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Best friend in high school can mean, most of the time, first love in high school. Between you and Juyeon it would be no different. Best friends, first love for each other, first time in absolutely everything. It was like that until the end of high school where his family had to move to another country. He always said that he hated this instability of his father's job that had taken away a lot of important things from him - you were, without a doubt, one of those things - and Juyeon knew that keeping something away wasn't the same thing as always being close to you.

University. A year and a half without seeing him and not knowing anything else about him. For the anger – and a bit of childishness you later admitted – you felt that he had gone even though the boy wasn't to blame.

Lee Juyeon was back after two years away. He had changed, his hair longer and silkier and fluttering as the wind on campus beat against his face and consequently made the strands look messy. But even so, he was still handsome. And without having come to talk to you. Reason? Park Deokwan, your boyfriend of a few months.

Juyeon felt bile in his throat every time Jacob and Haknyeon talked about Deokwan and how they found you two. Your friends thought Juyeon might have gotten over you, he thought so too, but that's not what his heart said after seeing you at the first frat party after returning to that university.

You were always beautiful to him, you always left him with his heart racing and his eyes shining just at the sight of your body walking through the blinks of light in that room with the most beautiful clothes he had ever seen you wear. But why was Deokwan holding your hand? Why had he kissed you and you smiled at him? Why wasn't Juyeon there? He was hating to think of it that way, even more when you could see how happy you were. One thing he couldn't do.

“Hey man” Jacob carefully pushed his coffee cup towards Juyeon the day after the party “This will ease your hangover.”

“Thanks” Juyeon smiled and thanked him, drinking some of the dark, sugar-free liquid that made him instantly grimace “Really, Cobie?”

“Do you want glucose?” he smiled shyly seeing his friend agree “Or do you want something even stronger so you can forget about y/n?”

Juyeon was grateful for his instinct not to drink when Jacob started talking, or knew he'd have coffee on the table when he spit it out as soon as he heard him finish that sentence.

“Jacob Bae. Bae Joonyoung…”

"Don't call me that" the other guy defended himself "I'm just telling the truth" he shrugged his shoulders "And if it was a lie, you'd be more concerned with denying than scolding me."

Damn little friend shit, he thought as he finished his coffee. And as he faced that semester watching you and Deokwan in a romantic mood, coffee would be little to put up with all that thing he swore he couldn't.

“I can't still love her” Juyeon whimpered one Friday night, sitting on that lounge chair at his frat house listening to Sunwoo play the guitar.

“Anything is possible my friend” Eric raised his beer bottle in an imaginary toast and smiled “Just as there is a possibility that y/n is only with him now to make you jealous.”

"What?" Juyeon practically screamed. At that moment Sunwoo stopped running his fingers on the guitar string and stared at the two who were looking at each other without stopping.

“Eric, don't talk nonsense and don't give him false hope” Sunwoo tried to warn.

A bit of silence as the youngest sipped his beer, chuckling.

“Hey come on” he finished his drink in one gulp, leaning back from the porch frame and walking to the back door “Your relationship is gone, but my friendship with her has remained intact Lee. And you can be sure I know what I'm talking about.”

Eric really knew. He knew you liked Deokwan, but he was never able to fully surrender after Juyeon. Not that you didn't want to, you just couldn't be in someone's arms and thinking about your first – and only – love.

It was like a betrayal.

But Deokwan hadn't bonded with any of that, he barely knew about his past relationship with Juyeon. Just knew that he was from the circle of friends and that he was new to the university, and since Deokwan liked new friends, it was easy to invite Juyeon to almost every meeting and party. Even though you couldn't face him in most of them, but he was there. The cup in his hand and the rogue smile as he talked to everyone until his eyes met yours.

This was language without a single sound that you had to get out of there or something might happen. Something you've tried to hold on to until that moment.

“Y/n” his voice saying your name couldn't make your legs wobble so much. His heart almost popped out of his mouth and his fingers almost broke the cup of the beer bottle as he slowly closed the fridge door.

“Hi” you tried to look nonchalant with the fact that Juyeon was right there in the kitchen with you. Just the two of them at that party when he could be anywhere else.

