Transphobic Fever

Kewl 😂 #lightening #storm #icalledit #nighttime #itsdarkandscary #kewl #cool #theresastormabrewin https://www.instagram.com/p/B0STbpQHH2N/?igshid=wswlamkxdaz2

It was way too hot to get much writing done...but this issue is getting close-ish 🐹 📷 📻 ☕ ✏ #selfielove #writersofinstagram #writeon #transgenderwriters #sunnydays #itstoohot #immelting #melting #witchcackle #amab #transwoman #samuraiprincess #transgenderpride #zinemaker #riotgrrrl #transphobicfever #zinestagram #writersbloc #julieville https://www.instagram.com/p/B0RgmvVnbP8/?igshid=18uv8e4jiwch1

Aside from anxiety.. my biggest problem with makeup is the fear of looking like a drag queen 💄 👡 👗 #dailyselfie #makeup #anxiety #imtrying #beconfident #confidenceissexy #eyeshadow #lipgloss #amab #transisbeautiful #transwoman #twoc #samuraiprincess #twoc #japanesegirl #riotgrrrl #grrrlpower #transition #julieville https://www.instagram.com/p/B0Q_B0knSgI/?igshid=gdws9w8vr11s

I have 2 reasons.. 🌸 💖 😘 #nightie #modeling #bedtimeselfie #selfielove #satin #gown #werk #notforyou #lovemyself #pretty #tease #amab #transisbeautiful #transwoman #transgender #happy #love #feelamazing #lovetheskinyourin #japanesegirl #samuraiprincess #twoc #poser #girlswholikeclothes #woman #julieville https://www.instagram.com/p/B0PreLBnuCJ/?igshid=1qartwghg3nz3

I NEVER thought I could ever be this happy...I feel like I'm blossoming and stuff 😸😻😽 🌸 🌼 🌺 #selfielove #happy #canyoubelieveit #icanteven #grrrlpower #smile #love #prettygirl #cute #adorable #wildestdreams #thatswhatyougetwhenyouletyourheartwin #me #glowing #nomakeup #nofilters #instatrans #transgenderpride #amab #transisbeautiful #transition #thisiswhattranslookslike #samuraiprincess #riotgrrrl #twoc #julieville https://www.instagram.com/p/B0NUtfVHc_o/?igshid=wilxbyl7r6v7

I forgot how awesome yoga pants are 😍💃 ☕ 🎢 #selfiebreak #selfieoftheday #dailyselfie #transphobicfever #zinemaker #fueledbycoffee #transgenderpride #transrightsarehumanrights #thisiswhattransgenderlookslike #amab #trans #samuraiprincess #twoc #thingstodointaber #riotgrrrl #instatrans #transgenderartist #yogapants #julieville https://www.instagram.com/p/B0MwXTvHYtN/?igshid=17xjn0nv3q1df

My crappy selfie matches the crappy weather but...My lawn will be green without having to steal a garden hose and sprinkler 😃 🌿 Also got to break out my supercute rain jacket😍💖☁ ☔ #dailyselfie #selflove #rainy #mylawn #homethings #buildanark #doart #doyogo #domakeup #facebookoutage #tv #movies #junkfood #transisbeautiful #transgenderpride #amab #samuraiprincess #japanesegirl #thisiswhattranslookslike #twoc #homealone #julieville https://www.instagram.com/p/B0KeTbaHdWG/?igshid=1d31bir230yrr

As per my introspective whine earlier..I did 15 minutes of a 20 minute yoga video . . #introspective #yoga #areasontowearmoreclothes #freeyogavideo #youtube #innerpeace #breathing #newhobby #excercise #activity #yogapants #julieville #namaste https://www.instagram.com/p/B0Hv8jtHKc1/?igshid=1hf4scf3ydswg

