Yapping Devil

Heya!! I have one of the most BASIC white boy names out there, but my middle and last names are trash, so just call me V or Venus (Or something, I'm trying people)!!

I'm mostly posting on here because I'm bored and lonely as hell, so don't be afraid to say hi!

I really don't know much of what to say, but what else can a bi white guy like me say?

I'm amab, I'll usually refer to myself with he/him, but I'm fine with anything, call me whatever feels natural!

Also, the theme right now is Asa Mitaka and Yoru from Chainsaw Man, if you read it, Shadow Slave, TBATE, LOTM, etc. please talk to me, I need more weirdos...

I also like Gachiakuta, I'll catch up soon!

Now, onto the more important!!

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I ain't read anything in about half a week

I been tired

I think I'll catch up with SS, then read the rest of CSM, then catch up to Gachiakuta

Then I'll go to LOTM again

I've also been playing Minecraft a lot so there's that

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I'm lwk a bit confused about my gender

Maybe I'm just tired rn

But I don't necessarily think I care about what pronouns are used for me

It's strange

Like, REALLY strange

Cus sure, I'm happy being a boy, but I think I'd be fine if I were a girl or referred to as one, it's not like an active want to be a different gender or sex, but more of an indifference. On top of that, I already have some mannerisms and potential interests that would be considered more feminine by the people around me, this could be influenced by the overwhelming presence of female role models and authority figures in my early life, but I'm unsure. Sometimes I just don't think I'd care about the pronouns used to refer to me. I feel quite peculiar, this is the gay people website so maybe someone knows what's going on or if I'm just crazy

Even stranger, I've never experienced any dysphoria regarding my gender, yes there is that post about wishing to look more feminine or androgynous, but I'm fine looking more masculine. Sometimes I've wondered what it'd be like to be of a different gender or sex, but only really in curiosity, I'm certain everyone's wondered what it's like to be different from who you are or born as.

This is all weird to me, unexplored, so uh, yeah

Wifi is so slow it's pissing me off

So uh I'll do more later

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Lowkey

I wish I looked more like a girl

Not in a "I wish I were a girl" way

I'm more than happy being a cis guy

But I wish I had a more androgynous or feminine face lwk

I remember getting femboy allegations in 7th grade (My hair was long, still is! Also, funny to see that since I an entire mustache in 7th and was much taller than most of my classmates, it was very funny!) I now realize I would probably like to look at least more androgynous.

So uh yeah that's that

Yo

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Been thinking of changing my theme

I wanna change it to Asa and Yoru

All I can say is

POOR DENJI BRO

Finally starting CSM

Liking it so far

I can see the hype

I hate it

I hate this feeling

I've wasted the whole damn summer

Saw my boyfriend thrice, didn't hang with anyone else once

I'm so sick of it

It seems like everyone around me, at least of my immediate family, has gotten everything they wanted from this summer

Feels like I was left with the scraps

I was crying for like 5 mins

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I'm sorry for inactivity

I've been playing so much minecraft it's not funny

Almost didn't catch up to SS last night cus of it

World pushing day 120 (Not hardcore, but it's bedrock on a Switch so it may as well be)

But I have caught up to SS a lot

I gotta get back into LOTM and Math, but I've got this chat

Anyways SS spoilers (up to 3110) below

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We are back to feeling mostly better today

But I've been so lazy as to do nothing but read, not even drink or eat

I'll eat at dinner time tho

V out yo

8:00 update:

Had food, some pizza and two tubs of microwavable rice