying to ease the aches and pains of her condition, never suspecting that her husband was about to receive a far more enticing offer.
The door opened. Prince Valarr stepped into the chamber, his attention fixed on a sheaf of papers in his hand. He was still dressed from the day's council meeting, his dark doublet unfastened at the collar to reveal the strong column of his throat, his boots dusty from the yard where he had been observing the new recruits. He did not look up immediately. He was frowning at something on the parchment, his mismatched eyes narrowed in concentration, his brow furrowed. He looked tired, Alia thought. Tired and frustrated and in desperate need of a woman to ease his burdens. She would be that woman.
"My prince."
Her voice was soft and breathy, the voice she had practiced for hours in front of her mirror, the voice that had made squires blush and stammer and drop their swords in the training yard. She stretched languidly on the bed, letting her legs part slightly, letting him see what she was offering. The firelight played across her bare skin, painting her in shades of gold and rose. She was a living flame, and he was a dragon. He would not be able to resist.
Valarr looked up, for a long moment, he simply stared. His expression did not change, except a slight surprise flickering across his features. No interest stirred in his mismatched eyes. No hint of the hunger Alia had expected, the hunger she had been counting on, the hunger that every man felt when he looked at her. He stared at her the way a man might stare at a dead rat that a cat had dragged in from the stables. The way a man might stare at something foul he had found on the bottom of his boot. The way a man might stare at an insect before crushing it under his heel.
"What," he said, and his voice was utterly flat, utterly cold, utterly devoid of anything Alia had hoped to hear, "is this?"
Alia's smile faltered. A thread of unease wound through her stomach, cold and tight. This was not the reaction she had anticipated. She had expected surprise, perhaps. She had expected hesitation, a moment of doubt, a flicker of conscience that she would have to soothe away with gentle words and softer touches. She had even prepared for the possibility that he might resist at first, that he might protest out of loyalty to his wretched wife, that she would have to work harder to persuade him. But she had not expected this. This blank and chilling lack of response, as if she were not a beautiful woman offering him her body but a minor inconvenience he had not asked for.
"I thought you might appreciate some company, my prince." She let her voice drop lower, more intimate, the voice of a woman sharing a secret in the darkness. She shifted on the bed, arching her back slightly, letting the firelight play across her bare breasts. Her nipples were hard in the cool air, and she knew he could see them. She wanted him to see them. "Your wife is occupied with her bath. She will be in there for another hour at least. And a man like you, a man of such strength and passion and hunger, should not have to spend his nights alone. It is not right. It is not natural. I am here to offer you comfort, my prince. Whatever comfort you desire. Whatever comfort you have been denied."
She let her hand drift down her own body as she spoke, tracing the curve of her breast, the flat of her stomach, the angle of her hip. It was a gesture she had practiced, a gesture designed to draw his eyes to the places she wanted him to look. She had been told by men far less powerful than the Prince that she was irresistible. Surely he would want her.
"Get out."
The words were flat. Cold. Utterly without warmth or hesitation or even the faintest trace of temptation. Valarr had not moved from the doorway. He had not taken a single step into the room. But something in his posture had changed, something that made Alia's blood run cold. His shoulders had squared like a soldier preparing for battle. His jaw had tightened until she could see the muscle jumping beneath the skin. His mismatched eyes were fixed on her with an expression that was not desire or interest or even flattered surprise. It was disgust. Pure and unfiltered and absolute disgust, the kind of disgust a man might feel upon discovering a nest of maggots in his supper. He was looking at her as if she were something filthy. Something contaminated. Something so far beneath him that he could barely stand to share the same air.
"My prince." Her voice cracked on the title. "Please, I only meant to offer you what you have been missing. What your wife cannot give you. What no woman in your condition should expect you to go without. I am here for you. I am willing. I want this. I want you."
"Get out of my bed." His voice was harder now, a blade beneath silk, a whip crack in the stillness of the room. "Get out of my bed, and get out of my chambers, and be grateful I do not have you dragged to the black cells beneath this castle and left there to rot until you forget what sunlight looks like."
Alia scrambled upright, her cheeks flushing with humiliation so intense it burned like a brand. Her hands were shaking as she grabbed for the sheet, pulling it up to cover her breasts, her shoulders, her body that had suddenly become a source of shame rather than pride. This was wrong. This was all wrong. He was supposed to want her. He was supposed to be tempted. He was supposed to look at her the way he looked at those noble girls at court, with attention and interest and that gentle smile that made women weak in the knees.
"Did you think I wanted you?" Valarr took a step into the room, and then another, and Alia shrank back against the pillows with a sound that was somewhere between a gasp and a whimper. "Did you truly think that I would want you? That I would look at you and see anything other than a pathetic and desperate and grasping little whore who snuck into my chambers like a thief in the night?"
"But the noble girls," Alia stammered, the words tumbling out of her mouth before she could stop them. "I saw the way you looked at them. I thought you were interested. I thought you wanted."
"I am polite to guests at my father's court because it is my duty as a prince. Because their fathers are bannermen and their houses are allies and insulting them would create political problems I have no desire to deal with. That is not interest. That is politics, you stupid and simpering fool. Did you truly think a few polite smiles at supper meant I would welcome any common whore who climbed into my bed? Did you think I was a dog who would mount anything that presented itself?" His lip curled, and the expression on his face was so contemptuous that Alia felt herself shrivel under it. "Are you that stupid, or are you simply that arrogant? Did you look in the mirror and convince yourself that a prince of the blood would throw away his honor and his wife and his unborn child for a chance to rut between your legs?"
Alia's face burned so hot she thought her skin might blister. Her eyes stung with tears, fat and humiliating, spilling down her cheeks and dripping onto the sheet she clutched to her chest. This was not how it was supposed to go. She was beautiful. She was desirable. She had been told so her entire life, by everyone she had ever met, and she had believed them. She had built her entire future on the foundation of her beauty, on the certainty that it would open doors and secure matches and lift her above the common rabble of ladies who populated the court. And now the Prince of Dragonstone was looking at her like she was a cockroach he had found in his soup.
"You are pathetic," Valarr said, and his voice dropped to a low and venomous murmur that was somehow worse than the shouting. "You come to my chambers while my wife, my pregnant wife, is bathing in the next room, carrying my child beneath her heart. You spread yourself across my sheets like a common whore in a dockside brothel. You offer me comfort as if you could ever compare to her, as if you could ever be worthy of touching the hem of her gown, as if you could ever be anything more than a cheap and tawdry imitation of a real woman."
He took another step closer, and Alia flinched so hard her back hit the headboard. The tears were streaming down her face now, ruining the careful arrangement of her hair, and her nose was running and her breath was coming in ragged and desperate gasps.
"Look at yourself," he said, and each word was a lash. "Just look at yourself. You are nothing. You are a collection of bones wrapped in skin, a hollow shell with nothing inside it but ambition and envy and the desperate need to matter. You think you are beautiful? You think that is enough? There are a thousand women in this city with pretty faces and willing bodies, and they are all as worthless as you are. Beauty is common. Beauty is cheap. Beauty is something any peasant girl can possess if she is young enough and clean enough. You have nothing else. No wit. No wisdom. No loyalty. No honor. Just a passably attractive face and a body you clearly think is a gift to mankind. It is not a gift. It is a cheap trinket, and I have no interest in cheap trinkets."
He leaned closer, his face inches from hers, and Alia could smell the wine on his breath and see the cold fire burning in his mismatched eyes. "My wife," he said, and his voice went soft and terrible, "is carrying my child. Her body is changing because she is doing something you will never do, something your selfish and shallow soul is not capable of. She is creating life. She is sacrificing her comfort and her health and her sleep and her very shape to bring my heir into this world. Every ache in her back, every swollen inch of her ankles, every stretch mark on her belly is a testament to her strength and her sacrifice and her worth. And you, you vile little creature, you dared to call her a cow. You dared to mock her. You dared to think you could replace her."
Alia's blood turned to ice. He knew. He knew what she had said, what she had whispered to Jeyne and Mariene in the solar, what she had murmured behind her fan while the Princess walked past with her heavy belly and her tired eyes. Someone had told him. Someone had carried her words to his ears, and now he was looking at her with murder in his eyes, and she was naked and alone and utterly defenseless.
"My prince, I never meant, it was only a joke, I did not think."
"You do not think. That is abundantly clear. You do not think at all." He straightened up, stepping back from the bed, and the distance he put between them was a mercy. Alia could breathe again, but the air felt thin and useless in her lungs.
"I will go," Alia whispered, scrambling toward the edge of the bed, her bare feet tangling in the sheets. "I will go now. I will leave the castle. I will go back to my father's house and never return."
"You will go. But not back to your father's house. You will go wherever I send you, and you will be grateful that I am allowing you to leave with your life." Valarr stepped aside, clearing the path to the door. "Get dressed. Get out of my chambers. And if you ever, ever, come near my wife again, if you ever speak to her or look at her or breathe in her direction, I will have you whipped through the streets of King's Landing until the flesh hangs from your bones in ribbons. I will make certain that every lord and lady in the Seven Kingdoms knows exactly what you are and what you tried to do. Do you understand me?"
"Yes," Alia whispered, and her voice was so small and broken she barely recognized it. "Yes, my prince. I understand."
"Then get out."
She fled. She did not bother to put on her shift. She simply clutched it to her body and ran, barefoot and sobbing, through the servant's passage and back toward her own chambers. The guards in the corridor pretended not to see her. The servants pressed themselves against the walls, their faces carefully blank, their eyes fixed on the floor. No one stopped her. No one asked what had happened. No one wanted to be associated with the girl who had tried to seduce the Prince and failed so spectacularly.
And in the Prince's bedchamber, Valarr stood alone, staring at the rumpled sheets where another woman had lain, the disgust was still there, churning in his stomach like poison. He crossed to the bed and tore the sheets off with a violence that made the fabric rip, the sound of tearing silk loud in the quiet room. He threw them into the fire, watching the flames consume the evidence of her presence. The silk curled and blackened. The perfume burned with a sickly sweet smell. The memory of her body on his bed, her bare skin on his sheets, her greed and her ambition and her utter lack of shame, all of it turned to ash.
