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🍙 𝙰𝙱𝙾𝚄𝚃 𝙼𝙴 : she/her, italian, otaku, gojo enthusiast

🫐 𝙿𝙾𝚂𝚃𝙸𝙽𝙶 : jujutsu kaisen, my hero academia, naruto, haikyuu, bungo stray dogs (…)

dazai osamu:

𓂃⋆.˚ when the words leave your mouth, dazai doesn’t answer immediately. he has a habit of responding to almost everything with a joke, a teasing comment or some ridiculous attempt at changing the subject, but this time none of those things come. instead he just looks at you for a few seconds, almost like he’s trying to figure out whether you actually mean it or whether you’re simply having a bad day.

𓂃⋆.˚ the silence is thoughtful. dazai is someone who rarely reacts before understanding the situation, and the more important the person is to him, the more carefully he chooses his words. he knows that sentences like that almost never appear out of nowhere. they usually come from months or years of insecurity, and he has no interest in dismissing them with a quick “that’s not true.”

𓂃⋆.˚ what catches him off guard isn’t the insecurity itself but the direction of it, because if there is one person who has spent an unreasonable amount of time believing they don’t deserve happiness, it’s dazai. hearing somebody he loves say those exact words creates a strange moment where it almost feels like he’s listening to his own thoughts spoken back to him.

𓂃⋆.˚ he’d probably ask you where the idea came from instead of arguing with you. he’s looking for the perfect response but he genuinely wants to understand what happened inside your head that made you believe love has to be earned in the first place. he’d listen without interrupting, letting you explain every irrational fear and every comparison you’ve been making without once telling you that you’re overreacting.

𓂃⋆.˚ if you started listing reasons why somebody better than you would make him happier, he’d let you finish completely before saying anything. he wouldn’t rush to contradict every sentence because he knows insecurities don’t disappear just because somebody else tells you they’re wrong.

𓂃⋆.˚ after listening quietly, he’d probably smile a little, but it wouldn’t be his usual playful smile. it would be small and almost tired, the kind that only appears when he’s being completely genuine.

𓂃⋆.˚ he’d admit that it’s strange hearing you say that because he’s spent most of his own life assuming everyone would eventually realize they could do better than him. he wouldn’t say it dramatically or expect comfort in return. he’d say it the same way someone casually admits they’ve always disliked the rain, as though it has simply existed for so long that he’s accepted it as normal.

𓂃⋆.˚ there would probably be a moment where both of you are sitting there realizing you’ve been carrying almost identical fears from opposite directions. you’re convinced he’s too good for you while he’s quietly wondering why someone like you keeps choosing to stay.

𓂃⋆.˚ i don’t think dazai would ever try to convince you by listing your positive qualities or insisting you’re perfect. he’s far too observant for that. he knows you’re flawed because he notices everything. he knows you get impatient sometimes, that you overthink harmless conversations, that you apologize for things that don’t need apologizing and retreat into yourself whenever you’re convinced you’ve become inconvenient.

the important part is that none of those things make him want to leave, that’s probably what he’d tell you: that he sees all of those things already, that he’s been aware of them for a long time and that he still wakes up every day and chooses to spend his time with you without feeling forced into it.

𓂃⋆.˚ i actually think he’d become quieter after the conversation instead of more affectionate. dazai understands that repeating “you’re worthy of love” ten times isn’t magically going to rewrite years of self-doubt, so instead he’d go back to doing what he always does: he’d save you a seat beside him without asking, he’d remember to bring you the drink you like when everyone else is getting coffee, he’d send you some completely nonsensical article at two in the morning because it reminded him of something you said three months ago, he’d casually reach for your hand while walking without even thinking about it.

𓂃⋆.˚ none of those actions would be performed like grand romantic gestures. to him they’d simply be ordinary habits, but that’s exactly why they matter so much. they’re unconscious decisions that happen because somewhere along the way your presence became part of his everyday life.

𓂃⋆.˚ if you brought the conversation up again a few weeks later and quietly repeated, “i still don’t think i deserve you,” i don’t think he’d sigh or become frustrated. he’d probably look genuinely confused before asking, “why are you talking about deserving people as if i was randomly assigned to you?”

