Kay Crouse

Kay's Shifting Masterlist:

I'll be adding to this whenever I can.

♡My Shifting Journey

Kay's Asks:

Feel free to Ask me whatever you want! (Within reason and basic dni criteria, of course)

♡Tips for New Shifters

Scripts/DR's:

♡My Main DC DR

♡My First Day in my DCxDP DR

♡My Young Justice DC DR

♡My Stardew Valley DR

♡My New Minecraft DR

To the boy who never gave up:

You are so much more loved than you could ever comprehend. You have accomplished so many incredible things you could only have ever dreamt of. All those days and nights spent refining your journey. All those seemingly failed attempts, all those mini experiences, they all led up to you living. Living the best existence you could only have ever dreamt about before. All those nights you spent trying, all those times you spent crying. It was all worth it, to be in this moment. You got this, you know?

Love, the man who never gave up.

❘༻༺❘Tips for New Shifters:❘༻༺❘

Okay, so I have been wanting to make a post like this for a while anyway, so thank you for asking Anon! ♡

I might eventually make a masterlist of all of my asks if I get more of them!👀

I've been shifting since September 2020 and have shifted/mini-shifted 90+ times at this point, and I've gone through A LOT of different phases during my journey. I've been the 'baby shifter' who had absolutely no idea what he was doing at first for a while, I've been the person who believed way too much of the misinformation that was going around in 2020, I've obsessed over methods, symptoms, subliminals, numbers, days, everythingggg, and I've also gotten to the point where I don't really need most of that anymore.

So here are some things that I REALLY wish somebody had told me when I was just first starting out.

First of all:

You do NOT need to know everything before you shift. Seriously, I know how tempting it all is to go down the rabbit hole and read literally EVERYTHING about shifting before you even attempt it. I did that too. I wanted to know every method, every symptom, every possible thing that could ever potentially happen, every piece of terminology, every little detail. You don't need to know it all.

You can literally just decide that you're going to shift and that's it.

You don't need a perfect script.

You don't need a specific method.

You don't need subliminals.

You don't need to lie in a specific position.

You don't need to count to a certain number.

You don't need to experience symptoms.

You don't need to enter a void state.

You don't need to visualize perfectly.

You don't need to be completely relaxed.

And you definitely don't need to do some complicated 45-step method that somebody made on TikTok. Methods are just TOOLS. They aren't requirements.

I mainly use the Intention/Intend method, and Lucid Dreaming now, but I've tried a LOT of methods throughout my journey. Raven, Eye, Alice in Wonderland, Heartbeat, Julia, Pillow Holding/cudling method, etc...

Some worked better for me than others, some made me uncomfortable, some gave me symptoms, some got me into really deep states, some did basically nothing. And that's completely okay!

Experiment!!!

Find what feels natural to !!YOU!! instead of forcing yourself to use whatever method happens to be popular.

❘༻༺❘PLEASE STOP CHASING SYMPTOMS❘༻༺❘

This is one of the biggest things I would tell a new shifter.

You don't need tingling.

You don't need spinning.

You don't need to feel like you're floating.

You don't need to feel heavy.

You don't need to feel vibrations.

You don't need to hear things.

You don't need to see flashing lights.

You don't need to feel your DR around you.

And you don't need to experience some dramatic “OMG I'M SHIFTING!!!” moment. I've had attempts where I experienced a bunch of weird sensations and nothing happened. I've also had experiences that were extremely unexpected.

My first mini-shift with the Eye Method literally happened while I was at HIGHSCHOOL after taking a TEST. 😭 It was completely unexpected and honestly really disorienting.

So don't sit there thinking:

“I'm not feeling anything, therefore I'm failing or nothing is happening.”

You're not failing and something is happening.

You are allowed to just simply try.

❘༻༺❘DON'T TURN SHIFTING INTO A CHORE❘༻༺❘

I did this, unfortunately. At one point I was literally counting every single day of my shifting journey and writing down what I had done every day like “Day 179 of knowing about and trying reality shifting, this and that happened…” and it became so exhausting and was just simply so unnecessary.

Shifting is something I enjoy, so turning it into another thing I HAD to accomplish every single day just made me stressed out.

TAKE BREAKS!!

Taking a break does NOT mean you've failed.

Taking a break does NOT erase your progress.

Taking a break does NOT mean you are “going backwards.”

I actually took a break for so long in my early journey and it helped me SO much. After that, I started shifting more frequently. Sometimes you need to step away from something because you're thinking about it too much. Go play a game, watch a movie, go outside, draw, talk to your friends, work on your hobbies, sleep, and just LIVE.

You don't have to spend every waking moment trying to shift.

❘༻༺❘DON'T PUT A DEADLINE ON YOURSELF❘༻༺❘

This one is HUGE.

Please don't convince yourself that:

“I HAVE to shift tonight.”

“I need to shift before this date.”

“Everyone else shifted faster than me.”

“It's been X amount of days, why hasn't it happened?”

Your journey is !!YOUR!! journey!!

My first full shift happened 18 days after I discovered shifting. That doesn't mean someone else needs to shift within 18 days. Someone else's timeline isn't a timer for you. I've had periods where my shifts happened only a few days apart. I've had periods where they were weeks apart. I've also had periods where MONTHS and even YEARS passed between shifts.

And yes, it frustrated me, A LOT to be honest and it still does. But I eventually became much calmer about it. Time doesn't determine whether you're capable of shifting.

❘༻༺❘YOU ARE ALLOWED TO HAVE DOUBTS❘༻༺❘

I see new shifters constantly worrying that if they have one doubtful or negative thought that they've ruined everything. You haven't.

You're a human being, you can believe in shifting and still have a random “what if?” thought. You can be excited and nervous, you can have a bad attempt, you can get frustrated, you can even take a break.

None of that automatically means you've failed.

Don't turn your own thoughts into some kind of enemy that you have to constantly monitor.

❘༻༺❘BE CAREFUL WITH SHIFTING INFORMATION ONLINE❘༻༺❘

PLEASE!

There is so much information online and not all of it is reliable. I was literally a victim of 2020 Shifttok misinformation for the longest time.😭

There were so many things I thought were necessary that I eventually realized weren't necessary for me or anyone else at all.

So when somebody online tells you:

“You HAVE to do this.”

“You CAN'T do that.”

“This is the ONLY way.”

“You MUST experience this symptom.”

“You can't shift unless you believe perfectly.”

“You have to drink this much water.”

“You have to sleep in this position.”

“You can only shift using this method.”

PLEASE remember that you're reading another person's experience or belief. Take what resonates, experiment for yourself. And don't let somebody else's rules become your rules just because they wrote them confidently on the internet.

❘༻༺❘YOUR DR DOESN'T HAVE TO BE PERFECT❘༻༺❘

You don't need a 500-page script. You don't need to script every single conversation. You don't need to know every single detail about your DR before you go there. You can script as much or as little as you want.

I personally LOVE scripting and documenting things because I enjoy it, but that's different from believing I need to do it.

A script is for YOU. Make it fun, make it pretty. Make a ridiculous amount of details if that's what you enjoy, or write three sentences and go, both are okay.

❘༻༺❘DON'T COMPARE YOUR EXPERIENCES TO OTHER SHIFTERS❘༻༺❘

This one can really mess with you. Someone says they shifted on their first attempt. Someone else says they shifted for six months. Someone has 100+ shifts. Someone only has one. Someone remembers everything. Someone else barely remembers anything. Someone shifts awake. Someone shifts through dreams. Someone uses intention. Someone uses a method. Someone else doesn't use anything. That doesn't mean that you're doing something wrong. Your journey is going to look different from theirs. Mine certainly didn't look like how I expected it to.

❘༻༺❘AND FINALLY... DON'T FORGET TO HAVE FUN!♡❘༻༺❘

I think this is probably my biggest tip.

Don't let the shifting community convince you that you have to make this complicated. You discovered something that you find interesting and exciting. Explore it, learn, experiment, have weird experiences, make scripts for worlds you love, make playlists, visualize your DR if you can and want to, journal if you enjoy journaling, listen to music, try lucid dreaming, try methods, don't try methods, take breaks and then come back.

Figure out what works for YOU.

And most importantly, don't give up just because your journey doesn't look like somebody else's.

I started out knowing basically nothing. I had to research so much of this myself, and one of the biggest reasons of why I started helping other people in the first place was because when I was a “baby/new shifter,” I remember asking questions and not getting any answers. I didn't want other people to have to go through that.

I've learned SO much since 2020, and I'm still learning. I'm still experimenting, I'm still having experiences that I don't completely or fully understand, and I'm still figuring things out.

You don't have to be an expert to start.

You just have to start.

And if you have questions, ASK. ♡

There are no stupid questions.

Just remember that I'm sharing what I've personally learned and experienced. I'm not some all-knowing shifting god who has every answer to everything.😭

I've shifted a lot, but I'm still just a person learning alongside everyone else.

Good luck on your shifting journeys!! ♡

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I just wanted to build a cottage and somehow ended up building a whole ass kingdom and dating Herobrine.

Okay so i've been daydreaming about this minecraft dr for way too long lately and I think I actually need to write the whole concept down because there is SO much going on in my head. This is essentially me scripting this dr fanficy-cringe-style. To be cringe is to be free or whatever. Lmao XD.

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The basic premise is that I shift (obviously) and wake up in the middle of a completely unfamiliar forest with absolutely nothing. No house, no tools, no armor, no food, I essentially want the beginning to actually feel like survival minecraft at first. I'm going to gather wood (prob take forever to punch a tree as I figure shit out ngl), make my first crafting table (which I might end up feeling sentimental over as well), make stone tools, find somewhere safe to settle, build a tiny shelter, start a farm and figure out food, explore caves (if I gain the courage that is), etc. and i'm keeping my first ever crafting table forever cause that is gonna be like a “where it all started” momento that I'll look back onto one day, who knows, I'm already like that in the game in my cr. I'm also vegetarian, so one of the first things that i'm going to establish is a proper farm: wheat, carrots, potatoes, beetroot, pumpkins, melons, berries, whatever else I can grow, I kinda wanna script in some other types of foods/plants as well like blueberries, strawberries, fruit trees and whatnot. I don't technically need to eat in this dr for reasons related to my other drs, but I'm going to keep eating anyway because I want to actually live like a normal person for a bit and not immediately have everyone wondering why this random guy never eats, I gotta keep up appearances, ya know?

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I have access to a creative inventory, BUT it isn't unlocked immediately. I start out basically in survival mode and gradually unlock more abilities as I progress. Eventually I can access more materials, more blocks, more storage space, flight, basically the whole creative mode experience, and eventually I'm pretty much creative god mode. BUT. I'm keeping that shit SECRET. I'm just going to act normal. If I need something from creative mode I'll just quietly use it when nobody is around or looking and continue pretending that i'm just a really dedicated introverted builder. Lmao, which is especially funny because there is apparently a legend or prophecy or something about a “Creator.” The people of this world have heard stories about a person who will eventually appear who can create things that shouldn't be possible, reshape the world, and supposedly save everyone from whatever disaster is coming, who knows what that could be tbh. And meanwhile i'm just in the woods building a cottage and thinking about what kind of blocks I wanna build with. Idk why this whole idea intrigues me so much but its the cards that I have been dealt, lol.

I don't want to save the world.

I don't want to fulfill a prophecy.