—
The morning sun streamed through the tall windows of the Prince's chambers, pale and golden and utterly indifferent to the tension that hung in the air like a held breath. Your ladies moved around you with the practiced efficiency of women who had done this a hundred times before, their hands quick and their faces carefully blank. The ritual of dressing was always the same. The unlacing of the nightshift, the damp cloth passed over your skin, the careful arrangement of the morning gown with its seams already straining against the swell of your belly.
Today, however, something was different. You felt it the moment Lady Alia entered the room, she was late. That was the first sign. Alia was never late. She was the youngest of your ladies, barely eight and ten, with honey-colored hair that fell in perfect ringlets around a face like a porcelain doll, and she had always taken her duties with a particular and pointed diligence. She was ambitious in her own small way, viciously and transparently ambitious, and her ambition manifested as punctuality. She was always on time. She was always perfectly dressed, perfectly coiffed, perfectly composed. She was always ready with a sweet smile and a poison-laced comment delivered in the most innocent of tones, the kind of comment that left no mark on the surface but burrowed deep into the skin and festered there.
But this morning, she was late, and when she finally swept through the door, her honey-colored hair pulled back too tightly from her face, her porcelain features pinched and sour, her blue eyes rimmed with red and swollen from a night spent weeping or raging or both, you knew that something had happened. Something significant. Something that had stripped away her careful composure and left this raw and seething creature in its place.
Lady Jeyne noticed it too. Of course she did. Jeyne noticed everything, she had made a career out of noticing things. Her gaze flickered to Alia as the younger woman crossed the room, and her thin lips curved into a smile that did not reach her eyes, a smile that spoke of anticipation rather than warmth.
"Lady Alia," Jeyne said, her voice light and conversational and utterly devoid of genuine feeling. "We were beginning to wonder if you had abandoned us. Her Grace has been waiting for her morning gown. The poor thing can barely stand for more than a few minutes without growing winded. She needs our assistance more than ever now that she is so very large and so very helpless."
"Forgive me." The word was clipped, bitten off at the end like a thread severed by teeth. Alia did not look at Jeyne. She did not look at Mariene, who had paused in her arrangement of your jewelry to watch the exchange with her usual quiet and vulture-like attention. She looked at you. Only at you, and her eyes, those pretty blue eyes that usually sparkled with mockery and malice, were burning with something that went far beyond her usual contempt. "I did not sleep well. I had a very trying night."
"How unfortunate," Jeyne murmured, her frost-colored eyes glittering with curiosity. "You do look rather peaked, my dear. Those dark circles do nothing for your complexion. Perhaps a tonic from the maester would help. Or perhaps a cold compress. You look almost as haggard as Her Grace, and she at least has the excuse of being great with child."
"Perhaps." Alia's voice was flat and hard, a voice that barely pretended to be civil. She reached for the laces of your nightshift, and her fingers were cold. Cold and rough and trembling with a suppressed fury that she did not seem to be trying very hard to suppress. She yanked at the ties, jerking the fabric loose with a violence that made you stumble forward a step, your hand flying to the bedpost to steady yourself before you could fall. The baby shifted inside you, startled by the sudden movement, and a wave of nausea rolled through your stomach.
"Careful," you said quietly. It was barely even a request. It was the same word you had spoken a hundred times before in this very room, to these very women, a small and automatic protest against the casual cruelties they inflicted on you day after day. You never expected it to work. It never did. But you said it anyway, because saying nothing felt like surrender, and you had surrendered too much already.
Alia's eyes snapped to yours in the mirror. Her lips curved into a smile that was nothing like her usual sweet and venomous expression. This smile was ugly. This smile was raw and jagged and full of something that looked almost like hatred in its purest and most undiluted form. It was the smile of a woman who had been wounded and was looking for someone to bleed in her place.
"Forgive me, Your Grace." The title dripped with contempt, each syllable a separate and carefully weighted insult. She moved closer, her cold fingers still gripping the loosened laces of your shift, her face hovering just behind your shoulder so that you could see her in the mirror, could see the hatred burning in her eyes. "I would not want to harm you. You are so very delicate in your condition. So fragile. So precious. We must treat you with the utmost care. We must wrap you in silk and carry you on a cushion and make sure nothing ever upsets you, because if something happened to the heir, what use would you be then? What possible value would you have if not for the parasite growing in your belly?"
The room went very still. Even Jeyne, who had heard and delivered a thousand veiled cruelties in her decades at court, raised an eyebrow at the naked hostility in Alia's voice. Mariene's hands had stopped moving over the jewelry entirely, her dark eyes fixed on the scene unfolding before her with the quiet intensity of a woman who knew she was witnessing something important and was determined not to miss a single detail.
"Alia," Mariene said, her voice soft and neutral, carefully modulated to give nothing away. "Perhaps you should let me attend to Her Grace's laces. You seem tired. Upset. It might be best if you took a moment to compose yourself."
"I am not tired." Alia's voice was sharp, almost shrill, cutting through the air like a blade. She moved around you in a slow circle, her fingers trailing across the fabric of your nightshift, her eyes never leaving your face. Her touch was light and mocking, the touch of someone examining a piece of livestock at market. "I am simply reflecting on the nature of worth. Of value. Of how some people have so very little of either, and yet manage to rise so far above their station through nothing more than a moderately attractive face and a convenient set of holes between their legs. It is remarkable, really. Inspiring, in a way. If a Blackfyre whore can become the Princess of Dragonstone simply by spreading her legs for the right man, what might the rest of us achieve if we were willing to debase ourselves so thoroughly?"
The words landed like a slap, stinging and hot against your skin. Your jaw tightened until your teeth ached. Your hands, still resting on your belly, curled into fists against the silk of your nightshift, the knuckles going white with the force of your grip. But you said nothing. You had learned, over seven long moons in this castle, that silence was your only weapon. Silence was your only protection. If you spoke, if you reacted, if you gave them anything at all, they would twist it and weaponize it and use it to flay you alive. They had done it before. They would do it again.
But Alia was not finished. She had barely begun. The fury that had been burning in her eyes since she walked through the door was spilling over now, pouring out of her in a torrent of venom that she had clearly been holding back for hours, for days, for perhaps her entire life.
"Some people," she continued, her voice rising with each word, gaining strength and volume and a kind of manic energy, "arrive at this castle with nothing. No name. No honor. No value beyond a traitor's bloodline and a body that happens to catch a prince's eye. A body that any dockside whore in Flea Bottom could match, and probably has more skill with besides. And yet they are given everything. A royal marriage. A place at court. Servants and gowns and jewels and the adoration of a man who should have known better than to sully himself with conquered flesh, with enemy flesh, with the daughter of the very house that tried to destroy his family. It is obscene. It is an insult to every woman of true and noble birth who has ever worked and waited and sacrificed for a fraction of what this Blackfyre slut was handed for nothing."
She stopped in front of you, her face inches from yours, her blue eyes blazing with a hatred so pure and so intense that it seemed to heat the air between you. Her breath was sour, stale from a sleepless night, and you could see the broken capillaries in her eyes, the traces of tears she had shed before coming to this room.
"While others," she said, and her voice dropped to a low and shaking whisper, "others who are loyal, who are worthy, who have served faithfully and done everything that was asked of them and more, are cast aside like garbage. Humiliated. Rejected. Told by the Prince himself that they are nothing, that they are worthless, that they cannot compare to the Blackfyre whore he married. Can you imagine that? Can you imagine being told, by a man you have admired and desired and dreamed of, that you are less than nothing compared to a traitor's daughter who got lucky on her back?"
You stared at her. Your heart was pounding in your chest, a slow and heavy drumbeat that you could feel in your throat, in your temples, in the tips of your fingers. The baby kicked, a sharp and startled movement high against your ribs, as if the child could sense the danger in the room. Your hands pressed harder against your belly, trying to soothe, trying to protect, trying to shield your child from the ugliness that was filling the room like smoke.
"Alia," Jeyne said, and this time there was a genuine note of warning in her voice. A line was being crossed, a boundary was being breached, and even Jeyne, who delighted in cruelty, could see that Alia was careening toward something dangerous. "That is quite enough. You are speaking to the Princess of Dragonstone, not some scullery maid you can berate without consequence."
"Is it enough?" Alia spun to face the older woman, her hands shaking at her sides, her whole body trembling with the force of her rage. "Is it nearly enough? Because I do not think it is a fraction of what needs to be said. I do not think it is a thousandth part of what this creature deserves to hear. Do you know what they say about her, Lady Jeyne? The servants? The courtiers? The noble girls who come to court hoping to catch the Prince's eye and rescue him from his Blackfyre mistake?" She turned back to you, her smile wide and ugly and triumphant, a smile that spoke of secrets and rumors and the kind of poison that could not be cured. "They say the Prince will tire of her within a moon of the birth. Not a year. A moon. Perhaps less. They say he only wanted an heir from her, a child with the blood of Old Valyria, the blood she carries in her traitor's veins through nothing more than a quirk of bastard lineage. And once the child comes, once she has served her purpose and pushed out his spawn, he will set her aside like a broken toy that has stopped being entertaining. He will find someone younger. Someone prettier. Someone whose body has not been ruined and stretched and destroyed by carrying his child. Someone who is not carrying the weight of her family's treason in every breath she takes and every word she speaks and every drop of blood in her veins."
Your hands were shaking now. You could feel the tremors running up your arms, into your shoulders, into the rigid column of your spine that was trying so hard to hold you upright. The cracks in your chest, the ones that had been spreading for weeks, spreading with every visit from a noble girl and every touch of a hand on your husband's arm and every whispered comment from your ladies, were creaking and groaning under the pressure. You felt like a dam about to break. You felt like a tower about to collapse. You felt like everything you had tried so hard to hold together was about to shatter into a thousand pieces.
"Perhaps he already has," Alia continued, stepping closer, her voice dropping to a low and intimate murmur that was somehow worse than her shouting. She was close enough now that you could count her eyelashes, could see the flecks of gold in her blue irises, could smell the stale wine on her breath from whatever she had drunk to fortify herself during the night. "Perhaps that is why he spends so much time with the Ashford girl. The Caswell girl. The Florent girl. Perhaps he is sampling the wares, comparing the merchandise, deciding which one he will take to his bed once the Blackfyre whore is no longer useful. Once she has given him what he wants, the heir, the bloodline, the proof of his conquest, and her body is ruined and stretched and ugly beyond repair. What man wants a wife like that? What man wants a woman whose belly hangs loose and whose breasts sag and whose body is covered in the marks of childbirth, when he could have a fresh young virgin with firm tits and a flat stomach and a name that does not make the realm whisper traitor every time she enters a room?"