𓂃⋆.˚ he’d tell you that people always make love sound like some kind of reward system where the best person wins, but that’s never made much sense to him. if that were true, he would have disqualified himself years ago. then he’d glance at you with that small expression he gets whenever he accidentally lets sincerity slip through the cracks and quietly admit that the funny thing is, every time you look at him like he’s someone worth keeping around, he ends up wondering exactly the same thing about you.

mhhhh…i honestly dunno yet haha! i can’t wait to start writing some hawks or kakashi headcanons, but i’ll make sure to reply to all the inboxes i have first!

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rockstar chūya nakahara:

𓂃⋆.˚ rockstar chuuya completely transforms the second he walks onto a stage. backstage he’s checking equipment, fixing his rings, arguing with managers over schedules and acting like he doesn’t want to be bothered, but the moment the lights come on he’s suddenly impossible to look away from. he has that effortless confidence that makes thousands of people feel like he’s performing directly for them.

𓂃⋆.˚ dating him means accepting that half the internet has a crush on your boyfriend. every concert ends with new edits of him going viral, people zooming in on every smile and every movement, and entire comment sections calling him the love of their lives. he pretends not to care, but every now and then he’ll show you a particularly ridiculous post and ask, completely deadpan, “do i actually look like that?”

𓂃⋆.˚ despite his public image, he’s incredibly private about relationships. he isn’t ashamed of dating you, he just hates the idea of strangers feeling entitled to know every detail of his personal life. if someone asks whether he’s seeing anyone during an interview, he’ll smile politely, change the subject and somehow leave the interviewer realizing they never actually got an answer.

𓂃⋆.˚ after concerts he’s running almost entirely on adrenaline, which means he’s much louder than usual. he’ll walk into the dressing room still full of energy, immediately start talking about something that happened on stage, complain about a speaker malfunction for ten minutes straight and then suddenly stop because he noticed you smiling at him.

𓂃⋆.˚ one thing that never changes from canon is how attentive he is. it doesn’t matter that he just performed in front of thirty thousand people, he’ll still notice that you’re tired, that you haven’t touched the food someone brought backstage or that you’re rubbing your shoulder because you’ve been standing for too long.

𓂃⋆.˚ he’s the type to pull you onto the tour bus after a show, hand you a bottle of water and tell you to sit down before he even thinks about taking care of himself. then, five minutes later, you’ll have to remind him that he’s the one who’s been jumping around under stage lights for two hours.

𓂃⋆.˚ his fans eventually notice that there’s always one person he’s looking toward in the crowd. they don’t know who you are, but they start joking online that “the mystery spot” somehow always gets the best smiles and the longest eye contact. he finds the entire theory incredibly embarrassing and absolutely refuses to admit that it’s true, even though his band members have been making fun of him for months because they all noticed it too.

𓂃⋆.˚ interviews become significantly more entertaining once you’re dating because reporters love asking relationship questions just to watch him get annoyed. he’ll answer every complicated question about music production with complete professionalism and then immediately lose patience when somebody asks if he’s written any love songs.

“i write songs. whether people decide they’re about love is their problem.”

meanwhile everyone in the studio knows exactly which unreleased song he’s been working on for six months and exactly who inspired it.

𓂃⋆.˚ he’s surprisingly domestic when nobody else is around. after weeks of traveling and cameras constantly following him, his favorite evenings are the ones where he’s barefoot in the kitchen, music playing quietly in the background, complaining about interviews while helping make dinner and occasionally stealing food straight from your plate.

𓂃⋆.˚ he likes sharing music with you before anyone else hears it. sometimes he’ll walk into the apartment after spending twelve hours in the studio, immediately connect his phone to the speakers and say, “don’t say anything until it’s over.” then he’ll spend the entire song pretending not to watch your reaction while actually paying more attention to your face than the music itself.

𓂃⋆.˚ if you’re at one of his concerts, he’ll always know where you are. thousands of people could be screaming his name, lights flashing everywhere, cameras pointed at the stage, and somehow he’ll still find you in the crowd without even thinking about it. it’s become such an automatic habit that he doesn’t realize he’s doing it until someone points it out.

