Pairings: Yoongi x You

Contains: Smut, Fluff, Angst, Cheating

You’re a trainee under Bighit Entertainment, where the boys you loved the most work. For your trainee years, you avoided Min Yoongi so much for a reason, but you had to collab with him before your debut, and that’s when all of it started.

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Hoseok and Jimin insisted to drop you off your house so you had no choice, plus you’re really exhausted so you really thank them for coming up with this idea. 

As you all got outside, you sat at the back. You can’t help but feel nervous and get a little fidgety. But again, the fact that you’re inside a car with Jimin and Hoseok’s driving.. feels so unreal.

You told them your address and Hoseok isn’t that familiar in your village so you were telling him the directions. The ride wasn’t that awkward, Jimin would try to make you laugh but instead, Hoseok’s the one who does it. His laugh is just so contagious so you can’t help but chuckle.

But there’s something really bothering you so you feel like you can’t be that happy right now, you’re still thinking about it even if they tried to comfort you, you still denied that you’re hurt.

That feels so toxic. The fact that you’re being so delusional by loving him so much. You wouldn’t fall for him that hard if you didn’t think you had the chance and that makes you hate yourself more.

“Uhm, so, who’s dating Yoongi?” You hated that you were so curious about it to the point that you couldn’t keep your words to yourself.

Jimin gave a look at Hoseok because he wasn’t sure if he could tell you. You got even more nervous because you feel like you said something wrong. Yes, it is wrong. Whoever he’s dating should be none of your business. You scolded yourself.

“She lives in Daegu. Her name is Heejin. Well, I don’t know if we should be telling you this but I trust you enough that you wouldn’t tell anyone about this.” Hoseok says with a more serious tone. “Oh, of course. I actually regret asking since I think it’s none of my business to know about her. It’s Yoongi’s private life and I respect it.”

“That’s what I like about you Y/N.” Jimin chuckles.

After a few minutes, you’ve already arrived in front of your house so you all had said your goodbyes to each other. “Thank you so much, Hope you go home safely.” 

“Yeah, see you tomorrow Y/N.” They both smiled at you and when you got out, “See you tomorrow Y/N, don’t cry too hard or you’ll look goofy tomorrow.” Hoseok says through the window. You giggle a little bit and got inside the building.

You still live with your family in an apartment because you’re still a trainee, and you still don’t have a dorm. Also, living alone would cost so much money. It’s already a little late, this became normal for you, going home with no lights on because your parents already went to bed.

You always went home late and somehow, they got used to it. You’re really busy on being a trainee and you barely bond with them these days, but they understand, they know how being a trainee works.

You’re currently in an empty dance room with Jimin. They’re on a break right now so they’re not that busy. You’re just both chilling, like you both always do.

You told him what happened to Yoongi’s studio and all he did was laugh and smile weirdly. “You’re such a mess Y/N.”

“Look at you! You’re blushing so hard and your story was embarassing.” He teases. You made face at him and rolled your eyes but you’re still smiling. You hate that you couldn’t take the smile off of your face. 

“Okay just let me practice this, You did the demo right? I want it to be perfect when we’re recording so just help me.” 

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You practiced the track with Jimin helping you for about an hour until you both heard the door open, and it’s Hoseok.

“Of course Y/N’s gonna work hard for the track with Yoongi hyung.” He gushed as he came in front of you with a smile on his face.

“No, I always work hard Hobi.” You playfully replied and flipped your hair and they both look like they aren’t convinced.

“Ohhhh, you always work hard, I see.” He replies as he nods. “I ordered some foods, I ordered alot since I think we should celebrate this day!! This is Y/N’s day!!! Love this!!” He exclaimed.

Jimin’s face lit up as he heard the word food. You didn’t, since you’re debuting you’re avoiding to eat alot. You don’t wanna look chubby on your debut.

“I’m on a diet.” You mumbled as they stood up and you’re still sitting.

“No. It’s your cheat day today!” Jimin insists.

“Is it my cheat day?” You sarcastically replied.

“Come on Y/N, You don’t even gain weight that much.” Hoseok pouts. “Fine.” You just gave in like that with them.

You just can’t stand them, you always had a soft spot for them and you always can’t say no when they ask you something. Well, you love them.

