WOT WOT WOT

Today my grandfather also thought he would be a funny bitch, and he passed a few hours ago. He was close to my mom and they used to make jokes a lot at eachother, so it's funny in a dark way. I've spent my day talking with my aunt, and just called my dad. Sigh.

Also my sister is staying longer than my dad, after getting retraumatized by all this. And will be more insufferable in the future. That sounds so callous but she is fucking insufferable and acts like she's the only one ever grieving and makes it impossible for anyone else to feel anything without playing the suffer-lympics. She acts like she can save everyone and fix everything and then is all fucked up about it because she's being unrealistic.

I'm pretty pissed about a lot of things, but especially that I didn't get to see my grandfather in his last week because no one contacted me and told me what was going on and if I should go up. I'm so tired~!!!!

Today's update is, on top of the feeling my grandmother is trying to kill him, my grandfather asked my dad to be his power of attorney. My dad has always been the closest to him, so I can't say I'm surprised. He wants my dad to do what he knows he wants done, because my dad is honest to a fault.

My biggest health fear is cancer actually, because I'm already like a shitty pedogree little white dog who is one sneeze away from death. (I'm joking but my health is ridiculous sometimes. Especially with how often I get weird news when I go in.)

So it's just like oh. Btw, uterine cancer, brain cancer, whatever the weird four strands of cancer my aunt has going on - pleaaaase....