She reached out and poked your belly with one sharp finger, her nail digging into the silk of your nightshift, pressing hard against the taut skin beneath. The baby jerked inside you, a violent and startled movement, and you stumbled back a step with a gasp that was equal parts pain and shock.
"Do you think he will even wait for the birth?" Alia asked, her voice bright and curious, as if she were inquiring about the weather. "Do you think he might already have one of them in his bed right now, while you lie alone in your chambers with your swollen ankles and your aching back and your useless, ruined body? Do you think he whispers the same things to Lady Evelina that he once whispered to you? Do you think he presses his hand to her flat stomach and tells her how beautiful she is, how perfect, how much he wants her? I would wager he does. I would wager he has already forgotten what you look like, forgotten what you feel like, forgotten that you exist at all except as the vessel that will deliver his heir and then be discarded like the garbage you are."
"Stop," you said. It was a plea. A desperate and ragged plea that tore itself from your throat before you could stop it, before you could swallow it down, before you could remember that showing weakness to these women was like bleeding in front of sharks. Your voice cracked on the single syllable, and you hated yourself for it. You hated the tremor in your hands and the burning in your eyes and the way your whole body was shaking with the effort of holding back the tears that were threatening to spill down your cheeks.
But Alia did not stop. She was too far gone now, too consumed by whatever rejection she had suffered the night before, too drunk on her own rage and humiliation to pull back from the edge. She leaned in close, her face inches from yours, her breath hot and sour against your skin, and when she spoke again, her voice was almost tender. Almost gentle. And infinitely more cruel for it.
"And the child," she whispered, and her lips curved into a smile that was soft and sweet and utterly monstrous. "That poor, unfortunate child growing in your belly. That half-Blackfyre abomination that you think will save you. What do you think will happen to it? Do you think the realm will accept a Blackfyre spawn as the heir to the Iron Throne? Do you think the King will suffer the blood of traitors to sit the seat of his ancestors? They will never let it inherit. Never. Not while there are true Targaryens living, not while there are lords with swords and honor and the will to defend the realm from bastard pretenders. The moment it draws breath, the whispers will begin. The plots. The daggers in the dark. They will smother it in the cradle and call it a mercy, and everyone will agree that it was for the best, that the realm was spared a civil war, that the Blackfyre taint was finally and forever washed clean from the bloodline."
She paused, letting the words sink in, letting them burrow deep into the soft and vulnerable places of your heart. Her smile widened. Her eyes sparkled with a malice that was almost joyful.
"And you," she continued, her voice dropping to a whisper so quiet you could barely hear it. "You will be sent back to whatever gutter you crawled out of. Back to Tyrosh, perhaps, if they are feeling generous. Back to the exile where your family has been rotting. Alone and broken and weeping over the corpse of your dead and worthless and traitor-spawned child. You will have nothing. No husband. No crown. No baby to love you. Just the memory of your failure and the knowledge that you were never anything more than a vessel, a broodmare, a Blackfyre whore who spread her legs for the prince and thought that made her something special. You will die alone and forgotten, and no one will mourn you. No one will even remember your name."
The brush was in your hand. One moment you were standing frozen before the mirror, your hands trembling at your sides, your vision blurring with rage and grief and moons of silent and suffocating endurance. The next moment, the heavy silver hairbrush was in your grip, the one with the dragon-shaped handle that Valarr had given you in the early weeks of your marriage, the one you had used every morning since, the one that had become as familiar to your hand as your own reflection. Your arm was swinging, and the brush was connecting with Alia's face with a sound like a branch snapping in a winter storm.
The impact shuddered up your arm, a satisfying and terrible jolt that you felt in your shoulder and your elbow and your wrist. Alia's head snapped to the side. Her hands flew to her face, her mouth opening in a scream of shock and pain, and blood, bright red and startlingly vivid against the pale cream of her skin, began to pour from her nose in a thick and pulsing stream.
But you did not stop. You could not stop. Something had broken inside you, some dam that had been holding back months of cruelty and mockery and silent and grinding despair, and now the flood was pouring out and you could no more stop it than you could stop the tide from rising or the sun from setting. You swung the brush again. And again. And again. And again. And again. And again.
The silver handle cracked against Alia's cheekbone with a wet and sickening thud that echoed off the stone walls. It caught her across the temple, opening a gash that immediately began to weep blood into her honey-colored hair, staining the perfect ringlets a dark and ugly crimson. It slammed into her upraised arm, the one she had thrown up to protect her face, and you heard something snap, something that might have been bone or might have been the handle of the brush itself. You did not care. You kept swinging. You would have kept swinging until your arm fell off, until the brush disintegrated in your hand, until there was nothing left of Alia but a smear of blood and bone and honey-colored hair on the cold stone floor.
"You do not speak of my child." The words tore from your throat, raw and ragged and barely recognizable as your own voice. You were howling. You were screaming with a fury that had been building since the night of your wedding, since the first cold walk to Valarr's chambers, since the first time Jeyne had tightened your laces too hard and smiled at your discomfort and whispered something cruel in a voice too low for anyone else to hear. "You do not speak of my child. You do not look at my child. You do not breathe near my child, do you hear me? Do you hear me, you venomous little snake? You worthless and pathetic and ugly little creature? You will never speak of my child again. You will never think of my child again. You will never come near my child again, because I will kill you. I will kill you with my bare hands before I let you touch my baby."
Alia was on the floor now, curled into a ball with her arms wrapped around her head, her screams dissolving into wet and choking sobs that bubbled up through the blood pouring from her nose and mouth. The brush rose and fell, rose and fell, spattering blood across your gown and across the polished floor and across the mirror where you had watched yourself endure so many silent cruelties. Your reflection was a stranger. A wild-eyed and snarling creature with blood on her face and madness in her eyes and her silver-gold hair flying around her shoulders like a fury's mane. You did not recognize her. You did not want to recognize her. She was everything you had tried so hard not to become, everything they had been pushing you toward since the day you arrived at this cursed castle.
"You think you can threaten my child?" You were screaming now, screaming so loudly that your throat burned with it. "You think you can stand there and tell me they will smother my baby in the cradle and I will do nothing? I will kill you. I will kill you before I let you touch my child. I will kill anyone who tries to harm my child. I will burn this castle to the ground with everyone in it before I let anyone harm my child. Do you understand me? Do you understand me, you pathetic and worthless and evil little bitch?"
"Guards!" Jeyne was screaming, her composure finally and utterly shattered, her frost-colored eyes wide with something that might have been terror or might have been excitement. "Guards, help! She is killing her! The Princess has gone mad! She is killing Lady Alia!"
Mariene had flung open the door and was shouting into the corridor, her voice high and shrill and urgent. Footsteps thundered on the stone outside, heavy boots and the jangle of armor, and then hands were grabbing you, pulling you back, wrenching the bloody brush from your grip. You fought them. Gods, you fought them. You kicked and thrashed and clawed at their armor with your bare hands, your swollen belly heaving with the effort, the baby kicking furiously inside you as if joining the battle, as if fighting alongside its mother against the enemies that surrounded you.
"Let me go! Let me go, I will kill her, I will rip her apart, I will—"
"There are two of them in there," one of the guards was saying, his voice strained with the effort of restraining you without hurting you. "The babe and her both. Careful with the belly. Don't hurt the heir. Watch her feet, she's kicking, she's trying to—there, got her. Hold her still. Hold her still!"
"Get her out of here," Jeyne ordered, her voice cold and sharp and full of a satisfaction that she did not bother to hide. "Take her to her old chambers. The tower room at the end of the winding stair. Lock her in and post a guard at the door. She is a danger to herself and others. Someone fetch the maester for Lady Alia immediately, and someone else inform the Prince of what has happened. Tell him his wife has gone mad. Tell him she attacked an innocent lady of the court with a hairbrush and nearly beat her to death. Tell him everything."
They dragged you from the room. Your feet slipped on the bloody floor, skidding through the crimson smears that had splattered across the stone in wide and violent arcs. You caught one last glimpse of Alia, still curled on the floor, her face a mask of blood that obscured her features entirely, her honey-colored hair matted and dark with gore, her sobs rising into hysterical wails that echoed off the walls and followed you down the corridor like a curse.
The walk to your old chambers was a blur of stone walls and torchlight and the cold and shocked faces of servants who pressed themselves against the walls to let the guards pass. You were still struggling, still fighting, your breath coming in ragged gasps that were half sob and half scream. The guards did not speak to you. They did not look at you. They simply held your arms in their iron grips and marched you through the corridors with the grim efficiency of men who had done this before, who would do this again, who had long ago learned not to question the orders they were given. You were a prisoner being transported, not a princess being escorted. You were a criminal. A madwoman. A danger to herself and others.
Your old chambers. The tower room at the end of the winding stair. You recognized the door immediately, the iron bands and the heavy oak and the small and grated window set into the wood. This had been your prison for the first weeks of your marriage, the cold and barren room where you had been kept like a captive, you had hoped never to see it again. You had prayed to gods you did not believe in that you would never be forced to return to this place with its threadbare tapestries and its single narrow window and its bed that felt like stone beneath your body.
But here you were, the guards threw you inside. You stumbled forward, catching yourself on the edge of the bed, your swollen belly making the movement awkward and graceless and painful. Behind you, the door slammed shut with a boom that echoed through the cold stone chamber like the closing of a tomb. The bolt slid home with a sound like a death knell, a heavy and final thud that seemed to reverberate through your very bones and into the floor and into the walls and into every corner of your shattered soul.
And then there was silence, you stood in the center of the cold and empty room, your chest heaving, your breath coming in great and ragged gasps that burned in your throat and tore at your lungs. Alia's blood was on your gown. On your face. On your hands. Under your fingernails, dark and sticky and still warm. It was drying now, turning brown and crusted, pulling at your skin every time you moved your fingers. Your knuckles were bruised and swelling, the skin split across two of your fingers where you had struck Alia's teeth, and you could feel the dull throb of pain beginning to set in as the fury drained away and left nothing but exhaustion in its wake. Your hair had come loose from its careful arrangement, hanging in wild tangles around your shoulders, matted with sweat and blood and the sheer and blind rage that had consumed you so completely that you had forgotten who you were.