You thought you all will be eating at the lounge but you all went to Hoseok’s studio since you’re gonna talk about Yoongi, you can’t make the staff hear you.

The moment that you stepped your foot in Hoseok’s studio, the food's smell welcomed you and you really can't wait to eat. You haven’t eaten properly these past few days so it's kind of a valid reason and you quickly sat down on his sofa and sniffed the food.

"We know your hungry." Hoseok says and sat beside you.

"You know Y/N, I don't see the point of dieting. Such a waste of time." Jimin huffs.

"Oh really, Jimin? Just wait until your comeback." You replied but he just gave you an eye roll.

You all started to eat, you're thankful for Hoseok, if he didn't ask you to eat with them, you wouldn't get to eat your favorite food, Chicken.

For almost 3 years of knowing Hoseok, he surely knows your favorites. He and Jimin would always give you gifts whenever they're back from overseas schedules.

They became a good brothers for you. They always treat you so well and you're thankful for it.

At first, when the staff knew about your friendship with Jimin and him, you got scolded and your contract almost got terminated. But you're thankful they're that powerful to defend you.

You're very thankful that this is the agency you went from the start. They're the best for you, you've heard from other trainees how amazing the agency is. How they had the freedom they didn't experience in other agencies.

You remember being called into the office with Hoseok and Jimin, With their manager and the CEO. They tried to check your phones to read the messages to make sure that you're not dating.

"Checking our phones? Isn't that invasion of privacy? Come on, we're grown men. We know what we're doing." Hoseok grunts.

It's your first time seeing him or hearing him talk in that tone. He's really scary when he's like that, you felt your heart beating so fast. Your palms are sweating, you don't even know if you're nervous because of the CEO or because of Hoseok.

"And why do you think we're dating her? Y'all are so weird, three of us? dating? Your minds are really something." Jimin looks so pissed while those words came out from his mouth. You're so confused, you didn't know they can talk like this to the CEO.

"Jimin, Hoseok, you know our rules." Their manager tried to explain but they look like they don't care, with pissed smirk on their face, they let out a chuckle.

"Yeah, rules. The contract says they're not allowed to date until after a year on their debut. But we're not dating, so what rules are you talking about?"

You remember crying so hard that day, but when you think about it, it feels amazing that it's been so long since that happened.

"You're smiling like an idiot right now Y/N." Hoseok informs you as he takes a bite on his chicken. "Oh, what are you thinking?" He asks, raising his eyebrows. "None of your business."

"She's been weird. She's literally thinking about Yoongi hyung all day." Jimin mentioned. You all heard the door opened.

"Hey, why do I hear my name? Why are you talking about me huh?" As soon as you heard the first word, you froze. It's Yoongi, and your heart's beating so fast again.

"By the way what's the trainee's numbe- Oh, she's here."

Your eyes are wide and you couldn't move an inch. Hoseok and Jimin looked weird, they're smiling so wide and even wiggling their brows. You're thankful that Yoongi isn't looking at them.

"Can I get your number? So we can talk about the track, or like, schedules." He asks shyly, he even has his hand on the back of his neck while asking.

"Oh, sure." You tried to act normal, you don't know if you're gonna say it to him out loud, but he gave you his phone so you just typed your number there.

There's an awkward silence in the studio and you pray that he doesn't feel weird about it.

After you typed and saved your contact, you accidentally pushed the home button so you saw his lockscreen. "Oh sorry." You mumbled as you gave his phone back to him.

"It's fine. Thanks."

"Hyung, you want a bite?" Jimin offers his food to Yoongi so he took a bite from the chicken and ate some rice. "Do you want to eat with us?"

"Nah, I'm just gonna eat later, I'm finishing something. Bye." When he finally got out, Hoseok wheezed.

"What was that??? What WAS that??" He's laughing so hard, you're getting shy.

"Oh sure.." Jimin even tried to copy the way you talked earlier. "Y/N, that's so" They both laughed at you so you just laughed with them too. You knew that both of you were awkward, so you couldn't defend yourself.

"Wait, He just asked your number!"

"Yeah.. cool." You tried to look calm and pretend that you're not exploding inside.