“How long” not even he knew how to start a conversation, nervousness was evident as Juyeon ran his free hand through his hair in a failed attempt to hold your ground. Without even a sigh when you finally faced him.

"I think, well… I have to go."

“Are you going to stay with Deokwan? Right in front of me?” his footsteps stopped, simply lacking the strength in his legs to continue on his way out of the kitchen. Juyeon didn't know where so much courage came from saying all that.

Maybe it was the conversations with Eric where he assured you that your feelings for Deokwan were gone. You knew so, you just had no idea that your best friend had just told Lee Juyeon.

“What do you mean by that, Juyeon?” your voice was shaky, pure nervousness as your body swiveled to face the boy who hadn't moved a muscle since he walked into that kitchen.

"I wonder if he knows that I touched your skin" the first step toward you had been taken, you at least moved after he took another step. Juyeon didn't smile, eyes fixed on yours "If he knows you don't love him anymore" by now you knew Eric Sohn had his finger on it, knew he was the big culprit for almost all of Juyeon's courage. Just didn't know I'd be grateful for the next steps.

Juyeon's hand touched your face, the icy fingers made your entire skin tingle and eyes quickly closed as the boy brought his face closer. You should walk away, you should run away and say you couldn't do this.

But a completely drunk Jacob appeared there. The noise of cups falling from the kitchen counter made Juyeon startle along with you, both of you separating to see the other boy apologizing numerous times while looking at you and his friend.

“Shit, I got in your way” he grumbled “Eric and Sunwoo are going to kill me for this, sorry!”

So they told you something, you thought. It could only be since Juyeon knew you didn't love Deokwan. But the question wasn't even that, and yes, how? How could he know something so personal that you had only told – obviously – Sunwoo and Eric.

"I just came to drop off these cups that were scattered in the hallway and—" Jacob looked around trying to find another excuse that wouldn't embarrass him so much for getting in the way of you and Juyeon, but he just couldn't. His drunken brain didn't help him much either.

“How about we get out of here to make Cobie more comfortable?” Juyeon's voice was like a whisper and you wondered how you heard with all that loud music and screaming inside the house. It was clear as daylight because he was still close enough to you.

Your brain wanted to scream no, you really wanted to deny that request, but found yourself with your hand clasped in his as Juyeon walked you out of that party. None of your friends objected to seeing you go out with him, not least because they knew you needed it. Even you knew, you just didn't want to admit to yourself that Lee Juyeon's return had stirred your insides so much.

"What? Where do you think we're going?” finally your voice came out after a while, your hand let go of Juyeon's as he stopped beside his own car. The keys between his fingers and his gaze lingering on you as he interspersed nervous figure and the car that had been unlocked by the alarm.

"To a quieter place, maybe" he shrugged as if that was the most normal thing in the world.

“You're unbelievable” your laugh was a mixture of desperation, nervousness and, who knows, a little nostalgia.

"Why?" Juyeon didn't move, his eyes always fixed on you and the keys still playing in his fingers as his voice became more serious “Are you afraid to be seen with me, y/n? Are you afraid he'll see you here?” you didn't know how to answer that and that's what was scaring you the most. Juyeon then decided to approach, his steps slowly towards you and stopping right in front of you. Now his hands hovered at his sides.

“I know I have no right to say anything…”

"And do not have. Because you left” was a scrap of courage inside you that needed to say that. All that time repressing a conversation around Juyeon's return was happening in the most random way, but you needed to enjoy “You literally went to another country and come back like nothing happened, Juyeon. And I hate you so much for messing with me it's like you never left.”

"Y/n…"

“I don't love Deokwan anymore, that's true” you sighed trying not to cry at that moment. A lot of things inside you happening and crying was the only way out, but maybe after he was no longer in front of you "But it's true that I also hate you for coming back and acting this way."

Walking away from him like that had been more painful than the first time.

Two weeks locked inside your room and living on fast food and TV movies. Your friends understood and none of them forced you to leave the room, even if the attempts were daily. You were grateful that exam week had passed, or you would have to go to campus, and sure enough, the risk of bumping into Juyeon would be much greater.

