TK

Rant about job and gender

At my job we were supposed to be supplied with two shirts, I didn’t know that I just bought myself the men’s collared shirt. My supervisor said I was supposed to have two so she went into the inventory to give me a new shirt, the women’s designed shirt. I’m a closeted trans masculine presenting agender so I’m not really open with my identity at work so I didn’t say anything of course. It’s perfectly fine for whoever likes female designed shirts I just believe they are SO aggravating.

It’s. design. It’s like adjacent to pockets that are fake pockets. It’s a collared t-shirt but it’s collar is perpetually useless because it doesn’t have buttons. Why is it that it has to show my collar bones?? I usually wear a shirt under my work shirt as well so you are gonna inevitably see my stupid colored shirt underneath with a graphic because I don’t have blank shirts. It’s length also, it cuts off at where my shirt usually ends so it looks like I have a little t-shirt skirt. I can laugh at that aspect though, I look silly. Shorter sleeves and slimmer around the sides. IT SUCKS IT SUCKS. ITS NOT FOR ME. It could’ve been so simple to ask for a men’s medium and have no further questions asked.

I feel that being trans in a work space is very unconventional (not saying that it is) because not a lot of people can understand you. I’m fighting an internal war with gender while also having social anxiety with my coworkers. Despite the space also being queer?.. I still feel unsafe. I could list off three homosexual people who work there but I feel like there’s a growing distinction between lgb and tqia unfortunately. I have family who are gay but say themselves that they don’t “understand” transgender people.

Upset doodles

Bruh they have stolen so much of my time

It’s always up to Kikuo for making me feel the most gut wrenching feelings while listening to his silly tunes.

I have a short animation idea now. It’d have to be carnival esque and super fun but also dreadfully overwhelming.