"Cool?" Jimin seems unconvinced. "Okay, OMG ACTUALLY I CAN'T BELIEVE. FOR REAL, I DON'T KNOW I'M FREAKING OUT." They both laughed again as you popped your bubble.

"I feel so.. ugh, I don't knoooow." You can't even explain how you feel since you're feeling so many things.

"I saw his wallpaper though." You added.

"What about it?" Jimin asks. "Does it hurt?"

"A little." You just ate after replying to him because you thought they're gonna scold you. But you're glad they didn't, but Hoseok just let out a sigh.

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As soon as you got home, you talked to your members. You brought them food since you're the oldest and you wanna take care of them.

You kinda feel bad since you rarely bond with them, But it would be okay soon if BTS will have a tour. "Hey guys, have you eaten? I brought foods!"

The members we're playing uno cards and they quickly went to the kitchen to see you. You just watch them ate since Hoseok made you eat alot. You're happy for the fact that eventhough you don't talk to them about your personal life that much, you're still close to them.

"Y/N, How's the track with Yoongi going?" Athena asks. "Well, we haven't recorded it yet."

You all talked about how excited you all to your debut. You also asked about their collaborations with the other BTS members as well, You heard that Chaeyeon will be doing a Hope on the Street with Hoseok.

"I feel like eventhough he looks bubbly, If i make one mistake he'll get mad. I don't know why but I'm scared of him." You laughed because she really looks so terrifies of Hoseok, but it's actually true. He can be scary when it comes to choreography.

"He's completely harmless Chaeyeon-ah. I know you're a good dancer, you won't make him mad." After saying those, you saw her face relax and you're glad she's relieved.

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You're finally in your pjs and you're just lying on your bed, trying to sleep when you heard your phone buzz.

"hi it's yoongi. do you think you can record it tomorrow?"

Your eyes widened and you screamed quietly under your pillow. You feel so happy that you punched your pillow, you even almost flipped your bed. You can't believe Yoongi's texting you right now.

"hi. yes, i can record it tmr. what time?"

"1pm. see you."

"great, see you too. 💕"

You put down your phone, and stared at the ceiling. Why the fuck did I put a heart in my text? Great job, Y/N. He probably thinks you're weird now.

You got so anxious about it. Until you heard another buzz.

"❤"

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Pairings: Yoongi x You

Contains: Smut, Angst, Fluff, Cheating

You’re a trainee under Bighit Entertainment, where the boys you loved the most work. For your trainee years, you avoided Min Yoongi so much for a reason, but you had to collab with him before your debut, and that’s when all of it started.

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“Do you want to record right now or tomorrow?” He asked you calmly but your mouth doesn’t even know what to burst out, you’re freaking out. You don’t know what to say even if it’s just a simple question. Why is he giving you this hard time?

“Uhh, uhm..” From the time you stepped your foot in his studio, you avoided his gaze everytime he talks or looks at you. You prayed to every Gods that he won’t find it rude because you’re too shy to look at him straight in the eyes, this is your first time talking to him within three years of avoiding him. What would you expect?

Of course, you can’t avoid him now because you’re debuting. You know that you need to do everything just to make your debut successful. You didn’t want to waste the three years of hardships just for your awkwardness.

You found yourself biting your nails because you find it hard to open your mouth.

You wanted to record it right now for it to be finished quickly, but you also want to record it tomorrow for better results, of course you wanted to practice your vocals and adlibs.

“You really won’t look at me, huh? Am I that disturbing?” You felt like your body and soul froze as he asked. You knew, you knew that, when he uses that tone, he’s really serious. Shit, you’re so doomed.

“Oh, sorry. I think, uhm..” You tried your best looking at him straight and just be casual, but you eventually failed.. “Tomorrow. I’ll record tomorrow.”

He just nodded. You stood up, “I should get going.” He also stood up and opened the door for you. “Thank you for the time.”

You received a text from Jimin, He wants you to go to Hoseok’s studio so you went. You’re actually close with all the BTS members, they’re really caring and always gave you advice when you’re having a hard time. Jimin introduced you to BTS except for Yoongi.