Ugh... . Self reflection time. 🐱 🐕 As male presenting people you have to be tough and cool. You're not really allowed to have an identity outside that parameter without fear of getting called a fag. So an aging skater punk fits into the tough and cool and up till coming out trans that at least seemed to fit me just fine. 🐸 I don't really enjoy skateboarding the way I used to...these days it feels more like addiction than anything else...ill be bored, not knowing what to do and inevitably skateboarding comes up as that was my go to since '96...but even today was a struggle to leave the house -skateboard being kicked down the street out of laziness...get to the park and steuggle with all the same old tricks...and leave earlier than expected wondering why i even bother...addiction. 🐶 Much like all the times i moved away for a fresh start, i finally realize that that fresh start lies within me...not some new place. This identity suited me when I didn't know who I was...now that I better understand who I am...perhaps its time to put this addiction based identity behind me 🐒 I felt like this was more coherent while thinking about it💖 . . #me #throughthelookingglass #selfreflection #identity #addiction #struggles #thelastpartsoftheoldme #changeitup #happiness #selfdiscovery #change #julieville https://www.instagram.com/p/B0G-NXaHcwS/?igshid=5veoefjd9yww

I feel so good emotionally and mentally that I'm goin to wreck myself phsically 😀 . . 🐕 #preskateselfie #skateorgetold #skatergirl #transskater #selfieoftheday #selfielove #amab #transgirl #girlpower #samuraiprincess #girlsjustwannahavefun #transisbeautiful #punkrawkprincess #justskate #skateitoff #riotgrrrl #julieville https://www.instagram.com/p/B0GxKX_nafC/?igshid=13wv4qmtatcn6

I've been sleeping and eating really well since moving out of the @ywcalethbridge . The dangers and discrimination I faced under their roof seem like a really bad dream I've finally awoke from #unstressed #safe #nodiscrimination #metoo #itriedtoreportit #happy #accepted #noh8 #inclusion #anorexiarecovery #nomorenightmares #weightgain #thrive #grateful #transrightsarehumanrights #transisbeautiful #thewomaniam #empoweredwomenempowerwomen #babessupportingbabes #feelinggood #julieville https://www.instagram.com/p/B0GjB4wn5xy/?igshid=vf0if2z5b80z

I'm happy....wierd 💖 . . #aftershowerselfie #happiness #attitude #grateful #cute #pretty #princecharming #jammies #romperlove #samuraiprincess #amab #transisbeautiful #transgender #transwoman #japanesegirl #riotgrrrl #twoc #asianpride #julieville https://www.instagram.com/p/B0FLaXNHWEc/?igshid=13el3qj9ry8je

Out of my bed: why? . . #lazydayselfie #dailyselfie #dopegirl #lazygirlday #itswindy #sweatshirt #meh #napday #poser #transisbeautiful #transvisibilitydayiseveryday #hashtagsarehard https://www.instagram.com/p/B0EvdOCHKXp/?igshid=1bjx3m5qfujfb

Selfie break 😍✨💃 . . #selfielove #endlessselfies #break #zinemaking #selfiebreak #transisbeautiful #amab #transwoman #punk #samurai #twoc #selfpublished #japanesegirl #zinester #instagood #punkrawkprincess #420girls #riotgrrrl #genderrevolution https://www.instagram.com/p/Bz9h8jEnOl-/?igshid=11m9ngs87990d

I hate photocropping as much as I love this dress 😠😀💖 . . #selfielove #dailyselfie #sundress #girlswholikeclothes #ootd #cute #pretty #amab #transwoman #twoc #samuraiprincess #japanesegirl #poser #modeling #420girls #riotgrrrl #julieville https://www.instagram.com/p/Bz84JYdnhNV/?igshid=1salc9iwh98c1

Back off you dumb seagull!! . Help!! I need backup @fox_bones . . #iseeyou #seagull #youcantfoolme #youwonttakemealive #iknowwhatyouredoing #hypervigilance #deadseagulls https://www.instagram.com/p/Bz6GRaxnkYl/?igshid=1gvr9guh2qk77

Tryin to get my brain started... #transphobicfever #zinemaker #zine #transgenderwriters #mobileoffice #cute #stonerchicksdoitbetter #420girls #riotgrrrl #transgender #amab #transgirl #instatrans #writersofinstagram #samuraiprincess #julieville https://www.instagram.com/p/Bz5-Vj8nHN8/?igshid=1sy1xek92c22d