𓂃⋆.˚ his love language stays exactly the same as canon: remembering things. he’ll come back from another country with your favorite snacks because he remembered you mentioned them once, text you photos of stray cats while waiting for soundcheck, and keep tiny souvenirs from places you’ve visited together mixed in with expensive watches and jewelry because, to him, both are equally valuable.

𓂃⋆.˚ every member of the band knows he’s hopelessly attached even though he insists he isn’t. they’ll catch him checking whether you’ve gotten home safely before going on stage or smiling at a message during rehearsal, and the teasing immediately starts.

“shut up,” is usually his only response, followed by absolutely no attempt to deny the accusation.

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dazai osamu:

𓂃⋆.˚ at first, dazai would assume you simply needed space. despite how clingy he can become with people he genuinely cares about, he’s actually very aware that everyone processes emotions differently, so he wouldn’t immediately chase after you demanding answers. he’d send a casual message, maybe make a joke when he saw you in passing, and wait for you to respond whenever you were ready.

the first day would almost be funny to him. he’d assume you were annoyed about something and decide to entertain himself by making increasingly ridiculous comments until you inevitably rolled your eyes and answered him. except…well, you don’t. you look at him, acknowledge that he’s there, and then continue doing whatever you were doing without saying a single word. ouch.

𓂃⋆.˚ the problem starts when he realizes this isn’t a few hours of distance but an actual decision. every conversation ends before it starts, every question is met with silence, and every attempt at interacting is quietly ignored while you continue speaking normally to everyone else around you.

𓂃⋆.˚ dazai is extremely intelligent, which unfortunately means he has far too much time to analyze every possible explanation. he would replay recent conversations in his head, remember tiny details you probably forgot yourself, and start wondering whether he accidentally crossed a boundary without noticing.

he would inevitably start following you around more than usual, partly because he’s curious and partly because he’s trying to figure out exactly what happened. he’ll ask ridiculous questions just to see if you’ll break. “do you think i could successfully fake my own funeral?” complete silence.

𓂃⋆.˚ surprisingly, he wouldn’t become angry. if anything, he’d become quieter. the usual teasing would still be there for the first couple of days, but after repeated silence they would slowly disappear because he would realize he wasn’t getting anywhere. instead of trying to force a reaction, he’d start simply existing near you, sitting in the same room, reading a book nearby or walking beside you without expecting conversation. people often forget that dazai’s greatest fear isn’t conflict: it’s emotional distance. while arguments can be fixed and anger means somebody still cares enough to react, silence leaves too much room for interpretation. again, he would replay every recent conversation in his head, looking for the exact moment where he could have crossed a line.

𓂃⋆.˚ by the end of the week, he wouldn’t be trying to make you laugh anymore. he’d probably wait until the two of you were alone and ask one simple question in a voice that’s much more serious than usual. not “why are you ignoring me?” but “do you still want me around?” “can i stay near you today?” because underneath all the humor, dazai has always struggled with believing people will stay once they truly know him.

fyodor dostoevsky:

𓂃⋆.˚ fyodor’s reaction would probably confuse almost everyone watching because, outwardly, absolutely nothing changes. he still greets you politely, still places books where you’ll find them, still asks whether you’ve eaten if he notices you’ve been working too long. from the outside, it looks as though your silence hasn’t affected him at all.

𓂃⋆.˚ internally, however, he notices it almost immediately. fyodor pays attention to patterns, and when somebody suddenly removes something as ordinary as conversation from a relationship, it immediately becomes something worth analyzing. he wouldn’t take it personally at first because his instinct is always to understand before reacting.

𓂃⋆.˚ after several days, though, the situation becomes increasingly frustrating in a very quiet way. fyodor prefers knowing where he stands with people. disagreement, criticism, even anger can all be understood and responded to, but prolonged silence provides almost no information, which is something he genuinely dislikes.

𓂃⋆.˚ unlike chuuya, he wouldn’t repeatedly ask you to talk. unlike dazai, he wouldn’t try distracting you with jokes. instead, he would become more observant than usual, watching the way you interact with everyone else and noticing every tiny inconsistency between your behavior toward him and your behavior toward other people.

