𝐒𝐇𝐄 𝐖𝐀𝐒 𝐀 𝐅𝐀𝐈𝐑𝐘

You know me so well, take a wild guess. I cry at everything, so when I saw you on my screen, I'm strong enough to admit a few tears did fall free. Can you blame me? It's been months and I miss you. I know I could count on you to give me something to hope for after these shows are done. Bet he looks so handsome. Send me pictures of the little guy and tell him how much I miss him. I'll try and sneak him some treats next time I see you guys. Come on, we're bound to improve, right? We can't suck forever. With tangerines? We haven't even mastered strawberries yet, but if you're ready to make a mess in the kitchen, count me in.

would be a disgrace if i didn't know you at least a little bit. the kind of disgrace that deserves to be cuffed and thrown in jail. sweetie, please, now you're making me feel bad and all i want to do is wrap my arms around you and cuddle you. i miss you, too. okay, but promise me you won't laugh. i did that and i swear he gave me the most judgmental stare. he's got more attitude than you. but can you at least make the treats healthy? i think wheat messes with his stomach, i just can't prove it. what happened to the "all or nothing" mentality? we might as well give it a try.

that's the best mindset to have because it just takes sooo much pressure of staying in one path. i have to give credit where it's due, honestly. i think i'm doing the other industries a favor if i stay where i am right now. 'pretty girl' will forever be a banger, cannot deny with you on that one. newtopia was a good surprise, i loved seeing a different side of you!

you're so sweet, honestly. i've never been the type of person who can just sit around and do nothing, so while the group's on hiatus, i like to keep myself busy. obviously, my heart will always belong to the girls for as long as humanly possible, but i also know it has an expiration date. okay okay, but if you ever want to give k-dramas a try, i've got you. why, thank you. it was definitely a different experience. so, what about you? what have you been up to these days?

okay, okay. i'm sorry noona. i got carried away with the sass, didn't i? thanks for always grounding me. i kiss my boyfriend with this mouth, does that count? oh my gosh, imagine if army knew everything that we did about each other.

you're welcome, but i was also kidding just a teeny tiny bit. though, it's nice to see i still have that effect on you. not really, no? do you have a huge amount of respect for your boyfriend? i'm not talking about the romanticized kind. i mean the kind that makes you want to clean your room just so you can run into the living room and go, "come look!" do you mean half the stuff we did? literally..

i miss you so much, unnie. so much so that i actually but on "boyfriend on demand" to see your face, because i'm apparently not going to see you in person any time soon, so i'll have to make do with the digital version. no, but i'm going to meet up with jennie when she performs in chicago next month. we should invite rosie do a mini reunion. [ @jisookms ]

it's so funny because jennie literally just said the same thing. you guys do know facetime exists, right? but i miss you too, lili. wait, hold the phone. you're meeting up with her and i'm only hearing about it now? have you talked to rosie yet? let me reach out to her and see if she's up for it, because yes yes and yes.

i know i've thanked you more than once, but i don't think i'll ever get tired of saying it. thank you for agreeing to collaborate with me. because of you, khai is convinced she's got the coolest dad in the world, and honestly, that's a pretty amazing gift. i don't know if i can ever repay the favour, but if there's ever anything you need, no matter how small, i'm here for you.

and i've told you time and time again that there's no need to thank me. it was a pleasure and quite honestly an experience. but you're very welcome and obviously i owe you a huge thank you as well. i'm pretty sure you were already an awesome dad, but i'll happily take the credit and wear it like a badge of honor. really? anything?

why would you use your discount for baby gifts? that's just improper, noona. i'm telling joonie and maddie. i didn't even use my discount, but knew they needed the best! me feeling smug? no, never! i'm an angel. you wanted barricade while we were in korea? you're a brave soul... i can only imagine the glares you'd get.

improper? did you just refer to moi as improper? park jimin, when you speak to me, you speak to me with respect. got it? seriously, do you kiss your mother with that mouth? and please, you act as if i'm not already used to getting hate from army.

Jisoo unnie, you have no idea how weird it feels to have gone this long without the two of us hanging out. I've been rewatching Boyfriend On Demand just to feel close to you again. When I get back to Korea, we'll have to get together. Maybe we can have a proper sleepover like the good days. You can bring Dalgom over to keep Kuma company while we catch up and maybe even have another attempt at making tanghulu. Hopefully it goes better than last time. Didn't we throw most of it out? @jisookms

jendeukie, my precious bean. you are absolutely right and it should be considered a crime at this point. now i have to know.. did you shed a little tear when i popped up on your tv? did you go, "aw"? duh, i'd go as far as to say it's a requirement that we schedule at least one sleepover. and you know dalgomie would love a playdate. oh my god, i just had him groomed and he looks like the fluffiest little cotton ball. cutest boba ever. nope.. no. do you really want to go down the melted sugar route again? ...can we make them with tangerines?

how does it feel like to be a triple threat? you're so brave and it amazes me! i don't see myself acting any time soon. like, no thank you, i'd leave that to people that are way more talented than me. is there a role that pushed you out of your comfort zone? @jisookms

you know what? it actually feels pretty great, especially knowing that if one thing doesn't work out, i at least have something else to fall back on. hey now, you don't know whether you've got the talent if you've never tried. but thank you so much. you really made my day. and can i just say that 'pretty girl' will forever be my anthem? i'd have to say 'newtopia'. after playing so many romantic leads, that role really pushed me both physically and mentally.

jisoo-ah! unnie! did you hear the news that i'm going to be a samchon? are you jealous? you better be jealous. oh, and i wanted to mention, i already got the baby half of the dior collection... so you may want to go a different route when selecting presents. i miss you and hope you are doing well. you need to come out to a show soon, yeah? @jisookms

jiminie-ah, i did and you're currently interrupting my shopping spree because i'm trying to outdo you. so you bought them the entire dior baby collection? aish.. so much for putting my ambassador discounts to good use. are you feeling a little smug right now, huh? i kind of, sort of, maybe miss you too, but a little less after this slap in the face. and also because i didn't even get barricade when you were in korea.