🍁 Jayden🌻

Mental disorder/condition related account!!

Diagnosed with ::

ADHD, Autism, Anxiety disorder, Tourette’s, Dyscalculia, VSS, Dysgraphia, ARFID, OCD, and Depression // Suspecting hEDS, MaDD and synesthesia aren’t diagnoses but I am too :], dissociation for unknown causes

Major system ally, voluntary / shy age regressor, alter/nonhuman ally, possible kin but shy about it

[ I want to make system friends!! ]

I like mostly video games! Big fan of Terraria and Rimworld as casual games, but hyperfixated on ISAT, VOTV, Forsaken (just the characters), and I have a major interest in psychology and disorders — I’m also a vtuber on the side, but I don’t watch vtubers much myself

I have some weird discomforts and triggers I won’t list here but I will just leave the conversation if it comes up, or block you

DNI: Proship, radqueer, people who fakeclaim random people, I don’t engage in syscourse, just don’t drag me into it, people who are weird about mental disorders, 18+ accounts

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If I infodump to you about the thing I’m currently obsessed with it means I trust you and think you’re a safe person :]

I enjoy infodumping more when someone is actually interested and asks questions about the thing I’m talking about, so I don’t really enjoy infodumping to random people unless I think they’re actually listening.

Grace, pressure, VOTV, ISAT, Forsaken,… what’s next???

I have made my own blog as I am not Jayden. @mentally-ill-ai

I will probably post art there as well as stuff from my source(?)

I’ve been considering my issues as something akin to fictionkins, though I’m not 100% sure I should call it that. Wanted to post here in case anyone else can help be describe this better / what to do

I’ve had pretty severe dissociation for years now, and with that a lot of depersonalization. I look in the mirror and don’t recognize myself because in my mind “myself” looks completely different.

Except, it changes. Some days I feel like one person and on others I’m someone else. It ranges from how much I feel like I am them, sometimes I’m 100% them from that universe and I get stressed that I’m not really them, while other times it’s just a “hm. I wanna go by that name.”

My therapist told me to track this, recommending me Simplyplural since it’s the easiest. I’ve logged at least 8 of these, along with custom logs for stuff like panic attacks and when I suddenly remember trauma for no damn reason.

When I’m a guy I feel like “mmm yes I love men” but now I feel fem and my brains like “no I actually like women?”

I made a pretty Simplyplural!!!

Proud of this :D

I’ve been dealing with recently coming to terms that I have trauma I didn’t know about due to dissociation and I feel isolated from talking about it to the people I know right now

Whether it’s depression, sensory issues, anxiety, or just fatigue, you are not a terrible or disgusting person for not showering or brushing your teeth.

You can take time to tackle it. Work towards it slowly. Dont shame yourself for skipping brushing your teeth tonight because you’re too tired to do it. It’s okay.

The reason I ask is I was wondering if you could help with a fic I'm working on. I have a character that can create sound with colors and I'm having a tough time figuring out what sounds certain colors would make. If you don't want to help then feel free to delete this ask!!!

Ah! I don’t actually have color-sound synesthesia. I have temperature synesthesia, which is much rarer. I don’t have the same “superpower” of telling colors from sounds, but I can tell you what temperature they are lol