𓂃⋆.˚ if you managed to remain completely silent for an entire week, eventually he would stop trying to interpret your actions from a distance and simply approach you directly. the conversation wouldn’t be emotional or dramatic: he would calmly ask whether this silence is intended as punishment or whether there’s something you genuinely cannot bring yourself to say.

𓂃⋆.˚ if you still refused to answer, he wouldn’t force the issue. he’d probably stay in the room anyway, quietly reading while giving you every opportunity to speak first. it’s a strangely patient reaction, but fyodor understands that stubbornness usually becomes stronger when challenged directly.

𓂃⋆.˚ despite how composed he appears, prolonged silence from someone important would stay with him for a long time because he’s someone who constantly searches for meaning, and unanswered questions have a habit of lingering in his mind long after everyone else has forgotten them.

chūya nakahara

𓂃⋆.˚ chuuya would have the most visibly human reaction out of the three because he’s naturally expressive and much more comfortable dealing with problems head-on than pretending they don’t exist. the first time you ignore him, he’ll assume you’re distracted. the second time, he’ll assume you’re annoyed. by the third or fourth time, he’ll stop what he’s doing and ask what your problem is.

𓂃⋆.˚ if you refuse to answer and continue the silent treatment for several days, genuine frustration starts setting in. not because you’re angry with him but because, from his perspective, he’s being denied the opportunity to fix whatever went wrong. chuuya has never been someone who enjoys emotional games. he’d much rather argue for an hour and resolve the issue than spend a week pretending everything is fine.

𓂃⋆.˚ despite the irritation, he wouldn’t stop paying attention to you. he’d still notice whether you’ve eaten, whether you’re exhausted after work, whether you’re carrying something heavy or forgot your coat somewhere. caring about someone has become instinctive for him, and being ignored wouldn’t suddenly make those instincts disappear.

𓂃⋆.˚ after several days, people around him would probably notice he’s in a worse mood than usual. he’d become more impatient, more easily annoyed, and much quieter whenever your name comes up. he wouldn’t tell anyone what happened because he values privacy, but the tension would be obvious to anyone who knows him well.

𓂃⋆.˚ by the end of the week, the anger would have mostly burned itself out and been replaced by something much less comfortable. chuuya forms very deep attachments to the people he trusts, so prolonged emotional distance would leave him wondering whether he’s already lost something important without realizing it.

𓂃⋆.˚ when he finally decides to confront you, the conversation would probably be surprisingly calm. he’d look tired more than angry and tell you that if you hate him, then say it, if he’s wrong, tell him, and if you’re hurt, let him hear it. because he genuinely believes relationships are built on saying difficult things out loud instead of forcing the other person to guess.

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ranpo edogawa bf head-canons:

𓂃⋆.˚ ranpo is the type of boyfriend who never really grows out of wanting your attention. it doesn’t matter how old he gets or how many dangerous cases he solves, if you’re busy doing something and haven’t paid attention to him for a while, he’ll absolutely start finding ways to insert himself into whatever you’re doing like a desperate puppy. he doesn’t do it because he’s insecure. he does it because when he likes someone, spending time with them becomes one of his favorite things. in his mind, if you’re both in the same building, why wouldn’t you be together?

𓂃⋆.˚ despite acting spoiled, he’s actually very considerate in quiet ways. for example, if you’ve had a long day, he’ll immediately notice your mood is different and start adjusting his behavior around it. he might stop demanding attention for a while, sit beside you more quietly than usual, or start offering distractions instead of jokes.

𓂃⋆.˚ one thing i think is very accurate about ranpo is that he would never make you feel stupid for not understanding something. he spent his entire childhood surrounded by people who couldn’t understand him, so he’s actually much more patient than people expect when it comes to explaining things to someone he cares about.

𓂃⋆.˚ if you’re talking about something you’re excited about, he’ll let you ramble for as long as you want. he might interrupt occasionally with questions or observations, but you always get the feeling that he’s genuinely listening.

𓂃⋆.˚ he remembers random things you tell him and then brings them up weeks later when you’ve completely forgotten about them. not because he’s trying to impress you, but because when something matters to you, it tends to stay in his head.

