What matters is⊠That there has been something missing for me. Something that is hard to define. And I have been desperately just trying to create this thing, and just looking for it⊠ But I⊠Iâve been just flailing. And I realize now, that you and I⊠Weâre never going to find it.                                                         How do you know?              Because I have it with someone else.



















