a rosy dream

[ MAIA MITCHELL // FEMALE // SHE/HER ] – Shoot, is that [ JULIET JACOBS ]?!  The [ 21 ] year old [ MED STUDENT ] has lived in Hollywood Pointe for [ 1 MONTH ] now, and has earned quite the reputation.  People say, they’re [ + COMPASSIONATE ] and [ + DEDICATED ], yet also [ - NEUROTIC ] and [ - TENSE ].  Rumor has it they're [ IN CONTACT WITH HER BIO FAMILY ], but with all the gossip in this town, who really knows?  I guess we’ll just have to find out for ourselves. 

under the cut is a timeline of juliet’s backstory in this verse

Juliet was drunk. While this was far from the norm for her, it had certainly become the norm since she had moved in with Addison. In her mind, she was just finally living her best single life and being a young person. Or at least that’s what she tried to tell herself. So she was out again, and she had somehow managed to lose track of her friends, when she stumbled into someone, spilling her drink of them. “Oh, shit, sorry,” she mumbled attempting to wipe the spill off of the person as she looked up to the stranger’s face. Only it wasn’t a stranger at all. “Or maybe I’m not.” Truthfully, it was somewhat shocking she had managed to avoid Jake this whole time. She had heard rumors that he was at Lake George, and that enough was too close for Juliet’s comfort, but she hadn’t seen him yet and it lured her into a false sense of security and she had gotten a little reckless and not thought about the possibility of seeing him, more concerned with not running into Reece. 

Hadley was a bit shocked when she saw Juliet’s current state, not having expected it from the girl.  A bit more worried about her at the sight, Hadley quickly closed her slightly agape mouth, holding the plate of cookies out towards Juliet.  “These are for you.” She explained still a bit dazed as she walked into the house.  “it’s nice.” She told after a moment as she looked around, turning around so she was facing Juliet once more.  “How are you?”

“Oh, thanks,” Juliet responded, truly grateful, as she took the plate from Hadley, leading the way into the kitchen so she could set down the plate. She let out a little sigh at the girl’s question before settling into a chair at the table. “I’m fine,” she responded, and it was mostly truthful. She had been trying to not think enough about her own feelings to even get upset about them. “I am embracing single life,” she continued before picking up one of the cookies and taking a bite out of it. 

“Yes,” Juliet responded, attempting to project confidence in the single word, wanting to give off the impression that she had it handled. It was just in her nature to handle her problems alone and not drag anyone else into them. She didn’t know how to open up properly or tell anyone what was going on with her, she never had. She was so much better at being the person people needed and she didn’t know how to need people. And a part of her was afraid of letting Reece in because she knew that if anyone could save her, or at least really try to, it would be him. It was almost enough for her to want to stop him and come entirely clean. Almost enough for her to break down and spill everything about her family and her racing thoughts and the sick feeling in her stomach even now. But somehow the thought of him saving her was even worse. She just couldn’t let herself need someone like that. She wanted to save herself, even if she didn’t know how. “Goodnight,” she returned softly, turning her own back after him to return to the safety of the empty house.

Addison: that is what I'm here for

Addison: but also I mean only do it if you want to bc it is also totally normal to not have one night stands

Addison: I do not want to cause peer pressure

Addison: getting drunk is a fun alternative

Juliet: i will meet you halfway

“Who said I was only dating people to date people?”  He asked a bit tentatively, looking to Juliet with an even more confused expression.  He felt his heart squeeze again, especially as he didn’t know how to put any of his feeling into words.  Even if he was able to Reece wasn’t sure they’d be enough at this point.  Explaining to Juliet that he hadn’t wanting anything more than fun when he arrived in California, but that everything that changed the second he saw her suddenly felt like a pointless and embarrassing thing to admit if she had her mind made up about it.  Telling her that the more and more time he had spent with her made him just more and more sure she was what he wanted was suddenly stupid.  Letting her know that he had never felt the way he felt with her when he was with Ellie was just a useless fact.  Juliet was the most sure person Reece knew and it had become blatantly evident to him that she was sure about this break up.  “So because I don’t scream that I want those things from the top of my lungs, means I don’t want them?”  He asked with a certain heartbreak in his voice.  Sure he didn’t want those things now, but as painful as it was if he had known she needed that reassurance he would’ve found it in himself to assure her he saw a future with her and they weren’t headed nowhere.  “Good to know.”  Reece nodded, his hands shoving into his pockets.

“No one,” Juliet responded softly. She was breaking and she could feel it. The calm that she had previously felt following their breakup was breaking down entirely. She had been so sure that this was what she wanted but now that Reece seemed to be changing everything she had thought of him, she wasn’t so sure. What if this was Reece wanted? Would that change things for her? Would she be able to just forgive and forget and get back together with him because it was a simple case of miscommunication? She wasn’t so sure anymore, even if all she wanted right now was to hold him close again. “No,” she shook her head. “I didn’t tell you what I wanted either,” she said finally, looking up at him sadly. “I can’t be mad at you for something I didn’t do either. But I think we need to consider the fundamental flaw in this relationship that neither one of us bothered to tell the other what we wanted.” She looked back at her still open front door before turning back to him but not quite making eye contact. “And right now I think we just keep making problems and not solving any of them,” she looked intently down at her own feet. “And I have a lot going on. And I don’t know if I can handle trying to figure you out on top of all of that.”

↳ INSTAGRAM: julictsrose uploaded a new photo!

that which we call a rose by any other name would smell as sweet

❤ 472 LIKES ✐ 38 COMMENTS

Reece’s head tilted a bit to the side, not sure why Juliet didn’t want the rest of the story, but still wanting to tell it.  “But it’s not–”  He cute himself off as she started talking again.  She had a point, and though Reece believed he had a good reason for not talking about the future, Juliet was still right in the fact they never talked about it.  “I thought we were committed?”  He’s face scrunched, as  the few words left his lips, his eyes watching her nervously pace.  He wasn’t sure what bringing her home to his family meant to her, but it sure meant something to him.  His eyes went wide as Juliet stopped, looked at him and told her revelation.  “You want that right now?”

Juliet gave a pained expression at Reece’s question. This was just another example of them being bad at communication. “We were,” she nodded slightly, though in a non committal kind of way. “But it was more like we were committed to dating?” she phrased it as a question, looking up at him to make sure he understood what she was saying. “And I’m just not looking for someone who just wants to be my boyfriend for now. Like that was fun and all in college, but I don’t wanna date someone just to date them,” she tried to explain. Juliet rung her hands uncomfortably. She wasn’t used to being so direct with someone. “I mean, not in like a “get down on one knee right now” kind of way, no. But I’d like to be a mom by the time I’m thirty at least,” she scrunched up her face a bit. “I just can’t be with someone who doesn’t want the same things as me.” 

Addison: I mean the first time you do it I guess it's kinda weird

Addison: but like actually scratch that bc that was also only the second person I ever hooked up with and I was in a very very very very very very bad life place so like you know don't take my word for that one

Addison: but like I mean usually it's not someone completely random like you start with talking to them at a club and then making out and then the whole one night stand thing happens

Addison: I'm a horrible influence

Juliet: okay so the points in your favor here are that i have slept with more than two people

Juliet: points against you include i've never slept with someone who i've known less than a day. or a week. or a few weeks even.

Juliet: you're trying. i appreciate it.

Addison: okay but

Addison: sex is good when you don't feel so great

Addison: mainly bc sex always makes you feel good

Addison: and when it's with a random hot boy who can make you forget all your problems for a few hours it's even better

Addison: js

Addison: not that I would know bc I'm wholesome

Juliet: okay but

Juliet: i've never slept with anyone i wasn't dating

Juliet: it seems like a really weird thing to do with someone you don't actually know

Addison: I know actors

Addison: what about a one night stand

Addison: those are always good to get your mind off things tbh

Juliet: and actors are just guys who make a living on being able to lie really well

Xander: which doesnt explain why I havent seen you in forever

Xander: apparently he doesnt care what time it is

Juliet: i know. i've just had a lot going on with the breakup and moving into addisons and all that

Juliet let out another sigh, shaking her head slightly. “I don’t want there to be more to the story,” she said softly. “This whole thing. It’s so complicated and it shouldn’t have to be right? Isn’t this stuff supposed to be easy?” Juliet attempted to pull her short locks into a ponytail but most of the pieces fell out of her hands before she could even gather them together. “I had all these visions for where I wanted to be in my life by now and other than my residency I’m nowhere near them, and this thing we were doing? Where was it going? Like we never talked about any of that stuff... what we wanted or how serious it was. And I just can’t do that. I can’t sit around and hope that maybe the guy I’m dating is taking me seriously and maybe one day he’ll want a commitment,” she rambled on, talking with her hands as she started to kind of pace back and forth slowly on the front porch. She stopped finally and looked at him seriously. “I want to get married and have kids and I don’t wanna wait around for someone who isn’t ready for all that.”

Addison: I know cute musicians lemme set you up with them

Juliet: i don't know if i'm ready for that yet

Xander: ❤

Xander: awww you love us

Xander: next time hes getting a toaster

Xander: something about them being useless

Juliet: obviously

Juliet: well it's useful at least