𓂃⋆.˚ if you’re the type of person who gets embarrassed by compliments, you’re in trouble because ranpo doesn’t really overthink them. if he likes something about you, he’ll just say it. sometimes it’s something sweet, sometimes oddly specific. you’ll be sitting there minding your own business and suddenly he’ll say something like, “you always make that face when you’re trying not to laugh. it’s cute.” then he’ll immediately go back to whatever he was doing like he didn’t just make your heart stop.

𓂃⋆.˚ people often forget that ranpo is actually extremely loyal. once he decides somebody is important to him, that decision doesn’t change easily. if you’re dating him, there’s never really a question of whether he’s committed. he doesn’t invest his emotions lightly. the people he loves become permanent fixtures in his life.

𓂃⋆.˚ he likes sharing things with you. snacks, books, random thoughts, gossip from the agency, theories about people you’ve never met. if something interests him, there’s a very good chance he’s immediately turning around to tell you about it.

𓂃⋆.˚ he’s also surprisingly easy to read once you know him well. everyone talks about how well ranpo understands other people, but the truth is that his own emotions are often written all over his face around the people he trusts. if he’s happy, you’ll know. if he’s annoyed, you’ll know. if he missed you, you’ll definitely know because he’ll spend the next hour following you around.

𓂃⋆.˚ when he’s tired, he becomes much more physically affectionate. he’ll lean against your shoulder, rest his head in your lap, or somehow end up half asleep beside you while pretending he isn’t tired at all, drooling. unlike someone like dazai, ranpo doesn’t really hide his attachment. if he likes being around you, he’ll openly act like it.

𓂃⋆.˚ if somebody asks why he’s spending so much time with you, his answer is probably something very simple like, “because i want to,” and honestly, that’s one of the nicest things about loving him. there’s very little guessing involved. ranpo might be complicated when it comes to mysteries, but when it comes to the people he cares about, he’s often surprisingly straightforward.

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chūya nakahara bf headcanons-canons:

𓂃⋆.˚ chuuya is one of those people who loves very deeply but doesn’t always express it in obvious ways. he isn’t the type to spend every second talking about his feelings, yet somehow you never really have to question whether he cares. it shows in the things he does, the way he pays attention, and the way he always seems to make room for you in his life no matter how busy he is.

𓂃⋆.˚ despite his reputation, he’s actually incredibly attentive in relationships. chuuya notices details. if you mention liking something once, there’s a good chance he’ll remember it months later. sometimes you’ll be surprised by how much information he’s quietly collected about you without ever making it obvious.

𓂃⋆.˚ he’s much gentler with you than he is with most people. outsiders often expect the aggressive, short-tempered executive they hear stories about, but the version of chuuya that exists behind closed doors is significantly softer. that doesn’t mean he suddenly stops being chuuya. he’ll still get annoyed. he’ll still complain. he’ll still roll his eyes when you’re being ridiculous. the difference is that there’s obvious affection behind it.

𓂃⋆.˚ he’s naturally protective, but not in a controlling way. chuuya respects strength in other people too much to treat you like you’re incapable. instead, he’s the type who quietly keeps an eye on things and steps in when you genuinely need help. if someone hurts your feelings, he’ll notice immediately, even if you insist you’re fine. he’s surprisingly good at reading people, especially people he cares about.

𓂃⋆.˚ one thing that’s very accurate to chuuya is that he genuinely values loyalty. more than money, more than status, more than appearances. because of that, trust becomes one of the most important parts of the relationship for him. if you’ve earned his trust, he’s incredibly devoted. not because he’s clingy, but because once chuuya decides someone belongs in his life, he takes that commitment seriously.

𓂃⋆.˚ he absolutely enjoys spoiling you, although he’d deny it if you pointed it out. sometimes it’s expensive gifts because he can afford them. other times it’s much smaller things, like bringing you your favorite drink because he remembered you had a stressful day.

𓂃⋆.˚ chuuya loves quality time. he works a demanding job, so his free time is valuable, and the fact that he consistently chooses to spend it with you says a lot about how important you are to him.