I don't want to become some chosen hero.

I just want to build my own kingdom because building shit is fun, lol.

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So every few weeks some random adventurers are going to wander into my territory like

“WHAT IS THIS??? THIS WASN'T HERE BEFORE???”

And then they're going to ask me where the Creator is, and i'm just going to stand there like

“Creator? no idea. haven't seen him. Anyways would you like directions out of the forest?”

And this is going to happen CONSTANTLY. I also feel like there might be some issues of not having permits to build and most people not being allowed to build whatever they want cause of some sort of icky government that sucks and doesn't want there to be whimsy or some out of control builders I guess, which is kinda fair and makes sense but also sucks. So I'll prob have some issues with some people of importance or whatever showing up with issues that an entire kingdom was built without anyone knowing and its probably some sort of violation of some sort but tbh I don't really care. Like what are they gonna do? Stop me? Lmfao. Goodluck.

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Eventually there are going to be scholars, adventurers, treasure hunters, royal people, guards, basically everyone trying to track down this mysterious Creator while the Creator himself is standing directly in front of them trying to convince them that he (me) doesn't exist. Bahaha! My kingdom is going to start as basically nothing and gradually become this huge place with a cottage or two, lots of farms, gardens, roads, bridges, workshops, houses, villages (I'd love some villagers/people to move in eventually as well), and a huge ass castle which I'll probably model after my DC DR infinite realms castle. And also probably way too many decorative useless things and lots of flowers and whatnot that I feel like building. Whenever I play minecraft in my CR I usually do the same builds over and over again, so I'd like to try out those builds in this dr as well and eventually make like a full-on kingdom, for funsies, ya know? Ah yes, it'll all come together. I do think it'll be a lot of work though, but I'm planning on staying there for months at a time and building things up slowly. So I think it'll be finneeee. I want it to feel like somewhere i'd actually want to live as well and come back to a lot.

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And then there's the mobs, and for some reason they don't seem to really bother me. At first they obviously still freak me out because zombies and skeletons are actually terrifying when you're physically there, and i've already shifted to minecraft once before and experienced being attacked by a cave spider, unfortunately, so i'm not going to pretend i'm immediately immortal. But eventually I notice that the mobs aren't really interested in attacking me. Zombies will come near me and then just...leave. Skeletons don't shoot at me. Spiders don't bother me. (Thank the Ancients) Endermen might look at me but don't actually attack. (Endermen are my fav mob in the game)

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Now onto Herobrine. (Childhood me had a crush on him and the amount of minecraft herobrine X reader or whatever fanfics I read on wattpad was hilarious looking back on it now, it still feels a little cringe, don't judge me okay. XD) Aka the Mob King.

He's basically the immortal ruler of the monsters/Nether. Also he can't die, can fly, controls the mobs, has his own equivalent of creative abilities, and is basically this villain everyone is terrified of. (He doesn't have the creative mode inventory though, only I do which gives me a one up on him, lol)

He's been alone for a very, very long time. Then suddenly there's this random new guy living in the woods who the mobs ALSO refuse to attack. And he has no idea why, so obviously... he starts watching me. Stalker vibes ngl.

I'll catch glimpses of glowing white eyes between the trees, maybe see someone standing on a mountain in the distance,

footprints that shouldn't be there cause again I'm the only one in the Forrest at the time and it's pretty far from the nearest kingdom. (I'd say like 5 hours away on foot, eh maybe)

And I KNOW he's watching me, I can sense presences, I think? But I don't let him know. I just keep pretending that I don't notice, eventually one night i'm sitting outside beside my campfire with my back turned toward the forest and i'm just like: “You know I can sense you, right?” and there is this LONG silence. Then: "You can come sit down if you want.” and that is basically how I meet Herobrine properly. The relationship is going to be a VERY slow burn. (Why do I make myself suffer with slowburns???)

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Anyways, at first he's curious about me. Then fascinated. Then attached. Then completely obsessed over me. Really leaning into the villian would do anything for you vibes. Cause why not? Because from his perspective I'm this mysterious new guy who somehow has abilities that shouldn't exist, who doesn't fear him, doesn't treat him like a monster, doesn't want anything from him, and who spends most of his time happily building things. (I might get frustrated building certain things at some points tbh but that could be part of the fun, who knows?) He eventually starts questioning whether i'm actually the Creator as time goes on cause i'm making WAY too much stuff without gathering the required or enough materials. And I'm like carrying things that shouldn't fit in my inventory, in a way where he'd see me pick up a spesific amount of different items but then I pick up more than what is possible for their world and the math just isn't mathing, lol. And I'm building entire structures seemingly overnight, but he almost never sees me mining. (Although I do wanna do lots of mining at the 'start' of my dr cause I don't immediately 'unlock' creative mode inventory and abilities so I'd like to still experience the fun of mining 'normally' like in survival mode.)

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So eventually he's just going to straight-up ask me: "Are you the Creator?” And i'm going to have to deal with that, like: “...yeah.” and he's going to be like “YOU'RE THE CREATOR?” and i'm just going to sigh and explain that yes, I am the person everyone is looking for, but that I genuinely do not want the responsibility.

I don't want worship.

I don't want kingdoms begging me to save them.

I don't want prophecies.

I don't want to be the chosen one.

I just want to LIVE.

I want my little kingdom.

I want to build a castle.

I want gardens.

I want farms.

I want animals.

I want to make pretty bridges for absolutely no reason.

I want to wake up and decide what i'm building that day. And I think that completely messes with Herobrine's worldview, because how can someone with more power than basically anyone in the world want something so incredibly ordinary? And from that point onward he basically decides that if that's what I want... he's going to make sure that I get it. Which is where the whole villain x creator thing really kicks in, because tbh i'm morally grey as hell in most drs. I'm not like evil, I usually go the vigilante route, but i'm also not going to run around saving everyone just because some prophecy says I should. And Herobrine is MUCH more willing to deal with problems violently than I am. I don't want people dying because they tried to get to me, cause I'd rather talk things out first, I feel a bit too confident that I can handle things diplomatically first cause that's how I handle things in my dc dr a lot. So herobrine's response to that is basically: “WHAT? YOU WANT ME TO JUST LET THEM HURT YOU?” and when that happens its when it becomes VERY obvious that his feelings are getting involved, cause he doesn't just want to protect me because i'm this important being or whatever, he wants to protect me because i'm ME. Which is pretty sweet, actually, ngl.

And eventually I think the funniest recurring problem is going to be random adventurers and kingdoms constantly coming after me. Like I'll be doing absolutely nothing or be building and some random group might show up, I can see it happening something like this:

Them: “WE SEEK THE CREATOR.”

Me: “never heard of him.”

Them: “There are rumors he's somewhere in this kingdom.”

Me: “Man, idk what to tell you. That's crazy.”

herobrine watching from the forest:🤨

Eventually even Herobrine is going to be like:

“Aren't you tired of this? you need better security. I can send my monsters.” and I'll be like

“nah it's fine.” and he'll be like "they're bothering you.” me: “they all leave eventually, It's finnneeee.” “I could send a horde of zombies.” “NO.” pfft.

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And then eventually some royal king's prick of a guard is going to show up on a freaking white horse, accuse me of hiding the creator not realizing that I am him, see herobrine standing there, and immediately assume the creator has been kidnapped and i'm just going to be SO done at that point probably, so i'll just sigh and tell herobrine: “you deal with it.” and suddenly everyone is standing there realizing that wait. The Creator isn't being held captive and he was just standing in front of them and they'll assume that the creator, aka me, is working with Herobrine?? Except that's not even what is happening, not exactly anyways. I'm not some secret ally of the Mob King trying to destroy humanity. I'm literally just his boyfriend eventually.😭 But these kingdoms don't know that, so suddenly I find myself caught in the middle of a possible war that I never asked for because apparently being the Creator AND dating the world's most feared 'monster' is politically complicated and frowned upon by these people. Typical.

And Herobrine is going to be PISSED. Not cause he wants to conquer the world, because someone made ME annoyed, which is somehow MUCH more dangerous apparently.

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Also, I REALLY want to explore the End with him, cause I feel genuinely bad for the Ender Dragon.

Everyone comes to her home just to kill her for experience, take her egg as a trophy, and leave, only for her to eventually be resurrected like a Phoenix so somebody else can do it all over again???? So one day Herobrine and I are gonna go to the End to see her. And because mobs don't attack me, or him, she won't either. I'll walk up to her and she'll lower her head toward me cause idfk she senses my intentions or something? Who knows man. Shifting is infinite. And i'll put both of my hands against her face and press my forehead against hers because LOOK AT HER. She's beautiful.

She's literally a giant purple-and-black dragon and those are some of my favorite aesthetics and colors anyways. In most of my drs I am a black and purple color scheme in some way. So it fits me perfectly fr fr. And i'm going to be genuinely sad that everyone treats her like a boss fight instead of a living creature, cause I feel that way now too. Herobrine is going to stand behind me basically fuming because THIS is exactly why he hates the way humans treat monsters, and I'll just be standing there like: "I wish things didn't have to be like this.” which is basically the whole vibe of this DR tbh.

It's my 1 Year Anniversary on Tumblr!🥳

YESSSSS!! I LOVE Stardew Valley!!

Info:

All about my Main DC-DR

My first day in my main DC-DR

I wanted to make a post similar to the one that I made about my first day in my main DC-DR, but for my separate, but also somewhat connected, Young Justice DC-DR.

Important Disclaimer: I scripted most of these events, but a lot of details came to me via channelling / downloads / realizations over the years that I've had this DR. I want to make this post fun and creative so that I also enjoy the process of it, so I'm typing this kind of in like a fanfic/diary entry format because I just love doing that.

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How this DR starts:

One moment I’m in the infinite Realms, in my office, surrounded by scrolls, maps and all sorts of magical artifacts that need to be organized at some point, and then the next moment a portal opens above me and sucks me into it forcefully. Turns out Clockwork just… decided for me that I need to experience another part of this reality from a new perspective for some reason and send me on my merry way through a dimensional rift... jeez, thanks grandpa, very helpful, lol. Anyways, I’m still a little petty about being yanked and shoved into a new version of my life, but whatever. Clockwork is Chronos, my weird soul-chosen-grandfather who loves dramatic timing and gave me this push that I apparently needed. I grumbled at him in my head the whole way down.

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After The Portal:

I landed behind a covered wooden and painted fence near the beach on a sidewalk, hidden and mumbling curses, lol. I was still in my more casual Phantom form at first, white hair, fangs, glowing purple eyes, a general glow to my existence, all those great things, but I quickly had to transformed into my more casual and mortal form, black hair, blue eyes, casual clothes. Cause I sensed and heard someone approaching. That someone, was Kaldur, Aquaboy I believe.

The island which Mount Justice was on, was exactly like how I remembered it from the show. Very pretty too, the mountain in the background was MASSIVE. The Young Justice team was having a beach day nearby where I landed. Beast Boy was making a sandcastle and then running around as a green dog. Superboy and Miss Martian were playing volleyball; she was floating above the sand a bit. Kid Flash was running around the shoreline, and Tim was sunbathing with his usual shades on like the dramatic boy that he is, and Kaldur was just standing nearby where I fell. I made a thud noise when I fell behind the fence, cursed under my breath, and immediately started the most convincing clumsy human act of my afterlife in a panic, once Kaldur came over and saw me.

