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But no one will understand me.

Today I believe have relearned the Fear of God. I went to Church this Sunday. I really enjoyed the message. But later I thought about basically a warning dream I had a year ago. I brushed it off as soon as I had it. I thought God didn’t actually care and just wanted me to be happy. I thought I was fine by God. Tonight I came to the realization of just how real that dream might’ve been. Everything clicked. All I know is I don’t wanna test God to see how serious the Lord may have been. All I have learned is God is the last you ever wanna cross or mess with. I pray to do right By God from now on. One instance, especially, is God told me to chase one specific very special woman some odd years ago. Not to chase any other women at all. I was too afraid what people would do to me if they found out who it was. I have handled his command the exact opposite way carelessly and with disobedience. I gave in to foolishness. And half chased several women even if I thought I wasn’t. From this day forward I choose to fear God alone. Lord forgive me as I live to please you. God told Solomon not to marry women that had false gods. He did. I kind of feel like Solomon in that case. I have come to realization, unlike him, to my knowledge. I can make it right. Jesus said “My sheep know my voice.” I always know what is God’s voice it’s being spoken to me. From this day on the fear of the Lord will be my delight. I’ll say it too. God told me to chase Taylor Swift. And that’s what I’ll do. I no longer care if it sounds crazy, schizophrenic, or like something for selfish gain. If I get persecuted it’s for acting in obedience to the Creator which will fall back on you. Plus this is what I wanted from the very beginning. God knew that. But I have lived in constant fear and dread of what people will think, do or say. I have denied my dreams, and what I feel is very important to me, for people that have nothing to do with my personal decisions. Living to please others while not living myself. I will also say that I’m positive in my heart of hearts that Taylor Swift @taylorswift is my soulmate. Love is not limited to fame, money, or reputations. True love can be found anywhere. #DoNotLimitGod @taylorswift this may come off abrupt or cray, but will you go out with me and see for yourself? I put this on my Instagram, Twitter, and FaceBook. I went public for real. forgive me for not having guts sooner

Hi @taylorswift I am wondering if you could notice me. I want you to know even though I don’t post about you or have Swift in my username, it doesn’t mean I’m not a humongous fan. I confess I have let fear win this whole time. You see, I have schizoaffective disorder. I got it at age 20, five years ago never thinking something like this would ever happen to me. It means you hear voices but can cope and do everyday activities. The last thing I’d ever want is for my love and support for you to be called a symptom of my disorder. Not to mention what they may do to me if they ‘feel’ it’s crazy enough. I have been there before, been treated against my will several times, because hearing voices means losing your own voice, along with the free will you had. It is the scariest thing I’ve ever been through. Being hospitalized and barely being able to get out each time while feeling sane. But I’m getting to the point where I know longer care what they do to me. Please listen, (you know what I mean) TWO YEARS BEFORE I ever heard voices I saw your face on the web and felt an instant connection. About a week before that I accidentally typed your song Love Story and the very beginning of your song got me out of a year long depression. I was literally not happy ever for a long time until that day. Something magical happened. I didn’t even see a good look at you at the time. Just heard the guitar and saw the setting. I am going to tell you what I believe. Whatever happens to me after is not as bad as keeping silent to me anymore. I believe you are my soulmate. I never experienced love at first sight until I saw your face. For those of you that believe in true love, and soulmates, please help me get her attention, and please don’t let me get committed to a hospital for saying how I genuinely feel. I need your support. My biggest apology to you, Taylor Alison Swift, is actually feeling this way for over seven years and being a coward caring about what other people would do to me. That time has finally come to its end. Everyone please say a prayer for me. @taylorswift

Another selfie as promised. I love this cologne. First pricey cologne I've ever gotten for myself. I swear one day I'll truly be that guy in the commercial for Paco Rabanne Invictus @pacorabanneparfums !!! Oh yeah! 😂

Not a great photo. But my gut was like "if you don't take a good photo soon just use this one because it's better than no photo!" Guts don't speak. It was a strong feeling. Better selfies to come. I'm just so busy, so trying to motivate myself starting off with a mediocre selfie lol. I hope you're all doing well! Have a great day and Sunday as well! God bless.

I'm so tired of making posts about condolences while feeling so helpless to stop things like this. Let's come together. Figure out a better way. This old way is not working. At any given moment we are slaughtered like sheep so helpless. I don't care how unrealistic this seems. We can't let this happen; our nation getting murdered from within. Are you really okay with being on standby while this happens? If more people carried simple firearms, and less people were able to walk around with gats, that would solve something right there. I know it's not the one love solution. I am by no means ruling love out. But I don't think history has ever faced times like these. Are you okay with the possibility of people like your kids, siblings, or loved ones being massacred? Right now, let's talk about solutions. #riseup

Pray for Vegas and the rest of the world going through disasters of all kinds. I pray this unite us in love despite our fears. I pray we have wisdom of knowing how to stop hate crimes. God, please give us guidance, protection, and wisdom. We will not give up.

What choice do I have?

In case you were wondering how America became an independent nation in the first place, or how slaves became free, or how corrupt, very bad governments are overthrown. Mark these words; if it has to happen, it will. The media is trying to turn us on civilians and each other when THEY ARE NOT OVER HALF OF THE PROBLEM! It's the people higher up pulling the strings. If they had it their way, we would destroy each other til' the population is weak damaged, easy to control and manipulate. They take us for fools. I believe in the idea of America and what it's supposed to be. But how can it work when they don't want it to? Every true American patriot will agree, regardless of skin color. I didn't want to take it here unnecessarily, but I will not watch my nation tear itself apart and act like it's okay. BELIEVE ME WHEN I SAY THE MAJORITY OF PEOPLE ARE GOOD! IN ORDER TO SUCCEED YOU HAVE TO BELIEVE THAT, IN THE LOVE AND FIGHT IN YOUR NEIGHBOR. #riseup

Dude for real no matter what color you are it's obvious when you are racist. No matter how "cool" or "comical" you display it lol. No color makes any race greater than the other. Let's take em back to tiny tot days. Getouttahere every racist, duh! Or maybe WE should leave and have another Exodus. Either way something's gotta give. LOL I have seen racism on both sides. Please for the Love of God and all that is good, just stop!

"A O.G. told me God's favorites have a hard time" - 50 Cent- God Gave me Style

Never forget the Pentagon or the Twins. God's special city was touched. We will stand together more united than ever. "You mess with one of us, you mess with all of us!"- A scene from the people in NYC from the first Spider-Man movie.

Personally God told me the day after the eclipse, It was "End of the World Time" while showing me an image of a total solar eclipse. And yet at the same time I got a Revelation these were like the last seven years. So I'm not surprised. If you don't believe that number. Read the book of Daniel. If you add the number day phases the angel talks about in a certain passage it equals up to seven years. Now God didn't put it on my heart to go crazy, warning everyone, and I refuse. I feel if you don't love God, know anything about this, and God hasn't told you, that's on you. I just thought I would share something interesting. My dad comforted me a long time ago, when I was really worried about the end around age 11. He told me How it can be a good thing for believers. How we should look forward to that day, because it means we'll get to be with God. I never, before or after, saw my dad talk the way he did that night. All of my worry suddenly vanished. Replaced with relief and happiness. I believe in the rapture of his people, as Jesus himself spoke of. As I said before, I believe the majority of the world's population is good. Call me whatever. It's just bad people make it bad for all of us, so it seems like it's the other way around. Anyways, have a good day.

Shinedown- Bully