𓂃⋆.˚ he isn’t always verbally affectionate, but every now and then he’ll say something so unexpectedly sincere that it completely catches you off guard. the reason those moments stand out so much is because they’re never rehearsed. they happen naturally: a quiet compliment while you’re talking, a genuine expression of pride when you’ve accomplished something, a simple admission that he missed you after being away…

𓂃⋆.˚ physical affection comes very naturally to him once he’s comfortable. an arm around your shoulders while walking, a hand resting on your back when guiding you through a crowd, pulling you closer while you’re sitting together, these things become second nature.

if you’re cold, he’ll immediately notice and hand over his coat or fancy hat before you’ve even finished complaining about the weather.

if you’re tired, he’s constantly telling you to get some rest even though he’s often terrible at following his own advice.

𓂃⋆.˚ he secretly enjoys domestic moments far more than people would expect. sitting together after a long day, sharing a meal, listening to music while doing separate things in the same room, those simple moments bring him a surprising amount of peace.

𓂃⋆.˚ speaking of music, he absolutely loves sharing things he’s passionate about with you. if he finds a song he likes, you’ll probably hear about it. if there’s a wine he thinks you’d enjoy, he’ll want you to try it. he likes experiencing things together.

𓂃⋆.˚ one of chuuya’s less obvious traits is that he’s actually quite emotionally intelligent. he understands people better than he often gets credit for. because of that, he’s usually able to tell the difference between someone needing advice and someone simply needing support.

if you’re upset, he won’t necessarily force you into a serious conversation immediately. sometimes he’ll just stay nearby and make sure you aren’t dealing with it alone.

𓂃⋆.˚ he respects independence, which means he won’t constantly hover over you or demand all your attention. in fact, he genuinely likes being with someone who has their own interests and ambitions.

however, if you’re the type to bottle everything up and refuse help entirely, he can become frustrated because he’d much rather know what’s wrong than watch you suffer in silence.

𓂃⋆.˚ he gets genuinely excited about your achievements. if something important happens in your life, he wants to hear about it. if you’ve been working toward a goal, he’s probably been paying attention the entire time.

𓂃⋆.˚ one thing people often forget is that chuuya spends much of his life carrying enormous responsibility. because of that, having someone he can genuinely relax around means a lot to him.

𓂃⋆.˚ there are moments where you’ll notice him becoming quieter than usual, especially after difficult missions or stressful periods. during those times, he tends to gravitate toward your presence without necessarily talking about what’s bothering him.

𓂃⋆.˚ if he falls asleep beside you after a long day, that’s actually a huge sign of trust. chuuya isn’t someone who lets his guard down easily, especially given the life he lives.

𓂃⋆.˚ he also has a surprisingly strong need for honesty. not perfection, not constant agreement, just honesty. he’d much rather have an uncomfortable conversation than discover later that you’ve been hiding how you really feel.

𓂃⋆.˚ what makes chuuya such an interesting partner is that beneath all the confidence, temper, and reputation, there’s someone who genuinely wants stable, meaningful connections. he isn’t interested in games. he isn’t interested in uncertainty. when he chooses someone, he chooses them fully.

armed detective agency dazai

𓂃⋆.˚ the biggest misconception people have is that dazai would get annoyed by trust issues. in reality, he’s probably one of the first people to understand where they come from. dazai knows better than most that people can lie, leave, manipulate, betray, and disappoint each other. he isn’t somebody who grew up believing the world is kind.

because of that, if you struggle with trusting people, he isn’t likely to see it as irrational. frustrating sometimes, maybe, but never irrational. the problem is that dazai himself is naturally secretive. even in a healthy relationship, there are parts of himself he keeps hidden. not because he doesn’t care about you, but only because secrecy has become second nature to him. he isn’t used to trusting people, let alone open up in front of them.

in the beginning, that combination would probably cause some tension. you would be trying to trust him while he continued disappearing for work, withholding information, and answering serious questions with jokes. if you asked him directly whether he was hiding something, he’d probably smile and say something infuriating like, “of course i am. i’m dazai.” then he’d realize from your expression that the answer genuinely upset you and immediately become more serious.

