The Dia

Hello! I'm Dia, but literally no one calls me that 🙃

I've started this page as a journal to share things I find beautiful, deep (or not very) thoughts, some motivation, reading and studying posts. There's no definition for this page as, as well as everything and everyone in this world, I change, and definitions exclude the possibility of it

Some little facts:

🎂I'm 20, which is equally exciting and terrifying

👩‍🎓Fourth year law student

🤓Not a native English speaker, so my apologies for mistakes in advance:)

☕Can't live a day without a cup of tea

🌃Huge fan of midnight deep thoughts and conversations

📜Love metaphors and controversies

Sometimes it is so difficult to make yourself do something kind and healthy for you, but that is way too important to forget!

How come we can't find even a few minutes or an hour to cook a good meal or take a walk, or just have a cup of tea without any distruction- just you and your nice warm tea, during all these busy days?! No doubts, school and work and everything else are very important, but taking care of yourself is vital (at least to do those other things effectively)!!

These thoughts have been occuping my mind lately so I guess it's time to make some adjustments to my weekly plans)

It's hard not to blame yourself or not to worry about billion things and the time you think you've lost. This reminder is so so important (especially when anxiety hits)!!

I'm very young and I am learning how to live. I have time. I will figure it out. I will know what to do.

And so will you

Leo Tolstoy antisipated future changes in the country as well as in the social life and created a very progressive story about life, about people and their thoughts, their attempts to find place in life, it's meaning and personal happiness. He showed how society influences people and their destiny, how rules and what is believed to be right may be in contradiction with what is actually right. The author makes readers think about a wide spectrum of things: from love and family issues, the state situation, moral and social obligations, to the existential problems and crises of faith. Love and hatred, happiness and devastation, family and lonliness, social and personal, right and wrong, life and death. As he said, Anna Karenina was about the present.

Anna Karenina, as I see her, was a controversial character- she may have behaved without a proper thinking, but did she have any option? It was her honor and dignity she gave up trying to become happy, her son whom she had to leave to be with her loved one, her whole life in exchange for love. It was an impossible decision. All her sacrifices led to the great fear- fear of being alone (remembering the reality of the 19th century, it would have been a horrible ending) , of becoming unloved by Vronsky. It was a tragedy, the final end, which set her free from social pressure and fear.

I find myself impressed by her bravery and strength but at the same time I'm not sure her way of leaving husband and son was completely morally right (in the beginning of the book it seems, she loved them and couldn't wait till coming back to them). But again, was there a choice? Were there other ways? - I doubt that.

She said to her brother : "You cannot understand. I feel I'm lying head downwards in a sort of pit, but I ought not to save myself. And I cannot do it." (in the original version, she was "flying in some sort of gulf" which I find a better metaphor).

We can only hope she found her peace after the end.