In there you were safe. Or at least you thought so.

“Come back here!” the shouts from downstairs were so normal to you if it weren't for the male voice retorting as the footsteps on the stairs became steady and louder.

“I promise it will be quick” it wasn't possible that Juyeon was there, inside your frat house.

“Juyeon, she's not…” your friend's voice trailed off as he opened the door. You, even hearing everything, jumped in fright as you stared at the worried look of the boy in front of you along with the scared look of your friend.

"I tried" she pouted, quickly slapping his arm "Get out, let's go."

"I-"

“You can leave it here” you said.

"Really?" your friend and Juyeon asked at the same time, both in disbelief thinking you would say otherwise, but no. If he was there for something important, then you had to listen to him even if it was the last thing you did.

“I'll be downstairs if you need it” your friend directed a loving look at you, looking now at Juyeon “Hyunjae left his hockey stick here, anything I run upstairs and I won't be afraid to use it.”

She closed the door right away.

“Always so loved” Juyeon smiled awkwardly after a while, getting the first heartfelt laugh out of you.

So… It was the word that always started when the mood started to get uncomfortable, or when neither of them knew what to say. But not for Juyeon. He really had come with a purpose and he vehemently hoped to fulfill it.

“We were meant to be, y/n” you had to hold back your reaction at all costs, but that had taken you by surprise. Juyeon was convinced of what he said as he approached his bed “but a twist of fate made it so you had to walk away, and I know I'm guilty of never having tried anything.”

“Juyeon.”

"I love you" he stopped his footsteps when he got close enough "I've never stopped thinking about how much I've loved you since the first day I saw you walking into that high school" a low sigh escaped his lips, his nose burning as the memory was hit hard "Those glasses that molded your whole face, your cheeks rosy with shame because you thought you had entered the wrong room…"

“I got nervous” you pouted and laughed too, it wasn't painful to remember your first day of school. Because besides Juyeon, you met most of your friends that day.

“You made my heart flutter in a ridiculously cute way” his gaze was so bright you knew at that moment Juyeon was about to cry. You got out of bed to go around the furniture little by little, enough for him to continue talking without getting so nervous "And it hasn't stopped happening."

"You were ashamed to say that" his voice came out as a whisper at that moment.

"I don't care what people say when we're together" trying not to invade your personal space, Juyeon reached up to touch his hand. And in surprise, you intertwined your fingers to hold his hand infinitely bigger than yours "I only care what it's going to be like from now on with the two of us."

Us. You knew that it had never ceased to exist. Deep down, you knew that your heart was always with Juyeon even if it wasn't by your side. And from those lines and everything he had shown, you were absolutely sure of reciprocity.

With your free hand, you touched his face and like almost instantly, Juyeon bent down enough to be with your face at the same height as his.

"Can I kiss you?" Juyeon interspersed his gaze between your eyes and your mouth, the smile slightly crooked as you nodded.

Feeling his lips again was like riding a wave of happiness where you took your serotonin fuel. The way it all fell into place while that kiss was loaded with longing and feelings neither of you could – or would – say out loud. It was just made to feel and you knew how lucky you were to feel it for each other.

Distancing yourself at that moment was only because you needed air in your lungs, because neither of you intended to end that kiss.

“You know,” Juyeon took a breath after a few seconds without kissing you, eyes still closed and his forehead pressed against yours. That quickened breath slowly calming down along with your “I just want it to be you and I forever.”

"Do you want?" he nodded without a single moment's hesitation, you opened your eyes to see him nibble his bottom lip reddened by the recent kiss.

"I've lost a lot by your side and I don't intend to lose it again."

"Juyeon, we…"

"I know you want to leave, I know this sounds crazy because we need to talk and I just walked up to your room just like that” you laughed at how he stumbled over his own words, but that was really true. And not to mention that most likely his friends were pining downstairs hoping that everything would work out somehow “But I want to make it work and I don't intend to go anywhere without you this time.”

“What do you mean by that, Lee Juyeon?”