You’re close with them but you’re the closest to Jimin and Hoseok. Your dancing wasn’t that great when you were just starting to train, and you can say that they both really helped you to improve alot.

There were times that you wanna give up but they were by your side to inspire you to do more. They’re really your best friends. Eventhough the three of you cannot avoid having misunderstandings, you still stayed through thick and thin.

You thank them always for cheering you up when you’re sad, when you’re crying about Yoongi..

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You’re at the dance practice room with Jimin, You’re so happy that you’re both getting comfortable with each other. He’s always been so sweet to you ever since your audition— he was one of the judges and you can’t forget how nervous and happy you were. You felt like you’re okay with not being able to pass because you already saw Jimin.

After the audition, he texted you and that’s when your friendship started. But when the both of you met again in person, you’re too awkward to talk because you love him so much and seeing him makes you breathless.

Yes, you’re an ARMY. You didn’t know how were you able to survive talking with him, it was just a dream, and now, he’s talking to you casually.

But after three months of trying to hang out, you’re now really comfortable with each other.

It’s already 10pm, you’re still at the dance practice studio because Jimin was helping you with your dancing skills. You knew you sucked at dancing, you knew that you need to improve.

Now you just finished, you’re just sitting on the couch and Jimin gave you water. “Thanks.”

“Y/N, you’re getting better!! Nice hardwork you got there!” He cheerfully complimented you, Omg.

Okay, you really need to avoid freaking out because you will be seeing them almost everyday.

You can’t help yourself but to blush when he said that. Why am I always like this???

“Y/N, you know you can’t always blush when I’m saying something normal right?” He giggled.

“and.. You know that can’t like seven guys at the same time.”

“I don’t like you all.” You tried to defend yourself, but you know, you’re always lame. “Oh! Yes, you don’t like us, you love us.”

You pretended to cringe when he said those. But it’s true!! “Shut up pleasee.”

“Y/N I just want you to know that I’m not courting you because we’re just friends, I hope I don’t hurt your feelings but I’m saying this before it’s too late..” He’s acting like he’s sad while saying those, making your eyebrows furrow.

“.. Hmm, you know? I might hurt you more when I said this sooner.” He said with a cocky tone.

“Oh, Jimin. I’m not even fantasizing a relationship with you— I mean last year I did but— Uh! I changed my bias list and you’re the fourth one so you can calm down now.”

He chuckled as he found you cute trying to explain about your biases. He knew that you don’t love him as a lover, he knew there’s someone, and it’s Yoongi.

“What about Yoongi hyung? Can you explain your love for him?” Jimin asked with a more serious tone. Your heart jumped when he asked you about Yoongi, how did he know? You’re confused at first but you remembered that you gave him your fan account when you both were just texting.

You laid back comfortably on the couch, getting ready to explain it to him.

“It’s getting late, aren’t you busy?” You asked him first because you know that explaining everything to him will take so much time.

“No, It’s not late. 5am is the late time for us. Explainnn, I really wanna know everything.”

“Okay, just.. promise me, you won’t feel weird or anything? or when I tell you everything, promise me you won’t be uncomfortable?”

“Of course. I promise.”

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“That’s all. Y-you find me weird, don’t you?” You asked him after explaining from the start to now, you let out an awkward chuckle as he doesn’t look anywhere happy when you finished.

“I completely understand Y/N, don’t worry.”

His expression suddenly changed to a happy one. “You’ve been wrecked alot!” You laughed because he just knew that word, now he’s shocked by the meaning of it.

“First, I wrecked you. And then Namjoon hyung, and then Seokjin hyung, wow! Awesome, you’ve been wrecked alot but you’re still loyal at Yoongi hyung!” He acts like he’s super amazed but you know he isn’t really, he just wants to use that word.

“So who’s wrecking you now??” He grinned. “Hoseok.”

His mouth turned to o-shape and he looks really shocked. “Why are you so shocked? It’s a normal thing..”

“Oh, because I feel like your loyalty is being tested so bad.”

“Anyway.. Hoseok hyung is my roommate.” He wiggled his eyebrows while smirking at you. You’re not even shocked, you always knew that!

“I know.” You calmly replied.