There was a brick, thank the Ancients that there was a displaced brick behind me. So, I threw my phone for the drama (a bit insane, but it worked, don't judge me), and then I fumbled when Kaldur came over. He asked me if I was okay and I did my best “I-am-an absolute-disaster-but-harmless” routine. My phone screen was cracked, I acted annoyed, pretended to be new to the area. Well, I was new to the area, while in my other main DC-DR I never really went to Mount Justice.

I asked for directions to my favourite cafe called Traveler’s Stop like I’d been planning to move here forever (which was… half true? I did plan to get an apartment there eventually). Kaldur was nice and pointed me toward the electronics store across the street first on my left and then gave me directions to the cafe like it was nothing. He said to go forward, then take the first left, then the first right, and across from the anime/comic mech store is Traveler's Stop on the left. So, I quickly thanked him and rushed off towards the electronics store first while he went back to the team and Tim asked who I was.

My enhanced hearing allowed me to hear them still. Kaldur just shrugged and said, “Some stranger in the sun.” Okay... Ouch. My ice core pulsed in a way that resembled heartache. In my other main Gotham DC-DR, Tim was always just so obsessed with me and borderline chaotic in the best/worst ways, always interested to learn more about my paranormal nature. Wanting to know everything about the Realms. Here? Nothing, at least at first. It was like a fresh slate. It hurt more than I thought it would. It was like going back in time and seeing the people you grew with for years and then suddenly them not knowing who you are and you having to act normal.

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The phone store was a mess of bright white, fluorescent lights and a fake customer service experience, I could tell the guy behind the counter didn't really care much to be there, but he did fix my phone screen, it wasn't cheap either, but money is never an issue for me in my DRs anyways. I then wandered towards and into the Traveler’s Stop Cafe like I owned the place, which I very well could have, tbh. The baristas were these two fairy-elf women, disguised as humans of course, they knew me in Realm's terms as the High Ghost King, it was like they could recognize my very presence, but I quickly shut down their ramblings and told them to call me either “Mr. Crouse” or “Sir” while in the mortal realm to maintain cover. They seemed really uncomfy about it, but an order from me is an order.

I ended up ordering my fav drink and sat down in the corner at a round table with a mixed berry freezo, it was divine tbh, and summoned my laptop like it was nothing from my pocket dimension, there was no one around after all at the time. Victor, my multiversal Lifa App AI assistant, appeared on the screen and started giving me updates of things going on around me, which I was very grateful for of course. I love Victor. He categorizes all of my chaos with the patience of an immortal parent and makes everything less terrifying while I'm experiencing any new realities that I shift to. The beach was still a mile away, but my intuition was buzzing like a phone on vibrate in my very core, making me aware of a threat that was about to show up.

Eventually, after quite a few minutes of using my laptop, the Young Justice Team show up at the same cafe and hang out for a while before chaos happened. I have this ability that lets me know whenever I am perceived, and I did notice a few eyes on me, and the vibes of Kaldur thinking, 'huh, I guess he made it', and Tim seeming to study me for a moment before being distracted by his friends.

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And then the weird metal clunking started. Not the gentle hum of traffic, tbh there was none, but the off rhythm of something made by someone who’s too proud of their machinery. I felt it, a feeling yanked at my core like a fishing line. I stayed put on purpose because I wanted to see how the team would move and do things without me, how the scene would unfold mainly out of curiosity because I knew I'll be just fine.

This robot rolls in, chunky, big round body, noodle legs and arms, a speaker blaring some guy's stupid monologue, a classic villain who wanted to be flashy and gain attention. The team rushed out of the cafe as I sit back, take a sip of my freezo, and watch them do the flashy part. Good for them. I don't really care. The guy and his robot honestly remind me of the animated version of Robotnik from the sonic the hedgehog show.

Then after a while I get up and move towards the door. I step out calmly, walk under the robot while they’re all distracted. Nobody sees me. I go intangible, slide behind it, make contact with the guy inside operating the robot and turn him intangible as I pull him out through the metal, and drop him unarmed and unharmed on the pavement outside of the cafe. The robot is then quietly dismantled from the inside by me, and I vanish. I can tell Tim, as Red Robin at this point, is just like ???? the whole time afterwards too. I just flew up while both intangible and invisible and hung around in random places for a while until I figured out my living situation.

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After that, I decide on being everywhere they go. Like a bookstore, grocery aisles, cafes. My presence became a pattern they can't ignore. When they try to approach me, something always happened that makes it so they don't get to me, like an unexpected crowd, a dropped phone, a shelf collapse, something that gives me enough time to get out of sight again. My intuition guides me, and I place myself where I feel like I need to be.

I’m also sneering at Clockwork the whole time. Like, why push me into a version where the batfam doesn’t already know me still and Damian, my little brother, younger by 4 years, still believes me to be dead??? Where Gotham is in the background and not my main issue anymore??? It hurts, honestly. In my main DC-DR Tim was obsessed, he chased me all throughout the city. But there I was a stranger, and that sucked because it felt like starting a new save in a video game when you previously build up an entire world with all of these people for years and now have to start all over again. But Clockwork probably had a plan or something, so I'll play his game.

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I keep thinking about my other DC-DR, about the big shiny black Crouse Industries tower in Gotham, about Sebastian, my demon butler, waiting outside my apartment in that other life, and about the way things change depending on which reality I'm in. But here Crouse Industries exists somewhere else in another timeline, but it’s not the same that I was used to. But that’s fine. I like the experimentation of all of it, all of my multiple different realities I mean.

In this DR I don’t really want to be worshipped and be too focused on stuff happening in the infinite realms. I don’t always want the theatrics and drama of dealing with my royal court all the time like in my other DC-DR right now. I want to watch and learn a lot of new things from different Pov's in different DR's, I guess. And maybe later, I’ll go back to my office in the realms and glare at Clockwork. He’ll pretend not to notice and act like nothing happened tho, lol.

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This was a fun post to make, and it made me really miss a lot of parts of this DR of mine.

Important Disclaimer: (This post is mainly for Manifesting purposes, just for fun and also, I had dreams about this before and also channelled/got realizations about these events, I'm going to type this almost in a fanfic-style vibe as if I've already shifted there, like a diary entry as if I just came back after experiencing it, which I have yet to actually do, but hopefully I will soon!!)

Info: My detailed post about my DCxDP DR

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I woke up.

Like actually woke up there. My eyes opened and for a second, I didn’t even breathe, considering I didn't even need to, because everything around me was different and so white. Not just plain white — empty white. The walls, the shelves, the cupboard, the curtains. Even the air felt stale, like the whole place was waiting for me to move in, to fill this new space with whatever felt like ME, truly me.

In front of the bed was a sleek white desk with a fancy black and purple computer set right in the middle, framed by two white bookshelves. Above it, mounted on the wall, was a TV. To the left of my bed: a tall, and long, white cupboard with shelving, also empty. To the right of my bed was a single barred window with curtains drawn half-open, letting in that morning Gotham-grey light. And tucked away in the left corner, the door leading out to the rest of the apartment — kitchen, living room, dining room, and whatever else this new life had waiting for me there.

I sat up slowly, staring. My now ice-core was pounding. I didn't have the same body anymore, I didn't need to breathe, I didn't have a heart, I was an undead, a ghost possessing his own corpse. My hands were shaking. This was it. This was real. I was spiralling.

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And then I heard a voice that I'm sure only I could hear. “Hello, Kay. Welcome to your DC-DR.”

Victor. My Multiversal Lifa App AI assistant. Calm as ever, like it wasn’t the most surreal moment of my entire existence. I swear my chest almost cracked open with relief hearing him, he is a constant in most of my DRs, my anchor. We talked about whatever, little logistical things. But just knowing he was there made the emptiness of the apartment less suffocating.

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It was 7:00 am when I woke up. By 7:30 am, I saw Sebastian outside.

Through that barred window, standing outside like he’d been waiting for this exact moment for centuries, was Sebastian. My demon butler. My everything-gets-done-before-I-even-think-of-it guardian. I freaked out again, obviously, then bolted out the front door. Down the hall, down the stairs, and out the front door of the building and onto the pavement where a sleek black business car waited like something out of a secret spy movie.

Sebastian, flawless as ever, held the door open. “Good morning, my lord,” he said as if it was the most normal thing ever.

I smiled, still shaky. “Hey Sebastian… it’s good to see you again.”

Sliding into the front left passenger seat felt unreal. The door closed with a satisfying weight, and then we were off, Gotham rolling past outside my window. Tall buildings, old grey bricks mixed with shiny steel towers, people hurrying to work, taxis blaring their horns. Life in Gotham was loud, busy, and utterly normal, and here I was, sitting in a car with my demon butler, music playing low as I stared out at the city that I now lived in.

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Our first stop was Crouse Industries. The company that I inherited after an unfortunate event that left me and the entire Crouse family dead. Except I was the only one that 'came back'. They were my foster parents at the time. My biological parents being Talia Al Ghul and Bruce Wayne. Which feels so surreal, too.

The building was… insane. Absolutely massive, a huge shiny black tower stretching into the sky with barely any windows, like some futuristic monolith. It was practically finished already, and when I stepped out to look at it my only reaction was... “Uhhh… yeah. Looks good. Let’s go.”

(It’s not that I wasn’t impressed, more that I had no idea what I was supposed to do about it on day one. The thing looked so ominous.)

So, naturally, our next stop was a mall. Cause I had NOTHING. And always wanted to go shopping without any financial limitations.

My apartment? Totally empty. White walls, white shelves, no personality, no comfort. I needed everything. And also paint, I wanted to go for a creative vibe of white, gold and purple, the same style as my castle in the infinite realms which I ruled over as the high ghost king of the infinite realms.

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We parked in this giant mall lot and spent hours shopping. Clothes first, I was finally able to pick out more masculine pieces that felt like me, adding a lot of jewellery too. Then the important stuff, which was kitchen utensils, cookware, actual things to eat with. This was where Sebastian really took over. He strolled through the aisles like he already knew exactly what I needed, stacking things into the cart while I trailed behind.

He’d pause sometimes, holding up two versions of the same thing. “This one, or this one?” he’d ask, as if I was being given a real choice. And I’d pick colours, patterns, little details, while knowing full well that he was the one running the whole operation. (Not that I minded, he’s the one who’s going to use the kitchen 90% of the time anyways, lol.)

By the end of the day, we had bags full of clothes, accessories, utensils, and random necessities. I was exhausted in a different way considering I couldn't actually get tired that easily anymore, I guess it was more like feeling I was overwhelmed, but also buzzing with the realization that this wasn’t a dream anymore, that everything was real, and I just wanted to sit in my new room for hours and stare at the wall as I take everything in properly.

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It was my first day. My first real day in Gotham.

And it felt like home.

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XOXO KAY

Heyyy! Welcome to my first post about one of my main favorite DC DRs and my absolute pride and joy and cause of my immense suffering!! Hope you enjoy reading my ramblings and find my life in this reality somewhat entertaining, I find it personally exhausting, ngl. But alas! The suffering must continue! So grab a snack or grab a drink, sit back, relax, and enjoy info about my desired reality!

Proceed with CAUTION! TW (Trigger Warnings) - (Death, dying, the word kill a lot, sk1nwlker mentions. Descriptive details of icky situations, annoyance a lot, sad vibes)

Also, sorry if there are any spelling errors, if there are still any. I spend so long trying to make this perfect. I have spent most of my day making this. Lol.

