Silhouette

I hope you’ve been doing good as the year is getting closer to the end. I finally finished the playlist I gave you at the beginning of the year with 100 songs that remind me of you and I hope some of them are new enough to enjoy. I don’t want to be too intrusive into your life that’s why I tend to hesitate to reach out to you when I want to. They’re moments where I want to send you a meme or talk to you about your day but then I start to think that it would be inappropriate so I try to maintain some boundaries that are comfortable for you.

But boy do I miss you. Your tweets are funny and it makes me think back to how we use to joke about all sorts of things back then before things got serious. We were relatively young when we first met and our relationship grew when we started to have a lot of new emotions get involved. I think back to how I felt and I wished I slowed down in the good moments we had. Instead of talking about love and all these other things we’d have more moments sharing laughs and other interests. There was no way to tell what the future was going to be like though and now fast forwarding a decade I still have these feelings that I can’t shake.

I’ve dated people in between and I’m sure you have too (I think you’re dating someone rn?) I’m not too sure haha but as harsh as it sounds.. even when I was dating other people.. you were the person I wanted to see. My feelings for you were a secret that I still hold today. My last relationship was about 2 years long and after it ended I decided to keep most of my relationships as professional as possible. It would just be too unfair to lead others on when my heart belongs to you.

Well anyways, I hope you’ve been happy as it’s nice to see you smile from time to time. I’m getting close to 30 now and I’ve just been focusing on things that make me happy too. I can’t spend too much time yearning for your love as I’d just be depressed and unproductive haha

With all the love my heart has left to give~