we'll walk through fire and ice

This is by no means a finish line - there is so much left to do, and learn and grow from. But growing means changing, and changing means accepting what is no longer necessary in your life, and valuing yourself enough to make the choice to move forward from it.

I could recite a long list of things in my life that no longer serve me - but all in all, they fall under a same theme. Things, people, mindsets and learned behaviours that stop me from loving myself, and living my best life, I am finding the courage to walk away from.

Insecurity has been my security blanket for so long. It’s so easy to hate yourself - our world is built on self-loathing. And I’m ready to move on.

There is so much love that surrounds me, and I’m ready to stop hiding from it. I’m ready to put the shield down- you’ve served me well through my hardest of times, but I don’t need you anymore. To live a life of security, of predictability, of only non-hurts is not a true life to live.

I had three separate panic attacks.

I eventually calmed myself down from all three. But the point is, I fucking did it.