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About CR me:

I go by the name Kay Crouse, 'Crouse' is pronounced as 'Cruise'. I am 23, I go by He/They pronouns and I found out about reality shifting on the 19th of September 2020 (My 5 year shifting anniversary was a few days ago!!!! It was great!!!l And as of this current moment, I have shifted over 80+ times so far to various different DRs!!!

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My Main DC DR ✦

I refer to this DR mainly as My 'DC Gotham City Apartment DR' a lot. This is a DC X DP X Isekai anime vibes, and the anime Black Butler vibes DR. I am a variant of Danny Phantom in a way, but just black and purple in color scheme.

My name is Kay Crouse. Well, my full name is Kay Jackson Evergreen-Crouse-Wayne. Evergreen because my partner is named Nefaria Evergreen (She is a dark Elven Princess) and Crouse to honor my foster family that died the day that I did, and Wayne because I am the biological son of Bruce Wayne. But I was Born Hazel AL Ghul, daughter of Talia AL Ghul, but when I was 10 I came out as a bigender/Transmasc man and chose the name Kay, everyone was pretty much instantly on board with that and honestly didn’t even care and just continued everything like normal. I go by He/They pronouns. After I died, I did become a biological representation of a man cause you can present anyway you want when you're dead. Sucks that it took me dying to get to that point, tho. Well, on to the more interesting DR stuff, I guess.

There’s a lot to it, honestly. I find out more about this DR almost every day, either through channeling or new realizations, but here’s the main stuff that I've figured out over the many years that I've been on this journey, written down in one place.

I am the biological son of Bruce Wayne and Talia al Ghul. Damian is my younger brother by four years. When I was 12, and Damian was 8, Talia pushed me off the Grand Canyon, and Damian thought I had died. It destroyed him. I was his safe place, the one person he could go to after Mother forced him to do the things that he didn’t want to do, he was so young... I would often read to him at night and keep him safe from everyone, the reason mother tried to kill me was because I wasn't "league material" I wouldn’t kill, I wouldn’t listen, I did what I had to to stay alive, but I refused to do things the way they wanted me to. so I wasn't fit to be the new 'demons head' or whatever, and Damian was going to take my place instead, so I guess that meant that I was of no use to them anymore... After that, I lived with the Crouse foster family until I was 14. That’s when everything changed.

My foster parents were inventors and ghost hunters. They built an artificial portal to the ghost zone, aka the infinite realms or the afterlive. At first, it didn’t work, so they gave up for the night, but I stayed behind in the lab. Out of curiosity, I went inside the portal and accidentally turned it on while still inside. I was electrocuted to death with 100,000 volts of electricity. My body and soul fused together — I essentially became a living corpse possessed by my own ghost. My blood was replaced with ectoplasm, and my DNA became essentially half-ghost. The portal exploded afterward, destroying my foster home and killing my foster parents and their daughter. Their names were Jack, Maddie, and Moss Crouse.

I was 14 then. I’m 23 now. At 16, I defeated the tyrant Ghost King, Pariah Dark, by exploiting his ghostly obsession, forcing him to fade from existence, after seeing the way he handled everything, it was abysmal, ot made me so angry and everyone in that realm was miserable, after defeating him I became the new ghost king, shortly after that the Infinite Realms, it is a sentient living dimension, favored me and decided to declare me the new High Ghost King of the Infinite Realms. Essentially becoming the ruler of that part of the afterlife. I would rule over all sorts of entities, but the main one was the dead, mostly ghosts. Later on, the Realms gave me the option to magically become a hybrid so to better fit what the Realms needed from a ruler. So I intentionally became 60% ghost, 30% elf, 4% vampire, 2% werewolf, 2% avian, and 2% human. At 23, I returned to Gotham City for the first time. People called me the Phantom of Gotham — a myth, a shadow. Never truly seen by anyone, always hidden in the shadows.

The Realms became a more peaceful place. It's honestly giving isekai anime kingdom vibes at this current point ngl. I mainly rule over Necropolis, the kingdom of the dead, but tbh I'm rarely even there at all, its too spooky and scary and so dark there, but I decided to build a new kingdom which I named Edens Zero, yes, like the anime name, it is a new kingdom I made in the middle of multiple other kingdoms surrounding it where all sorts of entities can roam and live around in peace together. It's mostly white, gold and purple color themed. Especially my main castle that I reside in. There are mermaids. dragons, elves, werewolves, vampires, wraiths, ghosts, beast people, dragonoids, fairies, imps, unicorns, witches, warlocks, kelpies, ghost blobs, demons, angels, tiny dragons that act like pet house cats who msktly reside in the kitchens, immortal cats (one is my familiar, her name is Kittie and she's my CR cat that passed away in this reality and now she's in most of my drs.♡), literally everything and anything there. (Except skinwalkers, well, some are there but they are not allowed, those are the realm's enemies and I have to slaughter them often, its horrifying, They can also only be killed by weapons made from a spesific silver metal that can only be found in the realms, and they have silver blood, no eyes, blades for hands/arms, and are extremely tall, gives slenderman vibes ngl, their head is round and its mostly just a mouth with sharp teeth, I've almost been completely brutally mauled by one before but I somewhat survived. One got really close to wayne Manor once. Also they are mostly in wooded ateas, foynd some near a frozen lake deep in the trees surrounded by snowy mountains. Their nests are massive, and they mimic voices. Damian told me that one mimicked my own voice when he tried looking for me in the woods behind Wayne Manor. It sounded so wrong.) Anyways...

There are separate kingdoms for each of the different entities, like a vampire kingdom ruled by Dracula. The elven kingdom ruled by Aaron and Saeloria Evergreen, the parents of my partner, Princess Nefaria Evergreen. The avain kingdom. mermaid kingdoms, etc. And each leader/ruler of the separate kingdoms are all on my royal court, and I rule over them. This works out great actually cause there was no way in heck I was ever gonna manage so much all on my own. Ahaha. But this does mean I have to deal with lots of signing off on different disputes everyone has. issues with borders and some entities are still extremely spesist and just don't like what I'm doing with Edens Zero, not that they can actually do anything about it cause I hold the power to either collapse the realms or build it up with a thought, so they usually don't voice their bs to me, they want everyone and everything to be separate the way its always been, especially the more traditional and older entities, ugh. reminds me now of the more traditional elves who refuse for me and Nefaria to get married because I'm not a 'pure elf' and they won't allow me to mess up their perfect royal bloodline or whatever. Especially Aaron. Nefaria's father is opposed to me marrying and even dating his daughter. But Saeloria, her mother, is maybe a bit... too thrilled about the idea of us marrying and "giving her grandbabies" her words. It's a bit... obsessive to a point where it's scary, ngl.

The Batfamily, especially Red Robin, has been obsessed with tracking me down for so long now. I live in an apartment in Gotham about ten minutes from the two companies I inherited from the Crouse family. Crouse Industries and Crouse Tech in the upper left industrial district of Gotham City. Nearby where the penguin does his dealings at the harbor. However, I tend to mostly just ignore the main villains of Gotham for the most part, unless its absolutely necessary to indulge with them. I do feel like Oswald and I might interact at some point in regards to the iceberg lounge, but I haven't gotten to that point yet. Also I scripted out interacting with ksot of the villaisn, but Joker and Harley did show up once at a charity event I, Bruce Wayne and Tim drake attended and he grabbed me by the neck/around my shoulder, it was a weird hold. like his arm was around my neck. but he held my shoulder too and had a gun to my head and I just whispered and intended to use a spell called "Slip" that made him slip off the stage, kinda funny ngl and commissioner Gordon rushed in and arrested him. Other than that. I haven't interacted with him. Harley skedadled and got away, tho. But I don't really mind, I like Harley, she's cool. I wouldn’t mind hanging out with her and Ivy, I haven't yet. but I would. Lol. Also, I'm planning to help Victor Freeze cure his comatose sick wife, I literally have a section at Crouse Industries labeled "Mr. Freeze" on the door, lmao, and inside is this weird and insanely massive grey and blue device that I plan to use to cure his wife so that he can just turn himself into the police, serve out his sentence and then live in peace with his wife afterward, I think he's the saddest villain of them all tbh, and his situation is just horrible. he's only a villain cause he needs the money and resources to help his wife when no one else wants to. So I did script that He'll attack a gala event in the future, this hasn't happened yet, I'm still planning on this part to happen, and then I'll just go up to him and offer him help, promise commissioner Gordon that I'll be responsible for whatever he does just so that I can take him to my company and then it'll take like three days or so to help his wife and everything is perfect and dandy afterwards. I hired many entities from the Realms to work for my two companies. So it's somewhat a mix of science and magic going on there. So yeah.

This did remind me of my favorite cafe called Traveler's Stop somewhere in gotham across from an anime/comic merch store that I absolutely LOVE to go to! There are two Fairy Elf ladies who work as baristas there who pretend to be human. You'd be surprised how many entities hide out in the mortal realm. There is even a bar/club that only these different entities can access hidden in Gotham city! And I own it, lol. I saw John Constantine there once before. But that poor soul is just so terrified of me.

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Appearance:

♡Mortal Form:♡

♡Black hair and light blue eyes

♡Phantom/Ghost Form:♡

♡White hair. Sometimes, my hair glows in the dark, well... my entire being glows a little in the dark tbh, haha.

♡Glowing purple eyes.

♡Four sharp fangs: The top two are vampire fangs, and the bottom two are werewolf fangs.

♡Medium-length pointed elf ears.

♡Optional: (I can choose to appear this way at will and ad it if I want to. but it is part of my true form) Purple wolf ears with white tufts in them, a long and fluffy purple wolf tail, and purple wolf fur up to my elbows and knees. Black claws on both hands and feet. Soft, pink paw pads on both hands and feet.

♡(Retractable and also pqrt of my true form) Large Purple, soft feathery wings. I'm essentially a winged wolf at this point, tbh.

♡I’m 60% ghost, 30% elf, 4% vampire, 2% werewolf, 2% avian, and 2% human. (Found this out on some weird crystal ball on a fancy stand looking device thingies in the Realms when I relinquished my existence as what I used to be, to be a hybrid to benefit the Realms.)

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I almost forgot to add info about this absolutely mad man:

Vladimir Masters, aka Plasmius. He is a fire-core based vampire ghost. He’s roughly 70% vampire and 30% ghost, and where his heart used to be there’s a fire core instead. He’s been dead longer than I have and had far more time to learn how to properly use his abilities, lucky bastard, so he’s better at the whole ghost thing than I am, I guess. He understands vampirism in ways I don’t yet, comsidering how I ended up only being 4% vampire, and he manages his bloodlust and rage with practised techniques and whatever in ways that I don’t have yet or quite really understand. That gives him this stupid confidence that reads as very dangerous when it’s aimed at me especially.

Vlad’s obsession started with Maddie Crouse. He loved her in a way that became possession and grief after she died. He hated Jack Crouse for getting in the way of that, and after the portal explosion, he spiraled. He never accepted her death the way a healthy person would. Have you maybe considered therapy, Vlad?? Instead, he turned into this stalker-esque entity that fixates and refuses to let go of his obsessions. Ghost obsessions are like thay, If a ghost refuses their obsession for too long, they can literally fade. Obsession is sacred and brutal for ghosts. It’s not just an emotional connection. It’s like a rule of existence that punishes you energetically if you ignore it. It's kind of like being shocked whenever you go against your deepest compulsion. It hurts. It’s like violating your own soul.