And with the brightest smile that ever warmed your heart, he leaned in again to kiss your lips and whisper the sweetest words.

The slight pain in his wrists was already starting to show. Repeatedly signing those albums and quickly causing Chanhee to mentally curse himself for the repetitive way of his movements, but it was necessary, or his autographs wouldn't stop anytime soon and he wanted to go home.

The grip of his fingers against the pen in search of his handwriting coming out perfect for the last few signatures, he heard Eric grumble beside him.

“Just a little longer” Chanhee tried to convince himself, although he was also just as tired as the younger one.

“Two more piles of album and let's go, hyung” he smiled making Chanhee smile too.

And time passed slowly, but not boringly, as Eric was always there to make everything a little lighter. His comments and jokes made the older friend laugh as his name was written on the last few albums in that pile of objects.

Finally, the two saluted after covering the mugs they were using, placing them in any corner of that table.

Chanhee just wanted his house and his family, was his only thought since stepping into that company in the morning. He knew his schedule was going to be exhausting, knew he had to get through the day at all costs before heading home, and now here he was in the car waiting for the driver to drop him off at the entrance to his building.

Thanking the man he saw often for always taking him or one of the boys away, Chanhee waved and quickly walked into the building. The path already memorized and his fingers running along the elevator buttons to finally press is floor.

The boy looked anxious, it was as if he hadn't done this for weeks and he was stepping there for the first time. That feeling would always wash over him until Chanhee got out of the elevator and ran the few steps to the front door of his apartment. The key turning in the lock and then peering through the opening in the door. His attention was now on the most important figures in his life right there, sitting in front of the TV.

Chanhee felt his heart swell even more as you turned to face him, the smile widening even more as he kicked off his shoes and left his bag beside the door along with his coat.

"You arrived early" your voice caught the attention of the little girl who was looking at the drawing next to you on the sofa, turning her little head towards Chanhee.

“Dad!” she yelled excitedly and jumped off the couch. At a young age you felt your heart almost jump out of your mouth thinking that an accident could happen on the way, since Chanhee hadn't even cared when he took his daughter in his arms turning her little body next to his.

"Hi my love, I missed you so much" he kissed the little girl on the cheek and hugged her even more.

His daughter's giggle made him laugh too, still holding her in his lap as he slowly approached you. Chanhee sat beside him on the couch, leaning his body forward enough that his lips reached yours in a slow kiss.

“Someone is impatient” you muffled your voice against Chanhee's lips as your daughter shifted in him lap, causing the man to move away from you.

“Mom, Dad, draw. Look!" she would point to the huge screen on which some random drawing was playing.

Until Pororo's opening music started playing. The little girl's thin scream had you both laughing as she ran to the center of the room to improvise some dance move.

“Actually, this is Choi Chanhee's daughter,” you hummed.

"Like I did it myself," he chuckled, sliding his body across the couch until he reached you. One of Chanhee's arms wraps around your shoulder to pull you closer, making your head rest on his shoulder

"How was your day?"

“Easy” you snuggled in “But we miss you so much, it's not normal to see you work on Saturdays.”

“I'm sorry, honey” he sighed displeased with that, then pressed his lips to the top of your head to kiss there “Today was the last one, you know how release season is a… bad thing” he fixed his speech by seeing his daughter of you in the room, knowing that you would probably scold him if Chanhee swore.

“We can't wait to see this next album” you were sincere, lifting your head to capture Chanhee's smiling gaze.

"Really?" he commented proudly, seeing you agreed to kiss him right away. Chanhee's hand resting on your face to deepen the kiss for a little while until you both heard the little girl mumble something.

Breaking away to look at her in the center of the room, you both noticed that she was scratching one eye and yawning hard.

“Is anyone sleepy?” you asked in a soft voice, the little one approaching you to climb into your lap.

“How about daddy put you to sleep tonight?” Chanhee kissed her forehead as she nodded, sleepy and yawning once more.

Before he could pick her up to put the little girl to sleep, he could feel his heart pounding in his chest at the scene of you fixing her hair while kissing her on the cheek and wishing her good night.

