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am i the only one who gets a little hard seeing the blood well up around a cut

fuck oh my god i woke up to a message from my cousin saying we can match im gonna be sick

i hate waking up after it all. im jst going back to bed

im sorry i couldnt stay longer. at least i'll be happier.

no one would miss me. i should just do it tonight.

im only wanted for my personality. even then im probably only kept for pity.

even if they did, they'd probably move on in a day or so. i never really mattered in the end. ill never be someones first choice, always a second or last choice.

no one would notice anyways. at least no one online. they'd probably ignore my icon being offline for weeks into months. they'd never wonder "what happened to cater?"

no one likes me when im sad. no one likes me when im happy. whats the point of being alive anymore?

i cant take being happy anymore. im so tiredof pretending to be all joyous when i can barely get out of bed. i rarely remember the things i do, i keep forgetting who i am. i cant take this anymore. ijustwant to finally be free.

proved a point.. lul.. its ok ig. the only reason im still here is 4 fictional characters anyways