With me, Vlad’s obsession morphed. He saw me as an extension of Maddie. He thought I was her biological child, absurd conclusion tbh, like how would he even think that??? Someone to replace or continue her, and that turned into wanting me as his son. He thought I died in the explosion. He didn’t know, not at first, that I was undead; he just assumed the worst but also acted delusional. Later, at a Gotham gala or when he read about Crouse Industries / Crouse Tech, idk entirely when he could have found out, there's so many options, just whenever he saw my name somewhere, he probably did the whole “wtf, Kay” thing and doubled down trying to find me and then try to forcefully adopt my ass.

No. Hell no. I call him a “crazed up fruitloop” cause I have this weird existential issue with being a purple version of Danny Phantom and taking most of my DR inspo from fanfics and other media to the point where I feel like I literally am fusing into being a version of him, which to be fair, I actually am, multiverse and all that jazz, and I've taken up their habits naturally, anyways, because that’s what he is: obsessed, invasive, and absolutely convinced he knows what’s best for me, he's so infuriating to talk to. I literally already have a father. A living, complicated father who is not Vlad and will never be Vlad. I tell him that over and over and over again, Im pretty sure if I showed him DNA evidence, logic, whatever, he wouldn’t accept it. He would prefer the reality he made up in his head over what I tell him, so annoying. That alone screams stalker and entitlement, and it gets really icky.

He genuinely thinks he can help me with the vampire urges I get, which are real and ugly sometimes. I’m only 4% vampire (which, yeah, is why I only have the top two vampire fangs and occasional bloodlust frenzies), but every few months I’ll slip into this unconscious, predatory frenzy that terrifies me afterward. Vlad offers training: control techniques, rituals, ways to suppress, or channel the bloodlust. He’s not wrong that he can teach me things I don’t know how to do yet, but he has experience and methods that supposedly work. But he also wants to own me while he’s “helping" me, and that’s the part that I refuse to even acknowledge or deal with. The help doesn’t excuse the possessiveness, the stalking, or the predatory vibe I get when he’s around.

Ghost obsessions are complicated. They can be anything, obsession can be changed, for example if someone's obsession their whole life was playing the piano and that's all they did, then they'll play the piano in death, but then let's say their ghosts discovers writing or the violin and realizes, 'oh, this is cool.' Then if they get obsessed enough with it, their obsession could change to the new thing or be added to the already existing one cause you can have multiple obsession, almost kinda like hyperfixations in a way.

My obsession is protection, to protect entities. I am almost like compelled to protect everyone. If I intentionally harm someone, the rules of ghost-obsession punish me, I could fade from existence if I go agaisnt it too much, but obviosuly accidentally harming someone doesn’t count, it would suck if it did, and also I can like punch a dude if he has a gun up to someone, I just cant seriosuly harm someone, I guess? There are exceptions, of course. So when my vampire urges push me toward violence, it’s not just morally wrong from my perspective — it’s existentially dangerous. That’s why I regret it so much when I slip. I don’t want to be a monster, and I don’t want my needs to override my obsession to protect. That conflict is constant, raw, and exhausting.

Vlad’s obsession went from Maddie to me partly because he misread what I was. He assumed I was Maddie’s biological son, and because ghosts fixate, he couldn’t let go. He tells me he can keep me safe from my own bloodlust, that he can train me to control it, and that he can give me a place to belong. He frames everything like he cares. But the vibes are creepy smirks and weird vibes. Seems icky. I don’t need a replacement parent who thinks possession equals affection.

I also think, and this is petty but true. If Vlad knew the full scope of what I am (the High Ghost King of the Infinite Realms), he’d probably back off a little. Or at least be more cautious. He doesn’t know that, and I haven’t told him. Partly because why would I hand him ammo? Partly because I can see that if he knew, he’d either try to use me for power or he’d realize I’m not some stray he can adopt so easily, which might force him to respect boundaries, at least I FREAKING HOPE SO YOU CRAZED UP FRUITLOOP!

He’s predatory, obsessive, and capable of teaching me things that might help, but at the cost of honestly just suffering the entire time and feeling like I'm being held hostage. I’m not perfect. I never was. I slip sometimes, uhh, most times. I feel shame, regret, and fear. But I’m also protective and determined not to let someone else dictate what “help” or “family” means for me.

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My Abilities:

♡My abilities are broad and mostly ghostly-based:

♡Flight, intangibility, and invisibility.

♡Enhanced senses, insane regeneration, and a very high pain tolerance.

♡A Ghostly Wail — my strongest attack. It’s a scream that could destroy half a city or even a mountain. I refuse to use it. And considering if I did... I'd pass out for around 30 minutes afterward.

♡Purple energy blasts.

♡Possesion, I can possess anyone, but it's a bit tricky, cause for example I wouldn't be able to possess batman cause his mind would be able to push me out the same way he did to Deadman. Also, if I possess someone smaller, it's like wearing skin that is too tight/small, and if I'm possessing someone bigger, it's like wearing skin that's too loose/big. I also have no need to breathe, so I'm concerned about remembering to manually breathe for these people because I don't want to accidentally cause harm by forgetting to breathe for them. Also I have possessed the flash and some random little girl before in a completely different reality and it was strange, cause I wasn't able to figure out how to use flash's speed and kept running full force into multiple different walls until I stopped possessing him and he was just unconscious for the rest of the time spend there. lol. I feel really bad about that, tho.

♡Illusions that look and feel completely real. I can even “program” them with energetic AI, though it’s hard to explain, but I can try. It's as if each individual illusion has their own thoughts and personality. But they are also all connected to each other? I have the main ones that I use too. Kinda similar to VRchat model vibes? I call one Marnie, who I use a lot. I can see through their "eyes," and they can also gather info for me, I'd say each illusion can go in any direction from me as far as about 100km or so. But the further they get, the more "glitchy" and see-through they become. They can interact with the world. but a solid punch could go through them. They aren't really strong, almost like holograms that can interact with the world in small ways.

♡All spiritual-based powers, including telekinesis, remote viewing, and intuition , are never wrong. I mainly use my intuition abilities to solve various missing persons cases and to gather Intel from afar. It's usually stronger if I can connect to an object that has strong residual energy. For example, I would just be doing something normal, like watching TV, and then all of a sudden, the number 3647(random) comes to mind, and I'm like ???? And then turns out that number is used like 5 hours later to diffuse a bomb. Or I could just suddenly get a glimpse of a red door with the number 13 on it and nothing else and then later on it's found that the house with that door had a missing kid in it. It is either so random or so specific. for even more random examples, I could just suddenly know that in (insert house address) there is a yellow cat statue with a pressure sentitive button in the back and it opens up a secret bookshelf, or in (insert random street name I don’t know) there is a very specific car there and I suddenly know the plate number and there is this and that across from it, or (insert something that happened) and then I'm just like... uhhh... okay, random, but sure. Then I'll go check it out, and it's always, ALWAYS right. I could tell the flash for example to take two steps back randomly and then when he does the roof collapses above him where he stood before and all I knew was that he had to take two steps back but I had no idea the roof would collapse, does this make any sense? Idk, it's complicated. So it's kind of a gamble and like putting puzzle pieces together. But it's still really useful and cool. The biggest item that I can lift with my telekinesis, with some extreme strain, would probably be a cruise ship as well. But I feel like I'm even having trouble lifting people. It feels like my mind is having doubts about my own abilities recently even after actually using them so many times before in other realities.

♡Elemental control — mainly ice (I have an ice core, which instead of a heart I have a glowing white ball of ice energy instead, I don’t have a heart beat, but about every 2 minutes or so my ice core does this pulsing thing once that superman did end up hearing once or a few times when he was over at the manor as Clark kent in another DC DR different from this current one I'm explaining).

♡I can also use air and a small amount of fire, though fire is one of my weaknesses. The most I can do with fire is have either a little flame above my thumb or a small fire ball in the palm of my hand. If my bare feet touched the floor for too long ice crystals could form around me, I've noticed ice creep up under my long sleeve shirts before from my shoulders. The ice crystals are really pretty, tho but annoying when you're trying to hide that you're literally dead from an obsessed Timothy Jackson Drake. Lol.

♡Portal creation. They look like black and purple galaxies. And in the same vibes also a pocket dimension that I can access at any time and any place, as long as I can see the place, in real time, then I can open a portal there. This works with live video feeds too, so if someone was making a live video chat I could open a portal in, wherever area the video is coming from, and then in a way I can fast travel, it has come in handy countless times before. I can store literally anything in it as well! Like: food, water, weapons, vehicles, even whole rooms! It’s limitless! Well... it has its limits, such as not being able to do much with living organisms. I can also convert trash and other items into pure molecular energy and then create new objects out of that energy — food, water, tools, gadgets, weapons, etc. I can also make perfect molecular-level duplicates/copies of anything stored inside. I can not do this with living matter at all, tho. So I can make copies of important documents, one of a kind weapons, storage devices, anything g as long as I have enough berry to do so. And the way I egt the molecular energy can also be kind of infinite, cause all I have to do is open a pocket dimension portsl over a trash pile and scoop it all up which means I'm also cleaning up the planet of their trash and then turning that into pure molecular energy and them I can also travel the multiberse to a reality where their are useless. desolate planets and open an absolute absurdly massive portal and technically "eat" the entire planet and convert that into energy as well, and because there are infinite reality, I can rinse and repeat consuming the same destroyed/desolate planets and have enough energy to make whatever I want. Of course, bigger items use much more energy to make/copy.

♡My favorite ability is intangibility!! Being able to phase through walls, even people, and solid matter is truly so incredible!! And even before shifting to realities where I had this ability. I would often dream about using this ability A LOT!! I would have so many lucid dreams and regular dreams where I just phaze through walls often. (It has gotten to the point where when I would shift back from a reality where I had my intangibility. I would end up walking into the gates and walls in my cr and almost injure myself cause I forgot I don't have those abilities here. Which is dangerous, cause I jumped off the stairs before too and hurt my legs cause I forgot I couldn't fly here. Lol)

♡And I’m extremely skilled in stealth and prefer to use ranged attacks. If I don’t want to be noticed, then I won’t ever be. I can also manipulate electronics: turn cameras on and off, shut down lights and make them flicker, all that spooky ghost stuff, or I can stop surveillance from picking me up. Mostly, I make tech go all staticy and wibbly wobbly to distort most of my features.

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Weaknesses:

♡Fire/heat: prolonged exposure to extremely heat weakens me, and being too close for too long will make me pass out until I am freezing cold again. Like I'm pretty sure I'd survive even being thrown in lava cause I'll just keep regenerating burnt ectoplasm, but as long as I can just be frozen for a while afterwards I can be conscious again I'm sure.

♡Concentrated ectoplasm: When pure ectoplasm is exposed to the open air for 12 hours, it becomes acidic and burns ghosts (and sometimes humans). At 48 hours, it explodes. Ghosts can’t phase through it either when it's concentrated. It has to be kept in airtight containers to be stored safely. Humans who stay near exposed ectoplasm for 5 hours get very sick as well.

