"I'm about to break. This is my fate."

note to self: stop putting effort into people who don't even return half of it

while they have moved on from you, you are stuck in a loop, left with the pain unable to heal. while they got over you, you still wonder where you could have made a turn for the better, blaming yourself for everything. you just cannot move on, wondering if you ever will.

part 2 of "the urge to disappear everywhere online", literally planning it in my head; logging out, deactivating, deleting all of my accounts on every single platform, cutting off pretty much everyone, getting a new phone number or none at all & just disappearing like i've never even been there, even moving to a different place if i could.

i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself