Moo

Even if it cost you tears

For all that's happened

You deserve this

Even though you feel that it's not enough

Would you believe

A little heartbreak could do so much

Because you deserve so much more

And it's only then that you realize

That it's them that holds you down

But you were meant to fly

And with all the few things you deserve

You have to have this

They never really understand

That more than their company

Ikaw ang paborito kong unan

Tanging balikat na ngayo'y sandalan

At ang malamig mong mga braso

Na aking yapos, ayaw ko ng bitiwan

II.

Ngunit ikaw pala'y hindi akin

Nadala na sa agos ng damdamin

At tuluyang nalunod sa saya

Ang pusong sa iyo'y hindi makaamin

III.

Kaya ngayo'y gustong kalimutan

Ang walang kwenta kong nararamdaman

Sa ibang puso ka sumusugal

Nakakapagod din pala ang masaktan

IV.

Kaya akin lamang sisikapin

Kahapong ibabaon sa buhangin

At tatalikuran na ang bukas

Reach beyond the celestial sky

A veil of darkness none dared to pry

Yet here I am with chains and shackles

A broken soul without tears to cry

Emptying my hourglass of stars

That no earthly light could be in par

Of the brightest and most dim of them

Casting their shine like celestial bars

Though Sirius, brightest of them all

As witnessed when the sun ends its fall

Is distant from what we call as home

One star I'm tempted to heed its call

This body, much closer to me

Sirius, brighter but farther to see

In the northern sky, one trumps its reign

Far significant by my decree

My north star reveal your presence

Harkening to my very essence

I haven't the strength left to resist

Drowning down to my soul's indulgence

If it's written in any verse

A way to dim the whole universe

That you may light up the deep night sky

And guide the forsaken through life's curse

But Polaris, though you shine bright

Your core is shaded with doubt tonight

You choose between your body and mind

Where emotion bends

And fate intertwines

A disunion transcends

That none comprehends

Disregarding signs

We are no more but friends

A darkness that rends

And nothing else shines

This broken body sends

Seek a heart that tends

But the moon shines bright

With no stars in sight

This place that I chose

The cloud swiftly goes

And the wind bellows

No birds are in flight

Nothing wrong nor right

Witness the sea's might

Symbolic to those

Men like wilting rose

You were but a lost star

Looking for your place upon the skies

So you ventured afar

And changed your bright glow, all for a price

You searched a certain bliss

And casted your light upon some land

You withheld truths amiss

There is nothing there but dust and sand

You found something bizarre

Unexpected twist of wet that dries

A luxurious beggar

Or the kind of entity that tries

You gazed upon some trees

But there's something you can't understand

You stumbled upon bees

Who heeds nothing else but your command

Your words like nectar

Like unquenchable lust of self lies

You are nothing but scar

Leering like a child who weeps and cries

You turned upon the seas

And pondered and tried to understand

I longed for your one kiss

Pleasure is but a fickle game we used to play.

Time is a diversion from possibilities we used to take for granted.

We used to wander on the same unknown road yet we somehow walked astray from each other.

I am nothing but a fool who traversed the skies while You kept your feet on the ground.

It is when You decided to soar the heavens that my wings burned and fell back around.

I chose to remain on the crossroads where you walked away while You journeyed towards unfamiliar sights.

I held on to our memories, priceless stones I clasped unto.

You decided to keep them away for those are but common gems to you.

I was lost but You found me waiting on the same place where you left.

All the pieces fell back into place or so I thought.

But those pieces were fitted on loose gaps.

You and I were fated to stay apart and never meant to intertwine.

We are nothing but immiscible like day and night.

Chasing each other but can never meet.

Ours is neither dusk nor dawn but twilight phasing the horizon.

I will always look out for that glimmer of hope.

Searching for the point where light meets dark.

Your happiness had always been my virtue so keep on soaring the heavenly skies for me.

Can one truly find a silver lining in a sable cloud blending into the night sky?

Or does a hopeful be possibly hoping for a ray of light amidst their darkest hour?

How can one be in good spirits when their hearts are soaked in tears?

Alas, such is but a chaos, a dance, of heart and mind. A progression, if you may, of making a few steps forward but end up on the first place you thought you've gone over.

So the mind, instinctively, decides that you just follow the rhythm of your despair. It plays a music only you can hear and the body indulges into the hypnotizing notes cascading the steps, 1-2-3-1-2-3, seemingly takes you from it all dashing away from your sadness. The mind is contented and, if nothing else, drunk in an immeasurable elation. Like the euphoria in a most exquisite high.

But what does one do when the music stops? When the music plays its last beat, that's when everything becomes motionless. The heart goes on, beating, and spitefully remembers. Suddenly you find yourself on the very same place you thought you'd never come back to.

So, again, the mind ponders. Try as you might, waltzing away from the ghosts of your past can only do so much. You are where it all started.

But what if, instead of trying to move forward you decide to take a few steps back and reliving all that has happened? Its godly beauty while it lasted, its aphrodisiac feeling while it persisted, its somnolent music while it rang, its enslaving taste while it kept on, even its smell that just takes you away.

Oh, but the heart truly remembers. Taking a step means starting and ending on the same foot. For one to move forward, one must start from where the good things began, not the part where everything was torn apart.

And so, you bring all these fondest of memories into heart, and let the mind play it over and over. That will be your music. The body, then, starts to move. A dance, if you may.

Struggling when thorns are flesh deep into the body like chains binding you aground would only keep on wounding your already beaten physique.

Accept what has happened before and never regret a single memory of it. The resounding echoes of the past made you who you are and, thus, is essential to reclaiming yourself.

Such a brave heart you possess,

But how does a brave heart act?

You dance forward and dance away, clasping bittersweet memories to your hand and spreading it like gold dust into the air basking into its age-old splendor.

Kailan ba maririnig

Ang munting himig

Na sa puso ko'y pumipintig

Ang iyong titig

Ang nag bibigay kilig

Lihim kong hilig

Iyo lang ang aking pag-ibig

Kung iyong tinig

Di na muling marinig

Nawalang himig

Hihintong puso sa pag pintig

Tangi mong titig

Mag uudyok ng kilig

Ang tinago kong hilig

A thousand words of tears

To an ocean of sighs and regrets

You are my everything

I love you

And at the end of the day

All words shall fade

Into the faint moonlight

To keep you alive

Pumanaw ang puti't bughaw

Mga matang basa't naninimdim

Nasaan na ang iyong ilaw

Minsan lubos na nagdilim

Kalangitang aking tanaw

Sa unos na sa puso'y kimkim

Mistulang batong walang galaw

Tila dulo na malagim

Hiling ko ay huwag maligaw

Pipiliting umatras sa lilim

Aabang sa sikat ng araw

Sisipat kahit malalim

Ang pagkumpas ay matanaw

Tanging liwanag mong matalim

Ang sa aki'y tanging pupukaw

Iindak ng mataimtim

Magpanggap lang sa pagsayaw

Pilit itatago aking lihim

Ang mutyang giliw ligaw sa mundo

Saan mahahanap ang pusong sinundo

Tinagpo ng tadhanang bumuo

Sa pangarap na likas sa buhay na totoo

Saan

Paroroon ba dito o kung dito ba paroroon

Saan papunta ang mga paang pilit umaahon

Sa pighati at lungkot dala ng panahon

Na wari'y nalalaglag na mga dahon

Oo

Mahal kita ng higit pa sa buhay

Mga sakit at hirap na rumaratay

Takdang oras lang ang magbibigay

Ng katahimikan at patnubay

Bakit

Tuluyan ako'y iniwan

Sa tagpuan natin ika'y lumisan

Na saglit kang huminto at dumaan

Sa paglingon ko'y ika'y nasaan

Ako

Naghihintay sa iyong pagbabalik

Na ang dati'y muling manumbalik

Na makamtan muli ang iyong ngiti at halik

Magkatabi

Magkaakbay

Magkabangga ating kamay

Mga ngiti

Bawat gabay

Mga tawa pag sumablay

Pasubali

Kaagapay

Kaibigan lang bang tunay

Ikukubli

Ang salaysay

Ng damdamin ko nang pilay

Pagsisisi

Pagkalumbay

Sa puso mong hinihintay

Minimithi

Ngayong buhay

A kiss.

Would it suffice?

This one gesture I could give.

Only this for a compromise

For all the disappointments.

Take my advice.

Turn around. Leave.

No need to say it twice.

Save your tears,

Dry your eyes.

Call it whatever you want.

Pity. A bloodless slice.

Just take it.

Must I offer it thrice?

A kiss

Kailan mahahawakan

Mga kamay mong marikit

At ang muka mong parang larawan

Kailan muling masisilayan

Hindi ba mapipigilan

Sumpa na aking kadikit

At sadya na lamang kamalasan

Dala ng oras na dumaraan

Kailan ba tutumbasan

Ang pagtitiis at sakit

At mga luhang sa mata'y lulan

Na nagmistulang ulap at ulan

Nais kang pasalamatan

Minsan ako'y naisingit

At ilang taon din nagmahalan

Flashes, lights.

Moment of silence.

Feel the breeze brush through.

Focus. Who's preoccupied?

Eyes. Glaring eyes.

Who cares?

Keep it together.

Posture, angst.

You got this. Easy.

Still doubtful? F*ck that.

Anxious? F*ck that.

Scared? F*ck that.

Breath in... Deep.

That's it.

Grasp.

Hold it tight.

Chill. Relax.

Camera's rolling.