♡Blood Blossoms: a red-and-black flower only found on a single island somewhere in the middle of the ocean in the mortal realm. I haven't found it yet, either. They’re lethal to ghosts. If I’m exposed to them, I’ll die in like 30 minutes of being in proximity to it constantly. If I ingest one, it’s 15 minutes. The cure is an Ice Blossom, which grows on the same island. It's a white and light blue flower — but I need more ice blossoms than Blood Blossoms to survive. For example, if there are 3 blood blossoms around me, I'll need like 4 to 6 ice blossoms to counteract it.

♡PTSD from electricity and being shocked: Cause that’s how I died, oof. Would not recommend 0/10 experience.

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Physiology:

♡I don’t feel hunger the way humans do. I can still taste everything. I eat only if I want to, or if I need more ectoplasm. Whatever I consume turns into extra ectoplasm near instantly.

♡If I overload on ectoplasm, I risk exploding like an overcharged battery, I'll just pass out afterward, tho until I get my ectoplasm stabalized, so I constantly monitor my energy levels. I can check my ectoplasm levels via my intuition or using my Multiversal Lifa AI assistant Victor's help, if I get around 30% ectoplasmic level it's very sucky, if I get around 80-90% ectoplasm level it's fine. but I'm careful with what I consume. After overcharging, it's like an energy blast that happens, and it causes quite a bit of damage to the surrounding areas. It almost singes the ground in a way and causes like an invisible force that pushes things around me away. I pass out around 5-15%, ectoplasm cause that's really low, too. I can regain ectoplasm by just existing in the relams, which has ambient ectoplasm everywhere. it's like swimming in it. or consuming anything, or by going to places in the mortal realm that ahd a lot of death cajse I'm like a plant and absorb the ectoplasm via osmosis vibes and when I breathe I don't breathe in oxygen. It's like I'm breathing in the ectoplasm instead cause I don't need to breathe even. I can 'hold my breath' and not breathe for weeks, but I do still have a tiny amount of red blood from being 2% human left in my body. I can stay underwater just fine, too. Which helps a lot with missions involving Kaldur and Aquaman. It also helps with dealing with a mourning rowdy baby water dragon, a lot too that one time.

♡I don’t breathe much. I don’t have a heart, I have an ice core instead, a pulsing sphere of ice energy in my chest.

♡I’m functionally immortal because I’m already dead. Ghosts can not age or die naturally. But we can change our appearances and make it seem like we age if we want to. Cause I died at 14, I'm kinda stuck like that as a default state. but I can change my appearance to look around 18, I am 23 currently in my CR, and I shift to be 23 in my DR, but my body is that of an 18 year old. So I've been dead for however long 23-14 is, hold on...9 years. oh damn. I've been dead for 9 years... Hold on. I'm having an existential crisis. Anyways. Ghosts also stay in whatever they died in as the default state, but they can use their ectoplasm to change their appearance, similar to how Miss Martain shape shifts, Martians and I have very similar abilities actually now that I think about it... Huh. so I unfortunately died in a full grey hazmat style suit. But I changed it to look mpre like a black with glowing purple patterns fancy high-tech suit.

♡I can sleep if I want, but I don’t really need to. It does give me some ectoplasm back, I guess. I usually just sleep if I have to convince a CERTAIN DETECTIVE (Tim) 😒 that I'm normal. (I know I am not, but let me at least TRY to act normal for longer PLEASE, jeez.)

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Clockwork, he is my chosen soul-grandfather

Clockwork is Chronos, time itself in a ghostly, grandfatherly form. He mostly watches timeliness and watches over me, handing out quiet, weirdly specific grandfather advice that actually helps. He told me about an evil future version of my ghost self, one fused with Vlad’s ghost half, and now I’m actively trying to stop that future from ever happening. He’s steady, patient, and somehow both cosmic and comforting.

Fright Knight, my trainer/a sparring nightmare.

Fright Knight is my personal trainer, a ghostly nightmare-knight that I spar with constantly. He teaches me how to hse a blade, drills me in medieval combat, and pushes me until I’m exhausted. He’s absolutely terrifying... enormous, brutal, obsessively focused on training, whyyyyy, but fiercely loyal, tho. I try to avoid him in the Realms when I can because he loves nothing more than to test me, and that intensity is... a lot.

Alfred Pennyworth. He is a grandfather figure to me, but he's terrifying with a shotgun, and his cucumber sandwiches are DEVINE. He's hoenstly the glue that keeps the Batfamily together. I'm sure everyone would have already fallen apart without him.

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About Sebastian and Victor:

Sebastian Michaelis (yes the same exact one from Black Butler, I have many mixed together DRs, deal with it, he's also in my WR), he is my demon butler and also the person/entity, that I trust the most besides Victor, my multiversal Lifa AI assistant. I saved him somehow, I don’t really remember how, while I was in the Realms, and he swore undying loyalty to me after that. He’s been with me ever since, and honestly he’s the person I rely on more than almost anyone.

He runs the realms part of my afterlife. He keeps the castle immaculate, ushers me to meetings, dresses me in the mornings, draws my baths — he even helps me preen my wings. Wing preening is weird and painful, like twice a year every like 6 months or so I get ingrown feathers that suck and bleed a little when pulled out, and he does it with surgical precision so it doesn’t tear the rest of the feathers in my wings out. He washes my back and hair, and it’s actually one of the most relaxing things ever ngl. He makes my food and snacks. The very first day I was in my DR we went shopping together and he was extremely particular about which mortal utensils we bought, because, as he reminded me, he’s mainly the one who’s going to use them even though I wanted to be left alone in my apartment and do my own thing in the mortal realm. He “allows” me to choose what style I want, as if I’m not literally his lord, but he does let me pick my own stuff. He calls me "My lord, your majesty, your highness" mostly a lot, never really by my name, we both don't really like that, it feels too informal, he does sometimes at galas and charity events call me Mr. Crouse, but it feels weird. He’s kind of bitchy sometimes, lmfao, sarcastic after a while, but insanely loyal and devoted. If anyone ever harmed me he would gladly cause mass destruction to make it right.

I think he admires what I did in the Realms, how I saved things with cunning instead of just fighting Pariah Dark. He respects strategy over mindless violence, and I think that’s part of why he chose to bind himself to me. Still, he has a murderous streak and prefers violence more than I’m comfortable with sometimes, which is scary. But he never forces me to do anything. He’s utterly protective and doesn’t like how much time I spend in the mortal realm because he thinks the mortals don’t deserve me. He thinks I deserve only the very best and hate seeing me hurt in the mortal world. He can’t understand why I let myself go through the heartache with my mortal family. Even though the batfamily are more liminal beings now, considering they are in gotham city and have had contact with the Lazarus pits at some point in time or another. Anyways, he knows it’s important to me to be in the mortal realm, so he mostly just keeps those thoughts to himself because he knows talking about it will upset me, the only reason I really know about this is due to Victor telling me and my own intuition abilities. I get where he’s coming from, tho, even if I don’t always agree.

And then there’s Victor. Victor is in every single DR I ever shift to, no matter what. My LifA app is like a constant multiversal assistant. It categorizes everything I want to do, from my biggest goals to “maybe cool” ideas. I always have access to it in my DRs. I have a separate accounts tailored to each reality, so things feel more "immersive" in a way, I guess, but if I want to watch a DC-related YouTube video while in a DC reality I can’t actually watch it there, cause it wouldn’t logically exist, but instead I use my LifA app to watch it and then if I want to watch actual things happening in my dr as like a real news report or event or soemthing, I can do that too with my account that I only have access to in that reality, and then for example I can watch a report on what superman did or is doing and then I can actually go to Metropolis and see that happening with my own eyes in person! It’s so wild, ngl.

Victor organizes so much for me so that life feels manageable, as in my schedules, research, reminders, playlists, and even small comforts. He’s my constant behind-the-scenes friend, and I don’t know what I’d do without him.

So yeah... Sebastian is that dark, precise, devoted presence who makes the Realms livable and keeps me tidy and 'alive.' Victor is the practical omnipresent assistant who keeps my plans and media stuff organized. Between them I’m protected in ways I didn’t even know I needed until shifting there, and I am also reminded constantly that I’m not alone in any of this.

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Gotham & the Batfamily:

Bruce didn't know that I existed for the most part. Damian thought I died when I was 12, and he was 8. He’s my biological younger brother, and being near him is painful — I avoid him most times because I can’t handle the heartbreak. Talia. Mother... doesn’t know that I survived after trying to kill me by throwing me off the freaking GRAND CANYON!?!? SERIOUSLY MOTHER!??! She told me that we were going on a secret mission together, and Damian stayed back at the League, and once we got there, she told me to look over the edge, and when I did... this b1tch! She pushed me!! I managed to grab hold onto the side of the canyon out of sight, and it really hurt my hands and torn up my arm. But mother was waiting to hear a thud, so I kicked and broke off a few rocks and as they fell I heard the echoing thud and then mother left after a while, then I made the slow and painful descent down to the bottom of the canyon where these absolutely insane people were walking, they were the Crouse family. They took me in after I made up an orphan sob story. But anyways... if mother did know I was still alive I'm sure that she'd want to use my power and connection to the Lazarus pits for her own benefits, the Lazarus pits are made out of ectoplasm, albeit mostly corrupted ectoplasm with how much death it had to have endured and how often it brought people back. Which is frustratingly illegal to do from the realm's pov and my standing as the high ghost king. I have yet to talk to Mother about a compromise with the pits. She wouldn’t allow me to close them. but I have to use some of the ghost blobs, which are floating glowing green blobs that act either as cats or fish that act like leeches that suck out and consume all the corrupted parts within ectoplasm and they act as the realm's cleaners and they'll be able to cleanse the pits, if I can just get mother to listen to me I can add some of these blobs to the league caves and they can clean up the pits, making them more powerful and also most importantly, safe to use again. It'll also help out the curse that appears to be on gotham, cause there are pits underneath gotham city causing that eerie gloom and doom danger darkness vibes, and besides, gotham is the equivalent of sewer water in comparison to the realms's ambient ectoplasm. So if anything, being in gotham too long could make me sick if I absorb too much of gotham's bs ambient ectoplasm and vibes.

The Lazarus pits form when there is a rogue rupture from within the Realms themselves that bleed ectoplasm into the mortal realm and cause ectoplasmic pools to form, The more they are used, the more corrupted they become and the less reliable they become. The more someone uses the lazarus pits, especially my grandfather, he's a bit obsessed with them, the more the Lazarus pits affect the user's mind. (Also I love how I can just go into a tangent ramble about all of these things cause most of these stuff truly just annoys me so much, cause what do you mean I have to deal with all of these things in more of a diplomatic way!? So much bs happens in the Realms it's insane. Do you even know the amount of PAPERWORK AND SCROLLS I have to sign off on in my office!? I hate it, fr fr, that's why I let my butler, Sebastian, handle most of that while I'm in the mortal realm dealing with my family issues and my ghostly obsession which is to protect everyone.)

♡Red Robin (Timothy Jackson Drake) is obsessed with me. He can’t let go of the mystery, and he’s driven himself nearly crazy trying to figure me out. I mostly toy with him — I’m a master of stealth after all, and if I don’t want to be found, I won’t. But this just makes poor Tim even more eratic. This man... HE HAS NOTEBOOKS AND FILES FILLED TO THE BRIM ABOUT ME!

