I started to get tired 4 hours ago but my best friend started having an anxiety attack and texted me. She’s feeling better now though so I’d say it was worth it.

I've never been a drinker. Always said I'd never get drunk, but if there were ever a day or even a moment, this would be it

They said they were doing okay... but dad slept on the couch again today.

Friend: "I'm an asshole." * pays for entire outing despite my protests and demands a hug before I leave.* Yep you're a real asshole. I totally believe you.

You act like I didn't see this coming. Like the months of conversations so carefully executed but so painful they were like walking on broken glass weren't an indicator. That sleeping on the couch was something that all happily married men did. I'm not an idiot dad. Don't think that I didn't know that the only thing keeping the two of you civil was me. That I didn't hear the harsh words when you thought I was busy. I heard, I noticed, and the word divorce was never far from my mind. So don't think that I didn't see this coming. I saw it. Sadly that doesn't make this any easier either.

I'd always felt bad for kids with divorced parents and here I sit about to become one of them.

Just this year I graduated from high school and in a month or so I'll be moving on to college and while I'm really excited for that I'm also worried. I'm not worried about college let's just get that out of the way. No I'm worried about my parents. You see in the last few years their marriage hasn't been the best. My mom's ex boyfriend Gary (recently divorced and a nice guy really!) moved to our town and my mom formed a friendship with him. This understandably made my dad uncomfortable and they've had many fights about him. On top of this we recently ended up in financial trouble. My mom blames my dad and really he probably could have done more to prevent this problem but it is what it is. So between Gary and almost losing our house there hasn't been a lot of positive emotions between them recently and I think the only reason they don't scream at each other most of the time is because here I am sitting in the living room looking between the two of them and when I'm gone there will be no buffer. I am their youngest child and the last one living with them. Without me here I'm afraid of how heated these arguments might get and I'm afraid of how far they'll go when there's no child to remind them what their love can create...

I took a break from reading Game of Thrones to read The Lord of the Rings. What am I doing with my life?

You couldn't have known that this wide eyed girl who'd never been kissed could be the cause of your destruction. That her pink lips could turn the color of your blood and that those cautiously stepping converse could be traded in for sharp black heels that were all the better for stomping you with. You couldn't have known that with the right amount of confidence those inviting eyes could turn so hard with arrogance. That her sweet shy little smile could become a condescending smirk. You couldn't have known that nurture would turn her into a monster. That her smoky eyelids were a preview of what she'd leave you with. You couldn't have known that lashes that hid averted eyes could be so black. She was only the soft light from the lantern until you broke her out and now she leaves ashes in her wake. But you couldn't have known that holding her like that could break the glass. You'd always loved playing with fire until you learned just how much those burns could hurt. You set a fire you couldn't put out and now everything's burnt.

A conversation with my best friend about a guy. "He says he's willing to give it another shot." "..." "Are you going to kill someone?" "No. It's progress." "Aren't you mad at me?" "I'm not. I just want you to be happy. If you think you can work it out and be happy go for it." "I'm so thankful for you. Everyone else is mad at me but you're still supporting me." "I don't ever want you to feel like everyone is against you for doing something you think will make you happy." "That is what it feels like right now. But I'm just going to do what makes me happy." I want you to be happy. You're my best friend. But I don't think it'll work. I think he'll break your heart for a third time. The truth though is that I don't want you to feel alone. The truth that I'm tired. I'm tired of fighting you on this. You're set in your opinions on the situation. Might as well make sure you don't make it worse. Make sure I don't make it worse. If I'm crying over being at odds with you and nothing else is happening to me how can it possibly be affecting you? I don't need to add to that stress. Now understand I still think you're making a mistake but I've made my peace with it. It's your choice.