one thing that’s very important about ada dazai is that he actively tries to be better than he used to be. he isn’t perfect at it, but he tries. if he realizes your trust issues aren’t coming from jealousy or possessiveness but from genuine fear of being hurt, he starts adjusting his behavior without making a huge deal out of it.

he starts texting when he’ll be late.

he starts giving explanations instead of disappearing without warning.

he starts making an effort to answer certain questions honestly instead of turning everything into a joke.

he now knows trust can’t grow in complete darkness and what surprises you most is how patient he becomes. if you have moments where you’re convinced he’s going to leave, he’s unlikely to become offended.

honestly, there’s a good chance he’ll recognize the feeling because part of him struggles with the exact same fear.

dazai often acts confident, but deep down he’s spent years believing people would eventually walk away if they saw everything underneath. that’s why he understands the insecurity more than he admits.

if you ever ask him, “why are you still here?” after a bad day, he’ll probably laugh first.

he’s mocking you, the question genuinely sounds ridiculous to him, then he’ll look at you and say something like, “because i want to be.”

simple answers tend to mean the most coming from dazai because he usually avoids them. he wouldn’t magically cure your trust issues.

what he would do is slowly become one of the few people who consistently proves your fears wrong, and because dazai understands better than most that trust isn’t given but earned, he’d be willing to spend a very long time earning it.

port mafia dazai

𓂃⋆.˚ port mafia dazai is much more complicated, not because he cares less, but because he trusts less than dazai every could.

if you’re dating port mafia dazai, you’re already involved with someone who keeps almost everybody at arm’s length. he analyzes people constantly, predicts their behavior constantly, and rarely allows himself to depend on anyone emotionally. the strange thing is that someone with trust issues might actually understand him better than most people do because both of you are waiting for the other shoe to drop.

both of you are looking for hidden motives. both of you are wondering how long good things can realistically last. the difference is that your fear might be that he’ll leave. his fear is that you’ll eventually realize you should.

if you become suspicious of him, he won’t react emotionally on the surface. he’ll react analytically.

he’ll want to know exactly why. “what happened?” “what triggered it?” “what evidence convinced you?”

dazai’s brain automatically tries to solve problems before it processes feelings. however, unlike the agency version, he doesn’t naturally know how to reassure people. reassurance feels foreign to him. vulnerability feels foreign to him. explaining himself feels foreign to him.

if you tell him you struggle to trust people because everyone leaves eventually, he may go quiet for a moment because that thought sounds uncomfortably familiar. there are times where your trust issues would accidentally hit his own insecurities. for example, if you repeatedly questioned whether he cared about you, he might initially respond with sarcasm because part of him genuinely doesn’t know how to prove it.

he’s spent most of his life believing emotions are unreliable and people are temporary. healthy communication isn’t exactly his strongest skill during this period; despite that, one of the clearest signs that he loves you would be his willingness to explain himself at all.

if port mafia dazai starts voluntarily telling you where he’s going, why he’s leaving, or when he’ll return, that’s a much bigger deal than it sounds.

if he starts sharing pieces of his life without being forced, it’s because he’s trying.

what makes the relationship interesting is that neither of you would completely understand why the other stays. you would wonder why someone as intelligent and capable as dazai keeps choosing you. dazai would quietly wonder why you’ve chosen him.

and although neither of you would say it very often, that mutual uncertainty would make every act of trust feel much more significant.

if you eventually reached the point where you genuinely trusted him, i honestly think it would affect port mafia dazai more than he’d ever admit.

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armed detective agency dazai

𓂃⋆.˚ the first thing people often get wrong about dazai is assuming he would panic immediately. he wouldn’t, or not outwardly, at least. when the message appears on his screen saying “let’s break up” and you immediately go offline, his first reaction would actually be silence. he’d stare at the message for a few seconds longer than normal, reread it once, then twice, and then his mind would immediately start working through possibilities. was it a joke? were you angry? were you hurt? was somebody else involved? did something happen?

dazai is someone who spends his entire life reading people, predicting people, understanding people, and if he’s in a healthy relationship with you, he usually has a good idea of what’s going on in your head. that’s why a text like that would bother him more than most people realize. because if it genuinely came out of nowhere, he’d know something wasn’t right. if he tried texting you and realized you were offline, he wouldn’t spam your phone with twenty messages the way somebody like atsushi or yuji probably would. instead, he’d send one message, maybe two. something simple like “that’s a rather dramatic way to start a conversation,” and then after a pause, “are you alright?” because despite all his jokes, that would become the real question in his mind.

if several hours passed with no answer, he’d start getting increasingly uneasy, although you’d never see it directly. dazai is very good at hiding concern behind humor, but internally his thoughts would become much darker. unlike most people, he doesn’t immediately assume someone stopped loving him. he immediately starts wondering whether something happened.