“But how do Hoseok hyung wre—“

“JIMIN WHY DO I HERE MY NAME THERE WHO’S WITH YOU—“

Your eyes widened and looked to Jimin as your heard Hoseok’s voice. You’ve seen him before but you avoided talking to him, shit.

Hoseok was shocked looking at you both sitting comfortably on the couch. “W-what is this..” He looks so shocked, omg, why?

His widened eyes turned into a narrow one with a smirk on his face. “Jiminie.. WOAH WOAAAHHH JIMINIEEE!”

Jimin’s trying to explain while you can’t move, you can’t believe that you’re hearing Hoseok’s beautiful screams in real life. Ohmygod? Can I faint? You thought.

“Jimin I’ve known you for more than 5 years why would you lie to me?? You know! It’s really okay!! I’m happy for you!”

“I said it’s not what you think hyung!!”

“What? Why would you deny it?? It’s perfectly fine! Our manager doesn’t even stop us, it’s okay. What’s her name??”

“NOOO HYUUUNG! She’s a trainee! We were just talking about her ARMY moments, she’s my friend!”

Suddenly he stopped being so loud and talked calmly.

“What?? Trainee?? Fan?? Army??”

You greeted and bow at him for respect. You also smiled at him even if you’re too embarrassed because he thought you’re Jimin’s girlfriend.

“O-oh.. Hi!!” He greeted you with a very cheerful smile, you really love him. You really love him when he smiles like that! It makes your heart flutter!

You all talked together about different things, you feel like you already knew and trust each other. You’re all comfortable at each other because Hoseok is good at avoiding awkwardness, until Jimin brings up the topic about Yoongi. He explained it to Hoseok, You can’t help but blush because it’s embarrassing to know that one of his very close friends will know about it.

As Jimin talked about it, Hoseok’s bright face was changing to a very serious face slowly.

“Hyung.. She really fell, that hard.” Jimin really emphasized what he said. It feels like it has a very big impact when he said that. He even closed his eyes hardly, You’re starting to feel that something’s wrong..

“Hey, Y/N, you can’t love Yoongi hyung like that.” Hoseok said as he tries to laugh, which you know that it’s completely fake.

“He’s not sweet, he curses alot, he’s not the right man for you! You know? What you see on camera, is really different.”

You don’t get it, why would Hoseok say this? Isn’t he Yoongi’s bestfriend? Why do I feel like there’s something wrong?

“I-it’s okay though. I accept his mistakes, I cherish them, His flaws makes me love him more..” Your voice is getting softer and softer, Hoseok only said those words but you feel very hurt, you’re so close to crying.

“No, Y/N.. Hyung is right. I think, it’s better to avoid thinking about Yoongi hyung starting now..” You became more confused as Jimin agreed to Hoseok, why are they like this? What did I do wrong?

“Please.. t-tell me more valid reason to do those.“

“He’s not just.. uh..”

“Jimin, it’s already late, we all should go home.” Hoseok stood up as well as Jimin. You’re still sitting, you’re beyond confused.

“No.” The fact that they’re ready to leave you hanging hurts you. You trusted them so much, after telling them everything, they’re doing this..

You looked at Jimin, straight to his eyes, you know he will tell it immediately, you know he can’t resist you looking so hurt. You know it. Jimin has a kind heart.

You know in his eyes that they’re hiding something, that they wanna tell it to you so bad.

You saw that Hoseok was trying to walk towards the door..

Suddenly, he broke the eye contact and grabbed Hoseok’s wrist. “Hyung.. Let’s just tell her.”

Hoseok looked so frustrated and he looks like he didn’t really want to tell you. “I-I’m sure, I won’t make it a big deal.” You lied.

Hoseok let out a heavy sigh. “Y/N, we want you to stop loving him because.. Yoongi hyung..” He bit his lower lip before looking at you.

“has a girlfriend. They’re together for almost four months now.. I’m sorry Y/N. We didn’t want you to get hurt..” You can see the sadness in Hoseok’s eyes as he stated those.

And you? Trying to smile even if you know a tear is desperate to fall down from your eyes. “O-Oh!” You tried to sound as happy as possible.

“See? It’s not a big deal! I‘m really happy for him you know. I never really think that he would notice me in some ways, haha!”

“It’s really fine.”

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