You took a deep breath and squeezed your fingers intertwined with Kevin's as they walked from his car to the front door of Haknyeon's house. Kevin has been wanting to catch you on game nights with his friends since you guys started dating a few months ago. The boys have known you for a long time, as it took you and Kevin too long to realize that you really liked each other and thus taking your relationship a step further. You mentally thanked him every time you saw his friends because they were the ones who gave that light - and important - little push so that today you could call Kevin Moon your boyfriend.

"Are you okay?" he asked softly when you two stopped in front of the door, you smiled in his direction kissing the boy's arm while cringing a little more because of the cold it was. Your thick coat wasn't keeping up or you just felt the need to sneak your body into Kevin's because of how close you were.

"I'm great" you felt his lips press yours quickly, making you both smile in that quick kiss "What about you?"

"Incredible" Kevin shot you a falsely seductive wink as he made you laugh and rang the doorbell.

Haknyeon greeted you all excitedly, nothing different from what you've seen every time you've been there. Either his house or Changmin and Chanhee's shared apartment. They were where game nights always took place and which you remember being a part of.

"You're going to play, aren't you?" Juyeon smiled at you and Kevin as the two of you sat with the others in the living room of the house. He shuffled the cards because of the previous play.

"Of course" Kevin perked up as Juyeon handed over the deck so Sangyeon could distribute it evenly.

"So y/n stays on our team" Jacob announced "You two won't be together, it's unfair."

"Why unfair?" Kevin grimaced at his friend.

"Because you guys date, it's cooler if you play against each other" Eric beckoned you to approach him, and shrugging your shoulders at liking the idea, you did.

You just didn't notice Kevin's gaze in your direction as you sat between Eric and Sunwoo. Jacob was also on your team so Kevin ended up on Juyeon's team with the other boys.

The rounds were always chaotic and funny, even more so when the opposing team lost and you could see the competitiveness between Chanhee and Sunwoo who were the ones who shouted at each other the most. While the team of both just laughed and continued the match.

Kevin's friends have always been very funny and welcoming. You met each of them through your best friend who dated Changmin at times, this made you meet Kevin one night when she decided to disappear from a party to kiss Changmin. There wasn't much left to do but sit on the couch and wait, but not when Kevin Moon sat next to you.

"Are you Ruby's friend?" Kevin had seen you a few times, but he didn't know your name. You just nodded with a quick nod thinking that something had happened to your friend that night "Cool. I'm Kevin, Changmin's friend" he had a beautiful smile "I think we were left alone by those two unnaturals."

And that's how you and Kevin started seeing each other at almost every university party after Ruby and Changmin started dating. They actually got into a relationship and you finally met his group of friends. Kevin was your closest approximation and he willingly introduced you to each of the boys. They were amazing to both you and Ruby. That's why you got so close to them without too much trouble, but that didn't stop you from feeling embarrassed when they started hinting at your crush on Kevin.

Of course, you spent more time with him than any other friend. The two of you always shared a headset at the end of a meeting with friends when everyone was too drunk to carry on a conversation. Kevin who offered to take you home first, even though you didn't live that far away. That's when Kevin unwittingly declared himself the day that you can't go because you had agreed to go out with Ruby and other friends. He felt awkward, the drink spoke louder and he simply told his passion.

At that moment everyone thought they needed to act until it really worked. You felt the same, yes. You were in love with Kevin as much as he was in love with you.

"Hey love" he called after a while, smiling in your direction. The boys had already finished playing cards, now some were simply scattered around the living room playing video games and others were in the kitchen. Kevin had crouched down right in front of you resting his hands on your knees "Do you want something to drink?"

"No, I'm fine" you leaned in to kiss Kevin's lips "Are you going to have a drink?"

"Maybe a beer" he shrugged "Changmin picked Ruby up from her mom's house, said she's dying to see you."

"I miss her so much" you haven't seen Ruby in a while since she had to travel to run some family errands. It was awful to be without your best friend, but the boys and Kevin did a great job of never leaving you alone.

"I know, baby" Kevin kissed you again, slowly this time before pulling away "Okay, don't you even want some water?"