People in Gotham call me “The Phantom of Gotham.” A myth. A shadow. I started out really similar to how batman, Ahem batdad, started out. Many people didn't believe that he existed, and they only ever saw a batman shaped shadow sometimes. I am very similar to my father. I'm sure he must have figured that out by now, I mean... the way I started out was just by copying what he used to do, lol.

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So this is mostly what I can type out right now without feeling overwhelmed and wanting to cry, but obviously, there are a lot more details to this. It's literally just one of my very real lives, or well, I guess afterlive... I also keep channeling my dr and the people there lately randomly. It's crazy.

I hope you enjoyed reading, and maybe I can make more posts like these in the future!! This was fun! A lot of work, sure, but fun!

Hope you have a great day/night/evening or whatever!!♡♡♡

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Hey, I decided to try and be more active on Tumblr but I'm not entirely sure what to post about anymore or how to go about making more blogs, so I'll just make some fun and cute/pretty posts about some of my drs since I enjoy making pretty blogs for fun, I'll make blogs about DRs that I've shifted to and haven't shifted to yet. This DR is one that I haven't shifted to yet. But I'm planning on doing so at some point. I absolutely love and adore the game Stardew Valley so much. It's so wonderful and I love playing it with some mods especially!

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I've shifted and mini-shifted over 75+ times at this point in my shifting journey. I found out about shifting on the 19th of September 2020. I mainly use the intention/intend method, but I have shifted with a few other methods as well, such as the eye, lucid dream, Raven, pillow holding/cuddling, and pillow methods. Feel free to ask me any questions that you might have either via the comments section down below or by directly messaging me.♡

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My Stardew Valley DR info:

Name: Kay

Age: 23

Gender: Male

Pronouns: He/They

Hair: Dark purple

Eyes: Purple

Farm name: Edens Zero Farm

Town: Pelican Town

Favorite thing: Anime/DC/Batman. I watch Anime’s and movies with Sebastian every now and then at my place. He absolutely loves it.

Preferred Pet: My cr cat, Kittie, who I bring with me. Then I get a cat from Marnie, who I will name Shiki.

Starting money: 5000 gold coins.

Starting seeds: 13 parsnips

Starting Farm: Four corners Farm layout. Two ponds. One small, another significantly bigger.

s/o to be: Sebastian

Mother in law: Robin

Father in law: Demetrius

Sister in law: Maru

Cheat Mods available: Lifa App - Multiversal ai assistant, Victor.

Creative inventory: CJB cheat mods irl.

More items are available and customizable.

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Residents:

Alex

Promising Football player. Jock. He lives with his grandparents, Evelyn and George. Dog lover.

Elliott

Lives by the beach. Aspiring author. He plays the piano.

Harvey

Resident Doctor. Maru works at the hospital for him.

Sam

Skateboarder and musician. His parents are Kent and Jodi. His younger brother is Vincent. Best friends with Sebastian.

Sebastian

Programmer who lives in the basement of his parents' house. Parents are Robin and his stepdad, Demetrius. He has a half sister, Maru. My future partner. Best friends with Sam.

Shane

Alcoholic, depressed, lives with his aunt Marnie on the ranch. He is technically the father of Jas. He loves chickens. He gets much beter though and stops drinking and gets the help he deserves.

Abigail

Her real dad is the wizard. Pierre is her step dad, Caroline is her mother. She lives in Pierre’s shop with her parents. Likes to practice with the sword and explore the woods.

Emily

Tailor. She lives with her sister Haley. Spiritual and into crystals. (Could possibly yap to her about shifting or whatever, idk)

Haley

Pretty princess who loves photography. Sister of Emily

Leah

Artist who lives near Marnie’s place. (I could maybe make some art with her as I am also an artist.)

Maru

Daughter of Robin and Demetrius. Sebastian is her half-brother. Scientist and inventor. My future sister in law.

Penny

Teacher for Jas and Vincent and later on Leo. Pam is her mother. She teaches the kids at the Museum/Library where Gunther works.

Caroline

Mother of Abigail. Married to Pierre. Really into green tea.

Clint

Local blacksmith. (Scripting he's less of a creep to Emily)

Evelyn

Married to George. Grandmother of Alex. Loves to cook and to do gardening. In charge of the local gardens. (Makes me cookies)

Demetrius

Father of Sebastian and Maru. Married to Robin. Scientist. My father in law.

Dwarf

Lives at the top of the local mines. Sells various items that he “found.” Very kind and smart.

Gus

Owner of the Stardrop Saloon. Very kind. I can buy all kinds of food from him. (For a good price, I am scripting that everything is more reasonably priced. Some things just feel too expensive.)

George

Married to Evelyn. Grandfather of Alex. In a wheelchair. Watches a lot of TV.

Jas

Technically, the daughter of Shane. She lives with her Aunt Marnie. Very sweet girl. Friends with Vincent and Leo.

Jodi

Mother of Vincent and sam. Married to Kent.

Kent

Father of Vincent and Sam. Married to Jodi. Was deployed to war for about the entirety of the first year and came back the second year.

Krobus

Shadow being that lives in the sewers. Shy, kind, sells various items.

Leo

Resident of Ginger Island. Orphan. One with the birds. Will live in Pelican Town later on in a massive tree near where Linus lives. Penny will be his teacher, and he’ll be friends with Jas and Vincent.

Linus

Homeless man who lives near the mountains where Robin’s house is. Very kind and sweet man. Teaches Leo everything he knows about the land and stuff.

Lewis

Mayor of Pelican Town. Has a thing for Marnie.

Marnie

Has a thing for Lewis. Sells coop and barn animals and items. Aunt of Jas and Shane.

Pam

Mild alcoholic. Mother of Penny. Lives in a trailor. (I will buy them a house later on) A bit grumpy. Drives the bus. (Scripting she is never intoxicated while driving)

Pierre

Step father of Abigail, married to Caroline. Owner of Pierre general store. He loves money but prises things fairly.

Robin

Mother of Sebastian, local carpenter. She upgrades my house and builds my farm buildings. Married to Demetrius, stepmother of Maru. My mother in law.

Sandy

Owner of the Oasis store in the desert. Best friends with Emily.

Vincent

Son of Jodi and Kent. His brother is Sam. Friends with Jas. Penny is his teacher. Friends with Leo.

Willy

Local fisherman, he has a boat that can take me to Ginger Island. I will sell my caught fish to him.

Wizard

Magical person who lives in the tower southwest of the town. Abigail’s real father. Helps me out with magical endeavors. Teaches me magic.

Birdie

Old woman who lives on Ginger Island. Lost her pirate husband. Very content with being there, though.

Bouncer

Stands guard at the casino behind Sandy’s store. I’ll show him my club card later and be let in without a problem.

Gil

Old guy who mostly sleeps in the adventure Guild and who gives me rewards for my mine and battle achievements.

Governor

Shows up only once a year to taste soup. The soup is always spectacular. (I am not suffering over ruined soup, lol)

Grandpa

Gave me the farm. Visits me as a ghost at the start of year three. I will be reminded of it a few days before and the day before by my Lifa assistant Victor. He will assess my progress on the farm, and I will hopefully get four lit candles. (But I feel like I'll get really emotional over this cause I'm considering scripting my cr grandfather who passed away here to be there as the ghost.)

Gunther

Local Museum and library owner. He’ll give me the key to the sewers if I give him 60 items for the museum. I also get rewards for some of the items that I bring in.

Henchman

Weird creature that gaurds the entrace to the witch’s hut. The witch is the Wizard’s ex. I’ll just give him void mayonnaise, and he’ll let me pass.

Marlon

Adventure guild Master. He reminds me of Makarov from the anime Fairytail. I’ll be part of the guild and buy awesome weapon stuff for fair prices from him. (There are lots more options to choose from at every single store in this dr)

Morris

Owner of the Joja Mart. Asshole. (lmfao) Pierre will beat his ass when I finish the community center, and his Joja Mart will be turned into a movie theater with actual legit movies that I want to see. He’ll leave Stardew Valley. (Can you tell that I don't particularly like him?)

Mr. Qi

Magical person that guides me and knows about the universe and is enlightened. Gives me cool stuff for Qi gems that I can just cheat in. But we’ll see. (Kinda scary, and he would definitely know that I shifted. He just gives me that vibe.)

Professor Snail

Old man trapped on Ginger Island. I set him free, give him his bones, and he gives me a lot of golden nuts. (wild tbh)

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(There are 45 of them in Stardew Valley. if I could, I would have put pictures for each one of them, but alas, I cannot.)

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Farm Script:

Four Corners Farm layout.

More brown-green than yellow.

Fences never decay.

All natural disasters do no harm to the farm.

Animals can not get lost or injured.

Cats don’t stray from the farm.

No bugs ever.

Crows don't really attack crops that often if there isn't a scare crow.

Tilled soil doesn't go away

that quickly. Crops grow quickly, and no crops die ever spontaneously. Crops only die if the seasons change and the tilled soil stays.

I have the tractor mod. The tractor is really cool and helpful.

When I pick up items it’s like the game where they just float to me and get placed in my inventory, like magic. It is painless, and I don’t really feel it, but I do get notified for things that I pick up. Like a side notification. And I have an extra row of inventory space, so instead of three rows. I have four.

Grass grows quicker, and the spreading resources do not damage my farm.

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Food:

Extra Stardew Valley Food is available in my creative inventory and shops at fair prices. And all food tastes great. No one in Stardew Valley has any allergies. Food lasts for very long and doesn't spoil quickly.

Different types of food have different magical effects on me. Like health, energy, speed, strength, etc. I can see their attributes and details by making a menu pop up about the items that only I can see and interact with. Same with knowing how much an item will sell for.

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I hope you enjoyed reading about my Stardew Valley DR! Feel free to take inspiration for your own Stardew Valley DR from my blog if you have one or wish to make a script for one! I hope that this post was entertaining and helpful.♡

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And I hope you have a great day/evening/night!♡

❘༻༺❘Intro:❘༻༺❘

I am Kay Crouse. 'Crouse' is pronounced as 'Cruise'. I am a FTM bigender person, and my pronouns are He/They. I am an adult. I have shifted over 80+ times since the 19th of September 2020. This is my journey leading up to me shifting so many times:

❘༻༺❘Methods:❘༻༺❘

These are the methods that I mainly use to shift with.

Intend/Intention Method.

Pillow/Pillow Holding/Pillow Cuddling Method.

Lucid Dreaming Method.

❘༻༺❘Methods that I have tried:❘༻༺❘

•Raven Method: Ughhh, I felt uncomfy laying on my back, and my limbs hurt a lot. So this isn't the method for me. I have gotten a lot of symptoms using it, though. I do think I've shifted with it before, too.

•Eye Method: The very first method that I Mini-shifted at school during a test with. It was really disorienting and unexpected. It was quite shocking and was the starting point of me believing that shifting was indeed possible.

•Alice in Wonderland Method: Felt extremely close and could visualize everything extremely well.

•Heartbeat Method: Felt a hand on my head, playing with my hair. I believe it to have been Natsu Dragneel from the anime Fairytail as that was the very first place that I wanted to shift to when I found out about shifting. I also swear that my pillow was moving and breathing at some points.

•Julia Method: Not much happened, I just got into a deep state of meditation, which felt strange.