The baby kicked. A sharp and insistent movement, low in your belly, reassuring and terrifying all at once. Your child. Your child was still there, still alive, still fighting, still moving inside you with a vitality that made your eyes sting with tears. You pressed both hands to your stomach, feeling the flutter of tiny limbs beneath your palms, and something inside you broke. Not the dam this time. Something deeper. Something more essential. Something that had been holding you together through seven moons of misery and loneliness and fear, and that now crumbled into dust.
A sob rose in your throat. You choked it down with a sound that was half gasp and half whimper. Then another came, and another, and another, until you were weeping with your whole body, your shoulders shaking, your face crumpling, your legs giving way beneath you so that you sank onto the cold stone floor in a heap of ruined silk and drying blood and the shattered remnants of your dignity.
What had you done?
The question echoed through your mind like a bell tolling, over and over and over, each repetition louder and more terrible than the last. What had you done, what had you done, what had you done?
You had attacked one of your ladies. You had beaten her bloody with a hairbrush in front of witnesses, and now you were locked in your old chambers, waiting for judgment like a criminal awaiting execution. And you were a criminal. There was no denying it. You had assaulted a noblewoman, the daughter of a lord, a member of the royal household with family connections and political influence and a name that was not tainted by rebellion and treason. It did not matter what Alia had said. It did not matter that she had threatened your child and mocked your body and predicted your ruin with a smile on her pretty porcelain face. It did not matter that she had provoked you deliberately and cruelly and without mercy. None of that mattered. You were a Blackfyre. She was a lady of the Reach. Her word would carry more weight than yours. Her blood was worth more than yours. It always had been. It always would be.
They would punish you for this. Perhaps they would strip you of your title and send you to the Silent Sisters. Perhaps they would lock you in this tower room forever, leaving you to rot in the cold and the dark while your child was taken from you the moment it was born.
And Valarr. Gods, Valarr. What would he do when he heard what you had done? He had warned you, hadn't he? He had told you that you needed to control yourself, that you needed to be careful, that the court was full of people who wanted to see you fall. And you had failed him. You had failed him spectacularly and violently and publicly, and now he would have no choice but to condemn you. Perhaps he had been looking for an excuse all along. Perhaps the whispers had been true. Perhaps he only wanted an heir from you, and once the child was born, he intended to set you aside and take one of those slim and beautiful noble girls to his bed. Perhaps this would be the perfect opportunity. Perhaps he would use your violence against Alia as justification to cast you out, to declare you unfit, to separate you from your child and install Lady Evelina Florent in your place.
The thoughts spiraled through your mind, dark and desperate and utterly consuming, each one worse than the last. You pressed your hands harder against your belly, as if you could shield the child from the future that was rushing toward you both like a tidal wave. The baby kicked again, softer this time, a gentle flutter against your palm, and you felt fresh tears spill down your cheeks. Your child. Your innocent and helpless child, who had done nothing wrong, who had committed no crime except to grow in the womb of a Blackfyre mother. What would happen to your child when they came for you? Would they let you keep the baby until it was born, or would they tear it from your arms the moment it drew breath? Would they hand it to some wet nurse, some proper Targaryen lady who would raise it to forget its mother, to forget your face and your voice and the way you had held your hands over your belly and promised to protect it from the world? Would your child grow up believing that its mother was a madwoman, a violent and unstable creature who had been locked away for the safety of the realm?.
The grief that swelled in your chest was so vast and so overwhelming that you thought it might crush you. You wrapped your arms around your belly and bent forward until your forehead touched the cold stone floor, and you wept. You wept for your child, who might never know its mother. You wept for yourself, for the girl you had been before the war and the marriage and the slow and grinding destruction of everything you had ever been. You wept for the future that had been stolen from you, the future that you had tried so hard to build despite every obstacle, the future that now lay in ruins at your feet.
You did not know how long you stayed there, curled on the cold stone floor with your forehead pressed to the ground and your arms wrapped around your belly. The light through the single narrow window shifted as the sun moved across the sky, climbing the walls and sliding across the threadbare tapestries and fading from gold to grey to the deep amber of late afternoon. No one came. No one summoned you. No one brought you food or water or word of what was happening outside this cold and silent room. The door remained locked, the bolt secure, the silence absolute except for the distant crash of waves against the cliffs below the castle and the harsh and ragged sound of your own breathing.
You were alone. You were utterly and completely and terrifyingly alone. You were a Blackfyre in a castle full of Targaryens, a conquered enemy in the heart of the conqueror's power, and you had just given them the perfect excuse to destroy you.
The baby kicked again. Soft and steady and impossibly fragile, a tiny foot pressing against your palm like a promise, you held on to that feeling. It was all you had left. It was the only thing in the world that was still yours, the only thing they could not take from you, at least not yet. Not until the child was born. Not until they tore it from your arms and gave it to someone else and told you that you had never deserved to be a mother in the first place.
And you wept until there were no tears left, until your body was empty and hollow and numb, until the light outside the narrow window faded to black and the room was plunged into darkness.
No one came. No one would come. You were alone with your child and your fear and the cold and certain knowledge that you had destroyed everything, and there was no one in the world who would save you.
—
The door opened, you flinched at the sound, your body curling inward around your belly before your mind could catch up, your hands flying up to protect your face in a gesture that was primal and animal and utterly humiliating. A beaten dog cowering before the master's hand. That was what you had become. That was what they had made you. You had been sitting on the cold stone floor for hours, your back pressed against the hard edge of the bedframe, your knees drawn up as far as your swollen belly would allow which was not far at all anymore. The blood on your gown had dried to a stiff and crackling crust that flaked off in brown specks every time you shifted your weight. Your hair hung in matted ropes around your face, tangled with sweat and blood and the salt of dried tears. Your eyes were so swollen from weeping that the world had become a blurry smear of grey stone and fading light, your lashes stuck together in clumps, your cheeks raw and stinging. Your throat burned from the sobs you had been unable to fully suppress, the sobs that had torn their way out of you for what felt like hours until there was nothing left inside your chest but a hollow and echoing emptiness.
You had expected guards. You had been listening for their footsteps in the corridor, the heavy tread of armored boots on ancient stone, the jangle of swords in their scabbards. You had expected the cold and measured voice of the King's Justice, some grey and faceless man in grey and faceless robes, informing you that you were to be confined to your chambers until the birth after which your fate would be determined by men who had never seen you as anything more than a conquered enemy. You had expected Baelor. Gods, you had expected Baelor, his mismatched eyes gleaming with quiet satisfaction as he stood in the doorway and told you that he had warned you, that no one would protect you, that you should have accepted his offer when you had the chance, that this was the price of your defiance and your pride and your foolish belief that you could ever be anything more than a Blackfyre in a Targaryen castle.
You had not expected Valarr.
But it was Valarr who burst through the door, the heavy oak slamming against the stone wall with a crack that made you flinch and curl tighter around yourself. His dark hair was disheveled, hanging in wild strands around his face, and you realized with a shock that you had never seen him like this before, his doublet was half unlaced, the dark silk hanging open to reveal the white linen of his undershirt beneath. His boots were scuffed with dust as if he had been running through the servants' passages rather than the main corridors. His mismatched eyes were wild, darting around the cold and barren chamber with a frantic desperation that made him look almost feral, and when they found you huddled on the floor like a wounded animal, something in his face crumpled. Something broke. Something you had never seen before, not once in all the months of your marriage, not even when he had knelt at your feet with tears in his eyes and his hand on your belly.
"Y/N."
Your name. Just your name, he said your name like a prayer. He said your name like a man who had been drowning and had just caught sight of the shore. He said your name like you were the most precious thing in the world and he had been terrified, genuinely and desperately terrified, that he had lost you forever.
"Valarr." Your voice was a wreck, hoarse and cracked and barely audible, scraped raw by hours of weeping and screaming. You tried to say more but the words caught in your throat, tangled up with the sobs that were threatening to overwhelm you again. "Valarr, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to, I didn't want to, I never wanted to hurt anyone. She was saying such terrible things, such awful things, and I couldn't stop myself, I couldn't control it, I just grabbed the brush and then there was blood everywhere and I couldn't stop hitting her, I couldn't stop, I couldn't—"
He crossed the room in three strides and dropped to his knees before you. The impact of his body hitting the stone floor was hard enough that you heard it, a dull and heavy thud that must have hurt, must have bruised his knees through the fabric of his breeches, but he did not seem to notice or care. His hands found your face immediately, cupping your cheeks with a gentleness that was almost shocking after the violence of his entrance. His palms were warm against your chilled skin, his fingers threading into the mess of your hair, and he tilted your head up so that he could look at you properly. His thumbs brushed across your cheekbones, slow and careful, smearing the dried blood that had splattered there during your attack on Alia. His mismatched eyes, one blue and one brown, both blazing with an intensity that stole the breath from your lungs, searched your face with frantic and desperate attention. He was looking for injuries. He was cataloguing every scratch and bruise and smear of blood, his gaze flickering from your swollen eyes to the cut on your lip where you had bitten yourself during the struggle to the purpling bruise on your jaw where one of the guards had grabbed you too hard.
"You're bleeding." His voice was rough and almost accusatory, as if your injuries were a personal affront, as if someone had dared to damage something that belonged to him and he was trying very hard not to explode with rage. His thumb traced the edge of the bruise on your jaw, feather-light and trembling. "There's blood all over you. All over your face. All over your gown. Where are you hurt? Where did she hurt you? Tell me where she hurt you. Tell me and I will—"
"It's not mine." The words came out between sobs, halting and broken, and you grabbed at his wrists with your own shaking hands. You needed him to understand. You needed him to know the truth before he heard it from someone else, before Jeyne's poison or Mariene's quiet lies reached his ears. "It's not my blood. It's hers. Lady Alia's. I hit her. I hit her with the silver brush, the one you gave me, the one with the dragon handle. I hit her and I kept hitting her and I didn't mean to, Valarr, I swear I didn't mean to. I didn't want to hurt her. I didn't want to become this. But she was saying such terrible things and I tried to stay silent, I tried so hard to endure it the way I always do, but she wouldn't stop and then she talked about the baby and I just—I just—"
"You hit her?"