You shook your head and smiled at him, before Kevin got up in front of you, Hyunjae entered the room with a cup that was bigger than usual and held it up.

"I'm the best bartender in this house" he smiled victoriously as he pointed to the drink in his hand "Look y/n, try it."

"I'm not going-"

"Seriously, this is great y/n. You need to drink" Eric also appeared in the room more excited than Hyunjae.

You were embarrassed not to take it well when Hyunjae was already next to Kevin with the cup extended towards him. You saw your boyfriend's look of confusion over, minutes ago, you said you weren't going to drink. And now he was pouring some of the cup with the contents that Hyunjae had made. But maybe it was nice because you asked to keep the glass and he just accepted, leaving the living room to go back to the kitchen.

"Do you want?" you stood up and pointed the cup at Kevin, he wanted to try it too, he was curious if it really tasted good.

And was. Hyunjae could feel like the best bartender in that house for sure.

"This is delicious" Kevin had to admit his friend's impeccable work preparing that drink "Now I'm going to get a beer, wait for me there" he kissed your lips once more before smiling and walking away to go to the kitchen.

Since the cup of liquor stayed with you, it was better to enjoy it until Kevin came back or until Ruby arrived with Changmin, which you were very anxious already imagining in the wails that would come out of your mouth as you missed your best friend so much.

"I found you, y/n" Sunwoo appeared at the top of the stairs catching his attention.

"Me? What do you need?"

"I need someone to beat Juyeon in that stupid game, do you want to join my team?" those deer eyes that none of the boys could resist - except for Chanhee - made you giggle as you sighed loudly.

"But I'm not that good at video games…"

"It will be you and me against Juyeon and Haknyeon in the upstairs game room, please" his pleas sounded like an eight-year-old boy begging for candy in the supermarket. You really couldn't deny it, in fact, so you just relented watching him jump excitedly up a few steps as he walked up the stairs ahead of you.

When you were halfway up the stairs you could hear Kevin calling you, you would even reply to your boyfriend saying you were going to play with Sunwoo, but Kim had been too quick to pull you into the hallway. He was so excited and trying to convince himself that you would help him beat Juyeon and Haknyeon. In the meantime, he didn't know if it was from the drink or from being unaccustomed to not having your attention for so long, but Kevin felt weird. Something inside him was bothering him, but he hoped that feeling would go away by the end of the night.

The game was only paused when Ruby arrived, taking all your time and attention as she jumped on you screaming how much she missed you. After that Changmin had managed to get his girlfriend for a drink and you returned to the game as you were winning practically every match along with Sunwoo. It was very funny to see Juyeon and Haknyeon almost screaming annoyed for not having won a single game, and they couldn't say it was unfair since the number of players was the same amount.

"Enough, someone get these two out of here" Juyeon whimpered.

"Come y/n, they don't deserve our victories" Sunwoo joked, but he didn't stop playing. You, on the other hand, got up from your chair to hand over control to Jacob. He had asked to play a little so he would replace you.

You quickly went downstairs looking for the others who had stayed downstairs and the conversation and laughter in the kitchen pierced your ears and led you straight to that room.

"Look who showed up" Ruby joked when she saw you walk into the kitchen.

"Sorry, I got carried away playing with Sunwoo" you smiled awkwardly for having been up there for a long time, looking at the clock hanging on the wall and realizing that you had spent almost two hours sitting in front of a huge television laughing and playing with Sunwoo, Haknyeon and Juyeon.

"We noticed" Kevin commented, his speech was in a playful tone, but you knowing him so well knew something was wrong. He didn't smile at you, he didn't look in your direction, he just grabbed his beer cup and left the kitchen calling for Younghoon to go into the living room.

"But what-"

"I think you could take him home" Ruby shrugged her eyes between you and Changmin.

"What happened?" you asked.

A bit of silence and the only sound came from the living room with Kevin, Younghoon and the other boys who were still watching something on the television.

"He's drunk" Changmin finally spoke, approaching you to grab you by the shoulders "And I think he's a little jealous of you."

