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How to survive a depressive episode, short fiction by Arfie

But it doesn’t start like that. It’s starts like, waking up to your alarm but making the decision to sleep through class anyways. Or, like, ignoring text messages and crossing the street prematurely to avoid speaking to a friend. Being a master at avoiding. Avoiding the weird stomach pain that you get remembering that class you skipped. Avoiding thinking about food because you haven’t eaten in 24 hours. Avoiding sleep, that one is hard for you. There’s a healthy level of concern. Are you feeling down? From your mother. Are you sure you don’t want me to pick something up for you? From your roommate, she’s going to Trader Joe’s. The girl in your French class you text compulsively for notes isn’t ignoring you yet, so you don’t fail. You’re ok. It’s a slump.

the Cruncher: you start at the hook end and chew your candy cane to pieces. you are forthright and impatient. behind your back people call you an asshole, but lovingly. how do you cope with that much hard candy stuck in your teeth.

the Snapper: you start at the hook end and snap off bite-sized pieces, eating each piece before you unwrap the next segment. you are life’s natural planner. so orderly you probably use colour-coded excel spreadsheets for your groceries. you never forget to do all that seasonal cleaning apartment therapy tells me to do and i never do. like dusting your baseboards. you probably do that.

the Unwrapper: you start at the long end and unwrap the whole thing so you can clutch it stickily in your bare hands. you beautiful rule-breaking moth. nobody should touch a candy cane with their bare fingers. what is wrong with you.

the Shiv: you start at the long end and suck it into the deadliest seasonal weapon. you definitely have siblings. probably you were raised in a household where weapons as toys were discouraged. probably you’re also kind of awkwardly masochistic.

When the Japanese struck Pearl Harbor on Dec. 7, 1941, Aiko Herzig-Yoshinaga (then Aiko Yoshinaga) was a senior at Los Angeles High School.

She remembers the day the following spring that her principal took the Japanese students aside and said, “You’re not getting your diplomas because your people bombed Pearl Harbor.”

Japanese-American families on the West Coast were rounded up and sent to internment camps. Yoshinaga was worried that she would be separated from her boyfriend, so to the horror of her parents, Yoshinaga and her boyfriend eloped.

The Yoshinaga family was sent to the Santa Anita, Calif., detention center, and later to Jerome, Ark. Meanwhile, Yoshinaga and her new in-laws were sent to Manzanar, near Death Valley. Yoshinaga remembers their first day as hot and dusty, even though it was only April. The barracks where the family lived were crowded and sparsely decorated.

At 92, A Japanese-American Reflects On The Lessons Of Internment Camps

When I’m in a trusting relationship I don’t feel the need to check in on or force the presence of the other person. 

If I’m drunk I’m most likely with my friends and I don’t want to tear my time away from them to text someone that isn’t there. 

When I don’t receive drunk texts I know it’s because my s/o is enjoying their time with their friends/ having a good time/ has passed out.

I am not their keeper, I do not need to be barraged by messages of love/ frustration/ hidden sober thoughts (which can indicate a bad relationship or just self issues with showing intimacy, I’ve done this)

If I trust someone and they trust me, this shouldn’t be a “requirement” for them to be the one. 

AND If I’m in the same place as the person I’m dating, I’m most likely with them or will end up with them at the end of the night and don’t need drunk texts.

Hey friends! It’s that time again!

To say thank you to all my followers and also (early?) happy holidays, I’m doing another giveaway! Unfortunately, money isn’t flowing fantastically, so I’m giving away something that’s been sitting unloved in my stash for a while!

So this time around, I’ll be giving away 3 skeins of Cascade 220. The 3 skeins pictured are the 3 I will be sending you!

To enter, all you need to do is:

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And lastly some important technical need-to-know about the giveaway:

the giveaway ends December 1st, 2016

this giveaway is open internationally! (Shipping from the US)

if you are under 18, please make sure everything is a-okay with your parents about giving me your address

I’ll give the winner 24 hours to respond to me, I’ll pick another winner if I don’t get a response, I’ll announce the winner after I get a response