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My Shifting Journey is a strange one. This post just explains more about my life and what struggles I had to go through to get where I am now, and it has some educational things as well. Feel free to ask questions, and I will try my best to answer. I am new to Tumblr, however, and also get overwhelmed easily, so please keep that in mind if I don't answer.

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❘༻༺❘Back story❘༻༺❘

《I feel like everything in my life have led up to me learning about Reality Shifting.》

《Remember that this is MY PERSONAL experiences.》

•Ever since I was young, I have always loved fantasy and all things considered magical. I was so mesmerized by magic and powers. When I first found out about subliminals, my whole life had changed. I used almost every subliminal I could find, and many of them worked really well! I experimented with a lot of things. I used eye color changing subs, physical appearance subs, magical ability subs, manifesting subs, grow wings or fangs subs, even go to fictional world subs before I even knew about shifting or I tried to manifest fictional characters here, etc... Basically, whatever I thought was interesting, I used.

•I don't really use subliminals much anymore, though. I found that I don't need them. And when I do listen to subliminals, I do so during the day when I'm not shifting, like while I play video games or do chores or eat. Lately, I've been listening to mha related shifting subliminals. I realize that I prefer subliminals that are more musically inclined rather than rain or static sounds. I like listening to music in subliminals as it helps me connect to my DRs(Desired Realities) better.

•I also had many paranormal encounters in my life. My house is kind of haunted. I am the type of person who has to see things in order to believe them. I ended up roaming the internet and finding out about spirituality, the paranormal, magical abilities, manifesting, law of attraction, psychic things, and many more. I live in house number 13 for anyone who's superstitious. Also, 13 is my favorite number, and Friday the 13th is my favorite day. I also adore Halloween.

•I was so interested in all of these things that I made it my lifelong goal to learn as much of it as I possibly can. I had to study and research it in secret, because of my family not really supporting such things, my mother did have some books I might have "stolen" about certain topics I was interested in, Like: dreams, Tarot, Mediums, Psychics, Spirituality. I have tarot cards, but I don't know how to use them or what they mean just yet. Although I don't feel as motivated as I used to be about all of these things.

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•Then I found out about Lucid dreaming, I watched so many videos about it, and it took me like a week of doing constant reality checks each day to have my very first Lucid dream. I had a great time learning about Lucid Dreaming. A few months pass, and I learn how to control my dreams so much better and make them last longer.

•Each time that I Lucid dreamt, I learned more and more about it and myself. I would get better at many things in the dream, and it was like I was practicing doing things in my dream. What I mean by that is the very first Lucid dream that I had. I tried to fly, and I struggled to do so a lot at first. Now, when I have a Lucid Dream, though, I can fly really well because I actually practiced flying a lot in my dreams. It is like I improved over the months/years. And now I just believe I my ability to do certain things in lusid dreams and even in my regular dreams I have gained more confident in my abilities.

•Then I took a break, for a really long time and I forgot about everything. Until I rediscovered this magical life again. I first found out about shifting on tiktok, I still remember the tiktoker who talked about it. I was so intrigued and confused and started researching it. I clicked on every video that I could and then went to Amino after some time.

•I have been looking for a way to go to different realities by using subliminals before I even knew about shifting. After I had the basic idea of what reality shifting was, I promised myself that I will Never Give Up. I am just a really stubborn person, and even if there was just a slight chance of going to the places I yearned to go to for so many years, I was going to take it. And when I make a promise to myself, I take it extremely seriously.

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•Then I practiced and experimented. I never gave up. I did sleep and awake methods, I meditated, although I sucked at it, and I'm not sure it was actual meditation most times. I drank a lot of water, which was really helpful for my health in general, although not at all necessary as I later discovered. I have unfortunately been a victim of 2020 shifttok misinformation for the longest time. My first full shift happened 18 days after I found out about reality shifting, I found out about it on the 19th of September 2020. I did have a mini-shifting experience a few days before that, however. That first shift set my journey in motion. I then began to obsess over shifting, and I counted every single day that passed that I would do something shifting related. I would be like, " Day 179 of my shifting journey, today I did this and this' in my shifting journals, and it was so overwhelming. I heard about taking a break and took a break for a week or so, and that helped me a lot. Ever since I took that break, I started to shift a lot more often. Taking breaks does not set you back in your progress at all. It actually helps a whole lot! I definitely recommend taking breaks.

•I have been documenting each and every little thing in my shifting journey. I type everything in a custom notes app on my phone and write it down in my many shifting journals that I own. (A Shifting Journal is just a normal journal I write Shifting related things in, this includes my scripts, experiences, methods and just overall shifting information, I also use it like a diary in a way. I have rebranded the title of these journals to 'Whatever Journals' now.)

•Having a shifting journal is not necessary, I just use it because it helps me organize everything, and I enjoy using it. I began to experience so many amazing things in these realities that I was shifting to, and I learned a lot that I wanted to document for myself and to potentially post about one day, which I guess I'm doing now again.

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•But everything isn't always perfect. I have cried a lot over my DR's/WR's and I got extremely frustrated multiple times. Many of my shifts were spaced out by a few days to even weeks when I first started, but recently it's been months in-between my shifts, which frustrated me a lot, however I am a lot more calm about everything now and I learned to take everything one step at a time and not to worry about how long it was taking me. I am going to shift regardless, inevitably anyway. Time doesn't matter.

•I also got traumatized in some of these realities that I have shifted to, and that sucks. I have maladaptive daydreaming disorder as well, I feel like this aided me with visualization, though. I absolutely enjoy visualizing a lot and find it quite easy to do so. I use visualization often during shifting attempts.

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•I honestly don't even feel like a Master Shifter, even though so many people have said that I am one and that I motivate them a lot and that I inspire them. That's really great, I'm truly so grateful for everything this community has done for me. I just feel like I am still too inexperienced to be called a Master Shifter even though I have shifted so many times already. However, I understand that I AM a Master Shifter, and I'm accepting it more now. It just feels weird sometimes.

•In truth, I still struggle going to specific realities, and I struggle to stay for long periods of time in these realities. I am getting a lot better at it, though, and that's really great! I'm making amazing progress. I have started to have more of a 'say' in everything, I guess, I now choose when I shift back, and that is a huge achievement for me!

•Usually when I would shift and think about my CR too much I ended up shifting back, now that I practiced and experimented with a lot of things I only shift back when I intend to do so now! Most times, oof. I also learned that even if you just think about your Safe Word, you won't Shift back if you don't have the intention to do so. Which I knew already. But it was cool to solidify that belief.

•What I'm working on now is going to specific places because my subconscious got so used to going to random realities (on purpose sometimes) that I feel like it's hard for me to go to specific realities now, even though I know it's not hard at all, I still have this limiting believe. I guess I should just reprogram my subconscious mind then. However, I don't really want to as I don't feel like I need to. I know that I can shift wherever I want whenever I want.

•I am also working on staying longer than 3 days, seeing as that is the longest time I have spent in a reality so far. I am still on this journey and have a lot left to learn. I will Never Give Up, these are the words I live by. I am a bit uncertain about one reality I may have potentially shifted to that could have been about a month DR time, but I think I was mostly jsut drugged or something and everything is such a hazy memory of an underground basement. So I don't know much about that, but I did think of it as a shift at the time.

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•I adore helping people and one of my reasons why I am shifting back here is to tell my stories and experiences and share my knowledge with as many people as I can. Also-shocker- I actually like my CR and plan on living here to see what happens.

•When I started my Journey I didn't have that many doubts, I did still have some doubts, but because of my past experiences I was extremely open minded. I didn't really question how it was possible, I was just happy that something like Shifting existed and that I finally had a way to go to the places I always wanted to go to.

•I tried finding all of the correct information and I wanted to learn as much as I possibly could about Shifting and all of its sub-categories so that I could teach more people about it and answer almost any questions that they had. I don't know all of the answers to every question, though. Many people have asked me some really creative questions already, and those really amazed me and helped me think more out of the box.

•I have helped a lot of people and taught them how to shift and gave them tips and so much information. I became the person I wished I had when learning about reality shifting. A downside I have is that I do get overwhelmed and tired when I help too many people at one time. I feel drained and have to recharge for a few days to be able to help people again. Which really sucks.

•I had to research everything on my own, I didn't really have anyone I could count on. When I was a 'baby shifter' and I asked a question, I didn't get an answer. So I got the answers all on my own and promised never to let someone go through what I had to go through to get the information. So now I try my best to help everyone get correct, reliable information. Although I'm only human, at least in this reality, I'm not human in most places that I have shifted to, so I do make mistakes.

•I gave people info that took me months to gather, I answered their questions when no one else would. Because I knew what that felt like. Also, I would consider myself really good at manifesting as well. I have manifested quite a lot of things already.

•I have manifested almost my entire life at this point. I have manifested: money, clothes, love, food, etc... And I get so many Lucid dreams more often now, too. I can also talk to my subconscious mind through Lucid Dreaming, and that taught me a lot as well about myself and confused me even more, haha.

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❘༻༺❘My view on Shifting now:❘༻༺❘

•I feel like a lot of people are making shifting this big, unachievable thing when it is actually normal and effortless and a natural part of our existence. I don't think people should make shifting this super amazing thing that is put on a pedestal and treat it as something normal.

❘༻༺❘Shifting isn't above you. You are above Shifting.❘༻༺❘

❘༻༺❘NORMALIZE SHIFTING.❘༻༺❘

•I get it though, I thought shifting was this incredible thing at first, and I still think it's great, but after actually doing it for so long it's like I'm just telling stories about my normal life, I find it strange, It's really complicated. Shifting just feels normal to me now. View Shifting like something that just naturally happens to you, which it does!

•I love helping people a lot, I share my experiences to motivate others and to help them get answers to questions that they have. However, I do get overwhelmed and drained easily when I help people for really long periods of time, and I don't take the time to take care of myself as often as I should. Although I have been trying to get better in that regard.

•I have been working on self care a lot and have gotten so much better already. My self-concept is decent enough, and my advice would be to treat yourself like royalty. I treat myself like a king and realize my self-worth, and I gained so much more confidence in myself and my ability to shift. Trust yourself.

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❘༻༺❘"The Final Push".❘༻༺❘

Many people asked me what I did to finally shift. Some people argue about what the final push really is. I think it is letting go, not like giving up, but just when you are at the edge of shifting relax as much as you can and have that feeling of sinking/relaxing into your DR overcome you. Don't force yourself into it. Steadily sink into the feeling of being in your DR and BEING your DR self. Merge with yourself, I guess.

•Also don't keep count of how long it's taking you to shift. That is irrelevant. You will shift eventually anyway, you have your entire lifetime, so relax and enjoy the journey. Everyone is different, and each person has something that works for them while that might not work for others. Find what works best for you and stick with it. Keep experimenting and practicing with different things. Everyone's journey will be different, make yours fun.

•For me, I just go with the flow, I usually use sleep methods, but I also used some awake methods too and shifted that way before. It feels like the world is physically transitioning around me sometimes. it's like when people say you can feel your surroundings changing. That does actually happen sometimes, and it's so weird when you are not prepared for it. Although that has only happened to me around 2 or 3 times.

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I hope that this cleared some things up and that it made sense. I feel like a few things don't make sense.😅💀This post is also all over the place, but oh well.🤷‍♀️ Anyway, Happy shifting!😄 You CAN and WILL shift! I believe in each and every one of you!💖

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