I got waitlisted by NYU back in december and it's generally been a pretty agonizing experience. like I applied back in october to the first early decision deadline and now it's been almost 7 months and I still do not have my decision. I mean, it cannot possibly be this difficult. I didn't go to high school, I have no experience in the arts, I have no money, maybe I'm a decent enough writer for them to overlook all that, but apparently not decent enough to avoid whatever purgatory dimension they've trapped me in. how do they not know what to do with me at this point, why are they even waitlisting early decision applicants in the first place, is there really a chance they're going to put me through 8+ months of uncertainty (when they know I didn't apply anywhere else) only to not end up admitting me, why won't they just accept me if they think I'm qualified, for the love of everything good in this world PLEASE just let me IN
but I digress. I'm trying to come to terms with everything (which is kind of difficult because I've been given basically no information and what little information they did give me I was almost immediately able to disprove. which is a concern for another day) and in a way I guess I feel like I'm where I should be, somehow. I spent so much of my application talking about how much I miss being part of a community and how much I want to help people -- those were some of the biggest reasons I wanted to go to NYU in the first place. I've been talking with a lot of other people on the waitlist over the past couple weeks and I feel like I've formed some genuine connections. I've been collecting data on the waitlist admits I see and keeping it in a spreadsheet to give people a better understanding of what's going on (since god knows the school won't tell us anything) and being able to help people in that way, even though it's such a small thing, just kinda makes me feel like I have a purpose in this world again. and as frustrated as I've been these past few months, it's kinda funny to recognize NYU did end up giving me what I was looking for, even though they still haven't accepted me.