"Jealous of me? What… Wait, what? Why?"

"You two can go home and talk" Ruby nudged Changmin and he, also a little drunk, decided to hug you instead of pulling away so his girlfriend could do it.

"And if he's really jealous, you can call us and we'll come after you right away."

"Drunk Changmin is very dramatic, really" Ruby chuckled, managing to get her boyfriend away from you after he claimed he needed to go to the bathroom. So leaving you and your friend alone in the room "Can you drive?"

"Yes" you smiled sadly knowing that Kevin was having some bad feelings, and only you could be the cause of it.

"So here it is" she held up Kevin's car keys, you were going to ask how, so Ruby continued "I convinced him to give me the keys saying he was going to take you home an hour ago. I think he drank so much he forgot."

You laughed. Kevin couldn't drive in that state, and you had been drinking for over two hours and a single cup that Hyunjae had made, the alcohol had worn off so you were the only person in that relationship sober enough to take the two of them safely away. Thinking about it, you took the keys from Ruby's hand and thanked your best friend for all the care as the two of you made their way into the living room.

Silently, you grabbed your coat and your things, searching for Kevin's coat as you slowly approached him and Younghoon.

"Hey…" you got their attention. Kevin didn't show a single smile at you as Younghoon curled his lips and closed his eyes as he smiled.

"Hi y/n, want to join us?" he asked.

"They're too busy Hoon. How about the two of us?" Kevin snapped, you just sighed trying to ignore it.

"Actually, I came to get you so we can both leave."

"Oh" Kevin looked surprised at that moment "Are you calling me now? Did you remember me?"

"Please, Kevin" you rolled your eyes trying not to say anything that would scare Younghoon or the boys in the room "Let's go home" he wanted to retort and say anything that showed his frustration but Kevin decided to stay quiet and just grab his coat that was in your hands.

He greeted everyone who was there with a slight wave and quickly left the house without even waiting for you. The boys were too drunk and too focused to notice it other than Ruby, even though Changmin was by her side the whole time.

"Tell the others upstairs that Kevin and I said goodbye, and that we loved the night" you smiled sadly at your friend, knowing she would do it even if you didn't ask.

The boy was already beside the car and with his hands in his pockets, he kept the urge to look at you well guarded while he stared at his feet and waited for you to unlock the doors so he could get in. As soon as the two were inside the vehicle and starting to warm up, you put the key in the ignition, but it didn't turn.

"Are you going to tell me why you're acting like this?" it was an attempt to talk to the boy before they got home.

"I just want to go home" for the first time he had looked directly into your eyes, and with that look you would rather not have been stared at.

His breath came out heavy and there wasn't much he could do but start and drive away, thinking of some way he could do something to make it all right.

The two of you entered the shared room in silence, just as you had been since the last sentence spoken in that car. Kevin didn't want to say anything because he was angry, and you didn't want to say anything because you didn't really know what to say. And also because silence was better at that moment until they both calmed down properly, or at least enough until bedtime.

Your eyes landed on Kevin and all his action inside the room. How he took off his clothes, how he stumbled into the bathroom to wash his face and brush his teeth, and even how he looked at you while wearing nothing but a pair of sweatpants. Kevin Moon didn't open his mouth until he sat on the edge of the bed, still silent.

"Serious?" you asked in disbelief at his attitudes, a tinge of anger on your face at that moment "You're an asshole, Kevin Moon."

"Oh, am I an asshole?" he chuckled humorlessly as he got out of bed, that didn't intimidate you or make you stop walking over to the pile of clothes that were to be washed in the morning. You took off your clothes and looked for your pajamas.

"Yes, a huge asshole. Look how you've been acting since we were at Haknyeon's house."

"Sorry if you didn't even see me in that shit house, y/n" Kevin altered his tone but instantly took a deep breath as he ran his hands through his hair watching you go to the bathroom "If you had your fucking attention to anyone in that house but less for me."

A break for you to do your hygiene before leaving the bathroom, not believing what you had heard.

"I have all the time in the world for you everyday, you're being a selfish asshole right now."