The question was flat. Quiet. Utterly without inflection. He was still holding your face in his hands, still searching your eyes with that desperate intensity, but something in his expression had shifted. The frantic terror was still there, simmering beneath the surface, but beneath it something else was stirring.
"Please don't punish me." The plea tore from your throat before you could stop it, raw and desperate and utterly pathetic. Your hands clutched at his doublet, your fingers tangling in the dark silk, your bruised and swollen knuckles pressing against the hard plane of his chest. You were babbling now, the words pouring out of you in a torrent that you could not control, seven moons of silent endurance finally breaking free. "Please, Valarr, please don't punish me. I didn't mean to do it. I tried so hard to be good, I tried so hard to endure everything they said to me, every day, every single day for months. The things they whispered while they dressed me, the things they said about my body and my blood and my family. I never said anything back. I never complained. But she was talking about the baby, Valarr. Our baby. She said they would smother our child in the cradle and call it a mercy. She said our baby was a half-Blackfyre abomination and no one would ever accept it and the realm would be grateful when it was dead. She said you would set me aside and find someone prettier and younger and slimmer and I would be sent back to Tyrosh alone and I would never see our child again. And I tried to stay silent, I tried to be strong, but I couldn't. I couldn't listen to her talk about our baby like that. I couldn't let her threaten our child. So I hit her. I hit her and I kept hitting her and I don't remember how many times and now there's blood everywhere and I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry, please don't punish me, please don't send me away, please don't take my baby—"
"Punish you?"
His voice cut through your rambling like a blade through silk, sharp and sudden and utterly final. You looked up at him, your vision blurry with fresh tears, your breath still hitching in your chest, and you saw that his expression had changed completely. The frantic desperation was still there, but it had been swallowed up by something else. His jaw was clenched so tightly that the muscle beneath the skin was jumping. His whole body was rigid with a fury that made the air around him seem to crackle and spark, a fury so vast and so consuming that it seemed to fill every corner of the cold stone chamber.
"I would never punish you." He said the words slowly and deliberately, as if he were explaining something very simple to a child, as if he needed you to understand this above all else. "I would never punish you for defending yourself. For defending our child. I would never punish you for fighting back against someone who threatened our baby." His thumbs brushed the tears from your cheeks, achingly gentle despite the rage that was visibly coursing through him like a storm.
Then he said, very quietly, "They said our child would be smothered in the cradle."
"She said, Lady Alia said that the realm would never accept a Blackfyre heir and they would—"
"I heard you." His thumb traced the line of your cheekbone, feather-light, and his voice softened. "I heard you, my love. I heard every word. And I want you to listen to me now. Can you do that? Can you look at me and listen?"
You nodded, your breath still hitching in your chest, your hands still clutching the silk of his doublet like it was the only solid thing in a world that had turned to water.
He shifted closer to you on the cold stone floor, his knees pressing against your thighs, his body curving around yours as if he wanted to shield you from every threat in the world. One hand remained on your face, cupping your cheek with a tenderness that made your heart ache. The other hand moved down, slowly, deliberately, and came to rest on the great swell of your belly where his child was growing. His palm was warm through the stiff and bloodied fabric of your gown, his fingers spreading wide as if he could encompass the entire world in that single touch. You felt the baby kick beneath his hand, a soft and fluttering movement, and something in his expression cracked open.
"No one will hurt our child." His voice was low and intense, full of a conviction that bordered on ferocity. His hand pressed more firmly against your belly, feeling the life that moved beneath. "No one will hurt you. Not the servants, not the courtiers, not those venomous snakes who called themselves your ladies in waiting. No one. Do you understand me, my love? Do you understand what I am telling you?" His grip on your face tightened slightly, not painfully, just enough to make sure you were looking at him, just enough to make sure you could not look away. "Our child is not an abomination. Our child is a Targaryen. Our child is my heir, and your heir, and the heir to the Iron Throne, and anyone who suggests otherwise, anyone who whispers a single word against our baby, will answer to me. Personally. Do you understand?"
"But the realm." Your voice cracked on the word. "The lords. The people. They hate my bloodline. They hate everything I come from. They will never accept—"
"The realm will accept our child because I will make them accept our child. Because my grandfather the King will make them accept our child. Because anyone who does not accept our child will learn very quickly what happens to those who defy House Targaryen." He leaned closer, his forehead nearly touching yours, his breath warm against your tear-stained lips. His mismatched eyes were so close you could see the flecks of gold in the blue one and the threads of amber in the brown. "I have spent my entire life being told I was not enough. Not Valyrian enough. Not Targaryen enough. I swore to myself, long before I ever met you, long before I ever knew you existed, that my children would never suffer what I suffered. My children would never doubt their place. My children would never be whispered about in dark corners. My children would know, from the moment they drew breath, that they were wanted and loved and protected."
His hand moved from your belly up to your chest, pressing flat against your sternum, right over your heart. You could feel the warmth of his palm through the ruined silk of your gown, could feel the steady pressure of his touch grounding you in the present moment.
"This child is mine," he said, and his voice was fierce and tender all at once. "This child is yours. This child is the future of House Targaryen. And I will burn this castle to the ground with everyone in it before I let anyone threaten that. Anyone. Do you hear me? Anyone."
A fresh sob rose in your throat, but this one was different from the ones that had come before. This one was born of something you had not felt in a very long time, something you had not let yourself feel because feeling it would have been too painful. Something that felt almost like being loved.
"Valarr," you whispered, and his name on your lips was a prayer and a plea and a surrender all at once.
"I am here." He pulled you against his chest in one swift and decisive movement, his arms wrapping around you with that familiar and possessive grip that you had come to know so well. One arm curved around your back, his hand pressing flat between your shoulder blades, holding you against him so tightly that you could feel every beat of his heart against your cheek. The other hand cradled the back of your head, his fingers threading through the tangled and matted mess of your hair, his thumb stroking the sensitive spot behind your ear. He pulled you closer still, impossibly close, until your swollen belly was pressed against his stomach and your face was buried in the hollow of his throat and you were surrounded by him completely. The scent of him, sandalwood and smoke and something dark and masculine, filled your lungs with every breath. The warmth of him seeped into your chilled and aching body. The steady rhythm of his heartbeat beneath your ear was the most comforting sound you had ever heard.
"I am here," he said again, his lips moving against your hair. "I am here, and I am not going anywhere. And neither are you. And neither is our child. You are mine, both of you, and I will never let anything happen to you. I will never let anyone hurt you again. I failed you. I failed you so badly, my love, and I am so sorry."
"Valarr." His name was the only word you could remember. The only word that mattered.
"I am sorry." His voice was hoarse now, cracking with an emotion he was barely holding back. His arms tightened around you until you could barely breathe, but you did not want him to let go. You never wanted him to let go. "I am sorry I did not see what they were doing to you. I am sorry I was so consumed with the council and the harbor proposal and the endless and petty frustrations of ruling that I did not notice my wife was being tortured by the very women who were supposed to serve her. I am sorry I let them near you. I am sorry I trusted them. I am sorry you suffered in silence for months because you thought I would not believe you, because you thought I would take their word over yours." He pulled back just enough to look at your face, and his mismatched eyes were wet with tears that spilled over and ran down his cheeks without shame. "I will always believe you. Do you understand? Always. You are my wife. You are the mother of my child. Your word is worth more to me than every lord and lady in this castle combined. And I will spend the rest of my life proving that to you if that is what it takes."
You buried your face in the hollow of his shoulder and wept. Not the wild and hysterical weeping of before, not the desperate and terrified sobs that had torn their way out of you on the cold stone floor. Something quieter. Something deeper. Something that felt almost like relief, like the release of a tension you had been holding for so long you had forgotten what it felt like to breathe without it.
"I am going to fix this," he murmured against your lips. "I am going to fix everything. I am going to find every person who ever whispered a cruel word to you, every servant who looked at you with contempt, every courtier who smiled at your discomfort, every lady who made you feel like you were less than what you are. And I am going to make them regret it. I am going to make them regret every moment of cruelty they inflicted on my wife."
"Valarr." You pulled back just enough to look at him, your hands still clutching the silk of his doublet. "What happened to my ladies?"
His expression flickered. Something dark passed through his mismatched eyes, something cold and hard and utterly without mercy. His jaw tightened, and for a moment he looked like a different man entirely. A man capable of terrible things. A man who had been pushed too far. But when he spoke, his voice was gentle, and his hands were still gentle, and the kiss he pressed to your forehead was as soft as a benediction.
"You do not need to worry about them. You only need to worry about yourself. And our child."
He leaned down and pressed his lips to your belly, a long and lingering kiss through the stiff and bloodied fabric of your gown. The baby kicked beneath his mouth, and he smiled against the swell of your stomach. A real smile. The smile he kept only for you.
"Come," he said, rising to his feet and reaching down to take your hands. His fingers laced through yours, warm and solid and steady, he helped you walk toward the door, his body a warm and solid presence at your side, his arm steady around your waist. Your legs were shaky, your body exhausted from the pregnancy and the weeping and the sheer emotional devastation of the past few hours. But he did not rush you. He matched his pace to yours, slow and careful, pausing whenever you needed to catch your breath. When you stumbled on the threshold, he caught you easily, sweeping you up into his arms as if you weighed nothing at all despite the great swell of your belly.
"Valarr," you protested weakly. "I am too heavy. You will hurt yourself."
"You are carrying my child. You are not heavy. You are perfect." He pressed a kiss to your temple and began walking down the corridor with you cradled against his chest. "And I am never letting you go again."
You wrapped your arms around his neck and buried your face in the curve of his shoulder. The tears were still falling, silent and slow, but they were different tears now. He carried you through the corridors, and took you to a smaller and cozier bedchamber on the other side of the royal apartments, tucked away in a quiet corner where the noise of the castle could not reach. A roaring fire was already burning in the hearth, filling the room with warmth and golden light. Fresh linens had been laid on the bed, soft and white and inviting. A dozen candles flickered on the bedside table and the mantelpiece and the windowsill, casting dancing shadows across the walls. It smelled of lavender and cedar and something sweet you could not identify. It smelled like safety.
