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This thing is bigger than April. It is bigger than Richard. Do you know what I have noticed throughout this episode? I noticed that their ugly political pissing contest, as April had put it, has interfered with quality teaching. While they were arguing on ways to teach and who is right and wrong, they actually forgot to teach! The only resident who got quality education here was Jo, who was with…guess what, April! (Go figure) Stephanie and Warren both had crappy teachers, regardless on who was on whose side. So yeah. Someone had to take the damn job. If April had said no, Bailey would have offered her second choice. Then her third, fourth, and up to the last attending until there was no chief in surgery, and during the whole time only the patients would suffer most, which is no big deal right? So YES, April kepner was right. This is bigger than them.

For me, April seemed so retired. Not retired with Jackson, but with their relationship and the whole 'trying' thing. I guess it could have started the moment she asked Jackson if he was sure before signing the divorce papers. But I kind of had that feeling when Jackson and April were discussing spliting holidays and stuff in the bar. Jackson was giving this typical 'I have unresolved feelings for you' stare at April whereas April kind of held this retired look. She just seemed so goddamn exhausted. And then in the recent episode she built her walls up and pushed away Jackson's help. I think it is the right thing to do. With all her faults and undoings, April has been labeled the bad guy here but it also is the pattern where Jackson gives up on them first. I dunno; half of me wants them back together, but then again if April were my real life friend or my sister, I'd say just move on, she doesn't deserve another old heartache. So whether seeing someone new or not, for now I hope she grows stronger and more mature in handling relationships. And while doing those things keeps a healthy distance away from Jackson.