"Now I'm two pieces of shit to you, thanks for that y/n" he let you make your way across the room and turned his heels in your direction "Then why are you still with me?"

Your hands stopped in the air as you grabbed the pillows to adjust your side of the bed. Your teeth slowly slid along your bottom lip as you realized that this was the first fight you were having with Kevin, and it was so silly and baseless that your initial feeling had been for him totally drunk. Because Kevin had never been like this with you. And you had never been like this with him. You couldn't let the heat of the moment go to your head and ruin something you guys were having, but you were also lost on how to act in a situation like that.

"Answer me, y/n" he encouraged.

"You need sleep, Kevin" was the only thing that came out of your mouth when you felt his presence behind you.

Kevin didn't say anything else, turning around the bed and arranging his side to lie down. The two of you straightened up and he quickly laid his back to you, the perfect time for you to think about how to act in that situation.

It wasn't supposed to continue an argument, really, but you also couldn't ask him to talk because clearly Kevin wouldn't hear you. He would be even more nervous, causing you to be nervous too and things could get out of hand. So you just thought about doing what you always saw Ruby do to Changmin when he got mad or something.

"Kevin?" you called him, it took him a few seconds to assimilate that you really wanted to talk to him after all. The boy slowly turned towards you until he lay facing you, his eyes shining indicating that he would probably cry if you didn't call him.

His body leaned down enough to touch your lips to his, and without any objection, your passage was yielded when he wanted to deepen the kiss. Kevin's hands quickly traveled around his waist and brought your body on top of his, kissing you as hard as if the two of you hadn't kissed in months and this was the first kiss in so long. His hands braced themselves on his bare chest, one of them sliding up to Kevin's face to fit his face perfectly.

"I'm with you because I love you, idiot" you said, your voice muffled from still having your lips glued to his, sealing each part until the kiss was finally broken. Your face remained close to Kevin's, feeling both breaths mix, "I'm with you because this is where I belong."

"Y/n…Y/n I'm sorry, I…"

"Jealousy?" you asked more cautiously and it took Kevin some time to finally agree with what you were saying.

"You were paying so much attention to the boys, I drank too much, I felt bad… You mixed up so much bad stuff that-"

Your speech was cut short when you kissed him again, carefully until your lips landed on his cheek affectionately.

"Kev" you whispered.

"I was stupid, I know" he whispered back "And being drunk is no excuse for acting like that."

You straddled him and slid your body onto the bed and pulled him into a hug.

"I was stupid too and said stupid things, so I'm sorry."

"I'm sorry" he wrapped his arms around your hips to hug you against his body.

"You know" your hands quickly cupped Kevin's face which looked a little brighter since you walked into the house. You kissed his lips with every word you said, feeling him smile against his mouth "I'm only grateful to the boys because they're the ones who made me discover how much in love I've always been with you."

"Y/n…"

"Really" you smiled seeing him start to get shy about it "You should just be a little more needy today but I love your friends and I love that they treat me well and love our relationship."

"I love them too" Kevin sighed and hid his face in the crook of your neck "I was a real selfish idiot, even more after hearing you say that about them" maybe Kevin really was needy and wanted to be with you all the time, he I just didn't know that mixing drink with that feeling was such a good thing. Then he made a mental note to never do that again "And I love how they treat you because I never thought they'd like any of my partners."

"Maybe I was the nicest" you felt him tighten his arms around your body, making you laugh.

"You were the only one I introduced, and the only one I want to introduce" he aligned his face with yours again, his gaze never leaving yours.

"Next time you feel jealous, how about we sort it out another way?"

"In bed?" Kevin grinned, you slapped his arm and laughed at the reaction that lit up the guy's face with the possibility.

"Also, but how about you tell me about it? We can talk about anything."

"You're right" it was Kevin's turn to kiss you gently on the lips "That will never happen again. I promise to share your attention with them a little bit, but I'll want to be rewarded later."

"You're a bastard, Kevin Moon!" the wave of laughter filling the room made you try to wriggle out of his arms, even if you didn't want to. Just making a charm while feeling his kisses all over your body, hearing your boyfriend laugh with each kiss.