Maester Godwyn was waiting there, his leather satchel open on the table, his lined face creased with concern. He rose as Valarr carried you through the door and laid you gently on the bed, arranging the pillows behind your back with a tenderness that made your eyes sting with fresh tears.
"Your Grace," the maester said, his voice calm and measured. "Please, lie back. Rest. I need to examine you and the child to make sure everything is as it should be."
Valarr did not leave your side. He sat on the edge of the bed beside you, one hand holding yours, the other resting on your belly. He watched the maester's every movement with hawk-like intensity, his mismatched eyes tracking Godwyn's hands as they pressed gently on your stomach and listened to your heart and examined the bruises on your knuckles. When the maester's fingers brushed too close to the bruise on your jaw, Valarr made a low sound in his throat, something between a growl and a warning, and Godwyn quickly moved his hands elsewhere.
"The babe seems healthy," the maester said after a long and thorough examination. "The heartbeat is strong, the position is good. There is no sign of distress, which is remarkable given the events of the day. However." He fixed you with a stern look over the rims of his spectacles. "I would recommend complete bed rest for the next several days. The emotional strain has taken a toll on Her Grace's body, even if she does not feel it yet. Her humors are imbalanced. Her spirit has been wounded as much as her flesh. No stress. No excitement. No visitors except His Grace and those he personally approves."
"I will see to it personally," Valarr said. His voice left no room for argument, no possibility of negotiation. "No one enters this room without my permission. No one speaks to my wife without my permission. No one so much as looks at her without my permission."
The maester nodded, apparently satisfied with this arrangement. He packed his instruments into his leather satchel with methodical precision and left with a quiet murmur about returning in the morning to check on your progress. When the door closed behind him, the silence that settled over the room was soft and warm and full of the crackling of the fire.
Valarr turned to you. His hand was still holding yours, his thumb still tracing slow circles on the back of your hand. His mismatched eyes were tired, so tired, the shadows beneath them dark as bruises. But he was looking at you with an expression that made your heart clench inside your chest.
"You need to rest," he said quietly. "The maester said so. Bed rest. No stress. No excitement."
"I know." You tugged gently on his hand. "Will you stay with me?"
"Of course I will stay with you. I am not going anywhere." He lifted your hand to his lips and pressed a kiss to your bruised knuckles, one by one, his mouth soft and warm against your split and swollen skin. "I told you. You are stuck with me forever."
"Then lie down with me." Your voice was small and tired, but it was steadier than it had been all day. "Please. I do not want to be alone. I have been alone all day. I do not want to be alone anymore."
Something flickered in his mismatched eyes. Something soft and vulnerable and almost broken. He nodded, a quick and jerky movement, and then he was unlacing his boots and shrugging off his doublet and climbing onto the bed beside you. He arranged himself carefully, mindful of your belly and your bruises and your exhausted body, and then he pulled you against his chest with that familiar and possessive grip. His arm wrapped around your waist. His hand pressed flat against your belly. His lips found your forehead and lingered there, warm and soft and full of promises he did not need to speak aloud.
"I am sorry," he whispered against your skin. "I am so sorry I did not see what they were doing to you. I am sorry I let them hurt you for so long. I am sorry you thought you could not come to me, that you thought I would not believe you, that you thought I would ever choose anyone over you."
"Valarr."
"I will spend the rest of my life making it up to you. I will spend the rest of my life proving to you that you can trust me. That you can come to me with anything. That I will always be on your side."
You tilted your head up to look at him. His face was so close to yours that you could see every detail. The flecks of gold in his blue eye. The amber threads in his brown eye. The lines of exhaustion around his mouth. The faint stubble on his jaw, darker than his hair, rough against your fingertips when you reached up to touch his face.
"I believe you," you said quietly. And you did. For the first time in seven moons, you did.
He smiled. It was a small and tired smile, but it was real. The smile he kept only for you.
"Good," he said. "Now sleep. I will be right here. I will keep watch. No one will hurt you while I am here."
You closed your eyes and let yourself sink into the warmth of his body and the softness of the bed and the steady rhythm of his heartbeat beneath your ear. His hand moved in slow and soothing circles on your belly, tracing patterns that might have been letters or might have been nothing at all. The baby kicked softly beneath his palm, a gentle flutter of movement, and you heard him exhale a breath that was almost a laugh.
"She is strong," he murmured. "Our daughter. She is a fighter, just like her mother."
"Daughter?" You opened one eye to look at him. "You think it is a girl?"
"I know it is a girl." His hand pressed more firmly against your belly, feeling the life that moved beneath. "I have known since the day the maester told me you were with child. A little girl with your silver hair and your violet eyes. A princess of the blood. The most beautiful child the Seven Kingdoms has ever seen."
"You cannot possibly know that."
"I can. I do." He pressed a kiss to your forehead. "Trust me. I am never wrong about these things."
You laughed, a soft and sleepy sound, and closed your eyes again. The fire crackled in the hearth. The candles flickered on the bedside table. And Valarr held you in the darkness, his hand on your belly and his lips on your hair and his voice a low and steady murmur in your ear, speaking words of love and protection and promise until you drifted into the first peaceful sleep you had known in weeks.
—
The study was quiet save for the crackle of the fire in the hearth and the soft and muffled sound of weeping. The hour was very late now, deep in the black and silent stretch of night when the castle slept and honest men were abed and only the wicked remained awake to do their wicked work.
Valarr Targaryen sat in the high-backed chair behind his desk, his fingers were steepled before him, the tips pressed together in a gesture of contemplation that might have looked almost prayerful if not for the cold and glittering light in his mismatched eyes. The fire had burned low in the hearth, the flames reduced to glowing embers that painted the room in shades of blood and shadow, and the darkness gathered in the corners like living things waiting to be summoned.
Before him, on the cold stone floor, three women knelt in chains. They were bound at the wrists and ankles with iron fetters that had left the skin beneath them raw and bleeding, and their fine gowns were rumpled and torn from where the guards had dragged them from their chambers without courtesy or explanation. Their carefully arranged hair had fallen in disarray around their pale and terrified faces, and their eyes were red and swollen from weeping that had gone on for hours now without respite.
Lady Alia was the worst of them. Her face was a ruin of purple and black, her nose swollen to twice its normal size and bent at an angle that suggested it had been broken in multiple places. Her left eye was so bruised she could barely open it, and what little she could see through the swollen slit must have been a nightmare of shadow and firelight and the cold and merciless face of the prince who sat in judgment before her. None of them dared to speak. The time for speaking had passed, and they knew it now, and the knowledge was a cold and heavy stone sitting in the pit of each of their stomachs.
Behind them, against the far wall, stood four men in the white armor of the Kingsguard. Their helmets had been removed, as had their swords, which lay in a neat pile on the floor near the door like offerings at an altar. They stood at attention with their hands clasped behind their backs and their faces carefully blank in the way that soldiers learned to make their faces blank when they were facing something terrible. But there was a tension in their postures, a rigidity and a tightness around the eyes and a faint sheen of sweat on their brows, that betrayed their fear. These were men who had served the royal family for years, decades in some cases, and they had never been summoned before a prince like this. Never been lined up like criminals awaiting judgment. Never been made to stand and listen while three noblewomen wept on the floor and begged for mercies that would not come.
Valarr let the silence stretch. He was good at silence, better than most, better than anyone except perhaps his father. He had learned it at Baelor's knee, watching the way a pause could be more intimidating than any threat, the way quiet could unnerve an enemy more effectively than shouting ever could. A man who shouted had lost control. A man who whispered, a man who waited, a man who let the silence do his work for him, that was a man who held all the power in the room. He watched the women sob until their throats grew raw. He watched the guards sweat until their white armor seemed to glow with moisture in the firelight. He let the fire pop and crackle and fill the room with its warm and deceptive light, and he waited, and he waited, and he waited.
Finally, he spoke. "Do you know why you are here?"
His voice was soft. Conversational. Almost pleasant, the voice of a man inquiring about the weather or the quality of the wine at supper. It was the voice he used at council meetings when he was about to dismantle someone's argument piece by piece, the voice he used when lords twice his age came before him with petitions they thought were clever and left with nothing but the shattered remnants of their pride. It was the voice he used when he was at his most dangerous, and every person in this room knew it.
Lady Jeyne raised her head. Her cold grey eyes were red-rimmed and swollen, her weathered face pale as milk, but there was still a flicker of defiance in her expression, a stubborn and desperate refusal to accept the reality of her situation. Even now, even on her knees in chains, even after everything that had happened, she could not quite believe that this was real. That she, a lady of the Reach and a widow of a loyal lord and a woman who had served the royal household for years without complaint or censure, was being treated like a common criminal by the prince she had watched grow from a sullen boy into a dangerous man.
"Your Grace," she began, and her voice was trembling but still clinging to its usual veneer of deference, still trying to find the old pathways of manipulation that had served her so well for so long. "I am certain there has been some terrible misunderstanding. If Lady Alia said something to offend Her Grace, I assure you I had no knowledge of it until the moment it occurred. I have always served the Princess faithfully and without complaint. I have attended her since the day of her wedding. I have dressed her and bathed her and seen to her every need. If there has been some lapse in my duties, some failure of attention, I am certain it was unintentional and I am prepared to make whatever amends—"
"Faithfully."
Jeyne's mouth snapped shut.
Valarr repeated the word as if tasting it, as if it were a piece of meat that had gone slightly rotten and he was trying to decide whether to swallow or spit. His tongue lingered on the syllables, drawing them out, and his mismatched eyes never left Jeyne's face. "You have served her faithfully. That is the word you chose. Faithfully."
"Yes, Your Grace. I have always—"
"You pulled her laces too tight. Every morning for almost two years. You pulled her laces too tight."
The silence that followed was absolute. Even the fire seemed to hold its breath.
"Tight enough to leave bruises on her ribs," Valarr continued, and his voice was still soft and still conversational and still absolutely terrifying. "Tight enough to make it difficult for her to breathe. Tight enough that she winced every time she moved, every time she reached for something, every time she tried to take a deep breath. You did it on purpose. You wanted her to be uncomfortable. You wanted her to suffer in small ways, in deniable ways, in ways that could not be traced back to you by anyone who was not paying very close attention." He leaned forward in his chair, just slightly, and the firelight caught his mismatched eyes and made them gleam. "I pay very close attention, Lady Jeyne. I always have."
