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I don't usually notice much of a change in myself (physical or mental) around my birthday, which makes sense since it's not really any more or less of a change compared to any other day of the year. However, from the beginning of May my entire mental state just. flipped. I am now one year older but I also feel like I've gotten a lot closer to living the life I thought I would be living 5 or 10 years ago, disabilities and all

I finally dragged myself out to a V系 concert yesterday (the bass was vibrating the venue to the point I literally didn't notice the earthquake lmao. In addition to my legs shaking normally) and honestly. Life-altering event. I haven't been to any concerts in many years (definitely not since developing all the issues with my legs and other assorted body parts) and still would've been unthinkable two months ago but I've really put in the effort to do what I can to improve my condition and decrease the amount of pain I'm constantly in. It's never going to go away completely, but that doesn't mean I can't still try

I got absolutely swallowed by a couple of series (in English) and have barely read anything in Japanese for fun for like two months but I think the blinders are finally off