“are you hurt?”

“are you in danger?”

“did somebody force you to send it?”

“are you trying to push him away for some reason?”

because dazai knows people rarely do things without motives, and a sudden breakup text followed by complete silence doesn’t feel emotionally honest to him.

by the time a day passes without contact, he’s probably already figured out where you are. that’s the thing about dating dazai. people imagine he’s detached, but when he genuinely cares about someone, he becomes terrifyingly determined. if he believes you’re safe and genuinely breaking up with him, he’ll respect it, even if it hurts. if he believes you’re unsafe, upset, or lying about your reasons, he’s showing up in person.

you’ll probably just open your door and find him standing there with his hands in his pockets looking annoyingly calm; then he’ll smile and say something ridiculous like, “you know, most people break up with me face-to-face. i feel very cheated.”

if there’s one thing dazai hates, it’s unfinished truths, and if he loved you enough to call you his partner, he would want the real reason.

what would hurt him most isn’t the breakup itself, it’s the possibility that you felt unable to tell him why, because despite all his flaws, one of the things ada dazai values most is genuine connection, and suddenly losing that without explanation would stay with him for a long time.

if you were to seriously breakup, his depression would get progressively and noticeably worser than ever, for you were his lifeline, and his reason to live.

port mafia dazai

𓂃⋆.˚ port mafia dazai’s reaction is much colder on the surface and much worse underneath.

the moment the text arrives, he doesn’t look surprised. in fact, if somebody happened to be watching him, they might think he wasn’t affected at all.

he reads the message once, locks his phone and continues whatever he was doing. the problem is that nobody except dazai would know his mind is already moving a hundred steps ahead.

port mafia dazai doesn’t trust happiness. he doesn’t trust permanence and he definitely doesn’t trust people staying, so unlike ada dazai, part of him has always expected this day to come, not because he thinks you’re cruel, but because he genuinely struggles to believe somebody could know him completely and choose him forever.

that’s why the message wouldn’t shock him. it would hurt him in a much quieter way. it would feel like confirmation of something he already feared. however, the second you go offline, the situation changes, because now it stops being a breakup and starts becoming a puzzle and nobody in yokohama is better at solving puzzles than dazai.

within an absurdly short amount of time, he’d know where you are. whether you’ve left town. who you’ve spoken to recently. whether you’re actually alone and whether the breakup message was truly your decision.

he’s not stalking you, it’s just that his first assumption would never be that simple.

a person he loves suddenly sending a breakup text and disappearing immediately afterward would make him suspect outside interference long before he accepted the obvious explanation. if he discovers you’re genuinely fine and simply wanted to end the relationship, he probably won’t chase after you. that’s what makes it sad.

people often imagine he’d argue or demand answers, but port mafia dazai is someone who’s already convinced most good things eventually leave. if he realizes you truly want to go, he’ll let you, then he’ll spend a very long time pretending it didn’t affect him.

if somebody asks about you later, he’ll smile, he’ll joke, he’ll change the subject. nobody will know that he still remembers the exact wording of the message months afterward.

on the other hand, if he discovers you didn’t actually want to leave, or that somebody manipulated the situation, then god help whoever caused it. because the difference between ada dazai and port mafia dazai is that the mafia version still solves problems like a mafia executive.

and if someone intentionally took away one of the very few people he’d genuinely allowed himself to care about, the outcome would be much worse for them than it would ever be for him. the saddest part is that even if the breakup wasn’t real, even if you later explained everything, there would still be a moment after receiving that message where port mafia dazai quietly thinks, of course.

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