"I. Your Grace, I would never, I have no idea what you could possibly be referring to—"
"You called her a Blackfyre whore behind her back. You said it to the other ladies. You said it to the servants. You said it loudly enough that half the castle has heard it by now, loudly enough that it has become a common jest in the kitchens and the stables and the barracks. The Princess, the woman carrying my heir, the future Queen of the Seven Kingdoms, and you reduced her to a punchline for stable boys and scullery maids." Valarr leaned forward another inch, and his voice dropped to a low and dangerous murmur. "Did you think I did not know?"
Jeyne's mouth opened and closed like a fish gasping for water on the deck of a ship. Her grey eyes were wide now, the defiance draining out of them and being replaced by something that looked very much like fear. Beside her, Lady Mariene had gone still, her dark eyes fixed on the floor with the intensity of a woman who was trying very hard to become invisible and failing. Lady Alia continued to sob, her shoulders heaving, her breath coming in short and panicked gasps that were growing more desperate by the moment.
"I knew," Valarr said, and his voice was almost gentle now, almost kind. "I knew everything. I knew about the cold baths and the colder stares. I knew about the gowns that were deliberately ill-fitting, the ones you ordered from the seamstress with measurements that were slightly wrong, slightly too small, slightly designed to make her feel ungainly and enormous and grotesque. I knew about the meals that arrived late and cold and unappetizing, the ones you personally intercepted from the kitchens and delayed until they were barely edible. I knew about the fire that was never stoked in her chambers, the one you told the servants to neglect because Her Grace preferred the cold, because Her Grace was accustomed to discomfort. I knew about every whispered insult and every cruel comment and every moment of quiet and systematic torture you inflicted on my wife since the beginning." He paused, and his lips curved into a smile that was not a smile at all. "The only reason you were permitted to continue was because it served my purposes."
The words fell into the silence like stones into still water. Jeyne's face went from pale to grey to a sickly and mottled white. Mariene's hands began to tremble so violently that her chains rattled against the stone floor. Even Alia's sobs faltered and died, her bruised and swollen face lifting in shock and confusion and the dawning of a horror so vast it seemed to swallow every other emotion in the room.
"Your purposes?" Jeyne whispered, and her voice was barely audible, barely a breath. "What do you mean, your purposes?"
"My wife was a woman who had been stripped of her family and her name and her future and given to me as a prize of war, a spoil of victory, a living symbol of my family's triumph over hers. She had no reason to trust me. No reason to love me. No reason to seek comfort in my arms. Why would she? I was her captor. I was her enemy. I was the man who had taken everything from her and given her nothing in return but a cold bed and a colder marriage." Valarr leaned back in his chair, his expression cool and calculating, a scholar examining a particularly interesting specimen. "But she needed someone. She was alone in a castle full of enemies, surrounded by people who hated her and feared her and wished her nothing but ill. She needed someone to turn to. Someone to protect her. Someone to hold her when the cruelty became too much to bear."
He smiled. It was not a pleasant smile. It was the smile of a predator who had just finished explaining to his prey exactly how it had been hunted.
"You pushed her toward me. Every time you made her feel small and worthless and utterly and completely alone in a world that wanted her dead. You pushed her closer to the only person in this castle who showed her any kindness, any warmth, any hint of human decency." His mismatched eyes glittered in the firelight like chips of colored glass. "You were useful. Your cruelty was useful. Every barb you planted in her heart was a barb I could remove. Every wound you inflicted was a wound I could tend. Every tear you caused was a tear I could wipe away. You were the villains of her story, and I was the hero, and she fell into my arms night after night because I was the only safe harbor in a sea of enemies you created for me."
He paused and tilted his head, studying their faces with an expression of mild curiosity.
"I should thank you, really. Without your assistance, she might never have let me touch her. Might never have let me hold her. Might never have opened her heart enough to let me plant my child inside her. You helped me win my wife, Lady Jeyne. You and Lady Mariene and Lady Alia and all the other petty and vicious little women who thought they were hurting her when they were really helping me. I am in your debt."
Mariene made a small and choked sound, something between a gasp and a sob. Jeyne looked as if she had been struck across the face with a mailed fist. Alia had stopped crying entirely, her bruised and swollen face frozen in an expression of absolute and dawning horror.
"But tonight," Valarr continued, and his voice hardened, and the cold and calculated amusement drained out of it and left nothing but iron. "Tonight you forgot your place. You forgot that you were tools, useful tools but tools nonetheless, and you began to believe that you mattered. You began to believe that your petty vendettas and your small ambitions were more important than the health and safety of my wife and my unborn child. You threatened my child."
He rose from his chair. The movement was slow and deliberate and predatory, the movement of a wolf uncoiling from its crouch. He walked around the desk and stopped before the three kneeling women, looking down at them with an expression of utter and absolute contempt, the kind of contempt a man might feel for something he had found stuck to the bottom of his boot.
"You actually believed I would side with you. With three vicious and scheming and insignificant little women from insignificant little houses. Over my wife. Over the woman carrying my heir. Over the future of House Targaryen and everything I have worked for since the day I was born." He shook his head slowly, and his voice dropped to a whisper. "You are even stupider than I thought. And I thought you were very stupid indeed."
"Your Grace, please." Jeyne's voice cracked on the words, and the defiance was gone now, replaced by a desperation that was almost feral. "Please, we never meant any harm to the child. We never touched her. We only said words. Words are not crimes. Words are not treason. You cannot punish us for words."
"Words are not crimes." Valarr repeated the phrase as if he found it genuinely amusing. "Words are not crimes. That is what you are going with. That is your defense." He crouched down in front of her, bringing his face level with hers, and Jeyne recoiled as if she had been burned. "Let me explain something to you, Lady Jeyne, since you seem to be laboring under a fundamental misunderstanding of how the world works. Words are the most dangerous weapons in existence. Words start wars. Words topple dynasties. Words convince men to march into battle and women to drink poison and children to carry daggers into the beds of kings. Words are not crimes? Words are the root of every crime that has ever been committed. And your words, Lady Jeyne, your words and Lady Mariene's words and Lady Alia's words, have been poison dripping into my wife's ear for moons. Your words almost killed my child tonight. The maester himself told me that the distress you caused put both mother and babe at grave risk. So do not tell me that words are not crimes. Your words are treason, and you will answer for them with your lives."
He rose to his feet and turned away from them, walking toward the four Kingsguard standing against the wall. The men straightened as he approached, their faces carefully blank, their eyes fixed on some point in the middle distance. But he could see the fear in them. He could smell it, sharp and acrid in the warm air of the study. They were right to be afraid.
"Ser Eddard of the Crossing," he said, stopping before the first man. The knight was young, barely five and twenty, with a boyish face that had not yet grown into the hard lines of middle age. "You have served the Kingsguard for three years. You swore a vow to protect the royal family with your life."
"Yes, Your Grace." Ser Eddard's voice was steady, but there was a tremor beneath it, a faint and fluttering thing that he could not quite suppress. "I swore that vow. I have tried to uphold it."
"Then explain to me why, when my wife, my pregnant wife, carrying the heir to the Iron Throne, was in distress and bleeding and terrified, you dragged her through the corridors like a common criminal and locked her in a cold tower room without a fire and without a maester and without a single servant to attend to her needs. Explain to me why you left her there for hours, alone and weeping and convinced that she was going to lose everything. Explain to me how that is upholding your vow."
Ser Eddard's jaw tightened. A bead of sweat rolled down his temple and disappeared into the collar of his white armor. "Your Grace, Lady Jeyne instructed us to remove the Princess from the room. She said the Princess had gone mad. She said the Princess had attacked Lady Alia without provocation and was a danger to everyone present. We believed we were acting to protect the other ladies from harm. We believed we were doing our duty."
"Lady Jeyne." Valarr's voice was flat and cold and utterly without mercy. "You took orders from Lady Jeyne. A minor lady in waiting with no authority and no rank and no power over the Kingsguard. A woman whose entire claim to importance is that she married a minor lord who died twenty years ago and left her with nothing but a widow's pension and a burning resentment of everyone who has more than she does. You took orders from her instead of using your own judgment to protect the Princess of the Blood."
"Your Grace, the Princess was covered in blood, she was screaming, she had struck Lady Alia repeatedly with a silver hairbrush. We believed she was a danger to the other ladies, to herself, perhaps even to her unborn child. We thought we were containing a dangerous situation."
"She was seven moons pregnant." Valarr's voice was low and cold and utterly without pity. "She was seven moons pregnant, and she weighed less than any of you in full armor, and she was armed with nothing but a hairbrush. A hairbrush, Ser Eddard. A silver handle and some bristles. And you believed she was a danger. You believed you needed to restrain her. You believed you needed to drag her, drag her across the stone floors and up a flight of stairs, and lock her away like a mad dog in a kennel."
Ser Eddard said nothing. His face had gone very pale, and the sweat was running freely down his temples now.
"Your duty was to protect her. Your duty was to die for her if necessary. Your duty was to throw yourself between her and any threat, no matter how small or how large, and defend her with your life. That is the vow you swore. That is the oath you took. And instead, you became the threat. You became the thing she needed protection from." Valarr stepped back, his gaze sweeping over the four men with utter and absolute contempt. "You are a disgrace to your white cloaks. All four of you. You are a disgrace to your vows and to the memory of every Kingsguard who came before you and to the institution that gave you purpose and honor and meaning. You failed my wife. You failed my child. You failed me. And you will answer for it."
He turned and walked back toward his desk. Behind him, the three women were still weeping, Alia's sobs having dissolved into a low and keening wail that seemed to come from somewhere deep inside her chest. Jeyne was crying silently now, the tears tracking down her weathered cheeks and dripping onto the torn silk of her gown. Mariene had closed her eyes and was rocking back and forth slightly, her lips moving in a prayer that would not be answered.
Valarr stopped beside his chair and turned to face the room. His hand rested on the back of the chair, his fingers drumming lightly against the dark wood. The firelight cast long shadows across his face, emphasizing the sharp planes of his jaw and the hard line of his mouth and the cold and implacable fury in his mismatched eyes.
