Miztic

It's time for me to let you. I love to deeply and to fast. We are not what we needed this time I will leave before we both get hurt

I'm not meant for love. Not even magic can fix how I feel.

How was I suppose to know that all the things over the years were to have this effect. How was I suppose to know I would end up here finally after abusive relationships I end up in a great one only to be the cause of its destruction. I've pushed everyone away over the years I dont know how to let anyone in. I thought I didnt matter I thought my words and actions were unseen . I never thought I could hurt someone but now that's all I do. I am the toxic person that I fought to so hard not to be. I never wanted to be a victim i turned into the victimizer

Loneliness becomes a murderer in the dark

Sometimes it happens where you want something or someone you shouldn't. When every part of your being is saying that it is wrong but that small voice from your heart speaks up and says dont give up. Ignore this voice, dont answer its call, and what ever you do, Do Not let it speak louder than your brain today.

Love conquers all....... I recently got this tattoo as a reminder to myself that love will beat all the odds. Love of others and love of self this is my tribute to self healing from self harm. I look at this and remember that love is the only thing in this world worth living for.

2018 has been nothing but a rollercoaster full of powerful emotions and changes. This year I am going through a divorce, living back with my parents, and non stop issues with my car and money. I have tried so many things to get back to myself to feel happy again. I have found myself seeking comfort from religion being close to the earth and others that feel that connection makes me feel closer to my true self. Lacking an outlet to post and feeling like my voice is limited has brought me to post here.

Intrusive Feelings Painting