"I have spent the past several hours thinking about what to do with all of you," he said, and his voice was calm now, measured and deliberate, the voice of a man who had made his decisions and was merely explaining them for the record. "I considered the dungeons. The Black Cells beneath this castle, where traitors and murderers and the worst scum of the Seven Kingdoms are left to rot in darkness until they forget what sunlight looks like. I considered exile, sending you across the narrow sea to live out your days in poverty and obscurity and the knowledge that you will never see your homelands again. I considered execution, a quick and merciful death by the headsman's axe, which is frankly more than any of you deserve. I considered many things."
He paused, letting the silence stretch. The women had stopped weeping now, their faces lifted toward him in desperate and horrified anticipation. The guards stood rigid against the wall, their faces pale and sweating.
"Lady Alia spoke of my child being smothered in the cradle. She spoke of my wife being cast aside like garbage. She spoke of House Targaryen's heir as if it were an abomination to be destroyed, a mistake to be corrected, a stain to be washed clean from the bloodline." Valarr's voice was very quiet now, almost gentle. "There is only one punishment for threatening the life of a royal heir. Only one punishment for treason against the Crown. Only one punishment for conspiring to murder an unborn child of House Targaryen."
Alia's sobs turned into a scream. A high and piercing wail that echoed off the stone walls and made the torches flicker in their sconces. She threw herself forward, her bound hands reaching toward Valarr in desperate supplication, her bruised and swollen face twisted with a terror that was almost inhuman.
"No! No, please, Your Grace, please, I didn't mean it, I was angry, I was upset, I didn't know what I was saying, I was humiliated and I wanted to hurt someone and she was there and I said things I didn't mean, I swear I didn't mean them, I would never hurt a child, I would never hurt your child, please, please, please—"
"You knew exactly what you were saying." Valarr's voice was cold and utterly without pity. He looked down at her with an expression that bordered on disgust, the expression of a man who had found something foul and was trying to decide whether to crush it under his heel or simply walk away. "You meant every single word. You wanted to hurt her. You wanted to frighten her. You wanted to make her believe that her child would be murdered and she would be powerless to stop it. You wanted to see her break. You wanted to see her weep. You wanted to see her on her knees, begging for a mercy you had no intention of giving."
He crouched down in front of her, bringing his face level with hers, and Alia recoiled so violently that she nearly fell over.
"You are not sorry you said it. You are sorry you are being punished for it. There is a difference, Lady Alia, and I have been alive long enough to know it. You are not a good person who made a mistake. You are a cruel and petty and vicious little girl who finally went too far and got caught. And now you will face the consequences."
"Please. Please, I'll do anything. I'll leave the castle. I'll go back to the Reach. I'll join the Silent Sisters. I'll never speak to anyone again. I'll never leave my chambers. I'll never look at anyone. I'll do anything, anything at all, just please don't kill me. Please don't—"
"You will never speak to anyone again." Valarr rose to his feet and turned to the guards standing behind the women. His men. The men he had handpicked for their loyalty and their competence and their willingness to follow orders without question. "Take them to the Black Cells. All three of them. They will await trial for treason against the Crown, conspiracy to harm a royal heir, and attempted murder of an unborn child. The evidence is clear. The witnesses are numerous. The verdict is a foregone conclusion. They will be found guilty, and they will be executed, and their names will be struck from every record and their families will be informed that they died in disgrace."
"Attempted murder!" Jeyne's voice was shrill with disbelief, her composure finally and utterly shattered. She lunged forward against her chains, her grey eyes wild and desperate. "We never touched her child! We never laid a hand on her! We said words, nothing but words, and you cannot execute noblewomen for words, you cannot, the King will never allow it, the council will never allow it, our families will demand justice—"
"Your families will do nothing." Valarr's voice was iron. "Your families will be grateful that I am only executing you and not stripping them of their lands and titles for raising such treacherous and disloyal daughters. Your families will disown you and forget you ever existed. Your families are already composing the letters of apology they will send to me, begging for forgiveness and assuring me that they had no knowledge of your crimes." He smiled, and it was the coldest smile any of them had ever seen. "I know this because I have already sent riders to your families. The letters will arrive by morning. By the time the sun sets tomorrow, your own fathers will have condemned you."
Jeyne's face went slack with horror. Mariene let out a low and keening moan. Alia had stopped screaming and was now weeping silently, her whole body shaking with the force of her sobs.
The guards moved forward and hauled the women to their feet. Jeyne was shouting now, her voice rising into incoherent rage, curses and threats and desperate pleas all mingling together into a stream of noise that made no sense. Mariene was weeping silently, her face blank with shock, her body limp and unresisting in the guards' grip. Alia was still begging, her voice hoarse and cracked and barely audible, her bruised and swollen face turned toward Valarr with an expression of desperate and hopeless entreaty.
Valarr watched them go with an expression of utter indifference. When the door closed behind them and their screams faded into the distance, he turned to the four Kingsguard still standing against the wall.
"As for you."
Ser Eddard flinched. Ser Humfrey's jaw tightened. Ser Benedict met Valarr's eyes with the stoic acceptance of a man who had already made his peace with whatever was coming. Ser Ormund was trembling, his big hands shaking at his sides, his face pale and sweating.
"The four of you will be stripped of your white cloaks tonight. You will be dismissed from the Kingsguard in disgrace. Your names will be struck from the White Book and never spoken again in the presence of any member of the royal family. Your swords will be broken. Your spurs will be melted down. Your armor will be sold for scrap and the proceeds given to the poorest beggars in Flea Bottom, so that something useful might come of your worthless service."
He paused and turned to face Ser Ormund directly. The big man shrank back against the wall, his eyes wide with terror.
"Ser Ormund of the Blackwater. You put your hands on my wife. You left bruises on her arms. You dragged her through the corridors while she wept and begged you to stop. For that, the Wall is not enough. Exile is not enough. You will lose your sword hand before you leave this castle. The hand that touched her. The hand that bruised her. I will take it myself if necessary, or I will have the King's Justice do it, but that hand will not leave this room attached to your body."
Ser Ormund made a sound that was somewhere between a gasp and a sob. His face had gone grey, and his hands, his big and powerful hands, were shaking uncontrollably.
"Your Grace, please, I was only following orders, I never meant to harm her, I have served faithfully for fifteen years—"
"You served faithfully until the moment you decided that a lady-in-waiting's orders mattered more than your vow to protect the royal family. You served faithfully until the moment you put your hands on a pregnant princess and dragged her away from her chambers like a common criminal. Your faithful service ended the moment you became the threat you were sworn to defend against." Valarr's voice was cold and final. "Be grateful I am only taking your hand. There was a moment tonight, a long moment, when I considered taking your head."
Ser Ormund's legs gave out. He sank to his knees, his chains clanking against the stone floor, and his shoulders heaved with silent sobs. The other three guards stood frozen, their faces pale and sweating and utterly without hope.
"You will all be sent to the Wall. You will take the black and spend the rest of your lives freezing in the shadow of that great and terrible monument to the failures of men. You will stand guard against wildlings and worse, and you will do it without honor and without glory and without your names. You will be forgotten. You will be nothing. And every cold and miserable night you spend on that Wall, I want you to remember why you are there. I want you to remember my wife's face. I want you to remember the bruises on her arms and the tears on her cheeks. I want you to remember that you failed her, and that this is the price of your failure."
He stepped back and nodded to the loyal guards who remained.
"Take them away. Take Ser Ormund to the yard and have the King's Justice remove his hand. Bind the wound and send him to the Wall with the others. They leave tonight. I want them gone before dawn."
The guards moved forward. Ser Eddard went quietly, his face blank with shock. Ser Humfrey walked with the stiff and rigid posture of a man who was barely holding himself together. Ser Benedict paused at the door and turned back to look at Valarr with an expression that was almost respectful.
When the door closed behind them, the sound of his weeping still audible in the corridor beyond, Valarr stood alone in the study. The fire had burned down to nothing but embers, casting long and flickering shadows across the stone walls. The desk was littered with papers, his harbor proposal and his council notes and the mundane detritus of a prince's daily life. But he did not see any of it.
He saw his wife's face. Her tear streaked cheeks. Her bruised knuckles. Her trembling hands clutching at his doublet as she begged him not to punish her. As if she could ever do anything that would make him punish her. As if she did not know that she was the most precious thing in his world, the center around which everything else revolved, the only person who had ever made him feel something other than cold and calculated ambition.
He thought of the way she had curled against him in the bed, her swollen belly pressed against his stomach, her breath warm against his throat. He thought of the way she had whispered his name like a prayer. He thought of the way she had finally, finally stopped trembling after hours of terror and grief. He thought of the way she had trusted him enough to fall asleep in his arms, her hand resting on her belly, their child safe inside her.
He had done that. He had made her feel safe. He had taken her terror and her grief and her desperate and consuming fear, and he had replaced them with warmth and comfort and the promise of protection. It was the most satisfying thing he had ever done, more satisfying than any victory in the council chamber or any political maneuvering or any of the thousand small triumphs that made up a prince's life.
He had protected her. He would always protect her. And anyone who threatened her would suffer the same fate as the women who were even now being dragged to the Black Cells and the guards who were being marched to the yard to face the King's Justice.
He crossed to the hearth and watched the embers glow, orange and red and gold. The white cloaks of the disgraced Kingsguard lay in a heap on the floor near the door, and he would burn them himself before the night was over. He would watch the white fabric blacken and curl and turn to ash, and he would imagine that each flame was consuming a little bit more of the people who had hurt his wife.
Mine, he thought. Both of them. Mine. My wife. My child. My family. And no one will ever hurt them again. No one will ever threaten them again. No one will ever make my wife weep or my child tremble or my family feel unsafe in the castle that is supposed to be their home.
He smiled into the dying fire. It was the smile of a dragon who had just reminded the world why dragons were feared, and somewhere in the castle, his wife was sleeping in a warm bed, her hand on her belly, their child safe inside her. And tomorrow, she would wake to a world that was a little bit cleaner. A little bit safer. A little bit more worthy of her.
He would make certain of it. He would spend the rest of his life making certain of it.
He picked up the white cloaks and fed them to the flames.
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SO !!! heavy formatting + editing still needed. it’s not getting done tonight, but here is the FINAL WARNING LIST !!! until tomorrow pls use ur imagination lol